Helpless

The weather was obviously good during the day, but at night, the wind became stronger and stronger, and finally developed into a squall, causing the branches and leaves to sway from side to side, making rustling sounds, and heavy rain suddenly began to fall on the world.

Kamikaze has been dreaming constantly since falling asleep at night, and finally woke up at this time, already sweating all over.She has the habit of not sleeping with the door closed, especially since she was seriously ill, and now she can see the pouring rain outside just by turning her head.

"... Teacher Songyang?" She read the name gently from her mouth.

Song Yang stood in the courtyard, it should be night, but she didn't know where the light came from, allowing her to see him very clearly.He was standing with his hands behind his back, under the tree in the courtyard, wearing plain clothes as usual, and smiling at her: "Xiaoxi, I told you not to go fishing in the river when it's cold."

"..." The corners of her mouth moved, but she couldn't say anything.

"Is Xiaoxi sick? I told you to listen to the teacher, and why didn't you ask me to join you!" The same familiar voice came from the teacher's side, and she looked over hesitantly. An Yuantong was 15 years old Looking at her with a look of anxiety, anger and worry, he looked at her with a sigh, "What's wrong? Fever? I'll get you medicine!" Then he turned around and ran away—the inexplicable appearance In the ray of light, it was instantly merged into the thick darkness and disappeared immediately.

She was stunned, and Songyang also turned around and wanted to leave: "As for the medicine, I remember that it is placed in—"

"Teacher! Ah Tong!" she cried, not wanting to delay any more, she threw off the quilt, didn't even bother to put on her shoes, and quickly ran to the yard, facing the rain, and ran to the teacher, " ... Ah Tong, where is Ah Tong?!"

***

Shimura Shinpachi planned to turn on a small desk lamp overnight to review all the songs of Teramon Tong from the beginning. As the captain of Teramon Tong's personal guard, he would never allow himself to relax for a moment.However, when he just hummed "Your brother...", he heard footsteps in the aisle outside his room door, and it was already three o'clock in the middle of the night, so it was either a thief or a ghost.So he got up vigilantly and quietly, picked up the wooden stick in the corner, walked over on tiptoe, and opened the sliding door suddenly: "Who... sister?! What are you doing?"

Tae Shimura held an umbrella in his hand, and looked as if he was about to go out—in this stormy night.

"Xiaoxin...? You are Xiaoxin, haven't you slept in the middle of the night?"

"I, cough...at least I'm in my room. It's so late and it's still raining outside. Where are you going, sister?"

Shimura Miao seldom hesitated, showing a worried look: "I always feel a little uneasy, I don't know why, I always feel that Kamikaze-san is there...so I want to go and have a look, it seems that Yi-kun is not often here recently, right?"

When Nozomi Sugiyama rented the small courtyard, he didn't do this on purpose, but it happened to be not far from Shimura's house, so it was very convenient to go there, but it only took a few minutes.Shimura Shinpachi looked at his sister's worried look, and said, "Then I will go there with you."

"That's not necessary, it's raining heavily outside, Xiaoxin, you should go to bed early, don't you still have to go to work in Wanshiwu tomorrow?"

"The kind of class that never pays wages is actually meaningless to go to the class on time if you think about it ==...and I still-"

"Sure enough, Xiaoxin hasn't passed the age where you must be gently coaxed by your sister before you can sleep obediently? Do you need your sister to gently let you fall asleep before you will be willing to sleep obediently^^"

"...I'm going to sleep right away! Immediately!" Shimura Shinpachi's head was full of black lines, "Please don't show this expression again! I don't want to sleep forever, please let me continue to live! Please Already!"

***

Shimura Taeha had the key to the small courtyard, opened the gate, and walked into the courtyard lightly.However, after taking two steps, she stopped, holding an umbrella, and looked at the scene in front of her in surprise.

She saw Kamikaze in pajamas, without an umbrella, standing in the yard in the rain.The rain was too heavy, and she didn't know how long she had been in the rain. She was soaked and dripping with water, and her long brown hair was also wet, and she was in a mess.

