book of contract

When she let go of her lips, Kira realized what she had done and kissed Fei Yin! ?

His fair face suddenly flushed, flustered, overwhelmed, and unnaturally shy.

"Hug, I'm sorry!" Although it was very rude and kissed her abruptly, the joy in my heart couldn't be calmed down all at once. Maybe I wanted to do this a long time ago, but I just stopped because I cared about Feiyin's thoughts. .

"I like Feiyin." Now that he has made up his mind, he no longer hesitates, and repeats what he said before the boat.

"It's not like ordinary friends...but...but..."

"I know, I know..." To Kira's surprise, Feiyin took a long time to answer, but when Kira looked over, she lowered her head, and her hair covered her entire expression.

Such an evasive gesture made Kira's joyful mood seem to have been poured with cold water, completely freezing.There was a bitter pain somewhere in his heart, yes, Feiyin never said he liked her, how could he be sure that if he liked Feiyin, Feiyin would definitely respond to him?

"I'm sorry, I really hate this. I kissed you without taking your wishes into account. I'm sorry..." Kira's smile looked as fragile and sad as that of a wounded animal. He avoided Feiyin's gaze and took out the bandage Continue to bandage her wound, "It doesn't matter if Concubine doesn't like me, I like Concubine, that's enough."

"No, I..." Because of Kira's attitude, Fei Yin's words were completely unspeakable.

"As long as Feiyin doesn't feel indebted to me, it's fine. It's okay, forget what I said before, I don't want to cause a psychological burden to Feiyin." Kira bandaged her knees, stood up and bent over Gently stroked her hair.He won't ask for more, at least Feiyin is still alive at the moment and didn't die in the explosion, that's enough.

"It's not like that..." She retorted and took Kira's hand with her injured hands, preventing him from turning away. She had decided to tell him everything and no longer hide it.

Kira looked back in confusion, and when she seemed to be about to say something, the sensor door opened again, and Captain Mu walked in, "Oh, it seems that you two are recovering well."

But no one answered him.Cold sweat dripped down his forehead. It seemed that the atmosphere was very strange. Fei Yin, who was always sharp-tongued, also remained silent. Did he interrupt their good deed?

Even so, he said cheekily, "When I checked the Strike Gundam, I found the things you left inside. This book and the paper flower belong to Kira. I brought them to you."

"Ah." Kira then remembered that it was indeed included in Strike Gundam, "Thank you."

He was reaching out to pick it up, but Captain Mu looked very strange and didn't let go.It seems that there is no intention of giving the book to him at all. "Is this really yours, Kira?" Confirmed as if he didn't want to give up.

Although Kira felt strange, but still nodded, "Yes."

Looking at the expression on his answer, he confirmed that there were no lies in his words. In the end, Captain Mu sighed heavily as if giving up, "Kira, come with me, I have something to say to you." Kira hesitated After looking at Feiyin, seeing that she didn't say anything, she followed her and left. The moment they left, Feiyin's hands clenched into fists, and the almost scarred wound in the bandage opened again, and blood flowed through the bandage. out.

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Captain Mu walked in front of Kira, so Kira didn't see his serious expression, and frowned tightly.He remembered, with nuances, that the book had appeared in his life before, in the hands of his father.This book fascinated my father like magic. My father said that as long as he had this book, his wishes and ideas could be fulfilled.

Because his father said that the person who gave him the book told him that this book is all-knowing and omnipotent. As long as he wants to know and obtain, this book can realize it for him.It contains endless knowledge and future.

The book has the power to fulfill his father's ambitions.

"Kira, if this is really yours, can you tell me how you got it, and do you know its origin?" Captain Mu stopped at a corner.

I don't know why the first time I saw Captain Mu like this, and the first time I heard his serious tone other than facing the war, I felt a strong sense of uneasiness, but subconsciously made him vigilant, "Sorry, I don't know, Can't answer either."

However, Captain Mu didn't delve into whether he was telling the truth or a lie, and he didn't care about what he was hiding. He just remembered something, frowned and said, "No matter how you got this book, I advise you, don't read it. If you keep it by your side, this book can only bring you disasters, and you can't get anything else."

"Eh? Why?"

"I can't tell you the details, because I don't know much about it, but I only know that it is called the Book of Urudisia, which is the book of ominous nightmares." The product is mediocre, burdened with countless puzzles, and his father and a doctor only deciphered part of the content of the book, only to comprehend a small corner, as if discovering some shocking treasure.At that time, he had no idea what his father was researching, nor what information his father obtained from it.

He only knew that he and his father had disagreements, and he only remembered that his father had never said a word to him after that, and he had never looked for his father. It can be said that it was the rebellious period of his youth.But he never thought that one day his home would be set on fire, his father and mother died in the flames, only he was rescued by a servant.If this book was really left by God, why didn't they save them back then...

"Maybe you won't believe it or care about it, but many years ago, my father and my family were destroyed because of this book." He felt that it was this book that caused such a disaster, because The book disappeared after the fire, and it must have been stolen by someone who kept the fire ablaze.

"!" There was another person besides Kira, because they were within the range of Feiyin. When Feiyin heard Captain Mu's words, her expression was unbelievably shocked, and her pupils suddenly shrank.As if fearing something, the trembling of the pupils gradually disappeared for a long time, just like the wind blowing through the stagnant water, when the ripples disappeared, and the waves disappeared.

Someone died for her even when she didn't know it.

All of this is preordained, irreversible, and unchangeable. The bottomless black eyes seemed to have completely disappeared at that moment, and there was no trace of any hope and emotion.

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Facing Captain Mu at the end, Kira still didn't say anything, turned and left.

