deep desire

Just after noon, Lu Jingshen drove into the school through Jinghang's side door.

He slowed down the speed of the car and looked around. Most of the people coming and going on the boulevards on both sides were energetic college students. In his imagination, Feng Si was a bit out of place with this place.

He parked the car by the side of the road and got out of the car. Lu Jingshen sent Feng Si a WeChat message, but there was no immediate reply. After waiting for a while, he looked up and saw the crowd gathered on the playground in front of him. His eyes flickered, he paused suddenly, and walked away. past.

A group of boys were playing basketball here, and there were quite a few onlookers. Lu Jingshen saw a familiar figure on the court, and it really was Feng Si.

The man was wearing a v-neck sweater and casual trousers, and he dribbled the ball calmly, dunking it on the ground one after another. When the opponent was nervous, his body suddenly swayed, his feints were amazing, and he made a quick layup.

The basketball fell into the net accurately, and the surrounding cheers cheered.

The girls in front of them held up their mobile phones and chased after Feng Si, all of them blushed with excitement and screamed in a low voice from time to time.

Lu Jingshen stood outside the crowd, a little speechless. Feng Si mixed in with this group of students, and he didn't feel much disobedience, and he stood out from the crowd.

It is probably because he has the charm of a mature man that these college boys don't have, and he is tall, long-legged, and handsome, so he can easily attract people's attention.

Lu Jingshen stood by the side of the court for a while, Feng Si looked back at him, raised his eyebrows, said something to his teammates, threw the ball, and walked towards him.

"Why did you come here? Didn't you make an appointment to meet at the hospital gate?"

Lu Jingshen was going to go to the second psychological treatment today, and made an appointment with the doctor at four in the afternoon, Feng Si said to go with him, but he didn't expect him to come to the school.

Lu Jingshen: "Just passing by..."

Stared at by Feng Si's smiling eyes, his eyes drifted aside for a moment, and he told the truth: "I came out of the company at noon, I have nothing to do, so I just came here."

The smile on Feng Si's face deepened: "Let's go, it's still early, go sit in my dormitory first."

Lu Jingshen: "Have you stopped playing?"

Feng Si: "Forget it, let the children play."

Feng Si's dormitory is inside the school, and it only takes a few minutes to drive there.

"Are you used to it here? How does it feel to be a teacher?" Lu Jingshen drove slowly and asked people around him casually.

"It's good." Feng Si leaned back in the seat leisurely, and showed him the way. "It's quite interesting to get along with these students, and I feel that I have become a lot younger."

Lu Jing could see it deeply. It was only a few days since school started, and he was able to get along well with the students. Feng Si was born with this kind of person, he could easily blend in wherever he went, and won the favor of others.

"You are quite young yourself, so you don't need to say such things."

Feng Si nodded with a smile: "You too, you're here, stop."

Lu Jing looked deeply out of the car. It was an old-fashioned dormitory building with a height of six or seven floors. There were tall phoenix trees planted outside the building, which blocked the harsh sunlight in the afternoon, making it very quiet.

After getting off the car, he took a cardboard box from the trunk, and it was heavy in his hands.

Feng Si looked over: "What is this?"

Lu Jingshen: "Go up and show it to you."

Feng Si took the box over and put one hand in his arm easily: "Then go up."

Feng Si lived on the fourth floor, a single dormitory with one bedroom and one living room, only about forty square meters, a bit shabby, but fairly clean.

Lu Jing looked around deeply, feeling a little uncomfortable: "...there is nothing here."

"Who said that?" Feng Si poured water for him, motioning him to sit casually, "I think it's pretty good, the cafeteria and supermarket are nearby, and it only takes 5 minutes to walk there. It's very convenient, and the environment here is pretty good."

When he said that, Lu Jingshen couldn't say anything more.

Seeing seven or eight suitcases piled up in the living room, Lu Jing asked curiously, "Do you have so much luggage?"

