GL on the tip of the tongue

In the city, Xia Weiyang wandered around, revisiting the road she and Chen Muhan walked together, the food they ate, the songs they sang, the beautiful scenery they saw... all revisited.

How deep can you love someone?It's when you don't even dare to mention her name for a long, long time after you lose her.

Because the tears will fall, I just miss it secretly in my heart, and the tears can still stop.However, when you are with another person, no matter who that person is, even if the person you are talking to is not the same person, you can make Xia Weiyang burst into tears.

Along the way, Xia Weiyang has gained a lot of "confidantes in mind", such as the streets covered in mottled shadows by the golden sun in the early morning, the round and warm wontons, and the lyrics of a song she has sung countless times if you If you can give me one thing, there is a kingdom of ice and snow covered with snow... She told "them" what she was thinking about.

The scenery along the way is still there, and I am also there, but you are gone.

Who said that when you repeat angry and sad things n times, the anger will decrease and the sadness will weaken.

It's a lie at all, Xia Weiyang covered her red and swollen eyes with both hands, I'm still sad.There are many things that are not decided by anyone. Happiness and sadness cannot be chosen by people at all.

It was agreed to bid farewell to Chen Muhan, but the repeated farewells seemed to only add to the sadness.

Xia's mother was worried about Xia Weiyang, and called her several times, although she didn't say it directly, she hoped that she could go home early, "You planned to return to school early, spend more time with Mom, Mom misses you Well." Xia Weiyang rubbed her swollen eyes and smiled, "Mom is becoming more and more like a child, she needs me to accompany her."

"Yes, old child, little child." Mother Xia smiled, "Baby, when will you come back? Mom wants to order a cheongsam, but the style hasn't been chosen yet. My baby has such a good eye. Come back and choose for Mom." .”

"Cheongsam?" Xia Weiyang's eyes hurt so badly, she simply closed her eyes, with tears streaming down her eyes, "Why do you want to make a cheongsam all of a sudden?"

"Otherwise, you should make one too, baby." Mother Xia said excitedly, "Your father wants to take a family portrait, and he wants to make it more beautiful."

"Mom, you are beautiful no matter what, you don't need a cheongsam at all."

Mother Xia's laughter came over, and she said a few times, "It's really Mom's caring little padded jacket, and the words are also pleasant to listen to."

"That's right, my beauty is also due to you."

"Honey, let's be humble."

"Why be humble?"

"Bag outside and be careful not to be beaten."

Xia Weiyang laughed, "Mom, you are so cute." I didn't realize it before, yes, in the past, there was only one person in my heart.

Chen Muhan, when will you be able to free up space in my heart?At least make room for me to put myself in.If you don't want me, you can't let me float outside all the time, can you?

Xia Weiyang rubbed her heart, it hurts, tears never stopped.In the past few days, it seems that the tears of a lifetime will be shed.Xia Weiyang felt that she was about to practice a magical skill, even though she was crying, she sounded like a normal person, so her mother didn't realize that she was actually crying all the time, "Well, Mom, I'll be back in two days, You wait for me, we will take a family portrait."

"Okay, okay." Mother Xia was really happy, like a child.

"Mom, is there anything else you want to do? I can help you." Xia Weiyang wanted to do what she could, and didn't want to regret it later.When she was with Chen Muhan, she wanted to do a lot of things and talk a lot, always thinking that she would have more time in the future, but who knows?In a blink of an eye, he became the most familiar stranger.

Life can't help thinking about it, the more you think about it, the more meaningless it becomes.

"It's nothing, I just want you to be well." Xia's mother's tone was much lower, Xia Weiyang felt sad, "Mom, I'm really sorry for making you worry about me all the time."

"Silly baby, what are you talking about? You are the flesh that fell from me, when did I worry about you?" Mother Xia said softly, "Everything I do is just because, I love you, you It is an indispensable existence in the mother's life."

So, Xia Weiyang, you can't die, there are still people who live for you.

Xia Weiyang is about to go back to Beijing, the day before going back, Ye Yueming asked Xia Weiyang to have dinner.Thinking that maybe they have parted, and I don't know when we will see each other again, Xia Weiyang simply agreed.

Ye Yueming proposed to eat hot pot, talking about the excitement, Xia Weiyang didn't care, her heart was lonely, even in a crowded crowd, she was still lonely, as if she was far away from the hustle and bustle, even the sound of snowflakes falling on the ground was amplified countless times, and spread into the in the ears.

"It's snowing a lot." Ye Yueming stomped her feet, Xia Weiyang hummed, "I ordered some hot almond milk for you, drink some to warm up first."

Ye Yueming was surprised, "Why, don't do this, I'm not used to it." Xia Weiyang stood up and helped her pat the snow on her body, "What's not used to it?"

Ye Yueming shook her hair, said with a smile, "I think, in this world, there is a type of people who are born to be loved by others. If I see what they do for others, I will feel distressed." Ye Yueming Pushed Xia Weiyang, "You are this kind of person, hurry back and sit down."

