After I divorced from chaos step

How could a duck commit suicide by jumping into a river?Definitely was forcibly pulled out of the river by some good-for-nothing while swimming.

I know the duck that Osamu Dazai is holding. It is Chuya Nakahara’s pet duck. It is white all over, except for the orange feathers around its neck.Osamu Dazai named it Chu Duck. I don't know why the duck's name is so foreign.

"Chu Duck, there is also someone here who wants to commit suicide."

Osamu Dazai said this to the duck, but his eyes fell on the bowl full of chili sauce in front of Tuo Si, "Let's just form a team and die for love."

"Dazai-kun, what a coincidence."

As a married person, I was somewhat embarrassed to be seen by my husband's co-workers eating noodles with other men at a late-night restaurant.

Luckily not in a bar.

"Qingxi sauce, I forgot to bring the money, can you treat me to a bowl of ramen? I will treat you after I get my salary next month."

I've heard this phrase several times, next month will never come.

But ramen is cheap, and he and I are old acquaintances.I counted the change from my wallet and ordered a bowl of tonkotsu ramen for him.

Dosi's gloomy eyes still stayed on the duck hat on Dazai's hand, Dazai smiled slightly, and let go of his hand, the relieved Chuya flew out of the hat, and stood firmly on the next table.

Then he waved his hand and dropped the hat on the ground.

"I haven't seen you for a few months, you don't look well."

I asked them, "You two know each other?"

……Too.If he didn't know him, Dazai couldn't have got Tosi's hat.

"We've known each other for a long time." Tosi leaned over to pick up the hat and put it on the table. "He and I were once invited by Mr. Shibuya to start a business together."

"But it seems that your relationship is not good." If the relationship is good, Dazai would not be able to pretend to be a duck with his hat.

"Because the company went bankrupt."

The ramen was delivered, and Dazai took the bowl and said, "This unscrupulous guy ran away with the money, and I am facing huge debts alone, so until now... I have no way to achieve financial freedom."

I firmly believe in Dazai's words, which are completely in line with Tosi's black mud character.

Tosi made money for his ideals, and cheated many people. I finally know why Dazai has a serious job but credits everywhere.

The money must have been used to pay off the debt.

"When are you going to pay back the money you owe Dazai?" I found a topic that could divert the past with Tuo Si.

Tuosi frowned slightly: "Shibusawa-kun caused the bankruptcy of the company, I just left early. Besides, I am living harder than Dazai-kun now, even this bowl of ramen is a treat for you, isn't it?"

"Forget it, let's not talk about the past." Dazai took out his chopsticks and looked at him with a smile, "Since today is Qingxi sauce's treat, then we must live up to her wishes and eat all the ramen."

A whole bowl of ramen with chili sauce, according to Tuosi's current body, he would definitely fall into a coma after eating it all.

"However, you dare to put so many peppers. You are worthy of being a fighting nation. It's amazing." Dazai tutted, "I'm starting to eat it."

I know that Tosi did this on purpose to pretend to be pitiful in front of me, but I can't explain it to Dazai.

"Qingxi sauce." Dazai took a few mouthfuls, then suddenly looked up at me, "I haven't asked you yet, why did you go out so late?"

"...to buy milk and yogurt."

This is really the reason.

"Really?" Dazai shrugged, "It's still the same as before."

Still the same...for the same reason.

…About Dazai, I don’t even know my husband Ranpo Edogawa. I have known him for 15 years.

Compared with Tosi, he knew about my ability earlier.

My powers were not born with me.

Before the age of nine, I had no abilities or personality, and I was destined to be ordinary.

At that time, my ideal was to grow up beautifully and become Yukimura Seiichi's bride.

But then in an accident, I got a strange ability.This ability is extremely destructive, everything it touches will disappear instantly, and I can't control it at all.

In order to prevent me from being discovered by the government, Mr. Jin took me to a house by the sea and set up a supernatural barrier.

Here, I can't see my parents or my companions, the house has no electricity, and I can't even watch cartoons.

Because Jin's ability created some checks and balances for me, the sky I saw was gray, the sea was gray, even the beach and sunset were gray.

Everything becomes one color, which is very boring.

Such days passed for a long time, and one evening, Jin brought a sleeping boy from outside.

I stood on the beach that day, looking out at the gray sunset.

The boy was younger than me, and when he woke up he didn't cry, make noise, or speak, and looked at me calmly.

Jin told me to touch the boy's hand.

I stretched out my hand and hesitated for a long time before touching his cold fingers.

