deep desire

At 08:30, Lu Jingshen arrived at the company, and Liu Jie, who had arrived 5 minutes earlier, was at the entrance of the building, waiting for him to go up together.

Striding towards the elevator room, Liu Jie reported today's work schedule. While waiting for the elevator, his eyes suddenly stopped, and his words froze.

Lu Jing tilted his head deeply, looked at him in confusion, Liu Jie came back to his senses, and quickly continued what he said just now: "There is a meeting at 01:30..."

Lu Jing listened carefully, but Liu Jie's eyes drifted to the back of his neck uncontrollably. There was a bright red mark on the root of his left hair, which was particularly conspicuous.

It's only mid-May, and there seems to be no mosquitoes yet... right?

In the morning, Lu Jingshen was absent-minded and didn't want to go back on his word. He picked up his phone and sent An Xin a message, saying that he wanted to go home for dinner tonight, and asked her to call Lu Jingqing and Lu Chixie to go back together.

The son suddenly said that he would come back for dinner, of course Anxin was happy, and asked him what he wanted to eat, she asked someone to prepare it.

Lu Jing replied deeply: "It's okay, let people do more, I will bring a friend with me."

After agreeing with his family, Lu Jing took a deep look at the time and called Feng Si directly.

"I just came back from the cafeteria, what's the matter?" Feng Si's voice came with a smile, "Your flowers have just been delivered, and they are on time today."

Lu Jing took a deep breath and paused, then asked him: "What time can I get off work today, are you free tonight?"

"About five o'clock, what? Want to go on a date with me?"

Feng Si asked directly, and Lu Jing said "hmm": "Is it possible?"

"I'm afraid it won't work. I just made an appointment with my colleagues to eat hot pot at night. I didn't go last time. This time it's not good and I'm going to let the pigeons go again?" Feng Si's tone seemed to be very embarrassed.

Lu Jingshen insisted: "Can I change the time when I have an appointment with a colleague? I want to see you tonight, I want to tell you something, and I want to take you to my house for dinner."

Feng Si: "To your house?"

Lu Jing said deeply: "My parents' house, everyone in the family is here."

"It turns out that Lu always came prepared? Then I can only release the pigeons of my colleagues?"

Feng Si's laughter became more cheerful, and Lu Jingshen asked again: "Is it okay?"

"You asked me that, can I say yes or not?" Feng Si deliberately teased him, "You are more important, see you that night."

Lu Jing breathed a sigh of relief: "Okay, at 05:30, I'll pick you up at your place."

After hanging up the phone, Lu Jingshen was still flustered in his heart. He always felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't say what it was.

After a while, Lu Jingqing's WeChat message came in: "You told mom to ask me to go home with Chi Xie for dinner at night? And you said you wanted to bring a friend back?"

Lu Jingshen: "Just have a light meal. If you don't have anything urgent, go as far as you can."

It showed "typing" over there, and it took several minutes to reply again, with only three words: "Okay then."

Putting down the phone, Lu Jingqing rushed to Lu Chixie, who was leaning against her desk with a face full of gossip, pouting, "My evening date and your evening date are all in vain."

Lu Chi smiled: "We also bring people home together, let's make it lively, and he didn't say no, anyway, we will be a family in the future, and we will meet sooner or later."

Lu Jingqing: "Oh."

Lu Chixie came to the company today to record a show.

The entertainment company under Shangxin has launched a new live broadcast platform, and Lu Chixie is helping to promote it. Today, there will be a live variety show called "Me and My Brothers and Sisters". He invited Lu Jingqing to join him. Today, it has already been carried out for a morning, and the staff are all going to eat at this moment, and they will continue in the afternoon.

"Just now the producer secretly asked me if I could invite my brother to also appear on the screen. You said I'd go and tell him, would he agree?" Lu Chixie asked Lu Jingqing whimsically, with the mentality of wanting to watch the excitement.

Lu Jingqing stretched out her hand to signal: "You can try it, but I think he will refuse in all likelihood."

Lu Chixie: "Just try it."

At 03:30, Lu Jingshen returned to the office after the meeting and resumed work. Lu Chixie called, and he opened his mouth and asked him, "Brother, can I go to your office? I'm doing live variety shows in the company, from morning to now It’s all here with my sister, and the audience heard that I have an older brother, and they strongly demand that you also be included in the scene.”

Lu Jing frowned deeply, the word of refusal was already on his lips, Lu Chixie continued: "It won't take much of your time, please help me."

Lu Jing hesitated for a moment, then changed her words: "Come on."

If it was before, he would definitely not agree, but Feng Si said that he can try to let go, there is no need to tense himself so tightly.

He does want to make some shifts.

