[Comprehensive] Paranoid Embrace

It is true that she has forgotten that before she came to this era, she went to a more distant past.

It's just that the place and timing of her appearance were wrong, and the pain in her soul caused by the time travel made her a little dazed, and she was a little messy like a female slave of that era.

At that time, the horse Gilgamesh was riding was about to step over her in the next second.He didn't seem to notice her, or even if he had noticed her, he wouldn't stop.

At that time, slaves were never pitiful existences. Even if they really died, they would not get anyone's sympathy, and they would even think they were dirty.

Xiao Xiao was prepared to dodge, and in fact she did, but she was so eager to dodge that her arms and legs ran across the gravel ground, and her skin was also scarred.

The pain of the soul and the pain of the skin were intertwined, making Xiao Xiao frowned, she didn't even think about the situation she was in at this time, a trace of scarlet flashed in the dark eyes.

She has a sense of anger that she hasn't seen for a long time. It is true that she will not resist her host even if the other party kills her, but it does not mean that she treats everyone equally.For example, now, she is very likely to do something that even surprised herself in the next second.

But at this moment, a white hand appeared in front of her.

The hand was spread out in front of her eyes, the five fingers were a little slender, and it looked like a girl's at first glance.When Xiao Xiao looked up, she saw the young man with long green hair smiling and looking at herself softly.

With just one glance, Xiao Xiao fell in love with the person in front of her.

Even in such a long time, Xiao Xiao has never liked someone so much.

- so clean.

It is precisely because of this that I want to touch it, not because I want to stain it, nor because I want him to be stained with other colors, but... simply want to touch and hug.

"Sorry, Jill, he didn't mean it, please forgive him." The boy said so, pulling her up.

He was apologizing for the person who almost rode over her just now. Although he should not have done this, Xiao Xiao accepted it.

"What? Enkidu, do you like this type of woman?" Before she could answer, a slightly arrogant voice came from above her head. Xiao Xiao raised her eyes and saw the blond man in the sun, scarlet His pupils didn't look at her but at the green-haired boy, and there was a little teasing in his tone.

It was only after hearing this that the two realized that their handshake had not been loosened, they didn't know it yet.But even after discovering this, the green-haired boy was not in any embarrassment, but Xiao Xiao's fingertips were slightly curled up, and the feeling of nostalgia passed on so directly.

Then....

Xiao Xiao was taken back by them just like that.

It's a bit casual, and it can even be said that Gilgamesh forced it to Enkidu, meaning it was just to warm the bed of a woman in Enkidu. It was a bit embarrassing to say, but Enkidu did not refuse.

Of course Xiao Xiao has no right to refuse, and she likes Enkidu very much, so how could she refuse.She later lived in Enkidu's palace, with a separate room, and the other party respected her very much, so she was treated very well.

The name Richter was chosen because she felt that it was more suitable for this era. Perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, she belonged to the category of Chicken-turned-Phoenix.

But in fact it wasn't, Enkidu wasn't even her host.

In the beginning, they spent a lot of time alone, like subconscious protection, Enqi would let Xiao Xiao stay in his bedroom, although the two of them just sat facing each other, playing chess and reading books.

But in this way, the attitude of the people around her is very respectful to her, and the reason she got is just a favor.

It is common for women to gain power in this era.

And what Xiao Xiao often does is probably this kind of thing.

Whether it's the life she got because of Bai Lan and Kuroro, or the respect she got because of Aizen and Sephiroth, she puts her own definition on the level of accessories.

There was nothing wrong with Enkidu being nice to her, it was just that she wanted some more intimate gestures than these.Xiao Xiao thought that the other party had some thoughts about her, but she didn't understand the reason why the other party kept keeping a distance, so she took the first step by herself.

"Enkidu"

"Ok?"

"I like you" is the first time for Xiao Xiao, whether it is the feeling of liking, or the confession before the other party becomes his host.

But the latter was taken aback for a moment, and then he smiled helplessly.

"But Richter, I can't like you."

Enki always answered her in this way.

It's not that I don't like it, it's that I can't.

