fall in love with a mentor

For the first time, I feel that the night in Singapore is so cold, so cold!Jiaxi stumbled out of Junyi's house and walked on the deserted street, her body and mind were cold and her thoughts were all hopeless.At the most intimate moment, that bastard shouted someone else's name - John!It turns out that Chen Han has always been the only one in his heart, and he has always been Chen Han's substitute. When he stared at himself, his eyes actually passed him, and he looked at Chen Han in his mind!That person just wants a place for emotional sustenance, and it doesn't matter whether he looks like it or not. It is precisely because of his pure experience like a blank sheet of paper that it is easier to draw the illusion of the person he misses?This can explain the reason why he tolerated and doted on him in every way, because Chen Han's death made him lose the chance to love him forever. With guilt, he gave himself all the warmth, but that was not What I expected, you bastard!

He is really a big liar, if he is not drunk today, maybe he will live in this false relationship forever.

He hugged his trembling body tightly, but couldn't squeeze the pain out of his body.He didn't know how long it would take him to stand up after this blow, another eight years?He didn't even dare to think about how to spend more than 2000 days and nights!

When I got back to the apartment, I realized that I forgot my wallet and mobile phone, and the keys and access card were in my wallet.I walked out of that room with the mood of fleeing, I would rather spend the night outside than go back to face Junyi.In his deep sleep, he should not have noticed it, right?

After crossing the road, there is an ancestral house. The first floor of the ancestral house has only load-bearing columns and no rooms. These spaces are usually a good place for people to enjoy the shade.Jia Xi sat down on a stone bench, intending to spend the night here, and then apply to the duty room to open the door tomorrow.

Lying on the stone bench, the tears gradually dried on his face, those past events flooded into his mind one after another, the first time he saw Junyi was still clearly imprinted in his mind, but he never imagined that something had happened between the two of them With so many things, life really seems to be one dream after another.Now that he knew how Jun Yi felt about him, he tried to restore the truth of the story.If Junyi did not lie, then he really went to Bintan Island with Chen Han, and Junyi who revisited his old place must have set foot on that beach again with the idea of ​​revisiting the past.Jia Xi still remembers that night when he was woken up by the coconuts falling from the tree, and saw the slightly drunk Jun Yi coming back from the beach, obviously he was going to mourn Chen Han at that time.Then they watched the football game on the beach, drank beer, and everything that happened, maybe it was just a replica of Jun Yi and Chen Han's past!

terrible!How shameless!Jia Xi grabbed her hair vigorously trying to force such thoughts out of her mind, but she couldn't do anything, that was the only explanation close to the truth, why didn't she notice it before?

He was already unable to analyze anything, and all the sweet memories afterwards had become extremely sour!Why is it always me who gets hurt?Deep in his heart he was screaming, but in front of him was a pale reality that he could not change.

"What are you doing here?"

handsome?He actually found here?Raising her head in a daze, what caught her eyes was an unbelievably surprised expression, Jia Xi stood up suddenly, the last thing she wanted to see now was this person!The long sitting posture made his legs a little numb, and he couldn't help but tilt his body, almost falling down.

"What's the matter, honey?" Junyi took a step forward to support him, looking at Jiaxi in a very puzzled heart, but Jiaxi turned her head stubbornly, honey, the name is also Chen Han, he used to call it ?Sounds disgusting now.

"What's the matter, honey?" Through the dim streetlights, Junyi was even more surprised when he saw the messy tears on Jiaxi's face.When he woke up, he found that Jiaxi was gone. Although he was drunk, he still vaguely remembered what happened.After searching everywhere, there was no trace of Jiaxi at all, and the wallet and mobile phone were still left on the table in the living room, so Junyi became anxious.Even if he was a little drunk, he shouldn't do anything too outrageous, right?And it's not the first time to hug Jiaxi, after much deliberation, I can't think of any reason.So he hurriedly changed his clothes and ran out to find him.He took his key card and went to his room to check, but there was no one there, so he could only look around anxiously, but luckily Jiaxi didn't go far.

"It's nothing." Jiaxi replied coldly, took the wallet and mobile phone from him, turned around and left, seeing no hope, and also lost the desire to justify.

"What's nothing? You're here again, can you be more frank!" The more anxious Junyi looked at him angrily, his temper became irritable, "Look into my eyes and talk, is that okay?" Jiaxi turned her head and raised her hand, but was thrown away by Jiaxi, who stubbornly turned her back to him.

Junyi sighed helplessly, thinking that no matter what happened, he should apologize first, "Jia, I know I'm drunk, and I may have done something you can't tolerate, but I thought you agreed. If it's because of this, I apologize, and it won't happen next time."