After hanging up the phone, Lu Jingshen called Liu Jie in and gave orders. Liu Jie was so shocked that his jaw almost dropped. Their boss hated to show their face in public, and today they would agree to that young master's live broadcast?

But Lu Jingshen said so, and he could only agree, and hurried out to tell the secretary to be ready, so that they don't have a bad image when they are caught by the camera, and lose the company's face.

Twenty minutes later, Lu Chixie arrived with a group of staff, and it was the first time that Lu Jingshen's office was so lively.

A dozen cameras were aimed at him at the same time, and Lu Jingshen behind the desk subconsciously clenched the pen in his hand, pretending to be calm and continuing to read the documents at hand.

Lu Chixie came over, introduced Lu Jingshen in front of the camera, and reminded him: "Brother, say hello to the camera, everyone is saying that you are handsome, and they don't know that I have such a handsome brother."

Lu Jing frowned deeply, and nodded in the direction of Lu Chixie's finger, as a greeting.

Lu Chixie turned to the camera helplessly and said, "I can't help it, my brother's personality is just like this, he's giving me face if he shows his face."

"Ask if my brother has a sister-in-law who wants to marry? Come on, it's not for you, what are you thinking?"

"I don't know if he is single, let alone what type he likes, okay, let me ask him."

Lu Chixie's gaze fell back to Lu Jingshen, and he said with a narrow smile, "The fans are too enthusiastic, brother, please say something to save face."

Lu Jing asked calmly, "What did you say?"

Lu Chixie: "Anything is fine. They want to know what type of girl you like. One second they say they love me, and the next they want to be my sister-in-law."

"I don't like it." Knowing that Lu Chixie was trying to squeeze her out, Lu Jingshen still didn't like this kind of joke.

When Shen Sheng threw out these three words, his closed heart defense seemed to be opened a gate at this moment, and the crazy thoughts finally broke through the cage, and began to grow uncontrollably.

Feng Sishi's smiling eyes kept flashing before his eyes, if it could make him happy, as long as it could make him happy and make him feel safe...

"I don't like girls."

When he realized what he said, these words were clearly recorded, and his slightly impatient expression was honestly recorded by the camera.

Lu Chixie raised his eyebrows in surprise. Although he meant to tease Lu Jingshen, he didn't expect Lu Jingshen to say this in front of the live broadcast camera.

After Lu Jingshen finished speaking, she was also stunned for a moment, her heart was suspended high, and her heartbeat almost reached her throat.

Lu Chixie coughed lightly, trying to change the subject, before speaking, Lu Jing looked up at him deeply, and asked, "Is your live broadcast available to everyone?"

Lu Chixie nodded: "You can see it as long as you come into the live broadcast room."

Lu Jing closed her eyes deeply, forcing herself to relax, not paying attention to the surprised eyes of other people present, and looking towards the direction of the camera that Lu Chixie pointed at earlier.

"I……"

He clasped his hands, rubbed his thumb against the back of the other hand, said this word, paused, and tried to continue in a calm tone: "I don't like girls."

Off-camera, the program producer asked Lu Chixie for help with his eyes. Although they wanted the show to be popular, this one seemed to be too explosive, and this person's identity was not something they could afford to offend. They were afraid that it would be broadcast live now. Was settled by Qiuhou.

The producer even wanted to cut off the live broadcast directly. Lu Chixie shook his head slightly and took a step back without disturbing Lu Jingshen.

Lu Jing's heart was surging, and all kinds of complicated emotions rushed in. He never thought that he would be able to go this far and say such words in front of the camera.

But he had already said it, so he couldn't retreat.

"I like men."

After uttering these few words with difficulty, Lu Jingshen's whole body suddenly loosened up as if losing all strength.

He couldn't see the live broadcast barrage, didn't know what others said, and forced himself not to think or watch the reactions of other people on the scene, staring at the camera and continuing: "The person I love, he is a man, I am Gay."

Saying the most embarrassing sentence is like a complete breach of the psychological defense line, and then the words will become easier and smoother.

Lu Jing's blank mind gradually regained his thoughts. After taking a deep breath, he tried to organize his words: "I owe someone an answer that was seven years late. If he can see this live broadcast, I want to tell him."

His eyes flickered, but his eyes were sincere, even Lu Chixie had never seen Lu Jingshen like this before.

"Seven years ago, I met you in Africa. Those three months were the freest and happiest three months I lived. You asked me if I fell in love with you at first sight. I didn't know or figured it out before, but now I know. , Yes, I fell in love with you at first sight, no one else can be like you, just one glance makes me never forget, put down my guard and follow you recklessly."

