shadow lover

Mo Han said that the relationship needs time to cultivate, and it needs patience to manage it. After much deliberation, I decided to leave the beauty salon. Sen Miao was puzzled by my sudden resignation but didn't say anything.After leaving the beauty salon, I went back to my old job. I usually go out for a run when I have work. When I have no business, I stay at home and read the books on the Senmiao bookcase. I go to the Senmiao company building in the evening Wait for her to get off work.

"Here it is again, are you quite diligent?"

"Sen Miao is off work, Mr. Ying is good."

"Well, okay, what are you holding here?"

"Oh, English dictionary, it's okay to have a look."

"Are you still fond of learning?"

"Let President Ying laugh"

"Let's go eat together"

Boss Ying said that he wanted me to have dinner with them at night. I looked up at the people around her. Sen Miao nodded and reached out to pull me to follow them. In this way, I followed Sen Miao into the car and went to Boss Mu's villa.It was Mr. Mu's daughter who opened the door for us. When I entered the door, I saw Mr. Mu bending over to cover Miss Ke with a blanket, and Mr. Zhou sitting on the sofa eating fruit.

"Ke Feng, do you know how dark your family Mu Qingyao is? If I cooperate with her with good intentions, she will bite me and make me suffer from being dumb. Just talk about it."

"Sister Ying, Sen Miao, this is..."

"Oh, this is Anyang, my girlfriend."

"You are...the makeup artist, right?"

"Sister Ke has a really good memory, I am, hello."

"It's nice to sit down."

The temperature in the house was so high that I started sweating shortly after I sat down. After everyone gathered around the table, Mr. Ying and Ke Feng began to bombard Mr. Mu for his evil deeds. Mr. Zhou occasionally echoed a few words. Miao watched them and listened to their chat without saying a word. "Sister Ying, don't worry, I will punish her severely"

"Yes, whip on the little leather whip."

"Hmph, okay, you guys criticize first, I'll cook."

"Look, she's still energetic, why am I bothering her so little energy?"

"Mr. Mu, I'm here to help. These need to be washed, right?" Sen Miao got up when Mr. Mu said to cook, and followed her into the kitchen to help. I watched her go in and then followed her to help.

During this period, Mr. Mu told Sen Miao about Ke Feng's recent situation. I found that Mr. Mu was relatively close to Mr. Sen Miao compared to Mr. Zhou and Mr. Ying. □□Sen Miao cut his finger.

"Is it serious enough to need an organ replacement?"

"It's not that the doctor just suggested it. After all, changing Xiaofeng a day earlier can reduce the risk. I'm already looking for it. I think we will have news soon. Don't worry too much."

"Sen Miao, you go to the living room and sit with Boss Ying and the others, I'll come." Seeing her flustered, I reached out and took the kitchen knife in Sen Miao's hand, and when she turned around, I held her wrist and said, "Be careful not to make fists with your fingers." , Wrapped in paper." I carefully changed her another facial tissue and watched her enter the living room and sit next to Ke Feng before turning around and continuing to chop vegetables. I prepared all the ingredients I needed and put them aside Get ready for Mr. Mu.

"What's your name"

"President Mu, my name is Anyang."

"When did you and Sen Miao get on, after that time."

"No, just recently."

"Sen Miao is kind and kind, you are very lucky."

"Yeah, that's what everyone says."

"Do you know how to cook? Come and do it first. I'll go into the house and have a look at Xiaofeng."

"Okay, Mr. Mu."

Hearing Ke Feng's cough in the living room, Mr. Mu hurriedly put down the things in his hands and went in to see the other party. I took my hand and lit the fire and started cooking. Because Mr. Mu didn't come back after he left, I made four dishes and one according to the prepared dishes. The soup came out, and because Ke Feng was weak, I also prepared food with less salt for him alone.

"It's time to eat. Do Sen Miao's fingers still hurt? Do you still have Band-Aids at home? If I don't go back, I'll go to the pharmacy downstairs to buy a box."

"never mind"

When everyone sat down to eat, Mr. Mu was probably worried that Ke Feng would not be able to eat what I made, so she let him eat after she had tasted it. At the dinner table, they began to talk about the market environment and investment prospects. After bowing his head and quickly finishing the meal in the bowl, he got off the table and went to sit in the back yard by himself.

"Hello, Anyang."

"Sister Ke, why did you come out? I helped you back in and hurt yourself in the cold outside."

"Okay, let's go upstairs and have a chat, shall we?"

"Well, okay, I'll help you."

I helped Ke Feng back to the room and lay down, then moved a chair and sat by the bed. She turned on the floor lamp by the bed and looked at me up and down. After waiting for a while, I heard her ask me: "Do you think they said The things I read are like heavenly books, and I feel that they are too far away from my own life."

"Yeah, it's all about the topics that the big bosses and the others are talking about. Naturally, people at my level can't understand them."

"Sen Miao...do you like her..."

"I like it, I like it very much. I think Senmiao exudes a warm breath, which makes people feel like they want to rely on."

"Do you know what happened to Sen Miao in the past?"

"I heard from her friends that her former girlfriend was her leader, and she gave a lot for him, but in the end they broke up because of different beliefs. It is said that the other party even looked for her back."

"Do you mind the other party's past?"

"No, that was before she knew me. Besides, Sen Miao even said that she doesn't love me anymore. I believe her words."