"Ah," Feng Si nodded while drinking water, "I brought almost all the things at home, most of them are books."

What he said was casual, but Lu Jingshen heard the deep meaning in it.

The last time Feng Si came here, he only brought a flight case and a few clothes with him. This time, he brought all his belongings here, and he really planned to stay here for a long time.

Feeling full of indescribable emotions, Lu Jing thought deeply about the things that Feng Si didn't take away at her home. Feng Si told him to throw them away, but he didn't have them, and the things were still kept.

But he didn't say to ask Feng Si to get the things back, he hoped that one day Feng Si could go back with him.

"Did you bring those postcards? Can you give them to me?" Lu Jing asked deeply.

Feng Si put down the water glass, glanced at him, went to the bedroom and took out the things. Dozens of postcards were all put in a folder, and handed to Lu Jingshen: "Here, it was originally written for you."

Lu Jingshen took it and put it carefully at hand.

Feng Si also asked him: "What's in that box of yours?"

Lu Jingshen opened the box, a little embarrassed, and said bravely, "You said you liked this two days ago, so I bought it for you."

Feng Si walked over and looked through it, and it turned out that it was full of superhero figures. He raised his eyebrows, which was really unexpected.

Two days ago, he had a night chat with Lu Jingshen on the phone, and casually mentioned that he liked these superheroes very much when he was a child. Once, he saved two or three months of pocket money and wanted to buy a figure, only to find that the items in the store were sold out and taken off the shelves. Yes, I have been sad and depressed for a long time.Lu Jingshen didn't say anything after listening to it, but in the end, he bought such a big box for him in silence.

Although Feng Si has long since stopped playing with these things, Lu Jingshen's clumsy and clumsy way of chasing people really makes him laugh.

Lu Jing observed Feng Si's expression nervously: "...do you want it?"

"Yes," Feng Si said happily, "Thank you."

Lu Jing breathed a sigh of relief: "Don't thank me, I don't want to hear you say that either."

Feng Si smiled: "Sit down for a while, I'm going to take a shower, I'm sweating all over just playing golf."

Lu Jing nodded deeply.

Feng Si went into the bathroom, and when he came out 10 minutes later, he was only wearing a pair of shorts, his upper body was naked, and a towel was placed on his shoulders to wipe his hair, bringing out the heat.

Lu Jing looked up from the phone screen, glanced at him, and looked away: "Put on your clothes, aren't you afraid of catching a cold?"

"Turn on the heat, it's fine." Feng Si didn't care, seeing that it was still early, he went to take out the box of figures, planning to assemble them all and put them on display.

Lu Jing wanted to help, but he was really not good at this, so he had to give up.

It was a bit embarrassing to be alone, so he finally picked up the paper and pen on the coffee table, sat aside and started sketching.

He also learned a little bit of this when he was a child, just like the piano, he learned it well, and he hasn't touched it for many years. Before Feng Si asked him if he had any other interests and specialties, he racked his brains to remember that he had learned this before. , Feng Si asked him to draw a picture for himself when he had time, but he reluctantly agreed, fearing that the drawing would not be good enough to make Feng Si laugh at him.

While thinking wildly, Lu Jing's deep gaze rested on Feng Si's body, and saw a drop of water rolling from his half-wet hair, landing on his broad shoulders, and slowly sliding down.

Lu Jing's deep gaze moved down unconsciously. Feng Si's body proportions are perfect, healthy wheat-colored skin, muscles are firm and powerful but not too strong, eight-pack abdominal muscles are clearly defined, closed in the lower abdomen, and there is a gully underneath The obvious V-shaped mermaid line extends into the shorts, black hair is faintly visible, and the front is bulging.

Lu Jingshen's mouth suddenly felt a little parched, he lowered his head, picked up his brush and began to draw quickly.

He was too focused on the painting, and he didn't notice that Feng Si's breath was approaching from behind with heat, and his voice fell to his ears.