"...Kamikaze-san?!" Shimura Tae called out after realizing it, "What are you doing? Did something happen?!"

Then she saw Kamikaze slowly turning her head to look at herself, the expression on her face changed slightly in an instant, first she was astonished, then frightened and flustered, and finally relieved and smiled for some reason, then knelt on the ground— —Facing in his own direction, as if in a daze, muttering something softly in his mouth, the wind and rain were so loud that he couldn't hear it clearly.

"...Kamikaze-san?!" Shimura Tae was so frightened that she threw the umbrella away, and hurried to help her, "No matter what happened, go to the house first, the rain now—"

"Mother……"

"...Huh?!" If the environment were changed, Shimura Takao would definitely go crazy: How could a young girl look like the mother of a woman in her 20s? ! ... But something is wrong tonight, something is wrong.

"...Are you finally willing to come to see me? Finally, are you willing to forgive me?" Kamikaze grabbed Shimura Tae's hand in turn, and gently placed his cheek on the back of Shimura Tae's hand like a kitten They rubbed against the ground, looking very weird through the creamy and cold rain.

"Xiaoxi, that's really great! Is this my aunt >_<" An Yuantong reappeared in front of her at some point, with a face full of joy and sincerity, and pulled Songyang's sleeve beside her, " Teacher, that's great!"

Kamikaze laughed and cried at the same time: "Hmm! Mmm..."

It's really... so good, so good!Mother's hatred, like a thorn, has been entangled in her heart all the time for nearly 20 years. Even if she met in a dream, she happily wanted to run over to rub, but without exception, He would stop in the eyes of his mother's disgust and spurn, like a child who did something wrong, stand still, lower his head, hold the corners of his clothes tightly with his hands until his fingertips turned white, and occasionally raise his eyes secretly To see the mother's reaction.

Often after such a stalemate for a long time, the mother's expression finally loosened a bit, and the corners of her mouth twitched, as if she was saying something...

"... Come here quickly"

So she immediately cheered up again and ran over quickly——before she ran to the front, her mother disappeared.She stood in a vast dreamland, looking around in a panic and shouting, but there was no one else except herself.But it’s not like that, it’s not like that.

When my mother fled back at the right time, although it was true that she forgot to take her away, when she chased after her, her mother hesitated for a moment, then stretched out her hand and said, "Hurry up... come here quickly!" !” Then she quickly ran over and held her mother's hand tightly.

So she has always believed that her mother loves herself.It's just because one's own blood is really too dirty and messy, so it's only natural to be rejected.But as long as you work hard and grow hard and strong, then one day, you will be accepted.If you don't want to be given up, shouldn't you be the first one who should not give up?She thought so.

……

"...What's going on here?" Shimura Biao asked worriedly, turning his head to look at Sakata Gintoki who was leaning against the wall with his eyes closed and silent, "Gin-san?!"

"How would I know." Yinshi's tone was quite impatient, "Won't women always be emotionally abnormal during the few days when they come to that thing!"

"Sorry, my hand slipped." Shimura Tae turned back to look at Kamikaze who was still in a coma with a high fever, her beautiful eyebrows were very worried, and she reached out to touch the towel on Kamikaze's forehead and took it off Put it in the water basin aside to re-wet, wring it dry, and cover her forehead again.

Yinshi glanced sideways at the fruit knife inserted into the window sill next to his head, remained silent for a long while, and finally turned around and went out.

"...Yin Sang?!" A Miao was stunned for a moment, and looked back at his back standing at the door, but hesitated to speak, and finally lowered the corners of her eyes in silence.

He has been standing on the porch at the door, silently looking at the small courtyard where the rain is still pouring down.The small yard was kept neat and tidy by Xiao Jia, and a small vegetable field was dug in the corner, and a few rabbits' nests were built. It seemed that it was a very suitable place to live leisurely.

After an unknown amount of time, he heard the sound of the paper door being pulled behind him. A Miao stood beside him and said softly, "When I came over, Kamikaze-san was standing under that tree to soak in the rain. With her In terms of the current body..."

That's why it is said that there is such a big difference between the IQ of idiots and normal people.

