deep desire

On the first day after the Spring Festival holiday, Liu Jie received a business invitation letter from abroad and asked Lu Jingshen for instructions.

"I'm looking to see if a vice president will be sent there? There should be no need for the boss or the president to come forward in person..."

Lu Jing flicked the invitation letter deeply and asked Liu Jie, "The location is in London?"

Liu Jie nodded: "It's in London."

Lu Jing's deep eyes moved, staring at the invitation letter for a moment, then made a decision: "Let me go."

Liu Jie reminded him that he still has more important work to do next week, and Lu Jingshen ordered: "Go and arrange it, stagger the time, and spare a few days."

With Lu Jingshen's insistence, Liu Jie couldn't persuade him anymore, so he could only agree.

When he was about to leave, he suddenly thought of something, carefully observed Lu Jingshen's expression, and said: "Feng Zhu is not here, we have to ask the business jet company to send us someone to replace him when we go to London, Feng Zhu signed a contract with us for one year, yes There are clauses of breach of contract attached, and now he is leaving without reason, should he be held accountable?"

After a moment of silence, Lu Jing said deeply: "He has gone back to London, you can contact him by the way and ask him what he means."

Liu Jie: "Okay, I see."

Of course he knew that Feng Si had returned to the UK, and he also added Feng Si's WeChat account, looking at the colorful life in that circle of friends every day, it would be strange if he didn't know.

When walking out of Lu Jingshen's office, Liu Jie thought silently, their boss insisted on going to this not-so-important business invitation, could it be that the drunkard didn't care about drinking?

Liu Jie was not the only one who thought this way, the day before departure, Lu Jingqing came to Lu Jingshen's office to discuss work with him, and after talking about the business, he also asked Lu Jingshen what he thought.

"Are you going to England at this time? I've looked at the business invitation. Just ask someone else to go? You don't need to go there in person at all."

Lu Jing said calmly: "Anyway, I'm not busy right now. I'll go by myself. The projects in Europe also need to be watched more closely. Just go over and have a look."

Lu Jingqing looked directly into his eyes, Lu Jing's deep eyes were calm, and all her emotions were hidden deep in her eyes.

"Okay, just make up your mind," she didn't say anything, and reminded Lu Jingshen when she got up, "Don't stay there for too long."

Lu Jingshen: "No."

After the person left, he leaned back in the seat and closed his eyes, finally relaxing his tense nerves.

He did have selfish intentions when he went there. He wanted to see that person again, and wanted him to come back. At least, he had to say a few words to him.

Anyway, he had to make this trip.

The night before departure, Lu Jingshen returned home after a long absence and packed her luggage.

In fact, there is nothing to take, and someone will help him prepare for it.

When he picked up the watch on the bedside table, he opened the drawer and saw the things inside, he was slightly dazed.

The gloves left by Feng Si, the pen he gave him, the sapphire cufflinks he bought when he went out to play, the postcard sent back from Northern Europe, and the leather bracelet he wore next to his body for seven years.

These are the things that Feng Si left him, and they are all here.

Lu Jingshen took out the leather bracelet, rubbed it between his palms, and put it back on his wrist.

It was early in the morning when the plane landed in London, the sky was gray and it was snowing lightly.

On the way to the hotel, Liu Jie thought about Feng Si, turned around and asked Lu Jingshen in the back seat hesitantly: "The captain Zhou who flew here today is also quite experienced, and he looks honest. Send it to me, if Feng Zhu really quits, can Captain Zhou take over?"

Lu Jing's deep gaze was always on the outside of the car window, looking at the rapidly reversing street scene along the way: "You should contact Feng Zhu first."

Liu Jie agreed, intending to contact Feng Si after going to the hotel to see what he meant, but Lu Jingshen threw out another sentence: "Call him now."

Liu Jie had no choice but to pick up the phone.

He doesn't have Feng Si's phone number here, so he can only make voice calls on his WeChat and press the speakerphone.

After dialing three times in a row, Feng Si's nasal and sleepy voice came out: "Hello, Secretary Liu, what's the matter?"

Liu Jie glanced at his watch, it was almost ten o'clock, and this man was still on the bed?

"Feng Zhu, you've been absent from work without authorization, it's been almost a month now? When do you plan to come back?"

Feng Si: "President Lu didn't tell you? I don't plan to do it anymore."

Liu Jie glanced at Lu Jingshen who was still looking out the window, and reminded the person on the other end of the phone: "Your contract has a breach of contract clause attached, and unilateral resignation without our consent is considered a breach of contract."

