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The next day, Hao Shi canceled the wedding and proposed to Wei Wei to break up.

Weiwei cried and asked him why, and his answer was true and cruel, "I'm sorry, I never loved you."

Hao Shi's father slapped him heavily, and his mother asked him sadly why Dao Shi did this.

Hao Shi looked up at his parents, and solemnly said what had been buried in his heart for many years.

"I like men, and it is impossible to get married in this life. I hope you can respect and accept my decision."

His bold coming out of the closet broke the peace and harmony of the family. His father was furious and his mother almost fainted, but Hao Shi sat there silently all the time. No matter how much they persuaded and scolded, they still did not change their minds in the slightest.

In the next few days, he didn't go to the office, his father restricted him from going out, and his mother cried and begged him to bring Weiwei back and live a normal life.

In the past few days, Hao Shi ate very little, and his mood was always very low. He sat by the window every day to watch the scenery outside and listen to the old songs played on the old mobile phone.

When Xu Hui and Liao Shengying came to see him, Hao Shi would nod his head at them and say a few innocuous words, but he couldn't smile anymore.

Xu Hui hesitated to speak for several times, Liao Shengying looked at him like this, and also turned around anxiously.

Hao Shi took the initiative to tell his story.

In college, Qiao Zhibin confessed his love to him, but he refused.Now that Qiao Zhibin is dead, he realizes that that person has always loved him these past few years, and has never changed.

These two understated words brought out the grief that he tried his best to hide.

He shouldn't have mentioned that person's name, it was a taboo spell, and once it was lifted, the emotions that could not be seen would be like a flood that opened the gate, drowning him.

Xu Hui put one hand on Hao Shi's shoulder, but couldn't say any words of persuasion.

Qiao Zhibin was already dead, no matter how regretful he was, he would never be able to come back to life.

And Hao Shi's pain became a poison with no antidote, which slowly invaded his bone marrow and blood, and finally swallowed him.

Hao's mother persuaded him to call Weiwei again and again, even to the point of kneeling, but he was still unmoved.

Heartbroken, Hao's mother rushed to his room, holding a fruit knife on her wrist, opened her red and swollen eyes, and shouted in a hoarse voice, "If you have to go this way, Mom I will die today for you to see."

The always weak and docile Jiangnan woman was forced to a dead end. Her heart was bleeding, her hand holding the knife was shaking, and her face full of grief and anger was stained with tears.

Hao Shi looked at the woman who gave birth to him and raised him with a painful expression, stood up, and wanted to walk in front of her.

Is this the price of coming out? If he had chosen to come out ten years ago and bravely got together with Qiao Zhibin, would it have been a different ending?

Before taking two steps, he passed out on the ground.

Qiao Zhibin's death dealt him a great blow. He didn't know if there would be a future in his life...

Weiwei's mother and Jin Meixuan had a good relationship when they were young, and the two lived not far away, and they often talked face to face.

Weiwei, who had been hiding in the room and weeping secretly, rushed out of the house without even changing her clothes after learning the news that Hao Shi was hospitalized. Weiwei's mother hurriedly followed, and Jin Meixuan, who was here as a guest, accompanied them to the hospital .

As soon as the group entered the ward, they heard Hao's father scolding his ignorant son loudly.

Hao Shi was wearing a patient gown, and sat on the edge of the bed with a blank expression on his face, dripping on the back of his hand, and his haggard mother stood beside him.

Xu Hui stood on the other side to persuade Hao's father who was too excited, and Liao Shengying also spoke up.

"Uncle, don't be like this, give him some time, he will think about it."

"Yes, the old man's body is important, and his anger hurts his health. You can see that Hao Shi has become like this. It's useless if you scold him again."

Father Hao stared at Hao Shi who was on the hospital bed dissatisfied, and waved his hand, "No matter what, the marriage with the Kang family is not allowed to be cancelled. Even if you don't want to, I will tie you up to the church. This marriage will not work. Don't be my son either."

Hao's mother held Hao Shi's other hand tightly, and begged, "Son, just listen to my mother's persuasion. Weiwei is a good girl. You can't let her down after waiting for you for so many years. The relationship has faded. It can still be cultivated slowly, child, mom can't just watch you go astray, you just save mom's life, make up with Weiwei, okay, mom begs you."

The girl who was crying into tears walked into the ward step by step, threw herself at Hao Shi's side regardless of her appearance, and put her arms around his neck, "Hao Shi, Hao Shi, I know I have a bad temper, and I always lose my temper with you, I'm sorry, Hao Shi, I was wrong, please forgive me and give me a chance. Hao Shi, we have been together for so many years, can you really let go of this relationship, Hao Shi..."

Hao Shi slowly pulled down Wei Wei's arm, looked at her calmly, and said calmly that he was gay.

