Abuse's extravagance

Waiting is a long and excruciating process.

Just waiting for just one hour, tossed all Luo Jie's mind to the point of exploding.

The heart contracted harder than usual, the blood in the body flowed like a riot, and the cells and hairs in the whole body couldn't calm down even for a moment.

At this time, he heard the sound of metal collision coming from the direction of the door, he couldn't bear to stand up from the sofa, and quickly walked to the entrance to meet the person who occupied his thoughts.

"You..." Pulling his thin lips, he wanted to express his dissatisfaction quickly, but when he saw Roy was wet all over, he narrowed his eyes and said, "Why are you all wet?"

It was as if he had just been salvaged from the water, and his whole body was completely soaked. This embarrassment punched him hard in the heart, and the sense of self-blame in his heart was even deeper.

Roy didn't expect him to wait in front of the door, and faced him directly with a calm expression.

Before opening this door, he had stood at the door and hesitated for several minutes, but he never had the courage to turn the key in his hand.

He knew very well what was waiting for him behind this door.

Heartbreak, pain, arguments, torment, ruptures, and separations.

Taken together, it is the abyss of despair.

If you know that the result of taking action is nothing, you still plunge into it, then you are a fool.

It is undeniable that he is a fool, a fool who is willing to give everything for love.For the one he loves, he is willing to sacrifice his insignificant feelings to ensure the future of the other party.

However, after finally overcoming the inner barrier and crossing this door, Luo Jie easily destroyed the psychological construction he had made with just one look.

He looked away, and said indifferently: "...Because of the rain."

(What is it because of the rain?) Luo Jie's brows were gathered together, and he directly expressed his inner thoughts on his face.

It's raining, so I get wet all over. What kind of logic is this?

Doesn't he have a car?

Why not say that he is in a bad mood, and he is more acceptable to go for a walk in the rain.

The black eyes swept over his deliberately avoiding face, and saw that the pair of star eyes had lost their previous brilliance, looking negative and dejected.Presumably, the heart hidden in his icy body was also damp and heavy from the rain!

"You look pale like a ghost, go and take a hot bath." Instead of blame, he stretched out his hand to hold the cold, slender hand, Luo Jie led him into the house, and walked towards the bathroom and go.

Putting his hands on his thin shoulders, he personally sent him into the bathroom, "You probably haven't eaten dinner yet, I'll cook some hot food, and you can come to the restaurant for dinner after you take a shower." With a loving smile on his face, he pointed Masaroi's cheek gave way to him with a gentle confession.

Hearing the door being gently closed, Roy suddenly leaned against the wall weakly, letting go of all his defenses.

"Jie..." The part touched by those big palms still had the warmth from Luo Jie. He embraced his body, and dared to respond to his feelings in the space where only he was alone.

With Luo Jie's figure in his mind, he stared forward out of focus, and slowly removed the wet, sticky and heavy clothes on his body, making his body and heart completely naked.

Standing under the shower equipment, turn the switch, the warm water sprinkles immediately from the top, and the gurgling water slides down the ground along the curve of the body, quickly taking away the chill on the body.

Take a little shampoo from the bottle on the side shelf, put it on your hands, rub it on your hair, rub it gently to form a fine foam, and then wash it off with water, the mist with floral fragrance will fill the whole space at once.

Normally speaking, taking a bath should be something that can relax people's body and mind. Right now, Roy is not in the mood to enjoy it.

All the scrubbing actions were carried out in an unconscious state. His eyes stopped on the white tiles, and he fell into his thoughts and had a conversation with himself.

He had foreseen in advance that if he treated Luo Jie with an unforgiving tone and serious language when he met Luo Jie, then he could still force himself to follow the situation and say those two words cruelly.

However, what he is most afraid of is facing the current situation.

Once he saw Luo Jie opened his tender eyes, cared about him with a tone that understood his mood, and tolerated his behavior, he seemed to have forgotten how to speak, and his voice was all stuck in his throat.

(What should I do...?) He frowned, his expression quite depressed.