Feng Si said indifferently: "Then breach the contract."

Liu Jie: "You have only been working for three months, and now you have to pay millions of liquidated damages for breaking the contract."

Feng Si sneered: "Secretary Liu, who are you scaring? I just want to terminate the contract early, and I didn't spend a penny of training fees on you in the early stage. Why do I have to pay millions of dollars? Where did this come from the overlord clause?"

Liu Jie said: "It's clearly written in black and white in the contract. I asked you to read it carefully, but you said you didn't want to read it. It doesn't matter if it's an overlord clause or not. The lawyer and the court have the final say."

Feng Si said "Oh": "Let's go to court, it's not necessary to be so troublesome, I know myself, I won't challenge your company's lawyers who can turn black into white, okay, you can send me a specific number and account number Give it to me, I will transfer the liquidated damages in two days, bye, don't call me again if you have nothing to do."

After Feng Si finished speaking, he hung up the phone very simply.

Liu Jie stared, as if he didn't expect that the person who paid millions of dollars would agree so casually. He deliberately dug a hole in the contract at the beginning, but now Feng Si stepped in, but this attitude really made him feel uncomfortable. There is no pleasure in having the upper hand in life.

"Help him..."

"Let's talk about it later."

Lu Jingshen shook his head slightly, obviously not really intending to ask someone to pay liquidated damages.

Liu Jie shut up, and the boss did what he said.

Lu Jingshen's itinerary here was only three days, and the schedule was very tight. He went to the hotel to put his luggage, and then set off for a business appointment. After the first day's itinerary, he returned to the hotel, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening.

He was finally able to rest and catch his breath. He was tired all day and jet lagged, his body was giving out signs of fatigue everywhere, he fell on the bed after taking a shower, and tried to force himself to sleep with empty thoughts, but it still failed.

Rubbing his aching temples and sitting up, he was in a daze for a moment, picked up his phone, and habitually entered Feng Si's circle of friends.

It was only after coming here that Lu Jingshen suddenly realized that even in the same city, he didn't have Fengsi's address and other contact information, so it was not easy to meet the person he wanted to see.

Then in the past seven years, Feng Si searched for him aimlessly all over the world, and what kind of disappointment did he experience again and again before finally finding him?

But he still pushed that person away, after repeatedly disappointing him or even despairing.

There was a stabbing pain in her dizzy head, and Lu Jing was a little out of breath. She struggled to scroll down Fengsi's circle of friends, and her fingers suddenly stopped.

Feng Si updated a few days ago with a location attached, and the map shows that the hotel is not too far away.

Lu Jingshen didn't hesitate much, got up and changed his clothes.

Twenty minutes later, he was driving alone, blending into the brightly lit night tide of the city.

The car was rented from the hotel. After returning from France, he applied for an international driver's license. Although he was not used to driving a right-hand drive car, he didn't want to be disturbed, so he chose to drive out by himself.

Three or ten minutes after arriving at the destination, Lu Jingshen parked the car on the side of the road and turned off the car. He looked out the window, and saw that this area was a residential area. The night had fallen, the snow had stopped, and the surroundings were quiet.

The dome of the church in the distance is faintly visible under the night, and the angle is almost the same as that of the photo Feng Si posted in Moments. Find another better way.

When he actually got here, he actually didn't think about what he would say if he could see Feng Si.

Lu Jing licked her slightly dry lips deeply, and gripped the steering wheel hard.

It is now 09:30 at night, he looked at the lights shining outside the window, and his mind gradually calmed down.

At least, don't be so stiff like that night.

Feng Si came back after eleven o'clock. He passed Lu Jingshen's car with his hands in his pockets, walked a few steps and then stopped, looking back.

The person who fell asleep lying on the steering wheel was indeed Lu Jingshen, not his dazzled eyes.

He walked back to the car door, stopped when he raised his hand to knock on the window, changed his mind, leaned against the side of the car and lit a cigarette.

Lu Jing was in a deep sleep, with her arms propped up on the steering wheel, her head sideways and her overly long forehead blocking her eyes.

To be able to sleep in this kind of place, it can be seen that I have survived for a long time before.

Feng Si stared at the person in the car while the flames were extinguishing, his eyes slowly traced his face, the smoke was inhaled into his lungs, and then slowly exhaled.

Lu Jing was in a daze for not knowing how long he had slept, and when he realized that his legs were sore and numb, he opened his eyes, but turned around to see Feng Si leaning outside the car smoking a cigarette, and for a moment he even thought he was hallucinating.

