Quit constantly

Looking at Xu Yin's state, he probably didn't eat breakfast, and his energy was also very low. I don't know if he hasn't had a good rest since last night.

Fang Shizhuo saw that it was getting late, so he asked him to sleep for a while and make lunch by himself.

Xu Yin hugged him dependently, and he was not willing to let go until Fang Shizhuo promised several times that he would not leave.Fang Shizhuo coaxed him to sleep, like coaxing a child, patiently and seriously.

After he fell asleep, Fang Shizhuo softly closed the bedroom door and stood there for a long time.

The phone vibrated in his pocket, and he took it out to check, it turned out that the phone was turned off immediately because it ran out of battery.Fang Shizhuo found a charger to charge his phone, and after a while he remembered that he wanted to check the recipe.

He had no choice but to take Xu Yin's cell phone.

There were many missed calls and messages displayed on the screen, not only from the counselor, but also from the monitor and classmates.On WeChat, his roommates were also asking him why he didn't come to class, and there was also news about the part-time job group.

Fang Shizhuo glanced at it, didn't click on it to take a closer look, and then swiped away again.

Now his mind is in a mess, and he needs to calm down just like Xu Yin. When their condition returns to normal, he and Xu Yin need to sit down and have a good chat.

He used to think that Xu Yin was only occasionally unhappy, and it was normal for people to be depressed, but now it seemed that it was not that simple.

His emotions are more fragile than normal people, and he is more concerned about gains and losses. He looks like two different people in peacetime.

Think about Xu Yin's growth environment, leaving his parents too early to be independent, bearing too much financial and school pressure, and not fully adapting to college life: interpersonal, social, academic, final review...everything is under pressure. Straw on him.

But these, Xu Yin never wanted to tell him.He will only tell him what he did today and what happy things he encountered.

These are all signs of danger, but he doesn't know if Xu Yin has noticed it himself.

Fang Shizhuo was chopping the vegetables absent-mindedly, and was thinking about how to take the initiative to talk to Xu Yin about this matter, when the mobile phone placed aside suddenly vibrated.

He was about to answer it when he realized it wasn't his phone, it was a call to Xu Yin.

From an unknown number.

Perseveringly refusing to hang up the phone, Fang Shizhuo wiped off the water on his hands, feeling that the number seemed familiar.

The tail number is 0239, isn't this the friend who asked Xu Yin to get the game console before?

Fang Shizhuo thought about it, and then connected.

Before he could speak, a middle-aged man's voice came from over there: "Xu Yin, I'm Dr. Xu, and you haven't come for a follow-up visit this month."

Re-examination?

Fang Shizhuo frowned slightly.

Dr. Xu hasn't noticed anything wrong yet: "The medicine I prescribed to you last week should have been finished last week. I can adjust the dosage in time according to the situation when you come for a follow-up visit. This medicine can't be taken casually, you know."

"Follow-up visit?"

Dr. Xu was stunned for a moment: "You are?"

Fang Shizhuo's voice trembled slightly: "I am his family member."

"Oh, can I let Xu Yin answer the phone?" Dr. Xu was a little surprised.

Fang Shizhuo tentatively said: "He is not in a good mood today, he is sleeping."

"not in a good mood?"

"Yes, very depressed, locked myself in the room, didn't go to class, and didn't want to communicate with people."

"I told him a long time ago that we need to return to the clinic on time." Dr. Xu hesitated to speak, "Didn't he tell you about his situation?"

Fang Shizhuo frowned: "No."

It may be related to the patient's privacy. Regarding Xu Yin's illness, Dr. Xu seemed a little embarrassed and didn't seem to want to reveal too much.

After thinking deeply, he said: "Let him come for a follow-up visit as soon as possible, and you can come with him if he agrees."

"Well, I'll talk to him when he's in better shape."

Dr. Xu said: "Actually, it is best for his patient's family to know about it. With the company of his family, the patient's mood will be much more stable."

In fact, Fang Shizhuo already had a vague answer in his mind, he hesitated for a few seconds, and then asked the doctor for confirmation: "Xu Yin...is he depressed?"

Unexpectedly, Dr. Xu said, "It's a little more complicated."

Fang Shizhuo's heart seemed to be clenched by a big hand, sore and uncomfortable.