Suddenly, he turned off the hot water switch, picked up the shower, and let the cold water pour directly from the top of his head.

It was a cold and hot March day, and there was still a hint of chill in the water. The cold water instantly extinguished the heat on the skin. The body could not adapt to this gap, and bumps appeared.

It’s so cold!

He gasped and shivered.The chill seeps into the capillary pores, penetrates the muscle layer, and reaches the bottom of the heart along the blood, and the thoughts become calm and clear.

(That's right...) He raised a mocking smile.

Huang Jingying only gave him two days. He shouldn't be indecisive and waste time on unnecessary inner struggles; he should cut the mess quickly and end this relationship.

Even though Luo Jie would get angry and lose his temper and refuse his request, he was absolutely sure that he could persuade him.With Luo Jie's love for him as a bet, he loves him so much, and he will definitely agree to him in the end.

After quickly turning off the cold water, Roy reached for the bathrobe on the hanger and put it on, and walked back to the room with wet steps to get dressed.

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While he was taking a shower, Luo Jie came to the kitchen to prepare a belated dinner.Still thinking about the temperature of his palms, she planned to cook a pot of hot porridge to warm his body.

Watching the white mist rising from the pot, and the white rice in the boiling water kept tumbling, he took a spoon and scooped up some to test the hardness.When the rice grains are boiled to the point that they can be easily crushed by hand, start to process the ingredients that are added to the porridge.

After dicing all the ingredients, he put them into the pot one by one according to the cooking time of the ingredients.

When the last ingredients were added, Roy's steady, non-warm voice suddenly came from behind.

"Ji...I have something to tell you."

Still holding a handful of chopped cabbage in his hand, Luo Jie looked back at him directly.

Seeing the seriousness on that face that he had never seen before, he knew that he wanted to talk about Huang Jingying's mother and daughter, and also saw through his mentality.

"Give me another 5 minutes, okay? The porridge is almost ready. You go to the restaurant and wait for me. Let's talk while eating." He responded with his usual gentle tone without changing his face.Then, he turned around, threw the things in his hands into the pot, and continued with other actions.

Originally, he wanted to finish speaking in a hurry, but when he interrupted him like this, a look of astonishment flashed across Roy's face.

With his lips parted slightly, he wanted to speak but stopped staring at Luo Jie's back, but in the next second, he walked obediently to the restaurant and waited.

After about a while, Luo Jie appeared behind the door with a pot of hot porridge in his hand.

"Have you been waiting for a long time? It's time to eat now." With a smile on his face, he brought the cooked porridge to the table.

Roy never took his eyes off him.

He watched Luo Jie go back to the kitchen to get two sets of bowls and chopsticks, put a bowl of porridge in front of him with a spoon, and give the other bowl to himself.

Warmly reminded: "The porridge is very hot, don't burn yourself." After that, he came to the seat opposite him and sat down, ready to eat.

He waited for the moment to speak.However, the longer the time dragged on, the rising adrenaline made his heart beat faster, his whole body shivered continuously, and his hands and feet were cold.

He held the hot bowl in front of his eyes, trying to calm down, took a deep breath, and moved his lips tremblingly: "Jie..."

"Huh?" Luo Jie raised his eyes and fixed the focus on his face.

Stared by those deep eyes, Roy suddenly felt a tightness in his chest.All nerves tense, and the sound of my heart "pounding" can be clearly heard in my ears.

Nervous, fearful, flustered, negative emotions that forced him to retreat kept coming to his mind, but he clenched his trembling hands tightly and said bravely, "Let's separate!"

Luo Jie changed color suddenly, immediately put down the bowl in his hand, and looked at him seriously, "Do you know what you are talking about now?" His voice was lowered with a sense of warning.

The porcelain made a harsh sound when it touched the marble table, and he could hear how angry he was.However, that was just the appearance. In fact, he was quite shocked that Roy would have such pessimistic and terrible thoughts.

"You heard what I said very clearly, didn't you?" Roy looked directly at him with fearless black eyes, and responded clearly.

Luo Jie frowned even more, and looked at him with an iron face.