He didn't expect that he would fall asleep here, and Feng Si came back at this time.

Feng Si glanced over, through the window glass and smoke, Lu Jing couldn't see the emotion in his eyes clearly, froze for a moment, regained his senses and immediately opened the door and got out of the car.

Feng Si leaned against the side of the car without moving, looked at him with a cigarette in his mouth, and asked indifferently: "Why did Mr. Lu come here?"

Lu Jingshen was also looking at him, not seeing him for a month, Feng Si's appearance didn't seem to have changed, if it changed, it was only his attitude towards him, which was much colder than before.

It would be a lie to say that it wasn't uncomfortable. He had already prepared himself mentally before he came, but he still underestimated his heart's ability to bear the cold eyes of this person.

"I have work here, and I just arrived this morning." He said truthfully.

Feng Si: "Oh."

With Feng Si's attitude, Lu Jingshen didn't know what to say, so he was silent for a while, looking for something to say: "Your family lives here?"

"Ah." Feng Si's answer was still saving as much as possible.

Lu Jing said firmly, "Can you go back?"

"Where are you going back? Mr. Lu, your home?" Feng Si mocked, "What are you going back for? Hiding at your house and continuing to be your husband?"

"No, I'm sorry," Lu Jing said in a deep voice, "I know what I did was wrong. I did it then, and I still do it now. Escape is not the solution to the problem. I really... can't get past the psychological test. I dare not admit our relationship. I think Change,... I will see a psychiatrist, can you give me a little more time, really, I really want to change. "

Lu Jingshen struggled to finish his words, but Feng Si didn't respond, just looked at him calmly, and let out a puff of smoke from time to time.

Lu Jing couldn't figure out what the deep meaning behind his downcast eyes was, and slowly tightened his hands, as nervous and tormented as waiting for a verdict.

Feng Si finally said, "What's the reason? You can't pass the psychological test. There must be a reason, right? Your family atmosphere is harmonious, your parents are open-minded, and your younger brother is gay. You are so homophobic and dare not face your sexuality. Why? "

Lu Jingshen's fingers pinched into the palm of his hand and felt a sharp pain. The tingling pain in his brain that constantly pulled his nerves also spread. He opened his mouth and gasped in discomfort, and his voice was unsteady: "Sorry, can you Can't wait for me any longer, it won't be too long, I promise..."

"What can you promise me?" Feng Si interrupted him with a frown, suddenly raised his hand to support the side of his neck, and reminded, "Take a deep breath and relax."

Lu Jingshen kept closing and opening his eyes, and his breathing gradually became even after a while.

Feng Si withdrew his hand: "You look too abnormal. What are you doing driving out at night with a person you don't know well? Are you afraid of running into someone with bad intentions again? Go back quickly."

Lu Jing said in deep embarrassment: "I want to see you."

This was probably the first time he expressed his inner feelings to Feng Si so bluntly, but Feng Si didn't buy it: "Now that I see you, you can go back."

Lu Jing was deeply unwilling and stuck in a stalemate.

Feng Si raised his eyebrows: "Boss Lu, are you playing rogue with me? Do you really think I have to listen to you now?"

Lu Jing shook his head deeply, he also knew that his appearance was ugly, but apart from this, he really didn't know what to do to make Feng Si change his mind.

Feng Si threw the cigarette butt, crushed it with his toes, and when he was about to leave, his cell phone rang, and it was a friend calling to ask him to go to the bar for a drink.

Feng Si had no interest: "I'm not going, I'm going home to sleep."

The people over there complained exaggeratedly that it was only less than twelve o'clock, and they had to go over if they didn't want to sleep.

Feng Si glanced at Lu Jingshen who was staring at him intently, and changed his words: "Okay then, see you later."

After hanging up the phone, he said to Lu Jingshen: "You heard me, I have an appointment, if you don't leave now I have to leave."

Of course Lu Jingshen heard it, Feng Si was speaking English, and he heard it clearly.

His body was one step ahead of his mind, he stretched out his hand, grabbed Feng Si's sleeve, and blurted out: "I'll go with you."

Feng Si looked back at him, with a half-smile: "I advise you not to go, the bar I'm going to is the same as the place I took you to when I was in Paris last time, you won't be able to stay."

Lu Jingshen's face turned pale, and there was an obvious struggle in his expression.

Feng Si pulled out his arm, and when he turned around, Lu Jingshen took another step forward, stopped him, and insisted in a trembling voice, "I'll go with you."