In the Same Boat

Yao Zhan went to class, and Qu Yiheng stared at the unfinished painting at home in a daze.

He didn't feel any more, and couldn't continue painting.

When I was in school, everyone used to make a joke, saying that some people eat young food, and some people get more and more popular as they get older, but their business relies on inspiration. When there is no inspiration, no matter how good the skills are, they are just empty shells. " Beauty is beauty, there is no soul."

Things without a soul are ugly things, things that are not worth looking at and not worth studying. Everyone wants to avoid this from happening, and they are unwilling to admit that they have no inspiration and no soul when creating.

In fact, everyone is afraid.

Qu Yiheng used to be afraid, but later he stopped being afraid, not because he always had inspiration, but because he got used to it.

After that incident happened that year, he directly lost his enthusiasm for creation, and he didn't even think about being inspired or not inspired.

Now, I want to pick up the paintbrush again, but I feel powerless.

The situation like yesterday was already rare. He knew that this would not work, but he didn't know how to reverse this situation.

Looking at that painting, Yao Zhan is in my mind.

The person was gone on the bed, but he always felt that he could still smell the other person, the same scent of shower gel as his, but with something more than him.

Qu Yiheng glanced at the desk calendar and knew that the day when Yao Zhan would leave was getting closer, and the closer that day was, the more anxious he became. Obviously, he didn't want Yao Zhan to leave.

The phone rang suddenly, it was a message from Dou Yucong.

Dou Yucong: Brother, who are you with?

Qu Yiheng knew who he was talking about, so he replied: I am at home by myself.

As soon as the message was sent, the other party's phone call came.

Qu Yiheng asked directly: "Why did you go last night?"

"Hey, I just asked such an embarrassing question, how can I answer it!" Dou Yucong said with a smile, "I didn't call you to ask you to interrogate me. You told me yesterday about your affair with Yao Zhan." Let's talk another day, I think it's better to hit the sun..."

"You called just to ask this?" Qu Yiheng thought it was a bit funny, no one would call during working hours just to listen to gossip.

"Yes, I care about you." Dou Yucong restrained his smile, and said with some seriousness, "Brother, you have always been crooked, right? You just didn't tell me."

Regarding this matter, Dou Yucong was a little sad.

The two brothers have been closer than real brothers for so many years. Dou Yucong knew his brother's character, and was worried all day long that his brother would be bullied and that his brother would not meet a good girl. There are men out there.

This kind of feeling that you treat others with all your heart and soul, but they hide secrets from you is too uncomfortable.

But he wasn't angry with Yiheng. Everyone was a little bit unwilling to confess things. He understood, but he didn't want to accept it.

"I didn't mean to hide it from you." Qu Yiheng knew that he was wrong about this matter, and he was afraid that Dou Yucong would think too much, so he had no choice but to explain, "I never had a chance to tell you."

Although Dou Yucong was unhappy, he didn't want to go online. He just wanted to say something, but his colleagues asked him to go to a meeting.

"Are you home tonight?"

Qu Yiheng hesitated for a moment and said, "Well, we'll talk when you come back."

"That's fine." Dou Yucong was in a hurry for a meeting, so he couldn't continue talking with him, "It's okay if you go out, we are in no hurry, don't wait for me."

After hanging up the phone, Qu Yiheng looked up and saw the painting again.

When he first started painting this painting, he didn't want to give it to Yao Zhan, but later, on a whim, he always felt that he couldn't let him go away empty-handed.

In fact, the meaning of this painting is not very good, no matter how you look at it, it reveals a lifeless energy, but apart from this, he has nothing else to give Yao Zhan, and this is the only thing he has been slightly satisfied with for such a long time , A painting that can be called a work.

Qu Yiheng still picked up the paintbrush and added two more strokes on it.

Yao Zhan really began to miss Qu Yiheng, but he was still thinking about Qu Yiheng, he didn't dare to rush forward for fear of annoying others.

In addition, he came here to study, although he agreed to the vice president to come here because of Qu Yiheng, but he has to figure out everything he needs to learn, and he still has a task to go back and report.

In the past few days, Qu Yiheng has "fed and drank enough", and he has a lot of energy in class. At noon, he sent a message to Qu Yiheng, asking if he would like to have dinner together in the evening, but unexpectedly, Qu Yiheng refused. up.

Yao Zhan had never been rejected by Qu Yiheng before, but this time, he was fooled.

He was worried that he had gone too far and made Qu Yiheng feel awkward, but the other party said that it was not because of him, that he had something to do at night, and he would come to him tomorrow.

Since receiving this message, Yao Zhan has been fidgeting. He hasn't been in a relationship for so many years, and he hasn't been so anxious about anyone.

Sometimes it's easy for people to fall into a vicious circle. Once they start to care about someone, they can't get along well with them.

Yao Zhan felt that he might be like this.

Before, he and Qu Yiheng were very comfortable chatting or making love, and he was sure that the other party was also very satisfied with him as a pao friend, but now, when he realized that what he wanted was not only Qu Yiheng's body , he began to restrain his hands and feet, and began to be cautious.