The two people's eyes met and a spark burst out, the strong smell of gunpowder spread, the oxygen in the air instantly became thinner, and the atmosphere suddenly dropped to freezing point.

After a stalemate for a while, seeing Roy's stubborn face on the floor and insisting on his own opinion, Luo Jie sighed and tried to communicate with him softly: "I know you said that because of Huang Jingying's mother and daughter, but , so what if she gave birth to my child, it doesn't mean we have to break up."

That kid was indeed a threat to them.Although he has said that he does not want children, he is not an irresponsible man.

It's just that there are many ways to be responsible. They can choose the method that minimizes the damage, and they don't have to go to the point of breaking up.

Roy looked at him sadly, wanting to tell him: things are not as simple as he thought.

However, when he thought of the consequences of confessing, it was unimaginable, and he was thinking about him, so he suppressed the urge to speak up.

He lowered his head in an evasive manner, staring at the porridge in front of him, and said nah-na: "It's not all because of them, recently...I've thought about a lot of things, I think...we can't continue with this relationship." What a good one The high-sounding reason came out of his mouth, but it was extremely ironic.

"Why not!?" Luo Jie propped his hands on the table and asked passionately.

Roy raised his eyes in shock, and looked at him with a complicated expression, "You still ask me why I can't!"

"You... don't forget that we have an indelible blood relationship." He quickly turned his face away, clenched his hands, and said with a tangled and bitter face.

damned!Why did he have to force him to tell this fact.

Didn't he know that he hated himself so much for being his younger brother all the time, if he could, he wished he could drain all the blood from his body.

There is sadness and pain in his eyes, and that pain has been in the depths of his soul for a long time, which can never be resolved or eliminated.

Seeing the sadness in his eyes, Luo Jie's whole heart was twisted into a ball.

Recalling how many years of battles between heaven and man, the two decided to be together, promised each other for life, and then supported each other all the way to this day.

He knew that Roy had been pretending to be strong these past few years, hiding his anxiety and guilt in his heart.

Although this relationship is not allowed by the world and is cast aside, he can feel Roy's dedication and loyalty to the relationship.

He didn't think he made this decision now because he couldn't stand the condemnation of his conscience.

"Can you really let go of this relationship?" Luo Jie looked at him sadly and asked softly.

Roy gritted his teeth and looked at him pitifully.

How could he let go of his feelings for Luo Jie, even if they separated, he still loved him, even if he returned to the relationship between brothers, that feeling would always exist in his heart, and he would never forget it.

"I can.."

The moment he uttered those three words with his heart on his back, his heart suddenly felt a sharp pain.

A big hole was dug in his heart by the betrayal, and he was crying silently. The hot blood and tears rolled over his chest, bringing a sharp pain like suffocation.

He frowned, tightened his shoulders slightly, and took a few breaths to restrain the pain from spreading, so that he would not cry in front of Luo Jie.

For the first time, he experienced what it means to be heartbroken.

Hearing his response, Luo Jie clenched his fists, with grief and anger in his heart.

"Okay! Even if you can let go of this feeling, but I can't!" His eyes were full of blood, he slammed his palm on the table, and shouted: "You said that you want me to live only for you, so what about my feelings? ? Where should my relationship go from now on?"

His loss of control made Roy feel sad.Almost couldn't hold it anymore, and planned to take back the words of breaking up, just to get back his confident expression.

But he pinched his thigh hard, telling himself not to be soft-hearted for a moment, ruining Jie's life.

With a hint of apology on his pale face, he parted his lips and said sadly, "People are fickle, let alone people's hearts, jie, one day you will meet someone who is more suitable for you." He will love her more than himself, Create happier and happier memories with her, and those memories will one day cover the traces of their love.

When. ．All the lingering things they had ever had are just clouds and smoke.

Luo Jie shook his head in disbelief.

Suddenly, he stepped forward and quickly reached Roy's side. "Xiao Yi, separation is not the only option. I beg you, don't abuse yourself and me like this, okay? I beg you..." Knelt down, held his hand and begged in a low voice.