"But I'm still too cowardly. I chose the worst and hurtful way to escape from you. In fact, I have often dreamed of you in these years. The longer the time, the clearer the memory of that year, the more I can't forget it. That day in I was really surprised when I saw you at the airport, I thought it was another beautiful dream that I would wake up at any time, but I couldn't believe it was really you. I only dare to dream, but you are the one who can create dreams for me."

"But I don't know. You've been looking for me. You've been changing jobs for so many years. You've traveled all over the world just to find me. You always smile like you don't care about anything, and you only told me about your sadness once. and hard work, but I think the pain and torture you have experienced these years is no less than mine, you just don't bother to complain."

Lu Chixie stepped back from the camera, glanced at the live broadcast barrage, it was so dense that it was almost impossible to see what was being said.

The number of viewers is increasing exponentially. Although Lu Jingshen is not an entertainment star and has been keeping a low profile before, but under the aura of Shangxin CEO and Lu Chixie's brother, he openly came out and confessed to men in the live variety show. Such a hot topic is definitely eye-catching.

The producer rubbed his hands aside, excited and worried, Lu Chixie couldn't help laughing.

He took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Ling Zhuo: "We haven't come out yet, my brother came out in my live broadcast room first."

Ling Zhuo replied in seconds: "I'm watching, Brother Shen is very handsome, really admirable."

Lu Chixie: "..."

He can do it too.

Lu Jing rubbed the leather strap on his wrist lightly, and continued: "You finally found me, I clearly wanted you but refused to admit it, selfishly kept you by my side as an assistant and bodyguard, enjoying your love Giving but not responding, being secretly photographed kissing photos, obviously you are also a victim but I blame you, disregarding your feelings, denying the authenticity of the photos, denying your existence, I know you were really angry that time, but even In this way, you are still willing to give me time."

"When I went abroad to look for you, I didn't even think about what to do. I could only rely on you with the cheek. Even though you chased me, you still softened my heart. It was me who was wrong, but you were asked to come in the end Bear with me, I'm really bad."

"You said not to punish yourself with other people's mistakes, but I did make a mistake. Psychological barriers are not an excuse to escape after provocation. I can't evade my mistakes. You are still willing to give me a chance, so I can go to the end. today."

Feng Si took the students to the simulator training base this afternoon. Just after the course was over, the students were gathering outside the convenience store for drinks in twos and threes, waiting for the school bus to pick them up and go back to school.

Feng Si also bought a bottle of mineral water himself, and when he unscrewed the bottle cap, he checked the time. It was past four o'clock, and Lu Jingshen said that he would pick him up at 05:30, and it should be about the same when he went back to school to change clothes.

Drinking water casually, recalling Lu Jingshen's tone on the phone at noon, a smile appeared on the corner of his lips.

He knew what Lu Jingshen was going to do, it had been three months today, and Lu Jingshen was going to take him to meet his family formally, this time not in the name of a friend.

That's good, Lu Jingshen's psychological problems need to be treated step by step, and he doesn't have to tell the world, as long as he is willing to admit their relationship to his family, that's enough.

When the bottle of water was almost finished, he vaguely heard Lu Jingshen's name, sandwiched between words like "brother Lu Chixie", "live broadcast", and "coming out".

They were the only two girls among this group of pilot students. They were standing by the door of the convenience store with their heads lowered, looking at their mobile phones together, discussing in a low voice from time to time, and some boys came over to look curiously and exclaimed.

Feng Si stepped forward and asked them, "What are you looking at?"

The one with a more lively personality grinned and said: "Lu Chixie's live broadcast, his brother is the CEO of Shangxin Technology, just now he came out in public in Lu Chixie's live broadcast room, and confessed to his boyfriend!"

Feng Si's expression paused: "Can you show me?"

The girl handed over the phone, and the person on the screen was really Lu Jingshen, who was sitting behind the desk with his hands clasped in his office, obviously too nervous to move his body, but trying to pretend to be calm, Feng Si almost felt that his eyes were swollen famous.

Heart raised in an instant, Feng Si stared at Lu Jingshen on the screen, listening to his confession.

"You said that in the past, someone gave you roses for three months in a row in order to chase you. You were almost tempted. I can do what other people can do. Not only for three months, I will keep giving you roses. I said I wanted to chase you, but actually I didn’t know what method to use to chase you. Fortunately, you are willing to teach me, you are a good teacher, and I want to be a good student, as long as you are willing to continue teaching me.”

"I want you to be happy, so that you will stop wandering around, and let you have a home that you can look forward to returning to after get off work every day, so that you can feel warm and lively, and no longer lonely."

"I'm sorry for making you wait so long, and I will make up for you in the future."

"And, most importantly, I love you."

The moment the female students looked up, they saw the May spring sun blooming on the faces of their teachers.

Feng Si returned the phone and threw out the sentence "Go back to school obediently, I'll go first", turning around and running away without waiting for the students to react.