At that moment, I looked up and met his iris eyes.

...I actually saw colors other than gray.

Then there is the beach, the sea, and the brilliant glow behind him.

There are a variety of oranges and reds, and I can't describe so many colors after searching my stomach.

The gray in my eyes seemed to be lifted in an instant.

"Can you do magic?" I asked him.

He ignored me and looked at Jin: "Can I go back?"

Jin shook his head: "You stay here." Then he said to me, "Don't complain to me about not having a companion in the future. His name is Osamu Dazai, and he will be your companion from now on."

Jin is very fierce to me, and even more fierce to Dazai.

I thought Dazai and I could find a common language but it's not easy to be friends.

Dazai basically ignored me, sitting by the window with his head down and playing with a cat teaser.

He brought the cat teasing stick under his blanket when he came. I tried to find a topic from here: "Zhijiang, which school do you go to? Have you got a cat?"

He didn't move, as if he didn't hear.

I asked again: "Your parents are very kind to you. If you allow you to raise a cat, my mother will not allow me to raise a cat. She said raising me is already troublesome enough."

There seemed to be a slight smile on the corner of his lips, but it didn't look like he was smiling.

Among the companions I know, Yukimura is the gentlest. Although Sanada doesn't like to laugh, he can talk endlessly about tennis. There is also the son of his father's colleague, Bakugo. Although he has a bad temper, he will not ignore people.

Dazai is the strangest child I have ever seen, but... I can understand it, after all, he was arrested by Jin, and he definitely did not have the permission of his parents.

Jin told me to touch him whenever he felt a headache.

Just touch it and it won't hurt.

"Your cat must be an orange cat."

Dazai finally talked to me: "You are so noisy."

I stared at the cat teaser in his hand, tilted my head and thought for a while: "Meow~"

He looked at me like an idiot, and I learned more happily.

"Stop meowing, it doesn't look like that at all, that's not how cats meow."

This is the second sentence he said to me. It has a lot of words, which makes me very happy.

I've waited a long time here for a companion, not my ideal type, but human anyway.

But this man was just as lonely, and he didn't want to stay at all.He was too weak, and his thin legs were easily broken by Jin.

After it is broken, it will be healed again, and then I will sit on the bay window like a zashiki boy, watching me draw orthographic characters on the wall with a blank expression.

Because I don't have a watch, I will draw a horizontal line here to count every day that passes.

There is no other way of entertainment during the day, except for watching the sea, there is only reading.

I get tired of reading too much, so Dazai and I read our own books.

I am obsessed with reading all kinds of fortune-telling books. I calculate how old I can live according to palmistry charts, and sometimes other calculations, but the results of each book are different.

Some books calculate that I will die young, and some books calculate that I will live a long life.

I just choose to believe anyway.

The books Dazai read were horrific. Holding the "Complete Suicide Manual" in his hand, he forgot to sleep and eat.

It doesn't matter if he forgets to eat, anyway, I will leave food for him, but if he wastes sleep, there is no light to read at night.

We lived in a detached house, and we couldn't steal the light even if we knocked down the walls.

Dazai can only see by the moonlight, I remind him: "Your eyes will be short-sighted."

He didn't lift his head: "Take care of yourself."

He still doesn't want to be friends with me.

I leaned over: "Zhijiang, you go home."

I know he wants to go home.

Because I want to too.

"If I could go back, I wouldn't stay until now." He said calmly.

I whispered: "Actually, Jin is not omnipotent, trust me, I can take you out."

I cleverly planned an escape operation, and he kept silent the whole time, watching my performance.

I held his hand and ran all the way, and finally he was exhausted and couldn't run anymore, so I ran with him on my back and finally escaped.

I haven't run so happily for a long time, I think I can run to Hokkaido if I keep running like this.

I didn't stop talking all the way: "Zhijiang, have you ever been to Hokkaido? Do you like seafood? Do you have orange cats at home?"

He ignored me all the way, quietly lying on my back, only when he was about to fall, he strangled my neck and climbed up again.

I continued to talk to myself: "I will marry Yukimura in the future, and I must raise an orange cat."

Dazai asked, "Who is Yukimura?"

I was surprised that he finally paid attention to me, and spoke out his mind: "He is the boy I like. He is handsome, has good grades, and can play tennis."

"It sounds very good, why do you think he will have a crush on you?" Dazai's mouth was very vicious, "I don't think he has a crush on you."

I originally wanted to be friends with him, but when I heard this, I was so angry that I threw him to the ground.

"Fuck you!" I kicked him hard.

