sick white moonlight

At the end of July, at the Olympic Games held in Los Angeles, athletes from this country under their feet achieved good results.

At that time, He An received an admission letter from UC Berkeley.

In late August, when people in China were still cheering for the "three consecutive championships" won by the women's volleyball players in the Olympics, he set foot on the other side of the ocean.

Before going to the airport, Lu Chen sent a book to He An.

He An accepted it and put it in the suitcase that had been prepared.

On the day of boarding the plane, Lu Chen specially went to the airport to see He An off.

He An's mother, Wu Bihua, was also there. Seeing the plane gradually go away, Lu Chen couldn't help feeling a sense of loss in his heart.

Turning to look at the stylish but calm lady next to her with light makeup and a smile on her face, although she was a little worried, she was more relieved.

Lu Chen clearly distinguished that it was the comfort brought about by making his children better, more outstanding, and achieving greater achievements.

This made Lu Chen a little ashamed of his loss.

He should have been blessed, or happy, but he was so sad.

And the book he gave him, did he know?

Probably not, after all he kept it so secretive, maybe he won't find out in his whole life.

"How's your study going? It should be pretty good." On the way back, Wu Bihua, a mother, said to her son's friend, this young man who seemed to her to be very nice.

"It's okay, Auntie." Lu Chen tried his best to relax his facial expression, so that he would not appear so overly nervous.

"Study hard, after all, no matter what, it's always right to learn more." Wu Bihua taught me, "When I was young, I didn't particularly like reading, and I always liked to go out with my friends. Playing. Later, my mother couldn’t see it, so she always took me home and taught me to read and write. I was also annoyed at that time, other children could go out to play, but I could only stay at home. "

Having said this, she smiled with some emotion.

Lu Chen tilted his head slightly and listened carefully, and the woman's mellow and gentle voice sounded out.

"Actually, at that time, it was not very peaceful. My mother was very afraid that I would have an accident, so she didn't like to let me run around. I couldn't bear it anymore, so she read novels to me. Slowly, I also fell in love with it. Writing. Later, when I was a little older, the country was more stable, and I went to school, because I read a lot of books, and the composition of each test would be praised by the teacher in the grade."

"After being encouraged and envied by my classmates, I became more and more fond of studying. Later, I passed the entrance examination of the Capital Normal University, and then I met the child's father. During those turbulent years, my life with his father was not the same. Easy, do everything secretly, dare not hide any books.

But children have to learn, and we have to learn. We have no choice but to use our brains to remember. We often talk about problems in the dead of night and when no one is around. Some things that children need to know are also taught to children.Of course, fortunately, luck is not bad, although life is relatively poor, but not knocked down.Later, after the turmoil recovered, it was reused again. "

Wu Bihua's words were filled with a sense of joy in bitterness.

"Little Lu, let me tell you that a single family does not limit his achievements. Take my son Lin Xiu as an example. He may be used to going smoothly and has no capacity to bear it.

When I heard the doctor tell me that he might not be able to walk in the future, the first thing I thought was not that he was still alive, that was enough.On the contrary, I was really, really afraid that he would not think about it. "

Wu Bihua wiped her slightly moist eyes, and continued speaking with a little choking.

"As a mother, I really hate that this accident hurt my child, but sometimes, life is like this, you can never imagine what will happen in the future, just like my mother's death."

"So I hoped that he could come out. Fortunately, I went to see him later. He thought about it and was willing to face all of this. Then you came over, and I can see that he likes you as a friend very much."

"As for you, I know that your family conditions are not very good, but it also puts upward pressure on you. Don't limit your own development, birth does not determine everything."

Wu Bihua said with emotion, "You need to relax your mind, keep a stable mind, don't be afraid of other people's eyes, and work hard. Some things are not impossible, and you haven't tried them at all."

"I remember that I had many classmates back then who also came from poor backgrounds, but they were diligent, studious and enterprising, and they are now considered to be the best among the crowd."

"Before the kid Lin Xiu left, he chatted with me. He said that you look down on yourself too much and lack self-confidence. This is not a big deal."

"You, you have defeated so many people and come to one of the two schools that candidates in the country most want to enter. You are already very good."

