healer love letter

Gao Le couldn't remember how he went back that night, and he also forgot whether he had chased Li Ying out. His memory was fuzzy, and many fragments that could not be connected were mixed together, and he couldn't figure out a normal sequence of logical development. .

He remembered that he seemed to be chasing after Li Ying's back for a few steps in a panic. The lights in the bar were dim, and he was so drunk that his feet were weak and he couldn't see the way clearly. He was blocked by a passing drunk after just two steps. , can only watch Li Ying's back disappear at the entrance.

The carefully prepared birthday present was not sent out, and the happy birthday that had been brewing all night was not said.

The deepest memory about that night is that Li Ying looked at him across the crowd, as if everything in the world suddenly disappeared, like snow passing without a trace, and the geese gone without a sound.They looked at each other across the crowd, his eyes were as cold as unmelted glaciers on the plateau, more desperate than all the despair Gao Le had seen before.

Gao Le's heartbeat almost stopped at that moment.

In the evening, Gao Le had a dream all night, dreaming of the past and dreaming of the present, and he dreamed of the car speeding in the middle of the night, piercing the night and crushing the silence, roaring on the deserted streets.Then there was a loud bang, the body of the car plunged into the guardrail on the side of the road, and the front of the car was hit into a dent.Gao Le looked at the co-pilot at a loss, and suddenly that face changed to that of Li Ying, with blood all over his face and cold eyes.

He said Gao Le, I am going to die.

I am going to die.

The word death was like an emotionless mechanical claw, strangling his throat fiercely, blocking his air and making him unable to breathe.

At the moment of dying, Gao Le suddenly opened his eyes.He lay on the bed in shock, his back covered in cold sweat.In the dark night, I reached out to grab the mobile phone next to the bed, clicked on the lock screen button to see the electronic time, and it was now ten past four in the night.

After taking a deep breath, Gao Le put down the phone and sighed deeply.

His memory was fuzzy, and in the end he wasn't sure if Li Ying showed up at the bar last night.He wasn't sure if that indifferent look was a dream or a real one.

Li Ying had never seen him like that.

Although his eyes had never been warm, they were different last night. There was more cold despair and strands of...fear in the cold eyes last night.

After waking up from the nightmare, Gao Le never fell asleep again. He lay on the bed for a long time, turned over dozens of times, and finally decided to wake up at the crack of dawn and make a new year's love bento for Dr. Li.

The psychological counseling center went to work at nine o'clock, and Gao Le arrived at 08:30. He stood at the door of the counseling center and waited without calling anyone.So much so that Li Mengyue was taken aback when she came to open the door. In fact, she didn't blame her. It was Gao Le who looked too embarrassed. He struggled all night as if he had worked hard day and night for half a month. There was vicissitudes and exhaustion in his eyes that could not be concealed. .He stood against the wall, his eyes fell on the floor tiles, until Li Mengyue came to him, he didn't find anyone approaching him.

"Boss Gao." Li Mengyue grabbed the key of the counseling center, tapped his shoulder lightly with his index finger, and tapped him twice in a row to wake him up from his thoughts.

Gao Le stood up straight and smiled, although a bit reluctantly.He wanted to come to Dr. Li today to explain clearly, so he forced himself to go out, and brought Li Ying a love box in the morning, but he didn't eat a bite.

I just want to see him sooner and explain in person.

"You came so early." Seeing Li Mengyue, Gao Le had nothing to say.

Li Mengyue could tell that Boss Gao had something on his mind, she was used to his playful smile, but now she suddenly saw this decadent side of him, she was a little moved.Li Mengyue inserted the key into the lock, without looking at Gao Le, and talked to him, "Boss Gao came earlier." She pushed the door open.

"Doctor Li usually arrives around nine o'clock, you wait for him in the front hall." Li Mengyue opened the door, put the key away and put it in her bag.Taking out the phone to check the time, he said, "I guess he'll be here soon."

"Although Dr. Li usually looks a little indifferent, he still has a good temper. If you have something to say, just talk about it. Don't quarrel."

Gao Le was stunned for a moment, and randomly realized what this sentence meant.He really likes the kind of smart people he meets in his life. Halfway through the conversation, you can tell what you mean with just a glance at the other person, and give you advice, but it's just a suggestion, never pointing at you arrogantly.