He is not Gilgamesh, or Bai Lan and the others. Enkidu is not as casual as them. He can see the girl in front of him very clearly, and he is also very clear about where he should stand.

— don't touch it.

— that's not something you should touch.

So clear, so self-controlled, so...

Know the future.

Since the other party's intentions were obvious, Xiao Xiao distanced himself from him.After that, she spent more time in her own residence, and she never even visited Enkidu's bedroom.

Xiao Xiao is more comfortable than anyone else in staying away from someone.

She originally wanted to stay like this until she was rejected by this world, and even began to look forward to Bai Lan's appearance, but her plan was naturally disrupted.

There is a person who comes to Enkidu's palace every day, and this person is naturally Gilgamesh.

Arrogance is Xiao Xiao's first impression of Gilgamesh. Most of the kings of this era are like this. Xiao Xiao understands this very well, so she is not angry at the fact that Gilgamesh almost trampled her over. Emotions exist.Those scars healed quickly because they were fine and superficial, but memory is not something that can disappear within a short period of time.

That's right, she doesn't like Gilgamesh, and she doesn't want to get in touch, just like Aizen did at the beginning.

In this overly splendid palace, Xiao Xiao thinks that she is very low-key. She is a person who seldom speaks, and she has never been out since she stepped here, because she does not want to cause trouble.

But this does not mean that she did not see Gilgamesh's increasingly fiery eyes, and gradually Gilgamesh's appearance was no longer looking for Enkidu but her.

This made Xiao Xiao very puzzled. She didn't know how she attracted the other party's attention, but then she began to get out of hand.

In any case, she is considered to be a member of Enkidu, and Gilgamesh gave it to Enkidu himself, so it is impossible for him to ignore this.But he seemed to have heard about her falling out of favor from somewhere, and the enthusiasm that was only reserved for realization turned into action.

Xiao Xiao has been refusing. At the beginning, Gilgamesh was indeed patient and seemed to be playing with her, but over time, it would make the other party's original personality explode.

The action of turning around and walking away when she saw the other party once completely angered the other party.

"Why are you avoiding me?" The other party pulled her back, staring at her with scarlet eyes, and the hand holding her wrist was a bit strong.

Xiao Xiao tried to withdraw her hand, but what she got in exchange was greater strength from the opponent.

"Please let go."

"You let me go?" She saw that the other party's scarlet pupils were full of anger, including the same tone, "Who do you think I am?"

The hand holding her wrist was released as she wanted, but in return, her throat was imprisoned by the other party, bringing a feeling of suffocation.

"Miscellaneous cultivator, kneel down!"

But at this moment, what Xiao Xiao thought was how he wanted her to kneel down in this position.

She looked at each other quietly, even with a little smile.Then she felt the hand pinching her neck grabbing her chin upwards, and the other's face was just pressed down.

"What are you doing? Gil!" Enkidu's appearance at this time was completely expected, he successfully stopped Gilgamesh, and Xiao Xiao even clearly noticed Gilgamesh's froze. Body.

In any case, she was at least one of Enkidu's.

"Gill, since you say she is my woman, then you can't touch her." Enkidu first checked the marks of her being strangled by Gilgamesh, and then said to the other party with some reproach.

"But Enkidu, I want her."

This is probably the first time Xiao Xiao saw Gilgamesh and Enkidu arguing, and it was because of her.

She didn't know what the two of them said next, because Enkidu sent someone to send her back for medicine first.Xiao Xiao didn't know what Enkidu said to Gilgamesh, but when the latter left, he said to her, "You will beg for my kindness."

But this sentence will not come true one day.

The first to surrender was Gilgamesh.

The cause was that Xiao Xiao sat alone in the garden staring at the pool water in a daze, and then her head was pushed into the pool water, and her breathing was blocked for only a moment.

Without the slightest sense of surprise, there should be people in this era who want her dead.

But she couldn't resist, if she had to say, the power she possessed was only her voice, even the power of Zhanhundao had already been abandoned by herself.

If you can't make a sound, you can't do anything.

