After I divorced from chaos step

Life and death, this heavy topic, is brought up between nine-year-old me and seven-year-old Dazai every day.

I think his ideas are very dangerous. According to Sanada, this is called not having correct values.

I asked Dazai if he had performed well in school and served as a class cadre. I admire anyone who can be a cadre. Dazai looked at me and said he didn't go to school.

I was stunned that there was such a good thing!

As a child, you don't have to go to school!

I sighed: "Your parents are so kind, they agree with you not to go to school."

Dazai curled the corners of his lips, like a smile, but not like a smile.

I told him all my experiences before I was nine years old, at school and at home.

His eyes were downcast, expressionless, and it took me a while to realize he was wearing earplugs and wasn't listening at all.

I was so angry I hid The Complete Suicide Manual and forced him to listen to my stories every night before bed.

I told him the story of the foolish old man moving mountains, saying that as long as you make up your mind to do one thing, even a big mountain can be leveled.If Yu Gong does not move, his son and grandson will move too.

Dazai commented: "If you can't do it yourself, you will hurt your offspring? Have you asked their opinions? They agree that they are destined to move mountains after birth?"

I used to admire Yugong quite a bit, but when he said that, I suddenly felt that Yugong was a bit annoying.

He took the liberty to make decisions for others.

Let me tell another story, Jingwei reclamation.I thought that Jingwei did not implicate its offspring, it acted alone.

Dazai pointed out the window: "Where is the sea, has it filled up?"

I shook my head.

There are seagulls flying by the sea, they are too small compared with the sea.

I realized that Jingwei was also doing the impossible, and suddenly felt a little sad.

The various inspirational stories I heard from Sanada were overturned in an instant by Dazai.

Dazai wrapped the blanket tightly and yawned: "Okay, stop talking, children should go to bed early and get up early."

I also lie down obediently.

The two of us have been sleeping on the bay window, looking up just enough to see the stars at the end of the beach.

I remembered the TV series I watched before: "Zhi Jiang, people who lie together like us will get married in the future."

Dazai opened his eyes: "You are dreaming."

"That's what it said on TV."

"That's a lie."

"Does what's on TV lie too?"

"There are liars everywhere."

Dazai is really not like a child. He knows a lot and often overturns my cognition from all aspects.

However, he is not in good health, and he will catch a cold and have a fever every three days.

I don't know if it's my delusion, but when he gets sick, my spirit will get better.

In the early winter morning, Dazai fell ill again.

His voice was as weak as a kitten, and when he coughed, it was very painful, as if he wanted to cough up his lungs, but he refused to take the medicine because it was too bitter.

To my concern, the look on his face turned out to be excited.

"I might die," he said.

I covered his mouth and poohed on the ground: "Don't talk nonsense, there is no way a child will die."

He is still sad, so I tried to talk about what he likes: "Don't you like to eat crabs? I will peel them for you next time you eat crabs. I can also eat MSG bibimbap with you."

This is the most incomprehensible point for me. MSG bibimbap is simply a devil, and he can eat it.

Dazai suddenly became interested: "You eat monosodium glutamate bibimbap, I drink medicine, do you dare to compare?"

I was very resistant in my heart, but I still agreed.

Then we drew.

He drank medicine in pain, and I ate bibimbap with MSG in pain.

Everyone is having a bad time.

But after drinking the medicine made by Jin, Dazai recovered a lot. Before going to bed, he sweated and said to me, "It will snow tomorrow."

"Winter is here, and then spring, summer, and autumn."

You can have snowball fights in winter, see cherry blossoms in spring, popsicles in summer, and maple leaf tempura in autumn. I am full of expectations for all seasons of the year.

Dazai said it was meaningless.

I don't know what he finds interesting.

He blinked: "It's interesting to turn everything upside down."

"Looking at flowers and eating popsicles in winter, and having snowball fights in summer?"

He smiled: "Yeah. Don't you think it's funny?"

I don't think so.

He reached out and flicked my forehead: "You sleep next door, don't get infected."

I said "Oh", walked out of the room, and thought about this question seriously.

It's winter, looking at flowers and eating popsicles, it's outrageous.

I look out the window at a dead tree that buds in spring and blooms in late spring.

Dazai probably meant to make it bloom in winter.

...Wait a minute, blooming, not necessarily a real flower.

Fake flowers are fine too.

Just look good.

I am an actionist, so I immediately found colored paper and started origami flowers.

It's a big project, but I have to fold it all up before Dazai wakes up tomorrow.

I was so sleepy in the middle of the night, and because there was no light, I could only sit in the corridor and fold, and my workmanship was not good.