When I returned to the room, I saw Feiyin sitting leaning on the bed frame, meeting her eyes, Kira's heart skipped a beat, and she became flustered.Because those eyes seemed to have returned to the silence of the first meeting, bottomless, not even more desolate than when they were waiting to die, it seemed that no matter how much light fell into her eyes, they could not be reflected, deep and deep The bottomless black seems to be the desolation where all the colors of the world have faded.

"What's wrong with you? Feiyin, Feiyin!" Kira walked quickly to her side, but she didn't see any reaction, as if she was sitting here, but her soul died.His hands dangled in front of her eyes, but there was no response. He couldn't help but grabbed her shoulders and called her name loudly in her ear.

Only then did Xu Jiufeiyin's eyelids lower slightly, and then she slowly opened them to look at Kira, seeing the undispelled worries on his face and the reassuring smile, both were like invisible needles that made her feel pain in her heart. "Why don't you leave?"

"what?"

"After hearing Captain Mu's words, why didn't you just throw away this book as he said, and why did you come back!" shouted out of control, with a voice hoarse in despair.Her bandaged hands were slammed against the wall violently and mercilessly, blood spattered.

"Fei Yin!" The splash of blood hurt Kira, and he held her wrist to stop her self-torture.

"Why, say you like me to me like this. Why..."

Why do you like her existence,

Why give her the illusion that she too can be forgiven, can be redeemed.

It seems that as long as she doesn't want to, all the things she cares about and worry about will not happen.

Knowing that these are illusions, it is impossible for them to happen.

Wherever she is, will misfortune happen?

Feiyin slowly let go of her fist, and powerlessly lowered her bleeding hand, her eyes were so sad, it seemed that she was about to cry out in pain the next moment, but no matter how much pain there was, there was a surge of pain in her heart broke out, but the tears couldn't flow out, because she was not a human being.

"Why didn't you question me, Mingming Kira, you found a lot of things wrong from the very beginning, didn't you? Why didn't you ask me. Question me." Why did you hide it for her? Obviously, he should have a lot of questions in his heart, right? Why? She can know so many things, why she can know the conversation between him and Captain Mu, why she appeared in his cabin even after boarding the ship, and the spirit song delivery, and so many other things.

It was the first time seeing Fei Yin who was so fragile and close to collapse, Kira opened his mouth, but no sound came out.

"I'm sorry... Captain Mu is right, this is indeed a bloody book of disasters, I will leave." Feiyin's apology made Kira's eyes widen, "I'm sorry, I thought I could stop everything It won't happen, I thought that as long as I was around, that book wouldn't bring you any danger or disaster."

But she never thought about what happened to her body when she didn't wake up, nor what happened in this world when she was asleep.

"I'm sorry, I gave you such a terrible thing, such a cursed thing, as a gift." Feiyin took two steps back and reached the bed support, as if she was barely able to stand still, she raised her head and laughed , stretched out his hand to Kira, "I'm sorry, I haven't told you the truth, return that book to me, and then, I'll tell you everything, everything."

That kind of smile is more sad than crying.

Kira just frowned, and it took a long time to answer, "No."

Seemingly not seeing Fei Yin's expression, he continued, "What this book is and what it represents, I don't know, and I don't want to know, because this is a gift from Fei Yin, and that alone is enough. Yes, as you said, I know that Feiyin has concealed a lot, Feiyin is not a new human being, nor is she a natural person, I know both."

"Because, there is no one who doesn't need to breathe in the vacuum of the universe. But what does it matter, all this is Feiyin's secret, I will not ask, if you don't want to say it, it doesn't matter if Feiyin never tells it ..."

Facing Feiyin's disbelief, Kira laughed, "I like Feiyin, even if I'm hated, there's no way I don't like it... Feiyin doesn't want me to know, and I will never ask."

"why……?"

"Because, I'm afraid that if I ask, Feiyin will disappear." Kira expressed her feelings clearly and honestly. "So... if it's Concubine Yin's secret, I won't ask about things that Concubine Yin doesn't want to talk about. Like I said, if Concubine Yin wants to deceive me, she can lie to me until the end."

He approached her slowly, but she didn't escape. When facing life and death at that moment, she had experienced loss before she understood the despair of being alone.

"Who would make a choice like yours, knowing that the one standing in front of you is a monster, and still accept it like this."

"Feiyin is not a monster," Kira didn't like hearing her describe herself that way. "To me, Feiyin is just Feiyin."

Hearing his words, she was not unmoved, as if someone stretched out a warm hand to such a filthy her, holding her falling soul and heart.It gave her an illusion of being redeemed.

This is a kind of warmth that you can't give up even if you know it will be lost.

Feiyin raised her head and looked at the gentle young man in front of her with a complicated and sad expression, "Do you know what you said? You forgave me who never told you the truth, and left me who is not a human being. For the Book of Disasters..."

"Because I don't want Concubine to leave. I don't care if Concubine is a book of disasters. It doesn't matter how much trouble it will cause me, because it is Concubine. As long as she stays by my side like this, it will be fine."

How could it be possible to hate... such a person who warms others all the time.

"I don't hate Kira, but I'm the one who really hates you, right? In fact, I'm not qualified to stay by your side at all."

"I don't..." Hate.Before Kira finished speaking, she was interrupted by Feiyin.

"Wait until you've heard it before answering, Kira. Once something is said, there's no going back."

Don't say it lightly, this kind of words that make me think I can still be saved.Don't give me this illusion again, "I will tell Kira everything, and Kira will decide whether to stay or not at that time."

"After I finish speaking, make a real choice, no matter what you think, I will, sincerely thank you."

Even if in the end, you kill me...

I also……

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