Declare war on depression, against day and night

"You tell me, what is your 'companion' like? Is it verbal or invisible? You tell me, I can change it, I don't care. Really...I don't care... "

Seeing Bie Ming's heart-piercing cry for the first time, Mao Shiyi was so distressed that he walked around the table and hugged him tightly in his arms.He could feel a dull pain in his broken tail, and his ninth tail in his right eye was swimming wildly uncontrollably.

After coming to the world, many things are the first time.

It was the first time to humble myself, the first time to humbly ask for advice, the first time to save someone in distress, the first time to cook, and the first time to classify myself as the party who made mistakes and admitted defeat in front of a person.

Mao Shishi took out toilet paper and wiped away Bie Ming's tears and snot, until there were no tears on his face, and only his eyes were red when he looked carefully, he found that Bie Ming was trembling all over.

She lowered her head, bent her waist, leaned close to Bie Ming's ear, whispered warm words and her own promise, and kissed his forehead and forehead from time to time.Shake your body gently, like a good father patiently coaxing a baby to sleep.

Bie Ming also lowered his head, blinking his eyes after a long time, the sparkling tears flickering.

Young teenagers have walked around the world one after another. Using their meager experience, they asked the "experts" around them, what is liking, what is love, and what is the difference between liking and love? "Like is presumptuous, but love is restrained", is it the only criterion for judging?

The answers are all kinds of strange, but there is no doubt that whether it is liking or love, even if we don’t understand at all, when we are caught in this whirlpool, we also hope that we have enough time and good things to share with each other.

When you order two vegetarian dishes and one meat dish in the school cafeteria, the first thing you think of is to take out your mobile phone to take a picture of that person; People, they have been stuck together for days and nights; when you are walking home, and suddenly there is a delicate wedding dress in the window next to you, you think, how suitable it is for her.

The wedding dress is a gift, and the rest of my life is a knot, and I am willing to exchange her gift with her.

Sharing your sufficient time and the beautiful things you see is the most long-lasting confession and companionship.

And what is companionship?

Probably because I can understand that I am such a person, and I am still willing to stand by my side.From then on, I am willing to show you all my hidden, disguised, half-hearted, biggest regrets and most fatal flaws.

Just please don't give up on me.

Like that time when Bie Ming sat in the dark world created by phantom, hopelessly wondering whether someone would discover his existence; With the sunshine on his body, he just curled up as much as possible, and hoped that Mao Shixi could take him back to the room.

Bie Ming is always quietly and melancholy waiting for the sorrow or joy that fate imposes on him, never thinking of avoiding, fleeing or confronting.

My head is full of thoughts about who will save me, not what I should do.

Mao Shishi remembered the somewhat confusing noun that Lin Lu said.

Learned helplessness.

Lin Lu described this hopeless helplessness: "I was not born like this. I have worked hard and fought, but no matter how hard I try, I can't escape my fate, and no matter how hard I fight, I can't change my fate. From this, I began to know that I have no doubts about what comes from fate. The punishment is powerless, and no matter how much you fight, you can’t do anything, so you stop fighting and give up on yourself.”

Resignation.

Even Bie Ming, who is afraid of the bright light, subconsciously hopes to have a beam of sunshine to warm his cold hands, and also hopes to have someone by his side who will never leave no matter what.

Bie Ming once pinned part of his hopes on a girl who lost out in junior high school.But for the first time in all sincerity, he bet all his remaining hopes on Jiang Erge, and he failed miserably in high school.He also put the glass heart that he had repaired little by little in the past two years in the hands of Mao Shiyi in a begging gesture, but this was another tragic defeat.

He was really scared, and hibernation was still the safest posture.

"Our quarrels are quarrels. If you are hungry, you still have to eat, otherwise you won't have the energy to quarrel with me."

Mao Shishi held Bie Ming in his arms, slightly clamped his arms with his hands to scoop up the beef soup, rested his chin on his shoulders, and crossed his legs.Bie Minghe had no bones all over his body, just a lump of soft flesh, as if Bie Ming would slump down on the bed as long as Mao Shishi loosened his strength.

In the past, such an ambiguous posture and his own small thoughts would still make Bie Ming blush and ashamed.But now, Bie Ming seems to have lost all desires and emotions in the world, and just replied faintly: "I didn't quarrel with you."

"Tsk, the milk is cold. But this layer of milk skin is the most nutritious." Mao Shixi touched the bowl, feeling a little distressed, and carefully rolled the layer of milk skin that had condensed on the bowl with chopsticks and spoons, sideways Looking at Bie Ming with a straight face, "Let's eat first. After eating, I will take you to see your room. It's all packed for you. I didn't expect you to come back so early."

Bie Ming replied: "It's fine to live here."

Mao Shishi felt as if he had been flopped, and said pleasantly, "Aren't you going back?"

"Anywhere."

Mao Shishi was taken aback for a moment, then sighed, and put a few pieces of meat from the pot into the Bie Ming bowl.

Lin Lu said that the most difficult thing to deal with in depression is the patient's emotions, especially when talking with patients who have completely separated themselves from the world outside themselves.

Because they can't feel happiness from anything at all, let alone think of anything that can make them happy, even indifferent to the things they liked in the past, rejecting all comforts and every ray of light.They think that everything that happens around them may be bad for them and cause trouble for them.Life seems to have lost its purpose and meaning to them, and all the joys in nature can't make a ripple in their hearts.

