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Early in the morning, while having breakfast, Lu Jingshen received another call from his mother, saying that they were at the golf course and asked him to go there with Feng Si.

After hanging up, Lu Jing asked Feng Si if he wanted to go: "If you feel embarrassed, I will refuse them."

Feng Si laughed and said, "Go, you're not embarrassed, I have nothing to be embarrassed about."

Although he doesn't quite understand it, it's the behavior of a rich man who likes to play golf.

Father Lu is really keen on this. If his body doesn't allow him, he can spend a whole day on the golf course.

Feng Si followed Lu Jingshen, and greeted the two elders in a natural manner. Father Lu was studying the club, and nodded politely to him.

Feng Si would never feel nervous. An Xin asked them to sit, and he sat down generously, and even helped Lu Jing pull the chair away.Although he ate breakfast, the elder personally prepared hot tea and fruit snacks, and he also thanked him with dignity.

Father Lu didn't talk very much, basically An Xin was chatting with Feng Si, asking about his work, family, hobbies, and Feng Si answered them one by one.

Lu Jingshen chimed in from time to time, as if he was afraid that his mother's problems would embarrass Feng Si.

Before coming here, Feng Si asked him if this counted as meeting the parents. Their relationship hadn't been made public in front of the elders, but they knew each other well, even if it wasn't a formal meeting with the parents, it wasn't that far off.

After talking for a while, the two elders went to the court together, and they sat on the sidelines and continued to drink tea.

Feng Si looked at the back of Lu Jingshen's parents walking away, threw a piece of nuts into his mouth, and looked at the people around him with a smile: "Alex, didn't you say that when your brother's little boyfriend met his parents for the first time, he passed the test easily?" Is it? Why is it my turn, your mother seems to have a lot of questions and is very picky?"

Lu Jing raised her teacup and took a sip: "You are different."

Feng Si: "What's the difference?"

Lu Jingshen avoided his gaze: "Think about it yourself."

Half an hour later, An Xin came back and asked Feng Si if he could play ball with Father Lu for a while.

Feng Si knew that the matter was not over yet, so he stood up gracefully.

After the people left, Anxin sat down and added half a cup of tea to Lu Jingshen: "I heard from your sister that you have become more energetic recently. I think you are also in a good mood. Are you not as busy at work as before?"

Lu Jingshen: "It's okay."

He is always like this, he doesn't talk much, and his words are concise, even in front of his mother.

An Xin felt lost for no reason, and after hesitating, she asked him: "Ah Shen, did you experience something before that you never told us?"

Lu Jingshen drank his tea slowly, and said lightly, "No, it's all right now."

Things have changed, he didn't tell his family back then, and it's unnecessary now, and it would only add trouble to others.

An Xin sighed, she really cared too little about Lu Jingshen, Lu Jingqing was a girl, and Lu Chixie was the youngest son, so she could always get more attention from her.Lu Jing was caught in the middle and was always quiet, so she subconsciously ignored this son. By the time she realized something was wrong and wanted to care about others, it was already too late.

She tried to comfort her son: "You don't have to say it if you don't want to, but your father and I hope you can live a more relaxed life, choose what you like, and don't suppress yourself. Jing Qing and Chi Xie are fine, and so are you."

Lu Jing nodded deeply: "I know, thank you."

On the other side, Father Lu visually measured the distance to the target ahead, and asked Feng Si who handed him the club: "Young man, have you ever played with this before?"

"I've played it," Feng Si said honestly, "Most of my former employers liked to play golf, and I played with them, but I'm not interested in it."

Father Lu smiled: "No matter how many people ask for a chance to play with me, even if you don't like it or don't know anything about it, you still have to pretend to be very interested in front of me. You are still the first one to talk to me directly." Say, I'm not interested in this."

Feng Si didn't feel embarrassed at all: "If I lied to you, it would be even more boring."

Lu's father asked him: "Then do you think my eldest son likes to play this?"

Feng Si glanced at Lu Jingshen who was talking with his mother on the sidelines, and said, "For entertainment, you have to like it if you don't like it, he always does this."

Father Lu: "You know him well?"

"There should be no one who knows him better than me." Feng Si said to himself.

This kind of self-confidence is not annoying, even though Lu's father has seen thousands of people, he still feels that Feng Si is quite to his liking.

"Are you a pilot? Have you ever thought about switching to something else?"

"No way," Feng Si shook his head, "I still prefer flying planes."

His eyes fell on Lu Jingshen again: "Also, Alex probably won't want me to change careers. He wants to build a small airport over the back mountain to play, and I'm the only one who can play with him."

