shadow lover

I'm in love, I'm really in love, I'm in love with this woman next to me who always speaks softly and always touches the top of my head, Fu Senmiao, I told her that I may not be Anyang, but there is only one me in this world , I also hope that I am an independent individual in her heart.

Love will bring people a light feeling, and its coming will make me feel joy from the inside out. I feel that my steps are light when I walk, and I feel that I am no longer in the same mood when I face my mother. As sad as I am, I feel that my attitude towards life is no longer negative, and I am starting to make positive plans for the future. I want to be with Sen Miao forever.

I spent New Year’s Eve at Sen Miao’s house, her parents were very kind and friendly, her mother even took my hand and said: “My child will come home with Sen Miao more often, and Auntie will give you the best meals .” I looked at their family of three and thought it was so good, so good.

On the morning of the first day of the new year, I got up early and took the bus to go to my mother's place. At the bus station, I held Sen Miao's hand and couldn't bear to let go. We met, um."

"Well, okay, then I'll go back first, you go home early."

"Okay, got it, call me when you get there."

"Well, let's go."

By her side, I let go of my independence and want to rely on, and by her side, I am not so brave and want to be gently cared for. Sen Miao's kindness makes me immerse myself in the space she gives, and get lost in the care she gives.

Mom’s situation hasn’t changed much, she still gets angry from time to time or keeps thinking about her An’an, I watched her sitting ten meters away from her, and the person sitting on the bed hugged the broken pillow Nian Nian.

"An'an, don't be afraid if mom is here, mom will protect you, mom is here, An'an..."

Mohan came at noon on the sixth day of the lunar new year. She frowned slightly when she entered the house and saw the mess inside the house. I pushed her out of the room to sit in the garden outside.Mo Han said that it is not a long-term solution to stay here and the aunt's condition cannot be controlled. She said that sending her to a psychiatric hospital for treatment is the best choice.

"Have your symptoms of insomnia improved? Were you so busy a year ago that I didn't see you coming to catch up on sleep?"

"Well, I'm quite busy. I have so much money and nowhere to spend the feelings you're talking about. Going to a beauty salon to sleep is so weird."

"Aren't you?"

"Hmph, I see that your face is full of spring breeze in love, you be careful of overindulging in sex, you will foam at the mouth and die."

"No, Han Mohan, you have to overwhelm others when you speak, you are so petty."

"Oh, what you mean is that I can only watch you show off in front of me."

"How did I show off, which eye of yours saw me show off."

"Yes, every cell in the whole body has it."

"Well, I won't break up with you."

Mo Han went home after staying for three hours. Before she left, she asked me to think about what she said. In fact, I had thought about it before sending me to a mental hospital. It is unrealistic to stay in the hospital for a long time. As far as the situation is concerned... If you leave the mental hospital and then enter the nursing home, it will not be an ordinary expense in terms of expenses.

On the seventh day of the lunar new year, I went home early to clean up the room and went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables and fruits. Sen Miao said that she arrived at about twelve o'clock. Press the cooking button and then walk quickly to see.

"Come back, come, let me come, do you think these slippers look good? When I went to the supermarket just now, I thought these slippers looked good, so I bought two pairs and exchanged them for this." I took the bag from Sen Miao's hand and put it aside, and then Bending down to change her shoes.

"I'll change it myself, you get up."

"Look at mine too, we'll wear the same ones in the future." I insisted on taking off Sen Miao's shoes and putting on my new slippers. After getting up, I pointed to the top of my feet and gave him a quick peck. lips.

The meal was ready and served on the table. Sen Miao brought mustard mustard and dumplings made by her aunt from home. I put the hot buns and fried dumplings in front of Sen Miao. She looked at the big table. The food looked up at me again, and then said: "How can I eat this?"

"I can't eat it next time. I will finish it every day. Oh, by the way, I bought you a coat that can be worn in March and April. I'll show it to you."

"Anyang, don't take it for now, sit down and eat first, and I will go into the house to see later."

"Well, eat what you want, this is the first time I have made this, and this is delicious."

"Well, it's delicious."

I think it should be like this to like a person. I like to do everything I can for her, like to watch her smile, like every pore on her body, like all of them.