Wu Bihua patted Lu Chen on the shoulder beside him, and smiled, "You are still young, you should try a lot, and if you want to do something, just do it bravely, and don't worry too much about it."

"Don't, like old people like us, when we reach a certain age, we always regret some things we didn't do."

Lu Chen was stunned, but he pursed his lips and remained silent.

The lady in front of her was so generous and kind, but she didn't know what was in her heart, she didn't know what kind of feelings she had for her child, he was ashamed.

But he clearly realized that no one can change his mind.

He wanted to run after him, to follow him.

Now he is more and more sure of this.

In the first semester of his sophomore year, Lu Chen even felt that he was going crazy, and his study seemed to be the focus and everything in his life.

Except for the necessary exercise, he is basically in the library, studying hard and hard.

That's right, he will run long distances to exercise his physical fitness.

After all, scientific research is not an easy task. On this road, one must strive for intelligence, hard work, and physical strength.

After all, apart from the rare and rare geniuses, when they reach a certain level, they are all about the same level of intelligence. At this time, the competition is about other factors.

At the end of that year, he won the scholarship for this academic year. He was not only No.1 in the entire major this semester, but he also won the first place in every subject. Ask the teacher.

His hard work in studies led one of his roommates to complain that he took stimulants, while another said that he was motivated by a broken relationship.

Lu Chen just smiled back without explaining too much.

At the end of autumn and winter vacation, he went home once and took the green leather train. He took the walkman that Lin Xiu gave him before he left, and carefully put it in his bag. The Walkman traveled through most of China together.

It can be said that there was a cheerful smile on his face, although there was indeed a bit of bitterness inside, but he thought he had faced all this squarely.

In fact, during this period of time, Zeng Xiaozhu came to him once.

Not long after, this outstanding-looking woman has become more mature, as if she has lost her past youthfulness and excessive fantasies, and she is more stable than before.

However, what this woman said surprised him very much.

"I think I should like you." She was wearing a bright red dress that day, and her black and smooth black hair was scattered around her shoulders, which was in stark contrast to her fair complexion.

At that time, she stood on tiptoe slightly, with her hands back, standing in front of him, with the light blue sky behind her, her face was slightly rosy, bright and generous, but her agile pair seemed to contain Qianyan Wanyu looked at him silently, as if waiting for his reply.

At that time, Lu Chen had a sudden feeling.

But he quickly adjusted, and his answer was very simple and crisp.

"terribly sorry."

"You have someone you like, right?"

He thought she would leave, but he didn't expect that she looked at him for a long time, with a little bit of confusion and puzzlement in her eyes, and then asked in an affirmative tone.

Hearing this, he scratched his head, a little embarrassed.

He didn't intend to answer at first, he just wanted to silence the topic, but he didn't expect her to speak at all.

"You like him right?"

"I know, you like him, I can tell." Zeng Xiaozhu lowered her head, her rosy lips moved slightly.

"But he has already left, and it is very likely that he will spend his whole life abroad and will never come back again."

"You and I are very clear about this matter. How many people have gone abroad and how many have returned."

Zeng Xiaozhu's tone was very calm and straightforward, she stripped away everything she was hiding, she looked at him with such sharp eyes.

"Besides, it's impossible for you and him, you know?"

Lu Chen's face suddenly turned pale and gloomy, but after a while, he spoke seriously.

"I know."

Zeng Xiaozhu looked at Lu Chen, and a sense of guilt slowly emerged in her heart.

When did she become such a person.

For her own selfishness, for the information in those memories, she took the initiative to come to find the person in front of her.

Homosexuality at this time is still a disease in various definitions, and she understands it very clearly.

With those memories, she also understands that this road is not easy to walk, it can be said that it is very difficult to walk.

Moreover, she knew that the person in front of her was born in a rural area, and his family might have never even heard of this word.

does she love himShe knew very well that she didn't love so much, she just had a good impression.

As for what she said, she knew very well that not everything was for the good of the person in front of her.

"I know that my relationship may not have the so-called result, but I want to follow behind him."

After a while, Lu Chen said quietly.