Yao Zhan is very annoying about himself, he is not open, hesitating, hesitating, he is in his 30s, he is indecisive, and he is not happy at all.

After class, he went back to the hotel, and he called Shao Wei again. He didn't say what was wrong with him, but just asked how his godson was doing in the kindergarten.

Shao Wei said: "Don't pretend to be with me, I don't know what you are calling for!"

He laughed at Yao Zhan: "You fucking have today!"

Yao Zhan really never thought that he would have such a day. How many people chased him before, men and women, he didn't take a fancy to any of them. At that time Shao Wei also said that he didn't know who could fall into him Yao Zhan eyes.

Unexpectedly, 15 years later, Qu Yiheng is still the same.

Yao Zhan never told Shao Wei about the time when he and Qu Yiheng went to school, it was too private, he didn't care about being known, but he was afraid that Qu Yiheng would care.

But Shao Wei is not blind, he is shrewd. Back then, Qu Yiheng was the only one who was willing to talk to Yao Zhan, and Yao Zhan always protected Qu Yiheng intentionally or unintentionally. Are you ambiguous?

Shao Wei asked him: "Have you taken a fancy to him before?"

"No way." Yao Zhan said, "I don't know."

"But let me tell you something," Shao Wei said, "I didn't notice it at first, but after you called me this morning, I thought about it. Your former partners are quite similar to Qu Yiheng."

"Does it look like it? Why didn't I feel it." How could Yao Zhan not feel it, but he couldn't say that.

"Yeah, it looks so interesting, but it's not the same as Qu Yiheng." Shao Wei only had a few words with Qu Yiheng in the cemetery that day, and didn't have much contact with him, but his most powerful thing over the years is his ability to judge people His vision, he has seen Yao Zhan's two little boyfriends before, the first one is okay, but the second one has Qu Yiheng's expression in his eyebrows, but his personality is very different, Qu Yiheng didn't say a word for a long time, that boy beat him from When they met, they talked at every turn, two extremes.

"I guess you didn't notice it yourself, you just like him." Shao Wei said, "Our cooperation project is over, and Qu Yiheng's predecessor went back on the plane last night."

Yao Zhan frowned: "Then what is the background of the ex?"

"It doesn't have much background, and it's just average." Shao Wei said, "I don't know much about him, after all, he is a partner, but what I heard is that he divorced half a year ago."

"They're all married?"

"Already divorced." Shao Wei lit a cigarette, "I reckoned that this kid might have dumped Qu Yiheng and got married, but the marriage didn't last and he divorced."

Yao Zhan heard him light a cigarette and lit one himself.

"Fuck, isn't that kid going back to find Qu Yiheng to get back together?" Shao Wei pondered for a while, "Let's put it this way, although I don't think you are a good person, but in comparison, you still beat him."

"Brother? What did you say?"

"The truth." Shao Wei said, "You don't want to listen to me telling the truth. I think Qu Yiheng is as timid as you are. You may not be suitable."

"You can only know if you get along well." Yao Zhan said, "But the problem is, you may not get along well."

Shao Wei took a puff of cigarette: "I can't control this matter."

"know."

Both fell silent, smoking a cigarette into the phone.

"Has my aunt of yours urged you recently?" Shao Wei suddenly brought up the matter, "You dragged your feet when you had no goals before, and now you don't intend to confess?"

"Sooner or later." Yao Zhan said, "If Qu Yiheng is really willing to be nice to me, I'll have a showdown with my mother right away."

"Fuck your fart, you just talk about it."

Yao Zhan was not joking. The reason why he was not in a hurry to come out to his family all these years was because he was worried about his mother's health, and because he hadn't met anyone worthy of his risk.

If Qu Yiheng is really willing to give him a chance to develop, he is also willing to take this step for the other party.

For things like feelings, each other has to make sacrifices and work hard for each other.

"Will you find him later?"

"No, I'm going back to the hotel." Yao Zhan didn't tell Shao Wei what happened to him and Qu Yiheng back then, nor did they say what they did when they met recently. "I wanted to find him for dinner tonight, but he refused. .”

"Hehe, really promising."

"I still have a temper." Yao Zhan smiled, "Okay, I won't talk nonsense with you, I will look through the notes in today's class and go to bed early."

"Okay, let's go on your own." Before hanging up the phone, Shao Wei was worried, and ordered again, "There is a lesson from the past, I guess Qu Yiheng's most taboo thing is coming out of the closet, you think about it yourself, I Not much to say."

The two made an appointment to go back to meet, then hung up the phone.

When Yao Zhan walked to the window, he found that it was raining outside.

The day he reunited with Qu Yiheng was a rainy day, and the other party's umbrella was left on his car.

He remembered that last night he asked Qu Yiheng what kind of person his ex was, but Qu Yiheng didn't say anything, probably because he was really hurt, and he didn't want to mention him again.

Yao Zhan opened the sliding door from the room to the balcony, and the sound of rain filled his ears instantly.

He looked at the rain outside, smoking a cigarette, wondering if Qu Yiheng would miss him this night when he was lying in bed alone.