revenge in the name of love

When you love someone, your thoughts are all on him, thinking about him, looking forward to him, worrying about him, worrying about him, expecting him, disappointing him, when you put all your heart on others, there will be no own.Your happiness, anger, sorrow, and joy are all due to external reasons.And all the efforts and expectations are often met with disappointment.The greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment.

Love is not a charity, and it cannot be given casually.Feelings have no formula, no principle, no reason to follow.But people are still persistent and pursuing until death.Life is so cruel. When true love is by our side, we don't know anything. When the west wind withers the green trees and looks at the end of the world, it's too late to regret.As one of my good friends said to me: life is really just a one-way ticket, we can’t buy a return ticket, no matter if it’s wrong or right, there’s no way to make up for it, really nothing!

I remember the first time I saw him was at Bart's restaurant, that night was supposed to be Feng's anniversary.I convey my heart to Yixun again, I hope he can give me a chance.But...no...he just asked me what happiness is, but he didn't tell me what happiness he defined.

I left, went to Bart's, and ordered a tequila.This is a semi-bar-style restaurant, decorated in a European and American style. The restaurant is almost full every night, thanks to the weekly themed feasts launched by the owner of the store.

"Qin Feng, you haven't come to Uncle Ling's place for a while! You must explain to me today!" The owner of this store is a college classmate of my father. He took his father to start a business before, and the two of them built an IT shop. The company has a great reputation, but for some reason, Uncle Ling suddenly quit, let his father do it alone, and ran to open this restaurant by himself.

"Uncle Ling, don't make jokes, you didn't see that I, a young man, was bothering you!"

"What's the matter? Tell your Uncle Ling! I promise not to tell your dad!"

"Hey... don't talk about those annoying things, Kim, and have another glass of tequila." I said to the waiter at the bar.

"By the way, Uncle Ling, I've always wanted to know...why did you give up such a big business and come here to be a restaurant?"

"It's adults' business, children don't care!" He made a face at me.

"It must be for love!"

"Stinky boy! Didn't you come here for love?!" This sentence was like a blow to the head, and it hurt my heart.

She took a sip of wine while concealing it, and waved her hand at him, "Alright, Uncle Ling, go get busy! Someone is looking for you over there!"

"Okay, okay, I'm going!" He walked a few steps, stopped and told Kim, "Kim! Don't let him drink too much!"

Kim gave him an "ok" gesture and continued to refill my drink.

"Hey!"

A strange man's voice, which I naturally thought was MB, shook his glass and said, "I don't need special service!"

"Special service? I'm not..."

I raised my head, and what came into my eyes was a beautiful young man with big eyes and thin lips, and golden hair in a naturally handsome posture.

"You...you look familiar...where did we meet?"

"I work in Feng's house. My name is Jin Haoyue." He smiled and sat beside me.

"It's you, Feng Yuqing's confidant." I darkened my expression, I didn't like Feng Yuqing at all, how could the people around him be any better? "Is there a problem?"

"No...it's nothing," he seemed a little nervous, picked up my wine and drank it in one gulp, and then immediately choked up again.

While patting him on the back, I was thinking about a plan.

"I thought everyone around Feng Yuqing was good at drinking!" I smiled and covered his face with my hands, pretending to be intimate.

He looked at me blankly, blushing: "We can't drink..."

Can't drink?In order to ensure Yixun's safety and whereabouts?Sure enough, Feng Yuqing has made careful arrangements, so I can only use Jin Haoyue to get close to Yixun.

I gave Kim a look, and Kim understood, and accidentally put a love potion in Haoyue's wine.I intentionally appeared to be drunk, but he seemed to care about it and forced me to leave.I said angrily, "You are such a waste! There is only one sip left, just drink it up!" He drank the rest of the wine without saying a word, and I spread my hands, showing a helpless look.

"Kim~ Credit!" I rolled my eyes at Kim, and Kim responded with a smirk: "I know!"

Back at the apartment, his drug properties started to flare up, and I... just for the sake of the plan... raped him as it should be.When I woke up the next morning, he snuggled into my arms and said he loved me.

"Let's keep this relationship." I got out of bed and said a word coldly.

For a long time, we have maintained such a physical relationship, and Haoyue gradually changed from obedience to resistance, and I gradually began to doubt myself.I hate people like Feng Yuqing who force others to stay by my side, but my attitude towards Haoyue... seems to have become like this.I began to wonder who I love... I understand that I fell in love with Qin Feng at first sight, but for Haoyue, is it love after a long time?

It has been several days, and Haoyue has not appeared.I wanted to ask Yixun, but his voice was so weak that I couldn't help but start to worry about him.I remember that Yixun's mobile phone had an automatic positioning function, and I immediately searched for his location using satellite positioning and navigation.

After taking the unconscious Yixun to the apartment, I contacted the doctor.I didn't know his situation until he woke up.

"What about Haoyue? Do you know where Haoyue is?"

"I haven't seen him since I got home, what's wrong?"

"No...nothing" I scratched my hair.

"You like Haoyue, right..."

"No! I like you! Yixun!" I hurriedly answered him.

He chuckled, "It seems that some people don't know who they like!"

After that, he stayed at my house.

Yixun encouraged me and let me slowly make up my mind. I want to treat Haoyue well, and I want him to believe that I love him, Jin Haoyue!But everything was broken by myself...

He fell to the ground and said: "You only love Yixun, you never looked at me, even when you were with me, you called out his name!" I was heartbroken, But I couldn't defend myself... After he said "See you again!", my heart was completely ashamed.

Everything between me and Qin Feng is over like this. I am not really a fool, but I was willing to do it for you.Now, I have also learned to pretend to you, neither hot nor cold, neither salty nor bland.Then listen to you say softly, you have changed.I don't know whether to laugh or cry.No one understands the sadness in my bones, no one understands the helplessness of my life, no one understands the sadness that I can't wait for love, what is the human heart made of?This world is so cold that it makes people unable to stand up. I don't know how long I can last. I will collapse completely. Who knows how much it hurts?Does anyone know what it takes to be helpless?Is all the effort worthwhile, is there only unspeakable pain left behind, is it doomed that everything is just a mirage in the end, the vainness of the flowers in the mirror, the moon in the water, why are you still obsessed?Because of you, I have experienced more sorrows of love and hatred; because of you, I have shed too many tears; because of you, sadness has become a habit. To repay the bitterness?The world of mortals is originally a piece of plain paper, when the dust settles, the sadness splashed all over the ground, alas!After all, there are no words and desolate words!But, fortunately, I am still me, maybe the color is no longer so green, maybe it is often hazy, and I lose my eyes.In the memory, his love, faint, always makes people feel, profound but short-lived, gorgeous but fleeting... I can't help but think of fireworks, it is a pity to complete the beautiful bloom with the pain of crushing the body, and it is also a kind of beauty.Let the time go by, travel through a storm, and pass away like colorful flowers. ——Jin Haoyue