Bie Ming is like this now.

At this time, shouldn't Bie Ming's life be stimulated a little?

Mao Shishi was worried, took a piece of orange with chopsticks and put it in his mouth, biting down absent-mindedly, most of the juice sprayed onto Bie Ming's side face.

The sudden coolness made Bie Ming tremble. He glanced at Mao Shiyi lightly, and said in a flat tone, "Give me a piece of toilet paper." The food is chewed slowly, and then chewed slowly.

Mao Shishi took out a piece of toilet paper, didn't pass it to Bie Ming, and wiped his face naturally.

I thought to myself, so it was decided.

After the meal, Mao Shishi put the plate of oranges on the bedside table, and walked out the door with the soup pot in one hand and the milk in the other.

After drinking the milk that had long since cooled down, seeing Gongwen limply lying on the dining table, he mercifully poured the soup, water, dregs and meat slices left by the two of them into a porcelain basin, "Kang " put it on the dining table with a sound, and after sitting down gracefully, raised Erlang's legs, and by the way "intimately" pushed the porcelain basin towards the front of the official document.

Gong Wen was sitting upright, still hating Mao Shiyi's ruthlessness in his heart, struggling for a while with the smiling Mao Shiyi, but was still defeated by the tomato soup with tomato peels floating in it.

Gong Wenzheng has developed a pair of piercing eyes in the entertainment industry, he was so bold that he satirized Mao Shiyi a little: "You have an excellent expression on your face that you want from me."

Mao Shishi didn't refute, just smiled: "Who are you talking about, what is that Jane, where are you now? Chandong?"

"It's Chandong." Gong Wenzheng repeated, "What? Finally helping me find Duan Fangjian? Oh, I didn't say that, your efficiency is too low, right? You know that I can't do anything without you , I have to procrastinate, the awards ceremony may have passed for several days. I didn’t attend it, but Senior Duan doesn’t know what’s going on at this time.”

Mao Shishi: "..."

"Also, your world is really backward. My mobile phone can't do anything here, I can't read WeChat or Weibo, I can't make calls, I can't send text messages, and I can't charge it with a broken charger. I don't know. Is the agent going crazy looking for me, Duan Fangjian may also send me a message, I am his supporting role, he may find that I am not there."

When it came to something related to Duan Fangjian, Gong Wenzheng couldn't close the chatterbox.

Mao Shishi maintained a polite smirk: "It's obvious that you are a stupid and low-level thing, relying on a pen, ah bah, a pen is better, relying on the crackling keyboard to make you feel so powerful Where are you going? If you dare to show your thighs to Mount Tai without weighing yourself, you may be dead."

Gong Wenzheng was choked by Mao Shishi so that he couldn't speak a word, a mouthful of tomato soup stuck in his throat, it couldn't go up and down, it was sour and astringent.He searched here and there and found a piece of beef with great difficulty, chewed it hard and stuffed it down, and said: "The cat is a god, you can say what you say."

Mao Shishi smiled and said, "Aren't you very knowledgeable about mobile phones? I'll give you my mobile phone, and you book two tickets for me. I'll leave tomorrow, go to Chandong, and find someone from your company."

Gongwen was looking at Mao Shishi vigilantly, feeling guilty because of his laughter, and still felt uneasy after taking his cell phone.

He didn't even know who he was looking for, and he joked around and laughed to perfuse himself throughout the whole process, that is, the part where he scolded me was more serious... This person is uncharacteristically today, and when he comes up, he is eccentric. There must be some conspiracy.Kuanwen was thinking.

Kuanwenzheng opened Mao Shiyi's mobile phone easily, because he didn't lock the chain, so the software and information inside could be seen at a glance.There is nothing in the phone, as if it has just been restored to factory settings.

This cat fairy who can't even use a mobile phone, in this era where almost all information is communicated and consulted by this gadget, even if there is a conspiracy, it can't be some earth-shattering plan, right?The expression on his face betrayed him completely, and he didn't even have anyone to help him. Do you really think that if you call him "Old Immortal", he will be able to reach the moon in the nine heavens and catch turtles in the five oceans?Oh, he might be dead.

Or an actor is an actor...

On the surface, Gong Wenzheng smiled like an innocent young man, even his black and white eyeballs were so pure that water dripped out.

In fact, his inner drama was full of drama.Not only will he vent his anger by swearing and swearing around corners, but also with the pride of being an actor, he will use as many idioms as he can think of.

Mao Shishi watched Gong Wenzheng perform a series of operations on his mobile phone, and he felt a headache from seeing the mess, so he happily threw this mess to Gong Wenzheng, who "has a lot of research on mobile phones", and said Go back to the room to find Bie Ming.

Bie Ming is now a lake of stagnant water, and there has been no wind around the stagnant water for a hundred years.

Then what can he do to make the stagnant water in the lake slightly rippled, even boiled and roared?

Hey.

Of course they threw stones into it.

If conditions permit, throw a few grenades, or throw something into it.

Mao Shishi secretly planned his own plan, thinking that as long as Bie Ming fell asleep, he would be taken on the journey of leaving.When he woke up and opened his eyes, he found himself in a completely unfamiliar environment, before his head could react, "Deng thump", Surprise!

Mao Shishi didn't believe it anymore. At this time, the stagnant water in his lake can still be calm?

The author has something to say: Regarding the place name "Chandong", I made it up myself. If there is really a place called this name, it is definitely my lack of knowledge...