He thought that what he thought of was already the worst possibility.

"Always come back for a follow-up visit as soon as possible. The specific situation depends on the results of the follow-up visit." Dr. Xu warned, "But don't worry too much, his condition is not very serious. This time the attack should be due to the end of the medicine."

Fang Shizhuo held the phone, his heart was in a mess, he could only reply numbly: "Okay."

It turned out that Xu Yin knew about his condition a long time ago, but he didn't tell himself.

There is also the stomach medicine that he often brings with him, maybe it is not stomach medicine at all, no wonder he doesn't let himself take it.

Not answering the phone, absent from school for no reason, and asking for leave due to illness, but the fever was so severe that even Xu Yin's mother, who was in another city, rushed over to take care of him.There are also chocolates that can be transformed at any time, seeing him and Xue Yuan collapse after going to the concert...

After knowing the truth, it seems to make sense to connect all kinds of anomalies in the past.

After finishing the call, Fang Shizhuo looked at the half-cut vegetables and didn't know what to do for a while, so he finally took off his apron and sat on the sofa for a long time.

Xu Yin slept for a long time and didn't wake up until late in the evening.Afraid of disturbing his rest, Fang Shizhuo never woke him up.

"Why are you lying here?" Xu Yin slept with his hair disheveled, and saw Fang Shizhuo on the sofa, "It's very cold, so I'll catch a cold."

Fang Shizhuo sat up: "Are you awake?"

"Ah."

"Feel better?"

"Yeah." Xu Yin sat down beside him, "I made the teacher worry again, I'm sorry."

Whether it was his fault or not, he always apologized first.

Fang Shizhuo shook his head: "Don't be sorry, I didn't blame you."

Xu Yin held his hand, which was extremely cold, and he put it in his palm to warm it up.

After thinking about it all afternoon, Fang Shizhuo decided to get straight to the point: "Dr. Xu called you at noon and told you to go for a follow-up visit as soon as possible."

Xu Yin's fingers rubbing his skin paused, and he visibly panicked: "...you know."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Fang Shizhuo asked him, "If I hadn't received a call from the doctor, would you have kept it a secret from me?"

"I, I dare not... I'm afraid that the teacher will not like me and hate me if he finds out." Xu Yin became incoherent like a child who was exposed for lying, "...Teacher, don't you not like me, okay? I will eat well Medicine, follow up with the doctor, I will never miss class again..."

"A Yin." Fang Shizhuo hugged him, and his tone softened a lot: "I don't want to blame you, but as a lover, I feel that I have failed, and I haven't noticed any abnormalities."

Xu Yin lay on his shoulder with a sad expression: "Then don't leave me, okay?"

"Why do you think so?" Fang Shizhuo didn't know how to comfort him, rubbing his hair, "Then think about it, if one day I get sick, will you leave me?"

Xu Yin shook his head vigorously.

"me too."

Fang Shizhuo sighed, he gave all his tenderness to Xu Yin, there was no way, he loved him.

His love is no less than Xu Yin's.

Because I like it, I won't give up in spite of difficulties, let alone give up from beginning to end.

"The most important thing now is the follow-up visit. I have taken tomorrow's leave and will go with you."

When it comes to follow-up visits, Xu Yin seems to be a bit resistant: "Can I not go?"

"why?"

Xu Yin acted in pain, but didn't say why.

Fang Shizhuo thought that the treatment process was painful, so he squeezed his hand tightly: "It's okay, I will accompany you. I just said that I need to have a follow-up visit, didn't I?"

They made an appointment tomorrow afternoon, and Fang Shizhuo didn't go back that night, so he stayed here with him.

Xu Yin's situation is still not very good. Although he will not lock himself up anymore, he seldom talks, is not interested in doing anything, and only takes a few mouthfuls of dinner.

On the contrary, Fang Shizhuo was a little at a loss, not knowing how to get along with him.Normally Xu Yin was proactive and tried to make him happy, but now it's completely reversed.

Not long after the meal, the two of them nestled together and watched a movie for a while, before halfway through, Xu Yin didn't want to watch it and said he wanted to sleep.

Fang Shizhuo wasn't sleepy yet, but he still turned off the light to accompany him.

But in fact, he couldn't fall asleep, and there was always a string in his mind that was tense, as if it would break at any moment.