Dazai continued to speak poisonously: "That person is a normal person, but you are not. How long can you live, and can you get out from there?"

I was repeatedly poked at the center by him, and I grabbed his collar angrily: "I will get better, I will definitely break the world record and become the longest-lived human being!"

At that moment, as long as he nodded, I could get endless hope.

But he didn't.He shook his head: "I don't think you will live long."

I beat him hard, but he couldn't beat me, it should be said that he didn't fight back at all.

Jin still caught up with us, and he asked, "Who ran first?"

I was afraid that he would crush Dazai's leg again, so I had to admit my mistake quickly, but I didn't want to get beaten, so I said, "I want to buy milk and yogurt, so I asked Zhichan to come out with me." I held Dazai's hand "Hand in hand, we'll be fine."

This is a very lame reason, but Jin didn't scold me. He also took the two of us to go shopping and bought milk and yogurt.

Once again I saw the crowd, the market, and my own home in the distance.

I saw my mother, although she was fierce, she was actually a good person.

She always thought that her husband and daughter had gone to summer camp and were still waiting for the gift to come back.

I guess Dazai really wanted to go home too, and must have missed his family.

I whispered to him: "I'll stop Jin, you run immediately, find your parents, and then go to Hokkaido, Jin is afraid of the cold, he won't go there to catch you."

Dazai looked at me: "Then what do you do?"

I patted him on the shoulder: "Then you add my lifespan together, at least two hundred years old."

Dazai pouted: "I refuse."

He didn't leave that day, maybe Jin's power was too strong, he still went back to the beach house with us, but the relationship between me and him began to ease gradually.

I showed him palmistry, his lifeline was very short, and he was actually very happy: "When will I die?"

Death is a heavy topic, and I wouldn't want to mention it if I hadn't been exposed to it.

I remember that Marui cried for a long time because the rabbit he raised died, and we were also very sad.

No one is excited when facing death.

Dazai is clearly a younger child than us.

I think it must be Jin who captured him and made him loveless.I insisted on using a black fountain pen to stretch a large part of Dazai's lifeline.

"Brother, you will also be a centenarian in the future."

I am afraid of death, and I hope that the good people I know will live a long life.It is best not to grow old or die, and we will always be together.

"Living to be a hundred years old is so boring and boring." Dazai didn't bother to wipe the thread on his hands, lying on the bay window and looking out the window, "Why do you just want to live? Stay here, except me, no one will accompany you , you can’t do anything, don’t you feel bored?”

"I haven't been to Hokkaido, I haven't eaten all the delicious food in the world, and I haven't married Yukimura yet."

I cupped my face and said, "Actually, I also want to marry All Might, but Yukimura is prettier. Can I marry both? What will they do when they fight because of me?"

Dazai didn't bother to raise his eyes: "Don't worry, they won't want you."

I was so angry that I kicked him, he was kicked to the ground by me, and he fell to the ground before changing his words: "...the probability of Yukimura is slightly higher."

I sighed and said, "But I can't even hug him now. If I hug him, he will be broken."

Dazai suggested: "You can fantasize, it will refresh your mind."

"I can't think of it." I stared at him, "You let me hug you, I imagine you as Yukimura and All Might."

"No, I refuse, don't come here."

Dazai's resistance was useless, he couldn't beat me, so I hugged him forcefully.

Like holding a fleeing duck.

He wailed, "It's a crime."

After I calmed down, he said helplessly: "Your body is as cold as mine, isn't it the same when you hug yourself?"

Indeed, we all had no body temperature and were cold all over.

At that moment, I was very sad.

I want to live, but I want to live like ordinary people.

I don't want to stay in a seaside hut where only Dazai is there. Besides looking at the sea, I'm learning fortune-telling. I'm going to become a magic stick.

I believe in science!

I want to go to school!

I want to marry Yukimura and All Might!

I want to see the two of them fight to the death for me!

I finally cried out, jumping while crying, talking about my dissatisfaction.

It was the first time in my life that I cried a lot.

The crying sound was extremely unpleasant, like howling ghosts and wolves.Dazai couldn't help covering his ears and grinning.

But in the end, he offered to give me a hug.

I was so angry that I pushed him away: "You don't have a body temperature, your hands are colder than mine, get out!"

He tilted his head and thought for a moment, rubbed his hands together, and then pressed both hands to my face.

"Isn't it hot?"

……

At that time, I didn't know the reason. When the supernatural power was out of control and I couldn't touch the whole world, the only person I could hug was Osamu Dazai.