Helpless

"If at that time I..." As she spoke, she stopped talking.

What can I say?Said: If at that time, instead of running back to find Curly, I followed you home, what would happen later?If at that time, I could have summoned up the courage to point out some things directly, whether Ah Tong would not have told his confession, he would not have been forced by me to stay in the camp, and he would not have been poisoned, and we , and it doesn't have to be like this now.

As it is now, with a lot of heavy things on its back, the result is that I can't say anything anymore.Because he is completely unqualified, he can still squander his life when some people have lost their lives. This is something that cannot be done.Just as An Yuantong's death is a taboo for some things, and it will never be unraveled.

After a while of silence, she laughed: "What am I thinking... Hey Takasugi-kun, I suddenly remembered something, you said how good it would be if we were all teenagers." As the teacher said back then, Children have infinite possibilities, many futures, endless hopes.

But that is impossible.

She got up and walked in front of him, sat in front of him again, stared at his face carefully for a long time: "Speaking of..." She suddenly stretched out her hand, through his too long bangs, and put her palm on his left On the bandage tied to his eye, he stared at his right eye for a long time.She raised her other hand and removed the bandage covering his left eye.

It wasn't just his left eye that was entangled round and round, maybe someone's soul as well.Because it was sealed in such a small space, it always made a mournful cry.

After removing the bandage, she saw the scar on his left eye that would never heal.Ugly and sinuous, as if branded by someone, but coupled with the slightly curved corners of his mouth, there is a kind of creepy beauty.

Beautiful and ugly is the ultimate truth of this world.

She likes to untie this bandage with her own hands, and keeps touching it. The touch of the winding and deep scar in the palm of her hand makes her inexplicably addicted.Every time he climaxes with indulgent pleasure and despair, he will also brush away his obstructive bangs, close his eyes, and kiss these scars as if he was going to bite them hard.

It seems that only in this way can we truly be sure that he still exists.

At such a time, saying "does it still hurt"... This kind of words seem too hypocritical, and it's many years too late... She sighed softly and said, "Jin Zhu, remember to be sure in the future Protect the vision of your right eye more, or the gods will not be able to save you ╮(╯_╰)╭”

"…………"

"Ah, Shenwei came here during the day and told me that Li Quan was dead. Speaking of which, you and him... Forget it anyway, you won't listen to what I say now, and it's like this when children grow up. How nice is Xiaosuke. So is it true that all people with the word “奖” in their names are like this? What ○Sugi○suke, U○Ha○suke, no ○Zhou○, etc. (Hey), when I was young, I looked like one by one They are all fleshy faces, which seem to be super easy to arouse the desire to pinch, but in the end, all of them are terribly difficult..." She half-closed her eyes, and suddenly felt sleepy for some reason, So he stuffed the bandage back into his hand, and yawned, "Suddenly I feel like I've done almost everything I want to do in my life except getting married... Ah no, there's one more thing, when can I have a class reunion?" ?...Forget about this, I suddenly feel sleepy, you can just say hello, I’ll go to bed first, good night (__).゜zzZ”

As he said that, he got up and walked back, lay down, pulled the quilt over his head, and began to sleep soundly.

He sat against the wall, held the bandage in his hand without moving, looked at her silently through the darkness, smoked the pipe in his hand silently, exhaled the smoke softly, and quietly dissipated in the night wind .

***

It was already noon when she woke up, and she was sleeping in the living room. When she opened her eyes, Takasugi was no longer in sight—but the big hat was still on the table, and his feathered coat She also slipped onto the tatami due to the movement of her getting up.

"...Huh?" Her ears moved, she turned her head to look at the inner room, "Do you want to find my private money? I don't hide my money there."

"Xizi, I got a good harvest from fishing yesterday, and I brought it here to make soup for you!" Gui's voice suddenly came from far and near from the gate of the courtyard, "Yinshi, come in soon... Didn't you get injured a while ago? Drinking more fish soup can supplement the body with various nutrients!"

"Are you an old lady?" Yinshi yawned lazily, with a bandage on his head, and Gui dragged him into the house with a fish in one hand and the other.

After Gui and Yinshi entered the room, one saw the hat on the table while turning his head and yawning, while the other was holding a fish and was excitedly preparing to introduce Alice and Juliet (the name of the fish) to her, and saw the hat in front of her. Haori jacket on tatami.There seemed to be a momentary pause in the expressions of both of them.

"Well..." She laughed dryly.

"Xizi." Gui's expression was so serious that her heart tightened, "What family is the other party? Who is the last name? Who are the members of the family? What is the annual income? It is less than three trillion..."

"How could it be more than three trillion yuan?! What kind of business can have an annual income of more than three trillion yuan! Is it your turn to sell me for money?! Who did you learn from?!" she shouted, "And isn't it enough to love each other sincerely? Why must it be based on material things!"

"Xizi, these are all rhetoric from men to deceive you. Don't believe it." Gui suddenly changed his tone of earnestness, "How can a man get married if he doesn't start a career? Stick to the consciousness on your shoulders! This empty promise made for a moment of pleasure can be backed out, and girls always suffer from this point. If this man really loves you, he will definitely plan for your future. How could it drag you into the predicament of having no house, no car, and no savings?"