"Are you drawing me?"

Lu Jing's heart skipped a beat, and she turned her head to meet the smiling eyes that were close at hand, her mind went blank for a moment, and she completely forgot to react.

Feng Si saw his sluggish expression, raised his chin with a smile: "The painting is not bad."

Lu Jing turned his eyes away after returning to his senses, and said uncomfortably, "I draw casually."

Feng Si still leaned against him, admiring his paintings: "You said you didn't draw well before, but you're being modest again. I think the paintings are pretty good. Can you send them to me when they're finished?"

It was too close, Lu Jingshen could clearly feel Feng Si's breathing and the heat on his body, and quickly finished the last few strokes. He handed over the drawing paper, pretending to be calm: "Here you are."

Feng Si looked at the painting in his hand and smiled happily. Lu Jingshen couldn't help but look at the time and changed the subject: "It's almost 03:30, let's go."

Feng Si put away the painting and stopped teasing him: "I'm going to change clothes."

The second time for psychotherapy, Lu Jingshen was still nervous. He stopped before entering the door, and the people around him shook his hand lightly and then let go, with a relaxed tone: "Go in, it's over early and we're going to have dinner. The business is good tonight." There should be a queue at every restaurant, so get there early."

Seeing that Lu Jing was deeply confused, Feng Si told him: "Today is February NO.14."

February NO.14, Valentine's Day.

There was a momentary touch in Lu Jing's heart. After being interrupted by Feng Si, the tension subsided a lot. He relaxed and raised his hand to knock on the door.

After the people entered, Feng Si went to the garden outside, and when she was about to light a cigarette, she suddenly remembered that she had met Lu Jingqing before. Lu Jingqing said that Lu Jingshen had become more addicted to cigarettes recently, and she was a little worried.

Lu Jingshen's smoking frequency was very low originally, and his addiction to smoking should have worsened after he returned to England.

Feng Si casually threw the cigarette into the trash can. He himself didn't smoke much before, and he has indeed developed a lot of bad habits in the past seven years.

Forget it, let's quit, call Lu Jingshen together.

At 05:30, Lu Jingshen walked out of the recovery room, and Feng Si was standing outside the door. When he saw him coming out, he handed him a tissue first.

Lu Jing frowned deeply: "I didn't cry."

Feng Si laughed and said, "When did I say you were crying? I wiped your sweat."

To be honest, apart from Lu Jingshen's physical tears overflowing from the corners of his eyes every time he forced him on the bed, the only time he cried was when he said he wanted to leave.

It's so beautiful to cry.

Feng Si had to admit that when he faced Lu Jingshen, he still occasionally couldn't hold back those evil thoughts that wanted to play tricks on him. He obviously handed the tissue over just now because he just wanted to care about him.

Lu Jing reached out to take it, pressed it to his forehead and closed his eyes.

Feng Si asked him: "Still uncomfortable?"

"I don't know, it seems to be better than last time." Lu Jing thought deeply, the real difference was that when he walked out of this door, he saw Feng Si at first sight, which made him feel much better.

Feng Si suddenly reached out, put his arm around his shoulder, and gave him a gentle hug.

Lu Jing was taken aback.

A hug that ended, and then let go quickly, like the comfort and encouragement between friends, Feng Si backed away: "It's okay, let's go."

When the car drove out of the hospital, Lu Jingshen's mood had calmed down, Feng Si drove and asked him to see where to eat.

"Today, when two people dine out together, in the eyes of others, they are lovers by default. If you feel uncomfortable, choose a place with fewer people." Feng Si reminded him.

Lu Jing hesitated for a moment, and said, "It's okay, what do you want to eat?"

Feng Si looked back at him, and said unexpectedly: "It's really okay? It seems that the doctor is really capable."

Then he smiled: "But we are just friends at first, and we really don't care what others think."

Lu Jingshen: "...It's because I didn't work hard enough to catch up with you."

