fall in love with a mentor

After returning home, it was already more than three o'clock in the morning, the brain was too heavily loaded and had lost the ability to think, and Jiaxi fell asleep on the bed in a daze.Everything in the past was woven into a chaotic and fiery dream, making him float in joy and pain.I can no longer look for such gentle and affectionate eyes, Junyi's eyes as deep as the night are full of despair; I can no longer feel such lingering and passionate kisses, and the fragrance of those thin lips has all withered on the wind……

It was already past one o'clock in the afternoon when Jiaxi opened his eyes again, he was physically and mentally exhausted and found it difficult to even move.Sleep can't heal emotional wounds, but she yearns so much for the only haven where she can escape from reality, so Jiaxi let her soul go and continue to sleep.It was already night when I woke up again, I saw the tiger tooth pendant on my phone, I couldn’t help but think of the happy time I spent in Phuket, I couldn’t help feeling sad, I tore it off, and threw it away.

It's not the first time, but falling out of love is not a vaccine, you will be immune after experiencing it once.And experience doesn't seem to play a role at all at this point.Jiaxi struggled to get out of bed, and cooked a bowl of noodles for her hungry stomach. It was the boiling white air that moistened her eyes, or the vivid memory that stung her nerves, and tears fell drop by drop into the pot. .The last time Junyi cooked instant noodles for himself like this, but she shed tears because of missing Chen Han, but this time he shed tears for Junyi. Man meeting the wrong person at the wrong time?

Suppressing tears and eating noodles, Jiaxi started to pack her things. Before, she wanted to draw the love story of two people into a cartoon, and she had already accumulated a lot of drafts, but now there is no need for it.I wanted to throw it in the trash can, but I couldn't bear it, so I hesitated and stuffed it into the cabinet. I don't want to forget it immediately, I just want it to be out of sight and out of mind.Jiaxi doesn't remember hearing someone say that loving someone may not be how heartbreaking they are when they meet, but how heartbroken they are when they lose them.At this time, facing a bright moon and a sky full of stars, Jiaxi's heart was filled with pain.

After being absent from work for more than a day, Jiaxi finally decided to go to the laboratory the next day.It turned out that because of the expectation of meeting Junyi, going to school to do experiments has become a very pleasant thing, but now he no longer knows what expression to use to face him.After dawdling until after two o'clock in the afternoon, I came to the office with the cheek.If Junyi still has some common sense, he should avoid going there at this moment, instead of squeezing into the same fume hood with him to do experiments, right?Looking at the dimly lit ventilated kitchen, Jiaxi knew that he hadn't come, and the furnishings in the ventilated kitchen were the same as when he left last Friday, Jiaxi couldn't help being a little surprised.Didn't Junyi come yesterday?He was obviously a victim, why did he act like he was hurt?

Not in the mood to think about Junyi, Jiaxi plugged in a pair of earphones, walked into the laboratory, and prepared to finish the unfinished pillars of last week.Suddenly, she was patted on the shoulder, and Jiaxi almost dropped the reaction bottle in her hand to the ground. Looking back, she saw that it was Senior Brother Chen Ke, and hurriedly took off the earphones.

"You put your voice so loud, be careful to damage your ears." Hearing the singing voice coming from the earphones, Chen Ke blamed with concern.

"Well, what's the matter, brother?" Jia Xi asked while lowering her voice.

"Have you heard? Johnny took a week off."

"Oh!" Jiaxi was a little surprised. Junyi, who loves chemistry so much, would ask for a week off. Breaking up should not have such a big impact on him, who has a villainous personality. As a victim He has survived by himself, so what reason does he have to ask for leave?

"Don't you ask him why he asked for leave?" Facing Jiaxi's indifferent attitude, Chen Ke was a little angry, "He is also our mentor after all, right?"

"Well, I was thinking about it." Jiaxi prevaricated.

"Your complexion is not very good. By the way, you didn't come yesterday. You are sick, right? Jiaxi?" Seeing that Jiaxi's expression was abnormal, Chen Ke also felt that his reproach was a bit reckless, and asked with concern .

"A little ailment, nothing. Well, what's the matter with Johnny?"

"He was in a car accident."

"Huh?" Pale face was full of surprise, Jiaxi waited for Chen Ke to make further explanation.

"It's just a minor injury according to him, it's okay to take a rest if it doesn't get in the way."

Are you kidding me, got into a car accident?At this juncture?In Singapore, a city with civilized traffic, it is not so easy to have a traffic accident!

Could it be... Suicide!Junyi is not a person whose emotions are so weak that he needs to commit suicide to heal his inner wounds. Besides, in this not so deep relationship, that man is playing the role of a deceiver. He will die because of his failure to deceive. Suicide for you?Save yourself, Jiaxi, is your paranoia attacking again?No matter how vulnerable you are, you don't need to use this kind of fantasy to get comfort!

But Jiaxi thought of Junyi's desperate eyes at that time, he didn't know what kind of unknown story was hidden behind those eyes.But under Junyi's dejected and helpless expression, there may be something else hidden in the whole matter, it's not just a simple deception. Thinking of this, Jiaxi began to sympathize with Junyi again. Being able to walk out of the shadows and looking for his substitute all the time, from an outsider's perspective, Junyi is a complete copy of a lover.Thinking about it this way, my anger at being deceived and my contempt for myself are not so strong. The way for weak people to escape from reality is to make up a good reason for themselves to deceive others, right?

"Johnny asked you to come when he called yesterday?"

"Hey?"

"I think he just wants you to help him deal with the reaction? I said you weren't there, and he didn't say anything else."

"Oh!" Jiaxi agreed. Does the inquiry through the laboratory telephone contain a little bit of concern?Jiaxi thought.

After breaking two or three triangular bottles, Jiaxi, who was so preoccupied and out of her mind, finally finished her work and was ready to go home.There were at least three ways home, but the legs followed the one they used to walk back as if by magic.It is also the picturesque Yunnan Garden, the pedestrian bridge surrounded by flowers, and the food court crowded with people. The only difference is that everything has been cast a layer of gray in Jiaxi's eyes.At this moment, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, it will only add to the sadness, and no matter how lively the scene is, it will only double the loneliness.

The author has something to say: Happy New Year, update two chapters, although these two are a bit cruel!

☆, difficult to distinguish between true and false