healer love letter

Lao Xu and the other two people drank, and when they met their confidants, they drank less than a thousand cups, and talked more than half a sentence.Holding the cup, Yu Lei remembered Gao Le's back in a hurry to go out just now, and smiled slightly.

"My brothers really have a bumpy road in love. If you say it's rough, they're all together."

Chen Er picked up his glass and made a toast, "Single dogs respect freedom and bravery."

Old Xu also raised his cup and laughed before speaking. "Respect the freedom and bravery of the fart. If you want me to say, the single dog respects the slutty and the romantic."

"You're cheap." Chen Er drank the wine in one gulp. "But do you think Gao Le and Dr. Li are having fun this time?"

Yu Lei shook his head and said that I don't think so. Old Xu is like a wise man with great wisdom and stupidity. "No and no."

"I like him very much."

The three began to drink in silence until the night outside was getting thicker and thicker.

I don't know if the negotiated New Year's Eve can take shape.

It was originally planned to go to Lao Xu's New Year's Eve, and Lao Xu opened a bar, but Gao Le didn't go there often, because he thought his bar was noisy.

Lao Xu scolded him many times for this matter, saying that you just think I'm not gay, and I'm annoying by chattering every day.

When the old Xu was still in Tibet, he said that his hotel invited a few independent musicians to sing. Independent musicians sound very chic these days, but in fact they are people who play music without a company or guarantee.People who play well are admired by thousands of people, but those who play poorly are worried about eating and drinking.The person Lao Xu invited these days was someone he met when he went to climb the snow mountain. The place on the snow is not something that you can climb if you want to. Going up and successfully surviving here can be regarded as a fateful friendship.

"You all come when the time comes, and I will ask my brother to sing for you New Year's Eve." Old Xu just said that when he arrived at Gaole Restaurant.

Gao Le threw a salted peanut skin on him, and the skin was still stained with water. The disgusted old Xu hurriedly took out several paper towels to wipe his clothes.

"You're awesome, you know a few brothers when you go out for a run."

Old Xu laughed happily, and couldn't hide the creases at the end of his eyes when he laughed. "That's right, I am brothers within the four seas, and I am friends and neighbors outside the five lakes."

It was originally arranged like this, a few people listen to music and drink together for the New Year's Eve.Gao Le has not felt like New Year's Eve for several years. In his opinion, New Year's Eve is just a few people drinking together. No one knows how to drink. You can drink at any bar when you go out.

This is called New Year's Eve?

This year is different. This year I met Dr. Li, who is handsome, cold and cute. Being with Dr. Li is called New Year’s Eve. The two of them hold hands together. Maybe they can make Dr. Li drunk. Alcohol makes you do something you would not dare to do normally.

Who knew that such a thing would happen at this juncture.

Originally, Gao Le's idea was to have a sense of ritual in life. He and Dr. Li met at a bar, and he also wanted to formalize his relationship with Dr. Li at the bar.It just so happened that this day was Li Ying's birthday, and Gao Le wanted to tell Dr. Li on this ceremonial day that I will always be here in the future.

Haruki Murakami said that life needs a sense of ritual.

In the ordinary and trivial daily life, the sense of ritual can distinguish a day from ordinary days and give a special moment a colorful color.The love and exquisiteness of these rituals are the enthusiasm for life and the expectation for ordinary days.Gao Le wanted to give such a day a different color and meaning, so he chose the bar where the two met for the first time.

Of course, I still have some unreasonable thoughts in my heart. Usually, Dr. Li is crystal clear, light and elegant, and seems not to be contaminated by the dust of the world. He is wearing a white coat, as if he is out of tune with this secular world.Gao Le wanted to see what Dr. Li looked like when he was drunk, and wanted to see if he would change into another look?

I personally think that Dr. Li will be very cute when he is drunk, maybe he will talk a lot, and he will love to laugh, showing the little canine tooth on the left when he smiles.

Gao Le was really nervous that day, he never thought that the word "jiuzhuang, cowardly and courageous" would be used on himself.Boss Gao has always been invincible and indomitable. He never thought that one day he would be terrified because of a confession night. He drank a few more glasses of wine and climbed up to his head without warning.

Doctor Li has turned a blind eye to him these days, which makes Gao Le very helpless.In relationships, I am most afraid of turning a blind eye. You are absolutely obedient to him, but he turns a blind eye to you and turns a deaf ear to you. He does not show any attitude or emotion, whether sad or disappointed, he just treats him as a person with him. Ordinary people who have nothing to do with each other are no different from ordinary people who come in and out of the company every day.

It seems that New Year's Eve is going to turn into a singles night again.

Boss Gao is not convinced.

Gao Le said that he wanted to chase Li Ying back, but to be honest, he didn't know how to chase him.Li Ying didn't see him and didn't talk to him. Since that night, there had been no communication between the two of them. Without communication, there was no way to resolve the barrier in each other's hearts.

After two days of thinking at home, Gao Le called Li Mengyue and asked Li Ying's home address. Li Mengyue was a smart person, so she told Gao Le about Li Ying's home address without asking, and then hung up the phone.Gao Le was holding the address in a daze, looking at the gradually darkening sky outside the window, letting time pass by at will.My mind went blank and I didn't know what to do.

It is impossible to let go, not reconciled.

But Li Ying's attitude really dampened Boss Gao's enthusiasm.

Gao Le decided to give it a go.