I hung the folded flowers on the tree first, and when I looked to the left and looked at them, it seemed that there were strange tumors growing on the tree.

There is no aesthetic feeling, it is simply superfluous.

I was a little frustrated, feeling that I was incompetent.If it were Yukimura, he would surely be able to fold beautiful paper flowers.

Jin came to the corridor, hugged Mrs. Tang in my arms, and asked me what I was doing.

I told him what I was doing and he pinned the messy hair behind my ear.

"I want to see flowers in winter." He whispered, "What a thoughtful little girl."

So what if you have an idea, the folded one is really ugly.

I hugged the warm Tang Pozi and soon fell asleep.When I woke up, I saw that it was really snowing outside. The dead trees were covered with white snow, but the branches were covered with delicate paper flowers.

Tsu, wearing a bright red kimono, walked under the tree and said to me, "Go and wake up Dazai-kun, and let him see the gift you gave him."

"this is not me--"

"This is what you folded." Jin pressed his fingers on my lips, narrowed his iris-colored eyes, "Go and call him."

I nodded in a daze, and went to pat Dazai's bay window.

Dazai opened the window, and when he saw the paper flowers all over the tree with sleepy eyes, he suddenly felt a little...excited.

"Did you fold it?" he asked me.

I was a little guilty, but when I thought about what Jin said, I said bravely, "I'm pretty good at it."

Dazai let out a "hey": "I really can't see it."

I felt even more guilty: "...I hide it deeply."

But I have to say that Jin's craftsmanship is very good. He folded a tree of paper flowers, which can be seen from a distance.

Dazai and I watched for a long time. I saw that his body was much better and his mood improved. He didn't mention the serious topic of life and death all morning, and said very happily: "Zhi-chan, what do you want in the future, tell me Just say it, and I'll bring it for you."

Dazai's gaze moved from the paper flower to my face.

"Oh?"

In order to show how much I value him, I imitated the actor on TV and promised: "Even if you want the stars in the sky, I can pick them off for you."

Usually the heroine will be moved to tears, and then plunge into the arms of the hero, HE!

Dazai looked at me and said, "Okay, I want it, you go pick it."

What do I want?"

Him: "The stars."

Chatted to death in an instant.

This became the basis for Dazai to make fun of me for my big talk from time to time, but picking the stars really stumped me.

I can't, so I'm a big blowhard.

Seeing that I was depressed, Jin gave me a lucky lottery and asked me to write my wishes on it, and I also asked him for one for Dazai.

I have too many wishes: Seiichi Yukimura likes me, Seiichi Yukimura likes me, Seiichi Yukimura becomes the number one tennis player in the world, Sanada is the second in the world, Marui is the third in the world, my mother wins money playing mahjong, In the new semester, I can be a working cadre, and I can write all the exam questions... In the end, a lucky lottery is not enough to write.

Jin tore it up for me and told me that I could only write one wish.

I really couldn't let go, Dazai next to me kept yawning, and I asked, "Can I really only write one?"

Jin throws the shredded paper into the trash can: "The more choices, the harder it is to choose."

He is always talking, I can't understand, but if I can only write one wish, I will write it——

[Let Zhijiang go home. 】

I said to Jin very seriously: "You let him go home."

Jin rarely asked me seriously: "Don't you want to be cured?"

"I think so, but I don't want to hurt anyone. He is very unhappy here, and we are already unhappy enough." If I use others for my own sake, let alone All Might and Yukimura will not agree, Marui will probably criticize me up. "I don't think we're doing it right... Besides, I'm my sister."

Jin was silent for a long time before saying softly, "I see."

That night, Tsu prepared to send Dazai away.

When Dazai came, he didn't bring anything except a cat teaser, and naturally he had nothing to take when he left.

He left me the cat teaser.

I also have something to give him.

I ran out first, and stood on the beach where he and Jinhui passed by, waiting for them.

I filled a whole sandy "bowl" ahead of time.

I unscrewed the caps from everything in the house that held water, even the laundry detergent bottles.

I filled the bowl with water, and the moon and stars in the sky were all reflected.

Reflected in every little bowl.

When the wind blows, the starlight ripples with the water waves.

I held my hands in the shape of a barrel, put them by my mouth and shouted to them in the distance: "Zhi Jiang, the stars are picked for you—"

"You go home and listen to your parents—"

"Be happy and live to be a hundred years old—"

"Remember to go to school and strive to be a cadre—"

I still have a lot to say, but I don't have time to say it.

Because he has gone far.