"Are you referring to someone by this sentence? Obviously you are referring to someone?!" She glanced wildly at Sakata Yinshi, but was stunned when she made eye contact with him, and then moved unnaturally. Opening his eyes to Gui, he forced the corners of his mouth, "...Speaking of which, Kotaro, did you buy a car yourself?!"

"Hey, my driver's license will pass the test one day. But recently, relying on the arrest certificate is enough to go to the video store..."

"Hey! Is that store really normal?! You must not go to that store, do you hear me! It must be a trap, right?! It must not be a normal video store!"

"Give me the fish, please, and I'll prepare lunch." Xiao Yi appeared out of nowhere and reached out to grab the fish in Gui's hand.

"..."

"Please let go. Mr. Gui, didn't you intend to use these two fish to make soup?" Xiao Yi calmly reminded that he was planning to hide the fish in a different space, accusing "Mr. Yi, you have the heart to eat them." Two Lives (Xiao B Nao Bu)" Gui.

Seeing Alice and Juliet being brutally killed by the cruel Xiao Yi to feed the human stomach, Gui's regretful eyes directed at Xiao Yi's boss!Yinshi no longer looked at the hat at this time, turned his head and showed a lazy smile as usual, reached out and patted Gui's head, pointed to the corner of the wall: "Wig, look, there are rabbits over there."

"It's not a wig, it's a rabbit...it's not a rabbit, it's Gui!" Gui had spontaneously and automatically had a friendly conversation with the rabbit in the corner with a little blush on his face.

...In fact, she has always believed in Gui, so she also believed that the dawn of Edo that he was looking forward to would definitely come, but occasionally felt that it might be a little longer at this time...==|| |

Xiao Yi finished her lunch, warmed the medicine she was going to drink in the afternoon on the stove, and left on the pretext of having something to do.Both Gui and Yinshi looked like they didn't see the extra fourth person.She got up and brought the extra meal into the back room.

Opening the door, I saw Takasugi sitting on the tatami mat in the back room, leaning on the small table, flipping through the books on the original bookcase. They were all books for developing intelligence, such as brain teasers and the like ...

"First declare, I didn't buy these books, but Xiao A and Xiao B bought them!" She put the imperial basin in front of him, and hurriedly explained.In exchange, he raised his eyes to glance at her, and smiled lowly: "I bought it for you?"

"...You are so annoying! Are you in such a good mood when you have a meal >盗<!" She grimaced at him, turned and went out, "I don't want to talk to you, if you feel lonely eating by yourself, just come out with a rice bowl!"

But he still didn't come out, and he was very quiet while eating, or it should be said that he didn't move his chopsticks at all.

After lunch, she irresponsibly took all the things into the kitchen and threw them away, irresponsibly thinking that Xiao B should do the washing... When she returned to the room, Gui had picked up the rabbit again and was teasing it. There was still a suspicious little blush on her face, she heard the familiar sound of the shamisen being played from the back room, she was dazed for a moment, and inadvertently stepped on the stomach of Sakata Gintoki who was lying at the door...

"Hey, why is Yinsang treating me like this?" Perhaps it was because of the fine weather that he even protested in a lazy tone.

"Who told you to sleep at the door..." She guiltyly decided not to meet his gaze.

In this way, Takasugi Shinsuke sat loosely on the window rail of the inner room, holding the shamisen in his arms, plucking the string skillfully, and the familiar music dissipated smoothly in the air.In the center of the outer room separated by a sliding door, Katsura Kotaro, who is kneeling and sitting in a standard and graceful posture like Yamato Nadeshiko, is pressing the little white rabbit in his arms—the meat ball on the paw, with a serious expression.Further outside, Sakata Gintoki was lazily sleeping on the porch with his limbs spread out.

The afternoon sun is very warm, the air is lazy, the atmosphere is peaceful, the breeze blows across people's faces, and the time is slow.She picked up the medicine that had been warmed, and smelled it as bad as ever, making her want to throw the bowl away. When she raised her head slightly and drank it, she blinked her eyes, and tears slipped into the medicine juice, and she drank it back together. into the stomach.After putting down the medicine bowl, she laughed again, lay back under the quilt, leaned on the high pillow, and flipped through the book in her hand.When reading, the corners of the mouth are always curved.

No one spoke, each doing their own thing.In this way, until the evening when the sun was sinking to the west, the dim red sunset glow dyed the sky all over the sky, and even the clouds were rosy.First, Sakata Gintoki woke up, got up and left without saying a word, and then Gui also pretended that he didn't remember that he still had a rabbit in his arms, and said "XX Radio Contest has begun" while holding the rabbit. Standing up to say goodbye, she casually pulled the pillow and slammed it violently.

The last one to go was Takasugi.After the two people left, the room became more and more silent for a long time, and the evening wind blew into the room from the yard, making it look a bit bleak.She pursed her lips, and softly asked the inner room where the sound of the shamisen had long stopped and had been quiet: "Do you want to stay for dinner? Or did you accidentally fall out of the window?"

No one answered her for a while, she thought for a while, and said to herself: "It seems that it really fell from the window, and I told you not to be handsome... I will buy a house on the twentieth floor in the future. let you sit by the window..."