Li Ying drove her car back to her rented apartment after get off work, parked the car downstairs and turned off the engine, walked out of the car, and saw the hazy moonlight in the night sky.The temperature is low today, so he wrapped his clothes tightly.Now it is December, and when I think of the first time I met Gao Le in early October, it was only two months ago, and it seems like a lifetime ago.

He put the keys in his pocket, and was about to lift his feet up the stairs. His eyes swept a little, and he saw a figure in the corner of his vision. His heartbeat accelerated suddenly, as if he had fallen from a high place, and the depths beneath him were unfathomable.

"You got off work so late." Gao Le walked out of the night with a tired expression.

It's not that it's late to get off work, but it's winter, the days are getting shorter and shorter, and the time of night is getting earlier and earlier, which is easy to give people the illusion of getting off work late.

Li Ying pursed her mouth into a straight line, watching him without speaking.

"I came here to say a few words to Dr. Li." He stood still, and the wind blew his hair.

"I like you, and I also told you my thoughts clearly. I was wrong that day. I apologize, but you also need to know that nothing happened that day. In a place like a bar, you sit alone Drinking there is a signal to others that I'm single and you come and flirt with me." Gao Le felt that his mind was too messy, and he wanted to come to Li Ying to explain it clearly, but now it seems that the more he explains, the more chaotic it is, from beginning to end. Ma, can't solve it.

"I am willing to chase after Dr. Li, but I am also a human being, and what's even more ridiculous is that I am a businessman. We pay attention to giving and returning in business. How much I invest, I want to see the corresponding benefits, even if I can't do it For short-term recovery, I must also have a reasonable plan in the long run.”

"But I don't see any response from Dr. Li." Gao Le touched his pocket, trying to take out a cigarette, but he didn't find the cigarette case, as if he forgot to pack a cigarette when he went out today.I had no choice but to give up and continue to explain at a loss.

"I never want to use business as an analogy to feelings, because business is cold. Everyone is polite on the surface, but they hold knives behind their backs and don't trust anyone. Love is very strange, and you can never calculate it. Show any part of him, so that I can prepare myself in advance to avoid risks. It’s as if I never thought that I would meet you in the bar, and I never thought that I would break all the connections with you in the bar.”

Li Ying was clear and bright, with empty sleeves, and he didn't speak, and he couldn't see any changes in his joy or sorrow or expression on the surface.Gao Le suddenly hated these psychological counselors. He usually sees a lot of negative emotions of human collapse, and can easily hide his thoughts expressionlessly without leaking a trace.

Gao Le took a deep breath, intending to die. He wanted to gamble whether Li Ying had him in his heart.Gao Le slowly approached Li Ying, he stretched out his hand, and grabbed Li Ying's wrist.The touch of Dr. Li's wrist was the same as when we first met. At that time, he pulled this wrist and never wanted to let go.

"If you really hate me and want to stop here with me, you can just let go of my hand now. From now on, the two of us will go on our own. , completely disappeared." Gao Le stopped still after speaking, he was waiting for Li Ying's answer.

He said he would disappear.

Li Ying looked at Gao Le, and suddenly remembered the scene when she saw Gao Le for the first time. Gao Le was drunk and grabbed his wrist, saying don't leave.There was forbearance and sadness in his eyes, which made Li Ying feel pity.Then the scene changed, and he remembered the flowers Gao Le gave him, pink peony pink, eustoma pink hydrangea, each petal can weave a light and soft dream.He remembered Gao Le's love breakfast, every morning there would be a heart-shaped fried egg, and he remembered that day Gao Le leaned against the wall and said, Dr. Li, if you don't come, I will snow.

Obviously every scene is still fresh in her memory, but Li Ying still can't forget, can't forget the unforgettable scene in the bar.Only then did he know that Gao Le's smile was not only for him alone, when he casually faced a boy with a good face, he would always show that kind of tender and gentle smile.

His tenderness and consideration were never just for him alone.

It was as if a knife had been inserted into Li Ying's heart, and someone had savaged her again, leaving a bloody hole in her heart, with scarlet blood gurgling out.

The woman in the nightmare wears blood red lipstick and has flying long hair. She says she doesn't love you.

Turns out she was right.

no one loves Me.

Li Ying almost ran away home that day, he was terrified, terrified.

He was afraid that Gao Le was really just a passer-by in his life, that Gao Le would treat him the same as anyone in the bar, with smooth talk, hypocrisy and obedience.

The ex said that Li Ying is a person who can't afford to play with. On the day of the breakup, he said that Li Ying, you are too serious about your life. Things like feelings are not true. Not everyone can be as sincere as you. Hey, just play casually, don't take it too seriously.

So he simply didn't have the guts or courage to listen to Gao Le's explanation.

He ran away.

More precisely, he escaped.

The moon above the head also turned off the sound, and the quiet neighborhood seemed to be audible.The tired bird stood on the branch, watching the stupid and sad human beings aggressively fighting for love, and pennies and pennies.

Discuss who pays a little more emotionally to everyone.

Li Ying raised her other hand and gently placed it on Gao Le's hand.Then gently, but extremely resolutely, he gently pushed Gao Le's hand down.

Several complex emotions flashed in Gao Le's eyes for a moment, surprise, pain, reluctance, sadness, and finally peace.

"I see." The wind in the night sky was very cold, colder than the night wind was Gao Le's voice, Gao Le's heart was as dead and empty.

He said I got it, turned around and walked into the vast night.

Never looked back.

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My sister said she wouldn't play with me if she didn't get them together