***

At noon the next day, Xiao Jia, who came over to feed the rabbits, found out about this. His face darkened immediately, but because of A Miao's presence, he didn't say much, but kept thanking him.After A Miao left, he quickly turned his head back with a sullen expression on his face, and shouted at Kamikaze lying there: "Stop pretending, get up quickly! Otherwise, I will shoot you like this and post it on Twitter!"

"...You are so cruel." She said quietly, slowly opened her eyes, and it took a long time to find the focal length, staring at Xiaojia mournfully.

"Don't look at me like that! If you do something wrong, just pretend to sleep under the quilt, thinking that you won't be scolded by your parents or something... Don't you still do this trick when you are in your 20s?!" He was not angry. Make a call, "I just went out for two days on a mission with Mr. Elizabeth, didn't I tell you not to mess around?"

"I didn't mess around. It's going to rain and my mother is going to get married, what can I do?" She replied weakly.

"At least you can avoid running into the yard to get wet! Are you crazy?!"

"Ah, I saw my first love."

"Liar! Who is your first love? You probably don't even know yourself. Look at your size!"

"The first one to confess to me is my first love==+"

"Whatever you do!" Realizing that the topic had been changed, Xiao A became more and more annoyed, "Where is Xiao B?!"

"Go back home and get married."

"Eh?! That bastard didn't even tell me he got married—how could he go back to his hometown to get married! What the hell did he do?!"

"It's back to my hometown... Take Dongjian or something. The children are growing up soon, and they have to think about education. I think that's what my mother said back then, so I was brought to education from a small village. A well-developed city. Who would have thought that she made a wrong calculation. If I stayed where I was, I might be able to go to a better university with that score. In the end, a bunch of people could only be locked together and kill each other... Now that I think about it, I have a lot of knots. Hey, why can’t Mao not unify the national examination and score line? There is a gap in the conditions in remote areas, but it’s because Mao is obviously more developed than our area, and the results are easier and the score line is lower. Is this fair, this world is really unfair..."

"Stop talking nonsense! Shut up! Don't talk nonsense anymore! This topic is very sensitive, okay?! And you should also consider the overall situation a little bit! That area is ○○, of course we must maintain a higher enrollment rate!" Xiao Jia suddenly Red in the face.

She squinted and looked at the ceiling: "So? Is it fair to ignore and sacrifice the interests of more innocent people in order to protect the interests of a small number of people?"

"There is nothing fair or unfair, this world is like this! Didn't you tell me that there is no absolute fairness?!"

"Ah... did I say such a thing?" She thought for a while, "I probably said such a thing in order to show that I am a mature woman... But when I think about it, I always feel very uncomfortable. Willingness, ○○ or something, stop being self-righteous, thinking that you don’t pay anything, and only ask the people to sacrifice for the overall situation. How long can this situation last? Are you still proud of yourself? Xiaojia, I think , A country does require all people to work together to build it, but if in the end it all needs to be borne by the lower class people, and the upper class is only responsible for harvesting, it will make people feel embarrassed, won't it?"

"...What's the matter with you? Why did you suddenly talk about this kind of thing? Has your brain burned out? I said that these things are very sensitive!"

This time she was silent for a long time, turned her head slowly, stared at Xiao Jia earnestly, and only after Xiao Jia's complexion became solemn and serious, she said softly: "I've been here since just now. Since then, you have been trying hard to change the topic, did you really not find out at all?"

"..." Grandma, can I kill Xiao Yi before she comes back? ! =dish=

Xiaojia angrily turned around on the spot, and suddenly caught on to the important point (congratulations), and was taken aback: "Dongjian...why suddenly...eh?!"

"Did you and Xiaotaro have a good time together during this time?" She changed the subject again.

"Eh? Mr. Gui..." Xiaojia thought for a while, knelt down in front of her, and said seriously, "I always think that Mr. Gui is the hope of the barbarians. There is nothing wrong with that, and during the period of following Mr. Gui , I have received a lot of guidance from Mr. Gui. Sister, I have also given serious thought to the things you taught me before, and I think..."

