Declare war on depression, against day and night

Mao Shishi never knew that he needed to pack his luggage when traveling.

I was originally a single cat for thousands of years, even if I came to live in the world from Fuchun Mountain, didn't I bring nothing with me?Came naked, still alive and well.

Jiang Erge looked at Mao Shiyi like he was looking at a monster, and let out a very disdainful "hum", thinking that the person who was with Bie Ming was actually a fool who was not much different from the caveman, and the tip of his nose was glowing intermittently. acid.

Don't tell him to stay at home.

Thinking about it, I know that it must be Mao Shishi who is chewing his ears.

As soon as Bie Ming finished speaking and asked him to stay at home, Mao Shishi stood in front of Bie Ming as if protecting a calf, and said, "I let you stay at home because I trust you. Think about it, The landlord has left, but these rooms are still rented out. Someone must stay to guard the security of the base, right? The crystal attack at home, are you still in the mood to steal the tower? Surely not? So, brother, your task difficult."

Mao Shishi elongated the corners of his mouth meaningfully, and patted Jiang Erge's shoulder solemnly.

There is no way, Bie Ming has already said that, and what he said may only bring unnecessary troubles to Bie Ming.

Bie Ming's mental condition is not very good, going out to play and changing to a new environment may improve his depression.For a young couple who are happy for a long time, if there is an outsider, there must be a insider.It's not that I can't be his backing at home, it's just... just looking at Mao Shiyi's arrogant and complacent face, I always feel like I'm being bullied.

Jiang Erge did not forget to carefully arrange the clothes in a suitcase for Bie Ming, the hand warmer for life-saving in winter, the necessary certificate bag, power bank and washing travel bag for the journey, so that Bie Ming would not be afraid of traveling. Bored and put a few interesting novels, a few movies are being cached in the phone, and the emergency contact is set to myself...

A thermos cup, a dozen casual snacks, a wave of vitamins from various fruit slices...

Jiang Erge stared at the refrigerator for a long time, wanting to stuff something into Bie Ming's backpack.

Because during this trip, Bie Ming's only duty is to follow Mao Shiyi with his own brain.So the suitcase goes to Mao Shishi to carry, and the schoolbag goes to Mao Shishi to carry.

Speaking of which, Mao Shishi is also a simple creature. He felt that Jiang Erge must be revenged himself by putting things in his bag desperately, and gave himself a burden, so before going out, he put all the things in the bag, such as books, cups, dried fruits, and drinks. Everything like that was thrown on the floor of the room.

Travel light.hey-hey.

Leaving home in the morning, Jiang Erge whispered thousands of instructions in Bie Ming's ear, glanced at the empty bag behind Mao Shiyi, but didn't react.It wasn't until he sent the two of them out of the community and got into a taxi that Jiang Erge stared at the trunk that had disappeared in the dust, and suddenly remembered the big bulging backpack.

But everything is too late.

Just like the past between him and Bie Ming now, no matter how beautiful the past is, it cannot withstand the scouring of the years.

Everything is too late.

A Spider-Man doll hangs from the zipper of Bie Ming's backpack, and Shadow is attached to it.A round earring was hung on Mao Shishi's ear, which was sucked up by a magnet, and with the blessing of his spells, it couldn't fall off.The official document was attached to the earring on his right, with a silver point of light shining.

Documents are not only neat, but also thoughtful.

Round-trip air tickets, hotels, and scenic spots were all booked, and I checked the bus routes and local food that received rave reviews, from high-end hotels to roadside stalls.Mao Shishi rarely praised him as "excellent" on the road, and said very sincerely that there was nothing in the world that he couldn't find except Duan Fangjian's information.

Ha ha.

Gong Wenzheng felt that Mao Shiyi was not just praising him.

Bie Ming looked out the window along the way, the indifferent expression on his face remained unchanged.

He agreed to go to Zen East with Mao Shiyi for a so-called relaxing trip, but it didn't mean that he promised Mao Shiyi to enjoy this unplanned trip like a real tourist.