It's just...she's not going to die.

That's the only certainty.

But when she opened her eyes again, the Gilgamesh she saw changed.

Her residence has changed, and the people around her seem to have changed as well. There is a trace of tremor in the eyes looking at her, and even the serving is cautious. This is not from her, but from Gilgamesh.

Xiao Xiao can quickly discover that Gilgamesh can find a way to help her get everything she wants in the future, and she is too pampered.

But Xiao Xiao still couldn't take the other party as her host, because Enkidu was there.

This kind of emotion is not complicated, it's just that Xiao Xiao has identified Enkidu in this era, unless Enkidu dies, she will not have another host.

— She thought so.

But when she got the boy's confession, it was also when he was about to die.

Emotion is really a very strange thing, if you like it, why not grab it at the time?But how about saying "I can't like you" and reject it?

What she likes is not him, no... It can also be said to be him, but if she doesn't even have a body, how can she like her.

Or is it that he is just greedy for her liking for him, and all he wants to enjoy is just such a relationship?

In that case... it would be too stupid.

So her last words to Enkidu were——

"I do not like you anymore."

The author has something to say: I don't like you anymore

This feeling is really hard to understand

☆、Extra four

Gilgamesh first had an impression of her in Enkidu's palace.

Gilgamesh knows how to enjoy, and the importance he attaches to Enkidu makes him give him the best, so Enkidu's palace is gorgeous and the scenery is very beautiful.He even felt for a while that only Enkidu was worthy of these supreme enjoyments and these beautiful decorations.

He was his only true friend, and his best friend forever.No one else could come between them, Gilgamesh had thought so.

It wasn't until that day when he saw the girl sitting by the pool that he realized that this gorgeous palace, with its bright decorations, was more qualified for a girl to enjoy.

——wanted to give her all the best.

In fact, when he saw Richter for the first time, he had long since lost his memory. He has no shortage of women, so for him, women only need to be beautiful and obedient.

Is there anything wrong with having only his favor?

He can hug a woman casually and make out, admiring the woman's charm or pure appearance.

But unlike him, Enki didn't touch women.

Rather than not touching it, it is better to say that he is not interested, so Gilgamesh has an impression. He also vaguely remembers the woman who interested Enkidu, and that woman was given to Enkidu by him.

Everything in this country belongs to him, and these are his reasonable rewards, whether they are things or people.This was not the first time he gave Enkidu a woman, but it was the first time Enkidu accepted it. Originally, he just thought that Enkidu was enlightened, but soon he found out that he was wrong, and even regretted it.

He has seen too many women, some were sent up by himself, and some were captured, but every woman has her own weaknesses, or desires that are too obvious in her eyes.

If you grasp your weaknesses, you will do anything, if you satisfy your desires, you will smile.

In the end it was all but a submission.

But she is different.

That woman is poison|drug.

It is an addictive drug that cannot be extricated.

Gilgamesh has always been very clear that the girl's fair and smooth skin is not owned by slaves at all, but her past can't be found, as if it appeared out of thin air.

The more this happened, the more curious he became, and the more curious he became, the more he wanted to know, and then... what he fell into was no longer the event itself, but the existence of Richter itself.

She only has the simplest black and white colors on her body, and she simply wants people to decorate her with other colors, which is different from the feeling she has for Enkidu.Rather than saying that she is as clean as white paper, it is better to say that she is as black as ink.

So it's no longer dyeing, but I want to erase her original color, and then dye it with his own color.

—he wanted her.

He thought about pursuing, just like teasing his prey.Then gradually discovered that the roles seemed to be reversed, he was trying to curry favor with her all the time, hoping that she would notice him and touch him.

—he used all his patience for her.

He couldn't understand the reason for his rejection, and eventually became more and more irritable.

"Did you know? Jill, women are emotional creatures." He remembered Enkidu's expression when he said this, which was a deep helplessness. "Did you forget what you did to Richter when we first met?"

- "You hurt her."

Enkidu told him the reason why she would reject him, and it reminded him that he left a bad impression on her when they first met.