"Okay, okay, I don't want to hear you criticize me." She stretched out her hand from under the quilt and waved it, "You just need to like this road yourself and are willing to stick to it. You are already in your teens. , I don’t care how big you are, so I don’t bother to continue to care about you. And you follow Xiaotaro, I have nothing to worry about, although it feels so embarrassing to say this sentence..." Her voice became smaller and smaller, and she coughed twice "Anyway, your uncle was kind to me before, I can't let him down, you are the last only seedling in your Kaitian family, don't have any wrong thoughts about Kotaro, and try hard to reject Xiaoyi, by the way Last time someone said that you really love Gao ○..."

"Hey, has the topic shifted from the center again? What's the mess?! Did you suddenly put on a serious look just to say something like this?! I'm really out of my mind to expect something from you Can’t you say something really great?! QAQ” Xiao Jia cried out in spite of iron.

"Ah?" She looked bewildered, and then calmly turned her eyes away from him, "People in suits and leather shoes who always stand on the stage and say great things are not necessarily good people. What are you talking about? Please vote." Let me vote, and I will definitely lead everyone to a happy and beautiful life' This kind of people actually just want to lead a happy and beautiful life by themselves. Where do people who really work hard come from so many rhetoric."

"Isn't the topic too far away?! And don't overturn a boatload of people with a stick just because you can't speak! Messy representatives, map guns, etc. are the most annoying!" Xiaojia held his forehead, "...Okay , I can’t go on with you anymore. Back to the topic, what did you ask Xiao Yi to bring Dong to see?”

This time she was silent for a longer time, and finally spoke when Xiao Jia was on the verge of getting impatient: "Ah... I told him to change his education environment."

"you--"

"Do you know why some people should not be able to live long ago, but they still live in this world with shameless faces? Because these people are holding their breath, and they have the belief that they can't die immediately and must live to endure a lot of things." Reason." She exhaled a long breath, feeling her whole body relaxed, "Now, this breath is already comfortable."

What a lousy reason!Xiao Jia immediately retorted: "There is no direct contact at all! I have endured the bad things, and it doesn't make sense that you can't bear it when you finally encounter good things?!"

She didn't answer him again, but turned her eyes slightly sideways, passed by his side, and fell into the yard behind him.She remembered that that night, Teacher Songyang stood under the big tree, smiled and reached out to her, and said, "Xiaoxi, it's time for class, let's go."

As always, there is no difference from memory.He smiled at her and held out his hand, urging her to go to class in a gentle voice.And when she turned her head, she saw her mother standing not far from her and looking at her.Just like the previous dreams, she didn't dare to go there rashly, so she knelt on the ground and tried to beg for forgiveness like this forever.But this time, the mother finally did not turn around and leave, but walked towards her.

Finally forgiven, forgiven by all of them.

...Although it is estimated that someone will never forgive me this time.But there is no other way. How can there be so many perfect things in this world?And when the time comes, with the support of the teacher by his side, he doesn't dare to do anything against that guy. It's not like these years, relying on no one to control him, he will grab himself and abuse him as soon as he opens his mouth... Ah, we must sue him at that time ==+

Thinking of this, she yawned and said lazily, "Xiao Jia, I want to eat the family bucket."

"...Eat your head = dish =!"

She laughed, seeing him complaining and complaining, but still resigned to his fate and got up to buy a family bucket.The sunshine after the rain seemed to have been washed, sprinkled on everything, and even the air was much more transparent and cleaner than usual.As the courtyard door was closed, after a slight sound, the small courtyard returned to a quiet atmosphere.

In such an environment, she hugged the quilt and sat on the porch in a daze. Suddenly, she heard the wind chimes hanging under the window being blown by the wind, making a melodious music. come.

At that time, everyone was playing and frolicking in the courtyard, and Sugiyama Xi sat alone on the porch and quietly peeled the beans for dinner. The warm afternoon sun shone on her body. Sing softly with the wind.She didn't find peeling beans tedious and impatient, but the atmosphere was so comfortable that she wanted to yawn.As soon as he opened his mouth, he closed it immediately, because he saw Teacher Songyang walking to his side.