Feng Si laughed out loud.

The last place to eat was chosen by Feng Si, a relatively small but very romantic western restaurant, although there are many people, at least there is no queue.

As soon as they entered the door, someone who noticed them cast their gazes over. Lu Jingshen tried his best to ignore the gazes of others, forcing himself not to care, and walked in behind Feng Si.

When he sat down, Feng Si comforted him: "I was joking just now, people look at us because we are so handsome, don't think too much about it."

Lu Jing deeply felt that it would be better not to say this sentence.

Feng Si handed him the menu and asked him to order.

Lu Jing relaxed deeply: "Order."

Halfway through eating, a couple walked by them side by side. The big bouquet of roses in the girl's hand accidentally rubbed against Lu Jingshen's shoulder, and she immediately apologized to him. It doesn't matter."

The girl was taken aback by his smile, said "sorry" again and left. When she walked out of the restaurant, she looked back at them.

Lu Jing was a little helpless: "The other guy's boyfriend is by your side, can't you restrain yourself?"

Feng Si looked innocent: "What's wrong with me? I just said something to her, it doesn't matter."

He really doesn't mean anything else, but when he talks to people, he just smiles, as if he is releasing hormones, so he keeps attracting bees and butterflies.

After thinking about it deeply, Lu Jing seemed to have no position to say this, so she shut up.

Feng Si reached out, plucked a rose petal off his shoulder, crushed it between his fingers, and asked him, "Alex, has anyone else sent you flowers besides me?"

"No." Lu Jingshen answered simply.

Feng Si: "Really? No one has chased you for so many years?"

Of course there are people who chase after Lu Jingshen, but his personality is too cold and he will always reject people thousands of miles away. There are very few people who have the courage to chase him, and almost none can persevere.

"I did receive it before," Feng Si said slowly, "The deepest impression was when I was in high school, a boy wanted to chase me and sent me a rose every day for three whole months."

Lu Jing's expression froze, and she subconsciously asked, "What happened next?"

Feng Si: "That's when I realized that I can actually accept men, and I seem to be more interested in men. Although that boy is not my type, I am not hard-hearted either. I planned to give him a try. , as a result, his family moved to another city three months later, and he also transferred schools."

Lu Jing was silent for a moment after listening deeply, and asked him: "Are you sorry?"

"There's nothing to regret," Feng Si shook his head, "But I still have to thank him for letting me discover my sexuality."

After dinner, they drove around the streets of the city after nightfall, and finally Lu Jingshen insisted on sending Feng Si back.

On the way, he pulled over and asked Feng Si to wait in the car, got out of the car and walked into the flower shop on the street.

When he came back, he had an extra red rose in his hand, got into the car, and handed the flower to Feng Si, pretending to be calm: "For you, Happy Valentine's Day."

Feng Si probably guessed what he was thinking, took it with a smile, and asked him, "Are there any more tomorrow?"

Lu Jingshen restarted the car: "Let's talk about it tomorrow."

The car was parked downstairs in the dormitory, and when getting off, Feng Si also said something to Lu Jingshen: "Happy Valentine's Day."

Seeing the reluctance in Lu Jingshen's eyes, Feng Si comforted him again: "I'll call you when I go back."

Even if they don't meet each other these days, they will still communicate by phone at night. From the little things in daily life, to their past experiences, interesting things about their childhood and youth, Lu Jingshen didn't talk much at first, but under Feng Si's guidance, he also Gradually opened the chatterbox.

At the end of every night, when he heard Lu Jingshen's gradually steady breathing, Feng Si would hang up the phone and let him sleep peacefully.

Lu Jing nodded deeply and said goodbye to him.

He watched Feng Si's figure walk into the cave, stayed where he was for a while, took out his phone, dug out the delivery app, and placed an order for tomorrow's roses.

After finishing, he relaxed, took one last look at Feng Si's lit room, and drove away.