"Anyang, this is for you. Sen Miao is a good girl. Since she admits that you are her girlfriend, she has accepted you into her life. I wish you happiness forever."

"I can't ask for too much value"

"Here, this is for Sen Miao. Take it for her and take it back to her. Anyang, don't let her down."

"I will not"

"Okay, really nice."

For some reason, when Ke Feng talked about Sen Miao with me, I noticed a trace of sadness in her eyes. She gave me a bank card. She didn't say how much money was in the card, but said that I should take it and go home. Then hand it over to Sen Miao.Seeing her frowning slightly, I helped her lie down and cover the quilt. Before I left the room, she stopped me and said, "Anyang, I seem to have seen myself when I saw you. Remember not to change yourself for any reason. maintain an equal heart, love well, and cherish the people around you."

When I went downstairs, they had already finished their meal. I saw Sen Miao rolled up her sleeves and was about to clean up the dishes and hurried over to take the plate from her hand. Boss Ying saw me snatching the things from her hand and told her not to After the meeting, she laughed and teased Senmiao and said: "Our worrying Miss Fu Senmiao also stayed up until the sunrise and the moonlight, and finally found a sweetheart for myself." After this meeting, everyone has a good impression of me , relatively unified evaluation, know etiquette and know how to measure.

After returning home, I handed the card that Ke Feng gave me to Sen Miao. After taking the bank card, Sen Miao's eyes were moist. Then she went to the balcony to make a phone call. I vaguely heard her say: "You give me this money What to do, I have enough savings to spend, you don't need to hang on to me if you take good care of yourself."

"She is good, but how can you compare her with yourself? I still don't know what kind of person you are. Don't always talk about yourself like this, Ke Feng, you must know well, you Nothing can happen."

"You didn't do anything wrong to me. Besides, I did it voluntarily, and you never forced me. I fell in love with you voluntarily and left you voluntarily. No matter how many years, I don't regret my love for you at the beginning, let alone I regret letting go and watching you get a rich and beautiful life, so Xiaofeng, I am willing to have no regrets, I believe that President Mu will protect you, and if I can help, I will do my best."

Sen Miao deliberately closed the balcony door and deliberately lowered her voice, but when she spoke later, her tone fluctuated obviously because she couldn't hold her tone. I sat on the sofa in the living room and listened to her finish the phone call. After a while I heard sobbing from the balcony. At that moment, I felt a little dizzy and a little tinnitus.

It took a long time for Sen Miao to open the balcony door and enter the house. I looked up at her. She sat down next to me and held her face for a while, then asked, "You heard everything?"

"Sen Miao is late, let's go to bed. Didn't you say that the past is meaningless, no matter who you loved in the past, it has nothing to do with me. Now I love you, I I also hope that I can always be with you, and I hope to be the only one in your heart from now on.”

From the conversation just now, I can hear Sen Miao's affection for the other party. She has a story with Ke Feng, but I don't want to hear it.I am worried that once I listen to her words, I will not have the confidence to go down. I am worried that after listening to her story, I will find that she still has indelible feelings for Ke Feng. I dare not think or confirm .

What I care most about in my life, the most fatal blow is knowing that the me in front of you is not me, and I hate the me in the eyes of others is just living in this world through other people's bodies Body, I occupy someone else's body and someone else's name to live a life that is my own but does not belong to me.

So Sen Miao, I don't want to entangle myself too much, I just want to simply stay by your side, if I have a life, I hope it will last forever, if I don't have that life, I also want to walk hand in hand with you in the years I can survive.

After that night, none of us mentioned topics that shouldn't be touched. They said that smart people don't dwell on the past, and only fools can affect their current lives because of the past.I want to be a smart person, even if I can't do it, I hope I can be more broad-minded. However, even if I try to suppress myself and restrain myself, I still feel aggrieved, and I still suffer from internal injuries due to long-term depression.

One day after the event, I went to the psychiatric hospital, and my mother was quieter. I could hear her whispering Anyang's name over and over again. I sat in the ward and stared blankly at my mother.

"Mom, is it true that everyone's fate is doomed from the moment of birth? Mom, I found my biological mother, and she gave me 240 million as compensation. Right. Mom, when I was young, you always liked to wear two small braids for me. You said that An An’s braids were so beautiful, but you never thought it was wrong for me to say that my scalp hurts. Mom, you Seeing that I don’t have long hair when I grow up. Mom, when you were young, you always said that An’an was the most sensible, but why did you often lock me in the room and not allow me to eat. Mom, because you know in your heart that I am not your An’an. Well, I'm just a child you picked up from the street, a dispensable substitute, right?"

Mom, your An An is gone, please stop looking for her and take care of your body, please.

Sen Miao, since you have let go of her, please also let go of the rest of your love and manage the next relationship.

Mohan, your lover has passed away and will never return, even if it is still in pain, please put your soul down and live your future life well.

Senmiao, I want to love you and always love you, as long as you are willing to be with me.

For the rest of my life, I only want you. For the rest of my life, the wind and snow will be you, the glory will be you, the plainness will be you, the tenderness in my heart will be you, and the gaze will be you.For the rest of my life, Chunhua is you, summer rain is you, autumn yellow is you, seasons are warm and cold, and everything you see is you.

Putting my hands together, I ask God to grant my only request in this life. I ask that I can strip away the external factors and become an independent individual. I hope that what they see is me Anyang, not the epitome of another person, thank God.