Sen Miao didn't eat much at that meal, because I ignored her absent-mindedness at the time because of my current joyful mood. After packing up the dishes, I went into the house and gave the coat I bought to Sen Miao. She looked at it first. I glanced at the price and then lowered my eyes. I asked her if she didn't like it or thought the style I chose was too old-fashioned. She stood up without saying a word, put the clothes in the closet, and turned to the bathroom to take a shower.

After Sen Miao came out of the shower, I wiped her hair and dried it. The shower gel on her body smelled like mint. I lowered my head and held her long hair in my hands. The arms wrap around its shoulders.When I walked around from behind her and knelt down and buried my head in her bathrobe, Sen Miao hid slightly. She didn't wear underwear, and as long as I flicked Sen Miao lightly, she would be naked in front of my eyes.

"I'll get you pajamas, wait a minute." My hands were already on her waist, but I didn't pull the loose straps in the end. The cosmetics on it were shaken down by the violent vibration.After getting the pajamas for Sen Miao, I went out of the room to watch TV in the living room. After a long time, Sen Miao opened the bedroom door and came out wearing a nightgown. "Sen Miao, I want to discuss something with you"

"Well, you said."

"I want to quit my job in the beauty salon and go to the field to do makeup, so I can earn more."

"Are you short of money to spend? If not, I'll give it to you."

"No, I want to earn more money for later use. I'm not short of money, so please put away the card."

"In the future, keep your money for yourself and don't buy me anything"

"That money is nothing"

"A small amount of money makes a lot of money. Let's talk about which one you bought is cheaper. The coat just now cost 3000 yuan. Should I wear clothes or pay for them?"

"I see that the quality is good and the feel is good. The most important thing is that the style is very suitable for you. If you don't like it, I won't buy such an expensive one in the future."

"Not expensive and not allowed to buy"

"Sen Miao"

"Try saying one more thing"

Sen Miao always seems to be very repulsive when I buy things for her. The first time she reluctantly accepted it, this time she got angry directly. I looked at her gloomy face and didn't dare to speak. I simply curled up on the sofa and watched TV silently.Watching my eyelids close automatically, I slept on the sofa in the afternoon. After waking up, I warmed up some food and ate with Sen Miao, then went downstairs to throw out the trash.

After throwing away the garbage, I didn't turn around and go upstairs immediately. I wrapped up my padded clothes and wandered around the community, thinking about what to do next. Thinking about what Mo Han said and the final calculation of the savings in my mother's hand, I made a decision after careful consideration.

After the Lantern Festival, I sent my mother to a mental hospital for three months of treatment. The doctor said that even if my mother received treatment, she would not return to normal, but she could calm down and have fewer attacks.When I came out of the hospital, Mo Han asked me if I would be sent back to a nursing home after I was discharged from the hospital. He shook his head and said that I would rent a single room for my mother and find someone to watch her during the day.

"What should we do at night? Can you not live with your aunt? It's better to send her back to the nursing home."

"It's too expensive over there. In the past six months, I spent an extra 10 to [-] yuan. Here, I paid [-] yuan for hospitalization, and almost [-] yuan went in. My mother can't be cured. It's the same everywhere."

"What you said is wrong. If you can't cure it, you won't treat the elderly well. Do you think that auntie is not your biological mother, so you think it's not worth spending the money on your heart?"

"My financial ability is limited. If you ask me to take more, I can't take it out. I can't just throw all my savings in at once. I also have to consider whether my mother's life will be guaranteed in the future. Don't get excited."

"It's okay if you don't support me and the head office."

"Mohan, this is not something that can be solved by whim. No matter how much money you have, it doesn't matter if you raise it. It's not that I don't want to treat my mother. I have used every method I can think of in the past few years. What the doctor said Didn't you hear it too, I will do my best to take good care of my mother."

"Don't tell me that you are just making excuses for your selfishness. Aren't you afraid that your aunt will become your burden and affect your relationship with the man you love? Are you thinking about letting your aunt leave this world early so that you can be fulfilled? Your happy life."

"I won't talk to you, you can think whatever you want."

"Don't go, come back, and speak clearly."

Mo Han cared because of the late Anyang. She blamed me for being cruel and selfish, but Mo Han, you can't use your way of thinking to interfere in my life. She is my adoptive mother. How could I not treat her well? I will cruelly ignore it, but I always have my concerns and plans, so please understand.