kinda straight me

Hao Shi was an obedient and obedient baby since he was a child.

My mother is a beautiful Jiangnan woman who works as a lecturer in a university.

Her favorite thing to do on weekdays is to dress up Hao Shi as a noble little prince and take him to visit friends.

She taught Hao Shi to be a well-educated and gentle gentleman.

The little Hao Shi nodded, although he didn't quite understand, but he would try his best to keep these in his heart.

Almost everyone who has met him will praise him for being smart, sensible, and polite, and he will definitely be a pillar of talent in the future.

The mother's beautiful face was full of pride, but Xiao Haoshi, who had completed the task, hid in the house and lay on the window to watch the children outside playing with mud and throwing pictures.

When Hao Shi was a child, he never had any friends.

He is a three-good student in the eyes of the teacher, a child that his parents are proud of, a role model for his classmates, and a lonely partner.

He was always lonely until he met Qiao Zhibin.

It was one day in September, and a boy carrying a big snakeskin bag kicked open the door of 3o2.

After looking around, his eyes for help met Hao Shi who was sitting on the bed with a book in his hand.

He grinned, grinned very hard, and said out of breath, "Student, please help me!"

To this day, he still remembers Qiao Zhibin that day. He was already as hot as a water duck, but he was still croaking around him.

Later, they gradually became familiar with each other.

Later, he gradually became dependent.

Relying on this person's unreserved kindness to him, relying on the feeling that this person spoils him to heaven.

Get up, hurry up, it will be too late if you wake up, be obedient...well, I will never bother you next time, get up first today, okay...sweater, sweater must be worn inside, it will cool down today, just wear it for today , okay...the toothpaste is squeezed out, go brush your teeth first, the breakfast is on the table, it's not hot anymore, let's eat...

At that time, Hao Shi seemed to take all this for granted, just because that person was Qiao Zhibin.

Liao Shengying, who couldn't stand it anymore, complained all kinds of things: I said Brother Qiao, you didn't suddenly find out that Chocolate is your long-lost brother, right? Damn, why didn't I see you treat me so well.What kind of inside story are you two hiding from me?

During the welcome party, Hao Shi sang an old song.

Friends don't cry.

In the auditorium with thousands of people, Hao Shi looked through all the students who couldn't see their faces clearly, and looked straight at the one sitting in the middle.

He knew that that person would definitely listen carefully to the song he sang, even if the song was sung badly by him, he would be the first one to applaud.

He thought that they would be friends forever, and this relationship would last forever.

But until that day, Qiao Zhibin's intermittent babbling in his dream revealed all the truth.

It also completely tore up the sincere friendship between them.

That night, Hao Shi couldn't sleep.

He didn't understand, how could Qiao Zhibin have such thoughts about him, they are all men!

gay, gay...

How could the three words that have only existed in the dictionary appear in reality, or, his best friend.

His first reaction was to run away.

Qiao Zhibin, who noticed the strangeness, chased him to the student union and asked him why. At that time, what did he say?

I don't like men.

That's right, how could he like a man.It is absolutely impossible for him to do such a thing that violates the laws of nature and moral principles——

In the following year, they became the most familiar strangers.

There is no longer any contact, and even the eyes follow their respective wills and never collide.

On the eve of graduation, Qiao Zhibin found him and said what he had been holding back all along.

I love you.

Hao Shi, can you give me a chance, I really want to be with you, Hao Shi...

Qiao Zhibin grabbed his shoulders and cried out of control.

At that moment, Hao Shi really wanted to promise him.

A year of being strangers also made him truly understand the importance of Qiao Zhibin and his already shaken heart.

He loves this man.

As long as he is willing to take this step, maybe he will really have the happy life he said.

But he finally chose to let go of the man's hand.

For my parents, for a normal life, and for living with my head held high.

He ruined their only hope with the cruelest words.

He said: I can never be a gay, to men, I can not have your dirty thoughts.

Since you say you love me, let me go, you don't want me to live a life of being reviled and discriminated against in the future!

Qiao Zhibin, I can't control your abnormal love, but please don't hurt me.

At that moment, Qiao Zhibin's hands must have been so cold, he gradually lowered his hands, and stood there with a blank expression.

Hao Shi left heartlessly, and turned around after taking a dozen steps.

The man under the cold moonlight fell to the ground with his back facing him.

He couldn't see the man's expression, nor could he hear the heartbroken voice.

Qiao Zhibin left, and flew to the other side of the world with regret and despair.

But this time, Hao Shi really felt the taste of separation.

In life, the voice of that person is gone, and the number of friends talking about him is less and less.

Missing, but growing crazily like vines.

It turned out that that person had already taken root in his heart and could not be eradicated.

But he pushed the man away with his own hands, far away.

A few years later, Qiao Zhibin came back once.