Mao Shishi saw it.

Because he was worried about Bie Ming, Mao Shishi had been forcing him to sleep in the same room after he was discharged from the hospital.

It's useless for Bie Ming to refuse, only this cannot be discussed.

But it is precisely because of this that on the night when Bie Ming was lonely to death since he was a child, in that dark and empty protective circle, there were finally chattering voices, miscellaneous and unclear noises, and voices that could break through. This lonely anger.Bie Ming's extremely irregular work and rest began to change with Mao Shishi, and his three meals a day gradually became regular.

Every time Bie Ming couldn't fall asleep, or woke up early in the morning, he could see Mao Shiyi's face that was full of sleepiness and puffed up.

In many cases, he can even see this visible change in himself.

One person's randomness is ruthlessly abandoned, and the trajectory of another person's life is getting closer and closer, almost sticking together.

If I had met Mao Shishi in high school, don't think, would everything be different?

"Seeing is not necessarily true, and seeing is not necessarily false. You have a demon cat's tail hidden in your eyes, so you can see 'people' that ordinary people can't see." This is what Mao Shiyi said to Bie Ming not long after they met. If so, he also said that as long as he gets out this demon cat tail, he can return to a normal life.

Mao Shishi asked: "Do you want to live a normal life and never see these weird 'ghosts' again?"

At that time, Bie Ming replied firmly: "I don't want to see those dirty things at all!"

Those monsters who are not tolerated by this world lined up to trouble him, said some nasty things that made him puzzled, strange behaviors that were hard to figure out, and even strange things could be seen on his way to the supermarket. strange "people".They would come to harass him from time to time, which made Bie Ming, who was already sensitive, even more afraid of life and going out, and the psychological burden was very heavy.

In addition to writing novels, his daily life is just sitting in a daze, thinking wildly, and hardly going out of the room. The room is always closed with thick and opaque curtains, which is oppressive and gloomy.

Mao Shishi, who claims to be an Onmyoji, rented one of his rooms with a lot of money, and seems to have plans to stay for a long time.With his help, the life of don't fly like chickens and dogs gradually subsides.

In addition to Mao Shishi, people of all kinds often come to rent houses.

Bie Ming has never felt the love from his parents and the world around since he was a child, and his mind is extremely delicate and sensitive. Even if it is the sadness of someone who has nothing to do with him, he can magnify it several times, and then empathize with him.

Humans are creatures that live in the eyes of others.

Tenants always put their best side in front of everyone, and then come back to the residence every day tired and negative.In this small world of their own, they were angry, they complained about helplessness, they were depraved and presumptuous... However, Bie Ming saw all of this.

Bie Ming kept their emotions in his heart very distressed and carefully, and warmed them with his slight optimism.But just giving this little bit of warmth has exhausted all the warmth in Bie Ming's heart.

All kinds of causes and consequences add up, and Bie Ming is unable to bear it. The last straw that overwhelms him is the news of his mother's marriage.On the day he received the news from his mother, Bie Ming locked himself in the room and tried to commit suicide by burning charcoal.Thanks to Mao Shishi's keen sense of smell, when he sensed something was wrong, he hurried upstairs to save others, and snatched such a heart-wrenching child back from the hands of death.

Mao Shishi drank a glass of milk before going to bed, and always slept lying on the bed with his mouth slightly open, breathing lightly and gently.

They visited many scenic spots in Zendong, and all they saw were the scenery passing by in a sightseeing car.In fact, there is no beautiful scenery anymore. The weather in December has faded from the green and red, and the silver has not yet arrived. Except for the unchanging ancient buildings in the photos, there is really nothing to see.

These days, Bie Ming created a new volume on the codeword software he downloaded, and created two chapters under the volume, Chapter 1 is "reasons to live", and Chapter 2 is "reasons to leave the world".

