shadow lover

I never thought that I would do such a despicable thing. I have a kind of ignorant feeling about Anyang. She reminds me of another person. woman.Sometimes when I look at Anyang, I will be fascinated. Even Sister Ying said that she is indeed like Xiaofeng in a certain way, and I will ask myself over and over again why I chose her, but it is unavoidable. The number one answer is always the degree of similarity.

Because of the high similarity, I noticed her when I was a stranger at the beginning. Because of the high similarity, I approached her again and again in subsequent contacts. Because of the high similarity, I lost control of both emotions and behaviors. Because of the similarity To a high degree, even if I wanted to calm down and avoid it, I failed to control the winner and failed.

I started dating Anyang because she was like Xiaofeng, not because I liked her. This kind of motivation made me feel a little guilty when I faced Anyang again.But I don't want to deny my use of her and the mistakes I made, and because of that I want to fill the emotional void in other ways.

The New Year’s Eve concerts in the middle of the year and the end of the year get together. I asked a friend to buy two tickets for the New Year’s Eve concert held by a certain channel. A few days later, I took Anyang to the concert. Anyang's fingers held my fingertips when it sounded, and I didn't pull my fingers back from her palm, looking sideways to see that she was staring at me.

Happy New Year, dear Sen Miao, thank you for letting me see myself.

The fireworks are bright and the singing is beautiful. With our fingers clasped together, we look up at the sky, but what we see is not the same colorful.

That New Year's Eve Carnival became an important moment in our relationship. Before that, Anyang was mostly in a submissive state, but after that, her state was obviously different from before. She would not wait until I opened my mouth to speak, nor Not waiting until I asked her to answer, she began to become active and enthusiastic.

"Sen Miao, I've given out the bonus, let's go out to eat tonight, and eat your favorite French food."

"Okay, but you'd better save your money."

"I can't just eat and drink every day, I know you are good to me, but I also want to be good to you, so it's settled." A cheerful tone came from the other side of the radio wave, even if I couldn't see her face. Guess she must be grinning too.

According to the agreement, I went directly to the restaurant after get off work in the evening. Anyang was already waiting there when I arrived. After I was seated, she asked me to order. , she said mysteriously that she would find out later.

After the dishes were put on the table and the red wine was poured into the goblet, Anyang took out two bar-shaped gift boxes from behind her. She pushed one to me and dismantled the other one. There was a harmonica in the dismantled box. She said to me: "Sen Miao, I'll play everything you want to hear in the future."

"You can brag about this, not bragging."

"You don't believe me, I'll play it for you now." As she spoke, she put the harmonica on her lips and began to blow seriously. Put it back into the box, pushed it in front of me and said, "I haven't practiced that for a long time, I'm not familiar with it."

She blushed with embarrassment. I opened another box while she was cutting the foie gras. There was a brand watch in the box. When I saw the price, my hands stopped for a moment.

"I can't take this watch. You take it back and return it. If you can't return it, I will discount it to you."

"Don't you like it?"

"I like it, I like everything today, but Anyang, this watch is too expensive, I can't accept it."

"Why can't you accept it"

"I know how much your monthly salary is. You still have to bear your mother's hospitalization expenses. You can't spend this money in such a way."

"Sen Miao, you know, I seldom feel that I have weight in the eyes of others. I don't even know who I am, and I often hesitate and don't know where I should go."

"How come, you are so sensible and your mother must love you very much."

"Yeah yeah."

Anyang seldom mentioned her family. I knew she had a mother and nothing else. Anyang was very excited that night.She put her arms around my waist and said over and over again that she was lucky enough to meet such a good person as Sen Miao. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed my lips.

Anyang's kiss was a little clumsy, at first she just touched my lips with her lips, then she stretched out the tip of her tongue and licked it into my mouth, I followed her into the bedroom and fell on the bed, I closed my eyes and didn't look at it body person.The clothes on her body were peeled off one by one, and when the skin was touching and her kiss started to move down from the neck, the tip of the nose was inexplicably sore, and then a warm current slipped from the corners of the eyes.Anyang, who has no experience at all, did not cause me any discomfort. She gently stroked my back and entered my body very carefully. Every time she moved, she would ask me if I felt uncomfortable, and she would ask me every time I changed positions. opinion, okay?

Regarding the watch I wore on my wrist, Anyang said that it was the first time she bought it as a gift for me and would not return it. I saw her bulging cheeks and sullen appearance, so I compromised and didn’t say anything, just told me She thought it would be unnecessary to spend so much money on buying gifts in the future.

After New Year's Day is the Lunar New Year, my mother called me and asked me when I would go home this year, or go back alone this year. My mother has no special requirements for me to choose a partner. She probably thinks that I have not been good enough in recent years. It was easy, so I gave up other thoughts, but occasionally I would tell me that no matter you are male or female, you have to find someone to accompany you for the rest of your life, no, parents are always more worried than you can imagine.

This Saturday, I rest at noon. I went to the supermarket to buy groceries and then drove to the beauty salon to have my face done. After lying down, Anyang began to do skin care for me. Go back to my parents, if you don't worry about your mother's side, I'll go back by myself."

"Okay, then what gifts do I need to prepare for my uncles and aunts? Tobacco, alcohol, cosmetics, clothes or something."

"I'll buy some food and you take it to the door"

"How good is this, um, before I leave, I will go shopping in the mall, so I can't be vague when I go to see your parents, um, I'll buy a set of cosmetics for auntie, it's definitely easy to use and affordable."

Anyang paid special attention to the matter of going to my house for the New Year. She chose and bought a bunch of food and things.I took Anyang home and my mother was relieved to see her. She said it's good that you are happy together.Facing my parents, Anyang seemed a bit cautious and nervous, she toasted my parents and chatted politely with them.

We didn't see the end of the Spring Festival Gala, so we went back to our room and lay down around ten o'clock. She turned over and whispered in my ear, "Sen Miao, your home is really warm, and the dumplings made by auntie are delicious."

"Yes, eat more if you like it, or I'll take some back for you when I go back."

"Sen Miao"

"Um"

"It's so kind of you"

"Go to sleep, don't you want to catch up with the earliest big guests and go back to accompany auntie, close your eyes and sleep."

"Sen Miao, I may not be Anyang, but you have to remember that there is only one me in this world."

"Okay, I'll remember, lie down and sleep, I'll take you there tomorrow."

"Well, I love you."