Weiwei's mother covered her mouth in surprise, Jin Meixuan frowned and looked at Xu Hui, Hao's father slapped Hao Shi furiously, and Hao's mother fell to the ground in despair.

Weiwei shook her head in disbelief, she couldn't believe it, she couldn't believe that the man she had loved for so many years was actually gay.

Hao Shi's ears were buzzing, and there was always a series of voices constantly arguing in his head, no matter how he tried to drive him away, he couldn't get rid of it.

It's exhausting to be alive.

The father was still roaring angrily, the mother was lying on the bedside and sobbing non-stop, and Weiwei was embraced by her family. It seemed that there was no quiet moment in this world.

He interrupted his father's scolding, and said in a gentle and steady tone, "Dad, Mom, I have lived according to your wishes for 30 years. In these 30 years, I have never been happy. Because I am afraid that you will be sad and disappointed, I only have I hid that person in my heart for so many years. And now, the person I loved for so long is dead, but I haven’t even seen him for the last time. Dad, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, if I had Say it, if I hadn't been so selfish and cowardly, I wouldn't have missed so many years with him. He's dead, already dead, and it's impossible to even hear me say sorry. Mom, the rest of the day, I just want to be with him and remember the time when I was with him. I don’t want to be a puppet anymore, can you let me live the life I want quietly. Please.”

Tears fell silently and fell on the cold fingers that were clenched tightly on the bed sheet.

He was really, really tired.

But Hao's father couldn't understand his fallacies, "When you live Hao according to our wishes, how can your mother and I feel sorry for you, provide you with food and clothing, and give you the best school, if your life path is not helped by us You pave the way, and you can live so comfortably! Now that you are promising, you start to learn from those unhealthy tendencies in society and do this kind of thing. Since you said that people are dead, wake me up early and get back on the right path Whose benefit are we asking you to get married and have children? In the future, when you get old, there will be no one to take care of you. Only then will you know the use of regretting..."

Hao's mother said sadly with a crying voice: "Is it no use trying to persuade you? Hao Shi, do you really want to kill mom? Come to pierce my heart? Hao Shi, Hao Shi, wake up, you must die in front of you before you can repent!"

The woman's words touched Jin Meixuan's pain, which she experienced not long ago.Her gaze unconsciously shifted to Xu Hui. She also had an only son, a son who had already pierced her heart with holes.

Hao Shi laughed, and the laughter gradually amplified until tears came out of his eyes.

He looked at his relatives with complicated eyes.

He said: "Mom, you don't have to die, really, don't die, all this is my fault, and I should bear the crime."

Before he finished speaking, he yanked off the drip, took advantage of everyone's unpreparedness, quickly climbed up to the window, and jumped down.

"Hao Shi!"

"what!"

"what!"

Hao's mother passed out after screaming. Jin Meixuan covered her mouth in shock. The blood seemed to flow backwards all over her body in an instant. She closed her eyes tightly, not daring to look again.

Hao Shi's whole body was suspended in mid-air, and Xu Hui, who was responsive, held his hand tightly. This is the third floor, and falling down is no joke.

Hao Shi raised his head, looked at him in extreme pain, and said in the saddest voice he had ever heard: "Xu Hui, let me be free!"

Xu Hui was taken aback for a moment, Hao Shi raised his other hand and slammed it hard at his arm, Liao Shengying's just extended hand hadn't had time to grab it——

Hao Shi closed his eyes, and there seemed to be a smile on his lips.

In the past ten years, he has been too depressed, and every time he thinks of that person, it is an unspeakable pain.

Qiao Zhibin would not wait for him anymore, and used the cruelest way to bring this relationship to an end.

And he also reached the exhausted terminal, he should really take a good rest.

At this moment, he suddenly remembered a dream he had had. In the dream, he was already a gray-haired old man, sitting in a rocking chair in the yard basking in the sun.

Someone approached and threw a blanket over him, and he opened his eyes.

That person has a smile that is brighter than the sun, and that person will bend down and call him chocolate softly.

Hao Shi smiled and walked towards that person's world.

Outside the emergency room, Father Hao was sitting on a chair trembling, his eyes fixed on the door of the operating room. Mother Hao was crying and muttering words that no one could understand.

Xu Hui walked back and forth worriedly, Jin Meixuan hadn't relieved from the tension just now, she couldn't leave Xu Hui's eyes for a moment, feeling an indescribable feeling in her heart.

When the doctor came out of the operating room and announced that Hao Shi's life was not in danger, everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

Weiwei suddenly knelt heavily on the ground, crying to the second elder of the Hao family, and said: "Uncle, auntie, please don't force him anymore, I won't get married, I won't get married, as long as he can live and live well, I don't want anything I beg you, don't force him anymore, let him live the life he wants to live, as long as he lives, I only want him to live..."

The girl's crying hit everyone's heart hard, and Jin Meixuan, who was shaken, looked away from Xu Hui, and walked out of the hospital in a daze with her bag.