Quit constantly

After leaving Dr. Xu's office, Xu Yin was sitting on a bench in the corridor outside waiting for him.

He was wearing a black frock coat with the zipper pulled up to cover his chin, and he was playing with his fingers with his head down.

Fang Shizhuo stood at the door and watched for a while, then walked over and took his hand: "Let's go."

There are many people in the hospital, and the entire corridor is crowded.Xu Yin was a little embarrassed at first, but being pulled by him like this, he seemed to be fearless.

They made their way through the crowd and down the stairs until they reached the small garden below the hospital.

Xu Yin lowered the zipper and asked, "What did you say?"

"I asked about your situation." Fang Shizhuo let go of his hand, "Doctor Xu said that you stopped the medicine without permission. What's the matter?"

Xu Yin's eyes were a little flustered, trying to escape.

"Tell me." Fang Shizhuo forced him to look at himself, "We agreed, we will face things together."

Xu Yin had a bitter look on his face: "Those medicines have serious side effects."

"Ok?"

"I didn't lie to the teacher." Xu Yin said truthfully, "The medicine I took at the beginning was very hormonal. I took it for two months and my weight was over 170. I didn't dare to take it afterwards."

Fang Shizhuo vaguely remembered that a long time ago, he asked Xu Yin why he had dropped out of school. Xu Yin lied to him that it was a car accident, and he also took a lot of hormone drugs, which made him too fat to come to school.

He thought it was just a random make-up, a reason to coax him.

"Later, I went to the doctor to change the medicine, and the exercise weight gradually went down, and I have been taking it since then."

Xu Yin looked at him sincerely: "But this medicine also has side effects. After taking it for a while, I feel that my reaction has slowed down. Sometimes I can't respond to what others say, and my memory is not as good as before. I always forget things. .”

"At first I thought it was because I was getting old, but I found out that it was a side effect of the medicine after I searched the Internet." He said, "Especially during the third year of high school, I couldn't keep up with what the teacher said, and my reaction was also slower than others. People are slow, and the most painful thing is that I become very slow to recite things."

In the past, he could only memorize the words three or four times, but now he has to memorize them seven or eight times or more, and it has become extremely difficult to memorize the texts, especially the very long classical Chinese texts, which he memorized several times more than before. Can't live.

He was dragged into the abyss by a deep sense of powerlessness, and at this time, he took the initiative to stop taking the medicine.

It was normal at the beginning, and after half a month, nothing happened. Just when he was glad that he could stop the medicine, he got sick.

Mania and depression tormented him alternately, which was a hundred times more painful than failing to memorize texts. He had no choice but to continue taking medicine under the doctor's advice.

Can continue to take medicine, just means side effect.

With the abyss on one side and the swamp on the other, he had no choice.

He was struggling in the abyss, resisting the serious illness and the side effects of the medicine. Fang Shizhuo was the only light that came in.

Fortunately, he caught his light.

"The final exam is due recently, and I thought it would be okay to temporarily stop taking the medicine." Xu Yin asked, "Am I being self-willed?"

Fang Shizhuo did not expect the truth to be so.He never thought that Xu Yin's senior year of high school would be spent in such dire straits.

He yells at his teacher every day, and he is so clingy that the first bite of watermelon in summer is not as sweet as him.I sometimes joked that he was stupid, and I still couldn't solve the problems I talked about.

He gave himself all the good things and swallowed all the pain behind him.

"this is not your fault."

"Really?" Xu Yinba looked at him eagerly, "Then the teacher won't blame me anymore, right?"

"You should have told me earlier." Fang Shizhuo's eyes were a little wet, and he took a step forward to hug him, "This way I can hug you earlier."

Xu Yin said sadly: "I shouldn't hide it from you, but I'm afraid you won't like me if you find out."

"You don't believe me that much?" Fang Shizhuo asked with a smile.

Xu Yin corrected: "It's because I don't believe in myself."

"Don't say that."

The two took the medicine and returned to the car.Tomorrow is Saturday and Sunday, Fang Shizhuo doesn't plan to go home, and plans to stay at Xu Yin's place for the next two days.

So they went to the supermarket on the way and bought some daily necessities.

When he got home, Fang Shizhuo first opened all the curtains to let the sunlight in, and the whole room was much brighter.

What did he think of: "You don't move to live with me, and you don't live in a dormitory. Is it because you are sick?"

"Well, most of the reasons are." Xu Yin obviously talked too much, "Although I have been taking medicine during that time, I am still afraid that you will see it. As for the dormitory, it is too noisy and I don't like it."

Fang Shizhuo remembered that the doctor told him to keep the environment quiet, so it would be better for Xu Yin to move out.

"How do you pay the rent now?"

"I found a tutor, and my mother also gave some." Xu Yin said, "This is a teacher's own vacant house, and the rent is not high."

For some reason, Fang Shizhuo felt a little lost: "Actually, you can also find me."

He knew that Xu Yin wanted to be strong, but he also wanted to be someone Xu Yin could rely on.

Xu Yin's voice became a lot less imposing: "You don't suggest that I rent a house, because you are afraid that you will be unhappy if you find out."

Fang Shizhuo smiled.

"By the way, teacher, I have a gift for you."

"Gift?" Today is just an ordinary day, "Why did you give me a gift?"

Xu Yin said mysteriously, "You'll find out later!"

He ran to the room, took out the gift, and hid it behind his back.

"What is it?" Fang Shizhuo asked.

Xu Yin flicked out two tickets.

Fang Shizhuo took it over and saw that it was the ticket for Xiao Yue's signing event.

"I remember you liked this author. You bought her new book at the seaside bookstore." Xu Yin said proudly, "This is her last autograph session, and it's on your birthday, please. It took a few friends to get it."

Really surprised.

Fang Shizhuo hasn't paid attention to Xiao Yue for a long time: "But, why is it the last one?"

Xu Yin said with some regret: "Some time ago she posted an article on social media, saying that this is her last novel, and she may not write again in the future."

It's such a pity.

"Actually, she was the writer whom Xue Yuan and I went to interview at the hotel that time."

"Ah?" Xu Yin felt even more regretful, "Didn't I almost meet a celebrity writer too?"

Fang Shizhuo laughed: "Yes, if you weren't squatting at the door to be jealous."

"Teacher went to the hotel with other men, how could I not be jealous?" Xu Yin retorted, "It doesn't matter, I just want to be jealous."

Unreasonable and cute, Fang Shizhuo has nothing to do with him.

After joking, after Xu Yin's reminder, he realized that his birthday was approaching.

In previous years, birthdays were uneventful, and I just went home for an extra meal.

After his birthday, he was one year older, and he was about to enter an age beginning with three in a blink of an eye.

Fang Shizhuo was inevitably a little melancholy.

Xu Yin seemed to see through what he was thinking: "Don't worry, I will always follow the teacher's pace."

"Wherever you go, I will follow, no matter what it is, there is no way for me to stop."

Everything in the world will change, but time cannot change.

But time can't change him, just like the orbit of a planet will always revolve around a star.

Endless and tireless.

"I think this is very good. Age can't be changed. It may be a gift to me." Xu Yin said, "Because of this, I can always be your younger brother."

He looked at Fang Shizhuo: "Right, brother."

Fang Shizhuo actually felt that what he said made sense.

It was getting dark outside, and the moonlight came in through the window through the shadows of the trees, and they walked together for another day.

This is an ordinary and ordinary day in the hundreds of days they have walked together.

It is also a beautiful and special day in the thousands of days and months they will work together in the future.

Their love will never end.