Lu Jingshen stands too high, has seen too many excellent people, his eyes will not look down, love at first sight does not mean forever, why should I attract him?Feng Si thought, at least he could bring freshness and excitement to Lu Jingshen forever.

Whether it's the aurora above the sky, or the soaring adrenaline and dopamine when you fall rapidly.

In the afternoon, they went to the ski resort.

During the three months in Africa, Feng Si took Lu Jingshen to play many extreme sports, but he never tried skiing.

Swimming down the extremely steep mountain road, Feng Si also tasted his adrenaline rush. He closed his eyes and heard Lu Jing's deep panic shout behind him. He recklessly plunged into the snowdrift while making a sharp turn.

Lu Jingshen's breathing froze at that moment, his blood froze, he stumbled and flew over, shouting his name: "Feng Si! Feng Si!"

Feng Si fell on his back in the snow, slowly opened his eyes, and what he saw was the skylight filtered by the brown goggles, he had an unreal feeling as if he was floating on the clouds.And then he saw Lu Jingshen's face, the flustered expression behind the lens was a little fuzzy, almost distorted.

Lu Jing knelt deeply on the ground, grabbed his clothes tightly, her hands trembling, and kept calling his name.The brief dizziness and deafness made Feng Si unable to hear what Lu Jingshen was yelling. He silently looked at the person in front of him for a moment, then raised his hand and patted Lu Jingshen's arm lightly.

Lu Jingshen's body suddenly froze, froze for a few seconds, and fell into his arms as if losing strength.

Feng Si embraced the person in his arms, the unreal feeling of floating was still there, and he heard the sound of his heart beating rapidly.

This time it was definitely dopamine, but the feeling of love was definitely not his illusion.

Lu Jing hugged him deeply, her heartbeat was so fast that it was out of balance, even to the point where it was uncomfortable to breathe.

In the few seconds just now, when Feng Si was lying motionless in the snow, countless desperate thoughts flashed through his mind.

If this person disappears, he may really have a complete breakdown.

After coming down from the ski resort, Lu Jingshen continued to walk back silently with a sullen face, ignoring the people around him.

Feng Si knew he was in the wrong, this time he really took the joke too far, he was lucky that he didn't get injured when he did that kind of action on the snowy track.

After entering the door, Lu Jing took the clothes deeply, intending to go to the bathroom to take a shower, but when she turned around, Feng Si pulled her arm into her arms and hugged her tightly.

Yiqiao

Lu Jing closed her eyes deeply, and said dumbly, "Let me go."

"Just give it a hug." Feng Si played a rogue, "Don't be angry, I promise not to make such a joke with you next time."

Lu Jingshen: "There will be no next time."

Feng Si: "Okay."

After hugging quietly for a while, Lu Jingshen calmed down a little and backed away.

Feng Si stared into his eyes: "Is it really so uncomfortable?"

Lu Jing shook her head deeply, not wanting to admit her gaffe, but her voice couldn't lift her strength: "Don't scare me anymore."

Feng Si raised his hand to touch his face, and apologized earnestly: "I'm sorry."

Afterwards, Lu Jing went to take a shower, and Feng Si went outside on the terrace alone.

The dusk is getting darker, and the sunset glow has already bloomed in the sky, covering the mountains near and far in layers.

He threw a piece of gum into his mouth and chewed slowly, recalling how Lu Jing's face was pale with fright, only the corners of his eyes were red.

Although it was teasing, he did go too far this time.

Forget it, let's restrain ourselves from those nasty and bad habits.

Driving back to the city after dark, Lu Jingshen took Feng Si back to school first.

When getting off the car, Feng Si looked at the time, it was almost eight o'clock.

He bent down and waved to the people in the car: "Go back, be careful on the road."

Lu Jing looked at him deeply, and decided not to wait for him to go up first this time: "I'll go first."

Feng Si smiled and nodded: "Let's go, go back early."

Lu Jing tightly gripped the steering wheel, suppressed those reluctance, and drove away.

Feng Si stood there watching the taillights go away, and smiled.

When he was about to go upstairs, a call came in. His flowers for today had arrived.

It was still a rose sent from outside, Feng Si wanted to laugh, Lu Jing really thought about it all day long.

Just as the delivery man left, another courier from the same city delivered it. It was a paper file bag.

Seeing Lu Jingshen's name on the sender, Feng Si was a little surprised. He didn't know what was inside, so he signed for it first.

After going upstairs, he put the flowers on the coffee table, sat down and opened the file bag.

To his surprise, it turned out that it contained the postcards that Lu Jingshen had taken from him.

Each one had a reply written by Lu Jingshen himself.

Feng Si's mind moved, and he flipped through them one by one.