Teacher Songyang stood beside her, looking at his students who were playing. ...Ah teacher, is it really all right?Curly hair and fleshy face seem to be fighting again.What's the matter with the two of them being inconsistent all day long?This time I won't help you two, anyway, I can't help you two idiots!

"Everyone is very lively."

……teacher!Is this the conclusion you have come to after watching for so long? ! > Mouth

"Mrs. Tanaka asked someone to bring a letter, and it's for you, Xiaoxi." His sudden words, and the plain letterhead he handed to her made her stunned. The beans in her hand were round and inadvertently It fell to the ground.She came to her senses, quickly lowered her head, picked up the beans and threw them into a bowl, rubbed her hands together, lowered her eyes and took the letter: "Thank you." Then she folded the letter and put it in her pocket, took the beans again and started peeling.

After the adoptive mother moved away with Tanaka's family, she asked someone to bring letters to her many times, and every time she would seriously write a reply letter, writing down everything that happened in the recent period, including what happened in the private school , and how much progress I have made-just never send it out.It's not necessary, it's not a good thing to let the adoptive mother continue to worry about it, it's better to simply ignore it.And later, as expected, the adoptive mother stopped writing letters.

Teacher Songyang didn't say much, but sat down beside her, peeled the beans together, and occasionally turned to look at the children playing in the courtyard.Some people have a calm and elegant posture no matter where they are or what they do.She pursed her lips and secretly glanced at the teacher, a little nervous but also happily trying to imitate his posture.

Children always like to imitate the adults they admire, and want to be as good as they think.It's just that there are some people who learn to learn and learn, and they are talking about her==|||

However, there are also some people who learn very well from the teacher's body or heart.

She was secretly studying, and happened to meet Teacher Songyang's raised eyes. She blushed, smiled dryly and then lowered her head, very embarrassed, and explained: "I, I just take a look... I want to learn from Teacher ..."

"……Um?"

"Because the teacher is very good, so...so I want to learn from the teacher ==" As I said earlier, when she faced Teacher Songyang, she never had any chance to hide her thoughts, and she could not help but tell the whole thing, saying Feeling a little shy again, he hurriedly dragged people into the water, "And it's not just me, meat... Jinzhu and Yinshi must also think so, the teacher is very gentle >_<!"

Teacher Songyang smiled slightly: "There is no need to learn, because everyone has their own tenderness. If you follow your own heart and do what you want, you will have your own attitude towards everything. I can only To guide you, but not to shape your 'intention', just like what I said in class, the teacher can't be with you forever, and after that, you have to touch, learn and make decisions on many things by yourself .”

"...What if it's something that can't be decided? And, and I want to be with the teacher forever, I don't know where else I can go, and I don't know what I can do." She lowered her eyes, her eyes were moist, " I, I'm just a..." half-human, half-animal monster.

"Xiaoxi, what kind of person do you think the students will become in the future, and what kind of path will they take?" Teacher Songyang suddenly interrupted her and asked like this.

She froze for a while, her self-pity was dispelled, she turned her head to look at the lively group of guys, and thought seriously: "Speaking of it... Mizuno must have inherited his family's grocery store, he has a good business sense. Then Xiaoba——Sato, although he said that his dream is to farm or something, but I think he will become a very popular reporter who writes gossip and gossip ==|||Then... ah Gintoki, Lai Zai Private school for the rest of my life probably... (Teacher, please be wary of his old man==+) According to Jinsuke, I heard from Sato that his family is quite rich==Inherit the family in the future...? Tong should be very stable It’s an office worker! This is a good guess><Oh, there is also Kotaro... Kotaro... small..." She stared at Gui on the forehead when she raised her hand to knock on the silver with a serious face, and struggled for a long time, "This... Kotaro... ..." God knows what he will do! "Otherwise... open a pet shop or something... OTZ"

——Until many years later, when she thought back to the beginning, she would feel that she really didn't have half the talent for prophecy.