Jiaxi's indifferent back made Junyi realize that this might not be the real problem, "Well, is it because I was too rough and drunk, so I didn't control myself, I'm sorry. I should be gentler, it hurts You, I'm sorry!" He said and patted Jia Xi's shoulder in a friendly manner.

"Go away!" Jia Xi roared.Please stop cutting my bloody heart with your gentle knife!

"What's the matter?" Junyi was really anxious, according to his understanding, Jiaxi is definitely not a vexatious person, and she would not just sit here in the middle of the night blowing air just because of a trivial matter.But he really couldn't figure out what happened, so he hugged Jiaxi in his arms forcefully, and comforted him, "I was wrong, can't it be okay? If you want to hit or punish, you can do whatever you want, but don't ignore me." OK?"

"Asshole! Asshole!" Jia Xi beat Junyi's chest hard, tears streaming down her cheeks, "Asshole, let me go!"

"Don't let it go! If you don't tell me why, I will never let it go!"

"Let go!" Jiaxi raised her hand and gave Junyi a loud slap across the face, Junyi was stunned, stroked his reddish cheeks, looked at Jiaxi in disbelief, and let go of his hand involuntarily.Jia Xi took two steps back, and looked at the waving hand in surprise, she didn't want to hit him, but she was really tired of this game, on the verge of collapse and couldn't control her emotions.Let's end it like this, "Xiao Junyi, we're done!" Jia Xi yelled at him.

"Jia, what did I do wrong to make you so angry?" Junyi said a little self-destructively, "Can you tell me? Why are you all like this, and you want me to bear eternal guilt for mistakes I don't know about!"

"Who are you referring to?" Sure enough, it was just like what he thought, he was always guilty about Chen Han.

"Uh, I didn't mean to compare you with Chen Han." Realizing that he had slipped his tongue, Jun Yi hurriedly explained, "I just want to say that you punish me when I don't know where I am wrong. Me, I would find it very unfair."

"Xiao Junyi, stop pretending, I don't want to be Chen Han's substitute."

"What are you talking about? What kind of substitute? I don't know what you're talking about at all?"

"You bastard, you actually called someone else's name when you were doing that kind of thing!" Jia Xi said the truth in a hoarse voice, but saw Jun Yi's expression freeze instantly on his face.

"When I thought I could leave everything to you, you actually treated me like this. You don't need to love me, but don't treat me as someone else!" Uncontrollable tears slid down my cheeks in the wind, how could I cry at this time Woolen cloth?Obviously, he should have slapped him and left gracefully!But rational persuasion could no longer stop the bursting of tears.

"I..." Jun Yi's trembling lips could not utter a single word. The shock caused by Jia Xi's words made him lose the ability to express, and his instantly pale and distorted face showed the pain he was suffering in his heart. "I... really called his name?"

Jiaxi nodded involuntarily, frightened by his expression, suppressed all the grievances and heartaches in her heart and just stared at him blankly.

Junyi scratched his hair vigorously, and a painful sigh flowed from his throat.The whole person suddenly became restless, spinning around in place, and finally squatted on the ground with his head in his arms as if giving up on himself.Jiaxi was a little horrified looking at Junyi, who had always been calm and unhurried, looking so anxious, "Are you okay?"

"Jia... I didn't do it on purpose. I thought I had forgotten it, I thought I could start a new relationship, I'm sorry, Jia..." Junyi said painfully while grabbing his hair.

"Junyi, don't deceive me with such a performance, you have been looking for a substitute from the very beginning!" Jiaxi said plainly about the conclusion she came to after careful consideration, "I know I'm too stupid to get lost like this In the gentle trap you set. But let’s stop here, Junyi, no matter how unbearable I am, I am still myself, not anyone’s substitute!"

"It's not like that, Jia..."

"Whether this is the case or not, you should be the clearest in your heart, Junyi. If it wasn't true, you wouldn't have shown such despairing eyes when I mentioned this matter!" Those eyes were instantly heartbreaking, Jiaxi even had the urge to step forward and hug him, but he held back, that feeling was not directed at himself.He should be very clear that this kind of thing happened, if it was just an accident when he was drunk, his expression would only be one of surprise.Regardless of Junyi's pleading, Jiaxi turned around stubbornly and walked towards her residence.

Walking to the intersection and looking back for the last time, Junyi was still squatting blankly on the spot, his back was helpless like a lost child, Jiaxi burst into tears, he still loves Junyi, and in his favorite When it was time to break up, neither of them could bear the sadness.But true love cannot tolerate deception, no matter how much she misses Junyi's tenderness, Jiaxi can no longer deceive herself and others.

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