"I didn't know that you would wait for me for another month after I left. I didn't expect to meet you before I went to Africa. Those three months were a miracle to me. I was in a hurry when I left. When I come back, I will be reluctant to leave.

I also thought it was not important, but in fact it is. "

"I only went to Tokyo later. When you came to Tokyo, I just joined the company. I was very busy and tired at work, and I didn't have any energy to think about other things. But in the dead of night, I still think about my days in Africa.

I don't know how to completely forget you, or maybe it is impossible for me to forget you in my life. "

"Those three months were not fake, nor were you imagining them. I was too despicable and cowardly to make you so hard and sad.

Thank you for never giving up on me. "

"French is an elective course when I was in college. I go to France for vacation in early March every year. I bought the winery because of the sunflower field. You asked me if it has any special meaning, but it does. Only in There, I can delude myself and dwell on our fleeting past.

It's a pity that that place is too remote. Even if you drive there with your friends, we can't see it. It's all my fault. "

"It snowed that night. When you mentioned this matter, I didn't know it was like this. If there is someone else who can replace me to keep you warm in these seven years, even if I would be jealous, I would like to be happy for you.

But you said that if you do that, your likes are not worth mentioning. What I want to tell you is that your likes are priceless to me. "

"The death of a family member is very painful. It seems useless for me to comfort you now, but there will be more than 30 years in a lifetime. We are only 30 years old. Even if we miss seven years, as long as we take good care of our health, we can have another 30, 50 or more years." longer."

"I've never been to Venice. I heard it's very beautiful. If you still want to go, let's go together on your next vacation. Not just Venice, but anywhere in the world, I want to go with you."

"You have reached the next stop, now you can stop and have a good rest, I am here and I will not leave again."

The last one was written and sent in front of Lu Jingshen in the Norwegian restaurant early that morning, and Lu Jingshen also wrote back to him.

"When you were writing this postcard, I was really curious who you were going to write it to. I was jealous of someone who made you take writing seriously for so long. Later, I found out that I was jealous of myself. If I have to say it, then After seeing the aurora at night, I am the one who is really blessed by good luck.

I am also very happy to receive your postcard. "

Feng Si's eyes stayed on the postcards for a long time, and finally he smiled from the bottom of his heart.

He is obviously not good at words, but he was able to write these replies seriously. Lu Jing is deeply emotional. Maybe he is clumsy, slow, and not enlightened, but he has been working hard.

When he wanted to heal Lu Jingshen's pain, Lu Jingshen also tried his best to comfort him for what he had experienced in the past seven years.

His disappointment and unwillingness finally had a response.

Feng Si called, and Lu Jingshen had just entered the house.

"Who did you learn to be so good at coaxing people, write me back and don't tell me, Alex, do you know that you are breaking the rules?"

Feng Si's protracted voice was full of smiles, and it could be heard that he was really happy.

Lu Jingshen was a little annoyed at him in the afternoon, but now his heart softened: "I learned from you."

Feng Si: "Oh? When did I teach you?"

Lu Jing poured himself a glass of water and praised him: "You are a good teacher."

The way he chased people was actually taught to him by Feng Si.

Not only these, flirting, kissing, going to bed, all intimate behaviors were also taught by Feng Si hand in hand.

Without Feng Si, he would not have established such an intimate relationship with the second person. His closed heart defenses have always been opened only for that one person.

Feng Si smiled and sighed: "Hey, why do I feel like you're doing this for only a week, and I'm about to surrender?"

Lu Jing took a deep sip of water, and her eyes fell on the phonograph in the living room: "You left a lot of things here when you left last time. That phonograph is also here, and it's broken again. I don't know how to fix it."

The hints in his words were obvious, Feng Si understood: "I'll help you fix it next weekend."

Lu Jing's deep throat rolled slowly: "Do you have to wait until next weekend?"

Feng Si reminded him in a low voice: "It's raining."

Lu Jing walked deeply to the window and looked outside. When he came back just now, it was just a light rain, but it was pouring down in a blink of an eye.

The dizzy and feverish mind calmed down a little, and he said: "Forget it, let's talk about it later, I want to continue chasing you."

Feng Si: "Continue?"

Lu Jing said deeply: "It's only been a week, are you so easy to chase?"

Others can do it for three months, so can he, or even longer.

He wanted Feng Si to feel his heart more, not just on impulse.

Feng Si laughed softly: "If you use this aggressive method, can I only accept the move?"

"Well," Lu Jingshen's voice was hoarse, "don't be so soft-hearted to me, I can do more for you."

"Alex," Feng Si's laughter stopped, and he whispered his name, "Okay, I'll wait."