"I can get all forgiveness, because I am the king." That's how he answered Enkidu at the time.He is king and he deserves everything.If this is not enough, use violence to conquer.

"But it's not something that you can be forgiven as a king." Enkidu's eyes showed a little pity. "Richter is not a woman you can conquer with violence, and I will not allow you to hurt her."

He knew that Enkidu valued her, but he also knew that Enkidu had never really slept with her.He just had an intuition that Enkidu liked her, and he also intuited that Enkidu would not take the initiative to approach her.It is precisely because of this that the bond between him and Enkidu remains, and there will be no conflicts because of her.

He even felt that Enki was helping him.

He didn't know what was blocking Enkidu's footsteps, but he knew that he was not Enkidu, if he liked him, he would express and plunder.The word plunder is probably his deepest pursuit of her.

This is her poison, she seems to be exuding a seductive smell all over her body, she said, come and hug me, let people get close to her, and then become addicted.

"You will beg for my favor" he had said to her so vowedly, but he declared his failure first.

There is no word that is more terrifying than loss.And he, Gilgamesh, lost from the very beginning.

Lost completely.

From the moment he felt the horror of losing, he understood it completely, and he could no longer break free.

Gilgamesh actually understands very well, even if he chokes her neck, letting her know that she will die in the next second, she will just look at you quietly with her dark eyes, without emotion, and even And with a little smile.

He was used to seeing human beings who were afraid of death, and he had also seen loyal and righteous people who were not afraid of death, but it shouldn't be like this... without the slightest emotion.

— he was wrong.

When a person doesn't care about his own life, her emotions that can be touched are really minimal, but unfortunately, the impression he left on her is only the worst.

Since I have hurt you, then I will use all my love to make up for it.

Just forget about it, okay?

In the end, it was he who was begging for her favor.

Human life is too short to grasp the future.

This he did not fully understand until the death of Enkidu.Losing is really terrible, but perhaps even more terrible is losing your own life.

He can't hold on to anything, whether it's a close friend or a lover.

"I don't like you anymore." Even though her voice was very soft when she said this to Enkidu, he still heard it.

Gilgamesh has always known that the reason she has been rejecting him is because of Enkidu, he could wait, and thought about waiting, but he never expected that the day he waited would be because of the death of his best friend.

Now he could hug her and kiss her without being rejected, as he wished.If he got his wish, he could monopolize her and do what he had always wanted to do.But she also knows better than anyone that she has no feelings.

In fact, she has never liked anyone, and maybe she will not like anyone.

If he died too, she would forget him without hesitation.

Even so, it doesn't matter, as long as I'm still alive, you won't leave.

He begged for a longer life, and begged for her to stay longer.Just begging is just begging after all, and in the end, she was the one who left first.

It's like appearing without warning, and disappearing without warning, making it completely impossible to find.

In the end, he also failed to gain eternal life and lost everything.

Reappearing in the world again, also in the form of a heroic spirit.His arrogance has not been reduced by half, and only when he sees her again, will he restrain himself cautiously.

She forgot everything, and seemed to be as he asked, and it seemed a little unreal to be obedient.

For this era, she seems to know very well, like... She should have existed in this era.

If she came from this era to his era, everything would be explained clearly.The Holy Grail War summoned him to this era, so he tried his best to stay and get the Holy Grail.He has absolute confidence in his strength.

"Gilgamesh, what wish do you want to fulfill with the Holy Grail?" She asked him, with some subtle emotions in her tone.

There is some sarcasm.

If I said my wish, then I would get more ridicule in return, but this wish is so real, so real that even he himself finds it unbelievable, so real that even he himself feels stupid.

So real...he really wanted to make it happen.

If the Holy Grail can really grant my wish, then I hope——

None of this has ever happened.

As long as all this hadn't happened, I wouldn't have fallen in love with you, and there wouldn't be this extra emotion between him and Enkidu.

At least Gilgamesh shouldn't be like this. He should continue to be arrogant and arrogant.

- isn't it?

But I also hope--

You can fall in love with me.