When receiving a call from Liao Shengying, Hao Shi's cell phone almost fell to the ground.

He's back, really back.

When he arrived at the hotel, Hao Shi suppressed his excitement, and looked up at the high-spirited man. He was chatting with his friend, talked about his interests, and laughed heartily.

Little has changed.

It was still the Qiao Zhibin he was familiar with.

During the dinner, the man clinked glasses with him, with a faint smile on his face, but there was no conversation.

After eating and singing, when everyone left by car, Hao Shi and Qiao Zhibin stood silently by the side of the road, and taxis drove past them, but no one raised their hands to stop them.

Hao Shi asked him how long he could stay when he came back this time.

Qiao Zhibin said, half a month, and I will go back after finishing my work.

Hao Shi didn't speak anymore, Qiao Zhibin took out a cigarette from his pocket: Is there a fire?

Hao Shi took out the lighter and lit it, Qiao Zhibin raised his hand to cover the back of his hand, and brought it closer to his lips.

But he forgot to lift the hand holding the cigarette. He closed his eyes slowly, his hand trembling unconsciously, and his lips pressed tightly against the palm of his beloved, unwilling to move away.

At that moment, Qiao Zhibin, humble and pitiful guarding a hopeless love, was still unable to get out after the heartache.

The woman couldn't help but shed tears, and sobs leaked from half of her covered face.

He is too good at taking care of himself, sometimes it is not uncommon for him to not eat for a whole day when he gets busy.His healthy body was dragged down like this.

Kidney failure developed into uremia, and I couldn't wait for a suitable kidney source, so I had to go to the hospital two or three times a week for dialysis.

It was discovered too late, and the doctor said the situation was not optimistic. At that time, I advised him to inform you.

After all, he has been thinking about you all the time. At this time, the person he most wants to see should be you.I thought, if you could come and be with him, it might be of some help to the therapy.

He was also unwilling at first, fearing that you would be burdened if you found out.

I didn't give up trying to persuade him over and over again, maybe it was because he really wanted to see you so much, and when he finally plucked up the courage to call you, he received a text message from you saying that you are getting engaged.

do you know what those words mean to him

Hao Shi, you were so cruel and sentenced him to death when he needed you the most.

The woman paused, that memory was too painful for her, thinking of her younger brother who was no longer smiling and angry on the hospital bed, her tears fell again.

Complications claimed his young life just a few months later.

He was lying on a white bed sheet, and when he was dying, he told his sister who was crying non-stop, after he left, burn all the unfinished chocolates for him, and remember to bring them with you when you visit him every year. Serve some good chocolate.

My sister gritted her teeth and endured the grief, and nodded.

He wanted to remember that smell and that person forever.

My sister whispered in his ear, "See you again, treat it as the last time, don't have any regrets, Zhibin, sister, please, let him come, you are already like this, just see him once." Let's meet him, my sister doesn't want to see you walking alone like this, you obviously, obviously want to see him so much, Zhibin---"

He shook his head slightly, and said in a weak voice, "I'm gone, it's fine if I don't know. Sis, just help me keep it a secret for as long as you can. Don't make him feel sorry for me."

"Zhibin..."

"Sister, tell me, God is not fair. How can I love him for so long, and he has never liked me. It's not fair. I really hope that in the next life, he can do it again. My chocolate."

The next day, the hospital issued a critical illness notice.

The elder sister cried and begged her good sister to come to the hospital and call Hao Shi.

Listening to Hao Shi's deep and powerful voice on the phone, Qiao Zhibin, who had almost lost consciousness, miraculously opened his eyes.

Uh... Let me introduce myself first. You can call me Uncle Chocolate. Although we can't meet each other, Uncle Chocolate will still bless you from afar.

The corner of Qiao Zhibin's mouth moved slightly, revealing an imperceptible smile, his eyes fixed on the mobile phone the woman was holding.

When misfortune befalls you, you will fear, panic, and even have a lot of negative thoughts... The most important thing is that you must never give up hope at any time.Only hope can give you courage, strength, and victory over your demons.

If possible, he would like to reach out, touch that person's face, and feel his breath again.They can no longer see each other again. Although there is too much reluctance to let go, they have reached the day when they must let go.

One day, you will grow up and become strong, righteous people.You will have lovers and family members, and at that time, you will believe that this world is still beautiful.

From now on, I won't even have the chance to wait. Hao Shi, Hao Shi, I'm sorry, I can only say goodbye to you. Hao Shi, my chocolate, goodbye...

Uncle Chocolate sincerely prays for you, you must be strong, stand up, and work hard for that day!

A line of tears slid down the end of his eyes, Qiao Zhibin slowly closed his eyes.

A long straight line was drawn on the life meter, and the sister cried bitterly, and the woman hung up the phone in a hurry to inform the doctor.

But that young life could never come back.

Come back and take a look, he misses his whole life, chocolate.