After she finished speaking, she found that Mr. Songyang's eyes looking at her seemed to have changed slightly, and she couldn't be sure what the change was for a while, which made her feel a little uneasy. After thinking about it, she said embarrassingly Said: "That... Am I thinking too trivially? Ahem, someone will definitely become a great hero! TAT Mizuno will definitely become the owner of the largest department store chain in Japan! Sato can rule the entire news circle, Tong ……"teacher!The students you teach must be the best!My brain was confused by red bean paste before! TAT

Teacher Songyang interrupted her incoherent discourse again: "Then Xiaoxi, what do you think you will be like in the future?"

"...Eh? I..." She lowered her head again, "I don't know. I don't know what use I am..." Probably only peeling beans or something.When I'm old, find someone who doesn't dislike me or should say I don't know my own background to trick me into getting married and having children ==+

"If you have guesses about the future of your classmates, the teacher will also have guesses about your future."

"...?"

"You are a very smart child. If you are a man, you may become a counselor in the future extended by this era." After a pause, seeing her "=口=" expression, Songyang added Said, "But you are a girl."

Although she didn't think she would reach the level of a counselor, she was still a little sensitive to the last sentence: "I'm no worse than a boy..." She muttered softly, and after thinking about it, she added, "...even if I'm not so good now Great, I will try my best not to be worse than them, I will continue to work hard."

"That's not what it means." Songyang smiled, put the beans in his hand into the bowl, folded his hands into his sleeves, and looked at her with long-lasting patience and gentle eyes, "Because Xiaoxi, you are a girl, you have You have a unique tenderness that boys don’t have, so you have to follow your own heart and choose the life you want. You don’t have to bear more things, and you can live easily and happily in your own way.”

--Can I?

This question has been lingering in her mind.

Fate is one's own, what kind of path to take and what choice to make must depend on one's own state of mind, words and deeds.No matter how concerned and sympathetic others may be, they cannot make a decision about it.If you follow the water blindly and cannot strengthen your will, you will easily accomplish nothing.When you are young and determined, you are stationed in your heart with a tender and sincere heart, and you will choose it from then on, and never stop and give up.

There are always many waves of this kind in our lives, which allow us to disrupt the steps we have already decided while stepping on the past.So flustered, so biased towards the target, and finally found that I have embarked on the road of not knowing the so-called daze.Only those who keep their eyes on the only end, and don't be interrupted by the troubles of the world, may be able to avoid nothing when they look back.

However, the world is constantly changing, and who can really tell.

The only thing is: after you have wasted decades in the world, if you look back, do you think it is worth it?

Maybe all the considerations come to the end, but it's actually not that simple.

At this moment, she finally got the answer.

***

"...Wait! What does this mean?!" Xiao Jia was a little annoyed, "Saotome Nana, stop!" He stretched out his hand to stop Xiao Yi's actions.

Xiao Yi said flatly: "This is her own request."

"What kind of request is this?! If she is stupid, you will be stupid too?"

"She said that she didn't do anything well, not only watched those people parted ways, broke up and confronted each other, but even herself betrayed the promise back then. Even if she was allowed to die one day, she would have no face to see her like this. Her teacher." Recalling her expression at that time, he couldn't say how sad it was, but said in a daze:

"So I was always rescued when I was about to die. It must be that the teacher didn't want to see me as a shameless, useless student who was always obsessed with being taught by him. So I also worked very hard not to die, just try harder There are things that some people can't do, so, if one day I accidentally die, you must remember to cover my face with my hair, because I have no face to see my teacher. He is very gentle I don't want to make him angry."

Xiao A was about to say something, but was suddenly stunned, looked behind Xiao B over his shoulder, frowned, hesitated to speak, finally closed his mouth, turned his head away, and muttered softly: "I don't even know what to say." Mr. Gui has lied to him, even Shiroyasha... Wait, Saotome Nana! Didn't she say it early in the morning..." I told A and B ten thousand times in the morning, and everything was arranged up.If she is really dying, take her and run back to her hometown when no one is paying attention, and bury her near the house that is said to be her hometown after she is completely dead.This is a place where even they are visiting for the first time.