"Don't speak so ambiguously." Xia Weiyang originally had a straightforward temperament, but she always felt that, as a girl, she was embarrassed to speak too directly, for fear of hurting others.But now, she wished she could clarify everything, she didn't want to give anyone false ideas.She knows it best, knowing that the great disappointment after the full expectations fail will make people feel sad and want to die.

So, don't make promises lightly, it's the same for anyone, you don't know, a promise you make casually will make a person's whole life barren, it could have planted and blossomed, but it refused everything in order to wait for you.what about you?Chen Muhan, where did you start your life again?

"Ambiguous what?" Ye Yueming smiled, "You, you think too much about my words, don't worry, I won't pursue you so self-abuse."

"You told me that, chasing me is self-abuse?"

"That's right." Ye Yueming turned over the menu and said, "It's up to you whether to chase or not. The key is that you have someone in your heart, and no one can replace you."

If you put this aside, no matter who said it, Xia Weiyang would not be happy.She couldn't stand others mentioning Chen Muhan in front of her. After the breakup, whoever mentioned it made her feel uncomfortable.But now, perhaps because she has confided too many times before, she has become more or less immune, Xia Weiyang did not evade, and said slowly: "Like someone, you don't like it in a day, similarly, if you want to take someone out of your heart, It's not that easy." No one said Chen Muhan's name, but they both knew who the other was talking about.

"What you said, can be summed up, probably." Ye Yueming paused, then raised her head and smiled, "Illness comes like a mountain, and sickness goes like a thread." It is obviously inappropriate to use it here, but Xia Weiyang still I think these words are too appropriate, "Yeah, falling in love with someone is like having a serious illness. The person you fall in love with is the antidote. Don't be afraid of illness because there is medicine, but now the medicine is gone."

"That's right, that's why I'm dying." Ye Yueming said in a relaxed and joking tone, a smile appeared on Xia Weiyang's face, but it was bitter.Ye Yueming began to take a pen to place the order by herself, and said casually, "However, I don't think anyone can blame this, after all, it was your wish and my wish at the beginning."

"Actually, no one thought of really blaming anyone."

"I don't know if it's strange now, but it turns out, there must be something strange, otherwise, I wouldn't have lost the medicine." Ye Yueming's smile, in Xia Weiyang's eyes, was a bit dazzling, she was still saying : "In the end, it's hard to hear, it's all done by yourself, and you have to suffer."

Xia Weiyang's heart was stabbed hard, it hurt, but she didn't want to refute, it seemed that she was right, she did it.So, it was all my fault that Chen Muhan left?Xia Weiyang lowered her head, bit her lip, and suppressed the surging emotions, no, she still couldn't say Chen Muhan's name, so she just said: "I was wrong, but she was also." A slap can't make a sound, " I did..."

Ye Yueming was startled, and said in a very surprised tone: "Weiyang, I'm not talking about you." She laughed mockingly, "Chen Muhan did all of this by himself."

Xia Weiyang's tears suddenly poured down.

Finally, there was a person who stood in her position, instead of just telling her the facts and reasoning with her, in the end, he just wanted to tell himself that it was his fault.

Her fault, she has always known, what she cares about is Chen Muhan's fault, why is Chen Muhan so righteous when he is wrong?Why did Chen Muhan make a mistake and still abandon her?Why did Chen Muhan leave without hesitation when she was wrong?Isn't Chen Muhan the one who breaks promises and breaks promises?

Therefore, the most bastard in this world is Chen Muhan.

So what if you're an asshole?Xia Weiyang still loves that bastard named Chen Muhan.

"Weiyang, have you ever thought about it?" Ye Yueming spoke softly when Xia Weiyang's crying was much quieter, "In fact, Chen Muhan is also suffering the same pain for you. Although she suffers on her own, why is she Is it self-inflicted?"

Why?Because of love.If you don't love, everything is gone. Love is like a huge matrix, which can breed too many unpredictable and uncontrollable things.

"Before Chen Muhan left the city, I asked her to have dinner with me." Ye Yueming held the menu in his hands before calling the waiter, and said, "I feel that Chen Muhan has become a stranger to me. She is here." , but didn't eat anything." Ye Yueming touched her face, "She has been wearing a mask all the time, and she will subconsciously touch her cheek, so, is her face hurt?"

Xia Weiyang seemed to realize at this moment that the injury to Chen Muhan's face was her "masterpiece".Seeing Xia Weiyang's solemn expression, Ye Yueming shrugged, "Then it's no wonder she feels inferior, you are so beautiful, you probably feel unworthy standing by your side, she is an idiot who knows nothing but studies. "

"Ye Yueming." Xia Weiyang said in a cold tone, "You are not allowed to talk about Chen Muhan in front of me."

The tears did not come as expected, Xia Weiyang was surprised that he could say her name so easily.In fact, it's just because the mind of protecting a person has never changed.

Ye Yueming smiled, and rang the bell to call the waiter, "Mandarin Duck Pot."

"Do you know where she went?"

"I know."

"Can you tell me?" Xia Weiyang couldn't wait.