After Li Mengyue said this, she didn't continue. After all, she knew that she was just an outsider. She didn't know the cause and effect of many things. She couldn't help them judge who was right. All she could do was say this , Let Gao Le not be impulsive.

"Thank you." Gale said.

Li Mengyue turned her head and smiled at him, then went to the information desk to organize her things.

Li Ying arrived at [-]:[-], and as soon as she entered, she saw Gao Le standing in the front hall.But after he glanced at it, he didn't say anything, and went straight to his consultation room.

Gao Le raised his foot and chased after him.

"Doctor Li." Gao Le stretched out a foot to block the wooden door that was about to close.Grabbing the door frame with one hand, he pushed the door open forcefully.

"Listen to my explanation." Gao Le squeezed in through the open door and rushed to Li Ying.

Li Ying ignored her, put her briefcase on the desk, picked up her water glass, poured the cold clean water into the flower pot behind the door, got up and went to the water dispenser to get a glass of warm water, and fell silent again. He walked to his desk and opened his work notes.

He didn't look at Gao Le the whole time.

The ancients said that there is nothing more sad than death. Gao Le didn't understand it, but now he understands when Li Ying refuses to look into his eyes.It turns out that when the other party has no hope for you, it is more unacceptable to be ashamed than sad.

"Doctor Li." Gao Le rushed to Li Ying's desk.

"Yesterday I was drunk. I thought that person was you. I was really drunk." Gao Le was so anxious that he just wanted Li Ying to take a look at him.

"I wanted to say happy birthday to you yesterday, but I couldn't say it when you left."

Li Ying reverted overnight to become the indefatigable Dr. Li, aloof and untouchable.

"Boss Gao, I still have to work."

Gao Le continued to explain. "I really recognized the wrong person. I chased you out yesterday, but after I chased you out, I couldn't see your shadow." Gao Le wanted to cut out a heart, and showed Li Ying the red heart, you see Look at me, look at me.

But Li Ying didn't look up.

He tidied up his work notes in an orderly manner, drank the warm water that had just arrived slowly, and took out today's work schedule after drinking, familiarizing himself with the callers who were coming today.

"Boss Gao, I still have to work." No matter what Gao Le explained or justified, Li Ying only had this sentence from the beginning to the end, I still have to work, please go out.He didn't want to listen to Gao Le's explanation at all, or he wasn't interested in the explanation at all.

Gao Le saw that Li Ying was reticent, and he couldn't force him to listen to his explanation, thinking that maybe it would be beneficial to delay.He put the bento box on the table with a quiet expression.

"I'll put this here, remember to eat well at noon." Gao Le said.

"No need." Li Ying still didn't raise her eyes. "Boss Gao won't give this away anymore, it's unnecessary."

"Doctor Li."

"It's really unnecessary." Li Ying raised her eyes and met Gao Le's gaze.

When Li Ying didn't look at him just now, Gao Leduo hoped that Li Ying's eyes could fall on him. Now that Li Ying's eyes are looking at him openly, he wants to run away again.

His eyes are really too cold.

He is obviously a shy person, but his eyes can be daunting when he is cold.

"I see." Gao Le said that he got it, but instead of taking the bento box away, he opened the door and left by himself.

Li Ying didn't chase her out because of the convenience.

Gao Le stood at the door of the consultation room and sighed. He seemed to be able to see two lines that were going to meet, but they were now drifting away in different directions.

It's all his fault.

When drunk, the eyes are sleepy and delicate, and everything is confused. When sober, life is worse than death.

That's what Gale is now.

In the next few days, Gao Le called Li Ying, but he didn't answer, and he didn't reply to his WeChat messages.Gao Le could only stop him on the way to and from get off work, but every time Li Ying saw him, it was as if she hadn't seen him. If she was driving, she would just step on the gas pedal and drive away. The road under your feet.

He didn't want to say a word to Gao Le.

Sometimes Gao Le went to the counseling center and blocked Li Ying's door to prevent him from opening.Li Ying was neither impatient nor impatient, she just tried to persuade Gao Le not to be so childish. He said, Boss Gao, I still have to work.

Gao Le felt that he was going crazy.

He knew he was wrong, but nothing happened that day.Li Ying has always treated him with this attitude, leaving him no chance to defend himself, which made him feel as if he had committed some unforgivable mistake.

But nothing really happened.