There are a lot of "reasons for leaving the world", some are very short, only a few words, and some are very long, but here the reasons are arranged one by one on the screen of the mobile phone, which is very clear.

As for the "reasons for living"... There is nothing to write about. He doesn't know what he can do if he lives. He has no goals, no ideals, so he has no hope.Even if you live on, ten or twenty years, the days are so long, you have no clue.

But one night, Mao Shiyi snored infrequently while sleeping, probably because he was tired from climbing mountains during the day, or maybe because he was uncomfortable in his sleeping position.Anyway, the snoring comes and goes, the sound is not so sharp and disturbing, but it can make Bie Ming feel that there is another person beside him at all times, who is completely independent of Bie Ming's thoughts and control, and only obeys his own thoughts exist.

"Mao Eleven" became Bie Ming's first reason to live.

Bie Ming also had a clear mind, he thought, it is not impossible for him to survive.

If the pain in your life disappears, you don’t have to live in the punishment memories of your past life to linger, you don’t have to accept the established sufferings assigned to you by your fate, you don’t need to watch your loved ones doomed to go away, it’s best to let Everything in the past was cleared, and all the emotions in my chest were pulled out.Maybe, I can start from scratch and live again like a newborn baby.

If at that time, Mao Shixi asked himself again full of curiosity: "Do you want to live a normal life, and never see these weird 'ghosts' again?"

He must say: "I am living a normal life, and at the same time, I will continue to see these strange 'ghosts'. I treat everything equally, and I will not classify them until I experience them."

Why did Mao Shiyi become the only reason for him to live now?Why did Mao Shiyi ask him such a question when he started living again from his infancy?Or ask, why do I forget the whole world and the bits and pieces of my past life, but still hope that Mao Shiyi can appear in my life?

Because Mao Shiyi is the reason for Bie Ming to live.

Among all the hypothetical ifs, if there is no Mao Shiyi, Bie Ming really doesn't know if he has the courage to live again.

Just thinking about it without borders, letting his imagination run wild, Bie Ming put down the phone when his eyes finally became sore.

There is no very strong reason, he does not want to entangle the issue of life and death anymore.Instead of entangled in such stupid questions, it is better to sleep heartlessly and let yourself rise to the surface of the world.Just follow Mao Shiyi's steps forward, to the depths of life, there is nothing difficult, just follow behind him.If he was tired and wanted Mao Shiyi to hold his hand, Mao Shiyi would definitely extend his hand in front of him generously.

It seemed that there was nothing difficult, so he followed Mao Shiyi.

On the evening of the fourth day in Chandong, Mao Shishi told Bie Ming that he had something to do and he might come back later. He had already ordered takeaway for you, so be careful when you knock on the door, and don’t go out alone.

As soon as Ying came to Chandong, he left Spiderman and never came back.Kuanwen went out at seven or eight o'clock in the morning and came back at six o'clock in the evening, just like going to work.Mao Shishi also left today, leaving Bie Ming alone in the room.

Bie Ming lay on the bed, put the few songs he wanted to hear into a new playlist, and listened to them repeatedly.When he heard the prelude to his current favorite song, he decisively deleted the two reasons he had written before analyzing himself, then threw the phone on the bed and lay on his back.

This song is sung by Mika Nakashima:

Servant が 死のうと思ったのはまだあなたに出会ってなかったから

あなたのような人が生まれた世界を小し好きになったよ

あなたのような人が生きてる世界に小し望するよ

The author has something to say: This song is sung by Mika Nakashima "I once thought about it too"

The last lyrics mean:

Once I also thought about it, because I haven't met you yet.

I'm starting to like this world a little bit because of people like you in this world.

Because people like you exist in this world, I am starting to look forward to this world a little bit.

It is said that during the time when this song was the hottest in Japan, the suicide rate in Japan dropped to the lowest.This song can really sing to people's hearts, and make people think of some beautiful things when they are depressed, so as to cheer them up.Whether Mika Nakashima sings or Amazarashi sings, they all have this kind of power that is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.