Seeing the transparent liquid in his eyes, Roy's heart seemed to be rubbed hard by his hands, the pain was terribly painful, and finally he couldn't help but shed tears.

He held Jie's face with both hands, his eyes were filled with distress and reluctance, and he choked up and said: "Jie, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for making you so painful and uncomfortable..."

Thinking that Roy had changed his mind, Luo Jie showed a glimmer of hope on his face, but unexpectedly, he then said something that made him very angry.

"Please forgive me. I have to atone for what I did. If you don't want me to suffer, then agree to my request, take responsibility for their mother and daughter, and marry Huang Jingying." Roy looked sad. , begging him.

Luo Jie stared at him, as if the world was about to end.

"Are you crazy? Do you know what you're talking about? I can be responsible for the children, but I don't have to marry Huang Jingying!" He stood up and grabbed Roy's shoulders excitedly.

Facing his tough attitude, Roy had no choice but to say that thing: "She is dying."

Luo Jie looked at him in astonishment, "What do you mean by that?" There were so many surprises today, suddenly I became a father, and suddenly my child's mother was dying.

There was a sneer at the corner of his mouth, he laughed at himself as the person involved, and he didn't know the truth until this point.

"She has cancer and has only half a year to live. I hope you can fulfill her last wish." Roy didn't want to use his compassion so despicably to achieve his goal, but he really had no choice.

"Everything is my fault. If I hadn't provoked you on purpose, maybe things wouldn't have come to this point."

If you ask him: If he could go back to that night eight years ago, would he still make the same choice?

His answer is still yes.

But in order to convince Luo Jie, he had to express his deep guilt for this matter and win his sympathy.

Luo Jie was moved by these words, and immediately understood his thoughts on making this decision.

"Xiaoyi, it's not your fault. If I had been loyal to my feelings earlier, such a thing would not have happened." Feeling sorry for Roy who took the blame alone, he immediately hugged him tightly and comforted him.

The scorching body temperature gave Roy great comfort, and his whole heart seemed to be healed.

I really want to respond to him with my own hands, but my reason doesn't allow it.

"Jie... Can you marry her?" He begged, begged, and begged tirelessly.

Luo Jie looked solemn, and slowly let go of his hand.

"No, I can't marry someone I don't love, do you know what that means?" In the future, there will be an irreparable rift in their relationship.

Roy got angry, grabbed his collar suddenly, and shouted: "You are so ruthless!" Things have come to this point, he is not even willing to grant the wish of the dying person.

For the first time, he felt that the man he loved so much was so cold and heartless, but when he thought that he was so cold-blooded and heartless for his own sake, his heart was really heavy and chaotic.

Luo Jie retorted: "You are the one who is ruthless. It is so easy to give up our relationship, but I will never let you go." The big palm quickly wrapped his waist around him, trapping him in his arms In the middle, rudely kissed the softness.

The savage tongues of fire invaded his territory, and the thin lips ravaged and bit violently with punishment, even if they tasted the strong smell of rust, they would not let go.

Roy let him kiss roughly, and even though it was so violent, he could still feel his surging, passionate love.

Seeing him leaving the restaurant angrily and walking towards the door, he yelled, "Jie!"

But Luo Jie ignored his begging, slammed the door hard, and "jumped", closing the emotional rift between them.

Tears intertwined and blurred his vision, and Roy's legs slipped and sat on the ground weakly.

Is he doing it wrong?

Because I love him and want to protect him, I force him so unreasonably. Is it really wrong to do so! ?

Writer's words:

Sorry. This article took so long to post

It's so difficult to present a man's state of mind....Fortunately, I set the protagonist's personality to be more sentimental at the beginning

Otherwise it should be difficult to make a man shed tears

But to be honest, since I was born, I have probably seen two men cry in front of me (except family and friends)

It was time to talk about breaking up.

Seeing men's tears. Really feel overwhelmed. (PS. I'm not a heartless person. I'm a victim!!!)

So don't think why Luo Jie in the story is crying?

The feeling of loving someone but being forced to let go... really makes a big man shed tears of true love