This nervousness lasted until he saw Dr. Xu the next day.

Dr. Xu performed tests and examinations on Xu Yin. Fang Shizhuo was always behind him, trying to make Xu Yin feel safe as much as possible.

After the examination, Dr. Xu wrote a prescription: "Continue to take the above course of treatment. Now the only way to stabilize the condition is medicine."

Fang Shizhuo took the prescription, turned around and handed it to Xu Yin: "A Yin, you go outside and wait for me to take it. I want to have a private chat with Dr. Xu."

"it is good."

Xu Yin's mood was much more stable than yesterday.

After he left, Dr. Xu asked him to sit down: "He is very dependent on you."

Fang Shizhuo was a little restrained: "It's a little bit."

"But it's not a good thing for his condition." Dr. Xu said, "I said yesterday that his condition is more complicated than depression, but in fact he has bipolar disorder, which is what we often call bipolar disorder. "

"Bipolar disorder?"

"Yes, so depression is just one of the manifestations of the disease."

Fang Shizhuo searched in his mind, but unfortunately, he had no relevant knowledge, let alone what bipolar disorder was.

Dr. Xu went on to say: "Another manifestation is the manic period, which usually manifests as increased speech, emotional excitement, strong sexual desire, especially love to express oneself, and even can not sleep for several days when the energy is high."

Fang Shizhuo listened, and vaguely corresponded with Xu Yin from a certain day.

"I don't know what kind of relationship you have, whether you live together." Dr. Xu thought for a second, "If you live together, you should be able to notice his symptoms."

"Yes." Fang Shizhuo withdrew from the memories, "But I didn't think much about it at the time, I thought he was in a good mood."

This is commonplace for doctors: "Many family members of patients are like this."

"Then how did Xu Yin's illness cause it? Was it too much pressure?" Fang Shizhuo asked, "Maybe he had these tendencies a year or two ago."

Dr. Xu glanced at the case: "Actually, he has been seeing me for three years. This is a kind of mental illness, and there are many triggers. However, in Xu Yin's case, I speculate that it is genetic plus external stimulation."

"Genetic?"

"Yes, his mother once told me that his father also has some mental problems. Although he is not bipolar disorder, he has a strong tendency to violence. The genetic probability of mental illness is very high, especially for men."

"Of course, he needs some external triggers to get sick, and it may also be related to his father."

Fang Shizhuo knew that his father was a very extreme person, and he had heard from Xu Yin's friends, but he did not expect him to have such a great influence on Xu Yin.

The man who once gave Xu Yin his life deprived him of his life in a certain sense in another, more cruel way.

Fang Shizhuo took a deep breath: "Then is there a good treatment plan for his current situation?"

"At present, we can only stabilize it with drugs." The doctor adjusted his glasses, "Actually, his condition is not very serious. From the patients I have seen, it can only be considered mild. Long-term medication can stabilize the condition, but He always stopped the medicine privately, causing his condition to recur."

Withdrawal of medication?

Since the medicine can stabilize the condition and make him behave like a normal person, why did Xu Yin stop the medicine without permission?

He is not such a willful person.

Just as he was thinking, he heard the doctor ask: "By the way, it's not convenient for Fang to ask about your relationship. Since you live together, I want to know more about his condition."

Fang Shizhuo said calmly, "I am his lover."

On the contrary, the doctor let out an "ah" in surprise, but quickly returned to the topic: "When was the last time he had a manic period?"

Fang Shizhuo thought for a while: "About a month ago, I'm not sure if it counts, but in those two days he was more active than usual, a little excited, and slept less than usual."

Also, the libido is... extremely strong.

The doctor wrote it down and asked, "What about the depression period?"

"This is the only time recently. The last time was on the [-]th." That is, the time he went out with Xue Yuan. "Usually he is at school. I don't know if it happened at other times."

The doctor advised: "I have roughly understood the situation. Usually, be careful not to expose him to too much stimulation and keep the environment as quiet as possible. There is no rush for this kind of illness, so we can only take it slowly."

"it is good."

"That's it for now. Remember to remind him that he must come for a follow-up visit every month." The doctor handed him a business card, "There is my phone number on it, please feel free to contact me if you need anything."

Fang Shizhuo took it and said thank you.