"I'm sorry, I'm a member of the Ghost Soldier Squad." Facing Xiao A's unbelievable expression, Xiao B lowered his hand and took a step to the side, "Since I met you, I have joined the Ghost Soldier Squad. Follow the orders of Takasugi-sama alone."

"...Eh?!" Xiaojia suddenly broke his voice, "You——are you not a bad boy?! Did you just pretend when you first met us?! Why did you do this?!" He widened his eyes, " Then the ghost soldiers know about our affairs—wait a minute! Does the eldest sister know?! What do you think of her?!"

"Maybe I know, maybe I don't know." Xiao Yi exhaled softly, and looked up at her lying there, "And you've already said that, she is my eldest sister."

Xiao Jia still wanted to say something, but found that the words got to the point of her mouth, and all kinds of thoughts were blocked together, becoming a ball of wool that could not be untied. She couldn't say anything, so she had to choose to shut up completely.Watching the man come over - the man didn't even look at them, walked past them, stared at her body silently for a while.

Xiao Jia frowned, just moved a little under his feet, and Xiao B beside him moved faster, drew out the knife and pressed it against his neck, and said softly: "Don't force me." Clenched his fist and stared fiercely at his former companion, then heard the noise again, and turned back to stare vigilantly——

The man stretched out his hand to push aside the long hair covering her face, looked at her for a while, then turned and left.He didn't say a word, didn't stop for a step, he came and went in a hurry, the black arabesque pattern feather coat on his shoulders was blown to the corners by the wind, it seemed that he just accidentally walked the wrong way in the evening Just a passerby on the road.

And from now on, they will never go the same way again.

——The End——

The author has something to say: This ending was written and deleted, then rewritten and revised several times... The final result is that this chapter has a lot of words... I originally wanted to divide it into several chapters, but as I said earlier, it is the last Chapter 3 ... I miscalculated the situation again! OTZ|||

I originally thought that I would have a lot of thoughts to say after I finished writing, but after thinking about it again, it’s better not to be so verbose...

With regard to some thoughts on the shaping of Sugiyama Nozomi, an original character, I have thought about whether I should share my thoughts on her in detail.However, I feel that everyone should not be too interested in this...>o

So just keep it simple.

First of all, the question about the title actually has nothing to do with the male protagonist, except that he happened to point out a certain word in the male protagonist’s name... (Hey, hey

【I can't help】This word means that even if you have sympathy and concern, you can't help at all.This is the summary of all my thoughts on Nozomi Sugiyama's original character.I can't help her, and while I personally sympathize with the character, she's developed herself to the point where there's no other ending.To be precise, maybe some people also sympathize with her, but they can't help her either, thinking that she is not up to date OTZ, I didn't say it was Yinsang......

There are many happy places in the process of coding, and there are also places where I am not in a good mood when I get entangled in writing.Thanks to those who have been with me and have not given up on this article.I wrote this article because a certain OP in the second season, Taoyuanxiang Tianren (I should remember the name correctly, TAT), heard that I was all this song upside down during that time, and then I got a general idea in a moment of excitement. imagine.

I'm not lying about the fact that the original male lead was Da Mao Wei == But when I started writing, I was inclined towards Gin Toki, but Sugiyama Nozomi still loves a fleshy face.

Ps: I want to be a man like Eun-sang. (Who cares about you!!!

This is my first time writing a Gintama fan.The one I wrote the most before was Net King Doujin, not to mention anything else, but at least the first time I was born and the second time I was acquainted. This year, I can have sex twice more (eh?), so in the case of Gintama Doujin, I will be decisive if I hold it. It was written by PIA's consciousness >_< so I am not very proficient in grasping the structure, although I decisively tried to hide it with a small theater... (beat) Some content was changed according to my mood while writing, at first The outline is basically the same as not written, but this is an old problem that I can't get rid of all the time OTZ|||

My habit is that sometimes when I suddenly think of a small fragment, I will write it down, and then I will see if it can be used just right (in all likelihood, it will always be a small fragment==), so I wrote some Sugiyama Nozomi and Yinsang fight side by side, fir