Now he sticks to Li Ying's back every day like a dog's skin plaster, his posture low into the dust.

But Li Ying still turned a blind eye.

For a week, Gao Le and Li Ying couldn't talk, and the frequency of blocking him went from every day to the next day to once every three days.

The frequency is getting less and less.

Old Xu went to Tibet later than Fang Li, but returned earlier than him.Fang Li was supposed to be back last week, and he said he would go to Wuhan temporarily, so Gao Le and the others picked up Lao Xu first.

The reception banquet for Lao Xu was held at the Gaole Restaurant. I haven't seen him for more than half a month, and Lao Xu looked a little bit more in need of a beating.

Yu Lei took Lao Xu to the restaurant. As soon as he got off the car, he started talking about the young people who played music he met in Tibet, and how much effort he had to get them to agree to come to his bar to perform.

A few people haven't seen each other for a while, sitting together drinking beer, talking about New Year's Eve, talking about Gao Le, the only one among the bachelors who has a date.

"Where's Dr. Li, won't you come?" Chen Er didn't know that Gao Le and Dr. Li were angry. He only knew that Gao Le ran out with a box that night, thinking that the two of them must have made something happen.

"We had a quarrel." Gao Le was in a bad mood, depressed, and took a glass of wine for a long time and only licked it.

"Why are you arguing?" Old Xu also felt that this was too strange. A few days ago, Gao Le was like a dog in estrus in the group. This virtue, it seems that the blow is not small.

"I drank too much last week." Gao Le didn't want to recall what happened that day at all. That day was mainly caused by alcohol, and when he woke up, he wanted to kneel in front of him and apologize.

"How old is it?" Chen Er asked.

"That's right, I'm so drunk, a boy posted it while I wasn't paying attention, and he made a fuss about it."

"Are you fucking sick?" Chen Er got angry when he heard that, thinking that Gao Le's sex change was because he wanted to have a serious relationship, but who knew that going out was still such a virtue. "Didn't you fucking go with Dr. Li?"

Gao Le usually hurts Chen Er so much that he can't lift his head up, but now he doesn't dare to reply a word despite his words.

"...Ah." He stuck out his tongue to lick the wine again.

"If you don't want to drink it, just put it there, don't lick it like a dog." Yu Lei snatched his wine glass and put it aside.

Just now, he was able to hold the wine glass but it was cover, but now the wine glass was taken away, his hands were empty, and his hands didn't know where to go.

"Just say whether you owe it or not." Chen Er continued to criticize Gao Le. "Dr. Li is such a good person. If you don't concentrate on guarding, you will be a mess all day long."

A Dou who cannot be supported, the mud cannot support the wall.

"I didn't." Gao Le hurriedly explained. "I was really drunk, I didn't see my face clearly when someone posted it, I thought it was Dr. Li..."

Chen Er hated that iron could not be made into steel. If there was a water tank in this meeting, Gao Le would have to be drowned in it, out of sight and out of mind.

"Then do I have a chance?" Old Xu Qing's emotional changes were like riding a roller coaster. One second he lamented that Gao Le didn't know how to cherish it, but the next second he felt that his opportunity had come and he had to seize it. "Doctor Li's abstinence fan is too much for my appetite, just last time he wore a black shirt, my God." Old Xu shook his head, little stars flew out of his eyes.

Gao Le reached out and slapped Lao Xu on the back. "Can you stop thinking about Dr. Li, if you fucking think about him again, I'll pickle you."

"How to pickle? Pickle into radish or pickle into cabbage?" Old Xu smiled.

Gao Le brought over his beer again, leaned his neck back and drank it in one breath. "Wait, don't fucking think about him, it's mine."

"Yo." Old Xu held his glass, the orange liquid in the glass was shaking, and there were tiny white foams on the wall of the glass. "You're going to mess with us here, what's the trick in the nest, if you're awesome, don't be cowardly when you see Dr. Li."

"Damn, I'll chase him back tomorrow, believe it or not?"

"Trust me, I'll be a bachelor for the rest of my life." Old Xu pouted.

"You old cucumber, wait to be a bachelor for the rest of your life." Gao Le grabbed his car keys and turned to leave.

"Stop drinking?" Yu Lei asked him.

"I'm not in the mood, I'm going to chase my doctor Li back."

The author has something to say:

Boss Gao, come on!