After I divorced from chaos step

Then I met Dazai twice more.

Once when I was 14 years old, my powers got out of control again and dissipated a small island. Even Jin couldn't make me settle down.

He can only bring Dazai again.

At that time, Dazai was already a boy, and he would no longer be held in his arms, but stood by his side.I had almost forgotten about Dazai, and I only remembered when he walked up to me.

"Qingxi sauce, you seem to have...forgot about me." He looked at my expression and said.

indeed so.

It is not a good memory for me to get along with each other day and night for several months in my childhood. That kind of experience always reminds me that I am not a normal person.

How can normal people stay away from the crowd in order to avoid government investigations, and draw the ground as a prison.

Later, I stabilized my mind, returned to my parents from the beach house, played with Yukimura Marui and the others every day, went to school and lived normally, and gradually forgot about the supernatural power.

Also forget about Tsu and Dazai.

But the ability did not disappear, it was like a demon lurking in my body, after I completely let down my vigilance, it gave me another heavy blow.

I watched with my own eyes everything on the small island disappear in front of me one by one, until the moment Dazai stood still, the restlessness finally stopped.

His hand was still cold, but it was the only thing that didn't dissipate after I touched it.

You can also hold it tight.

When he grows taller, he will smile at me and call me Qingxi sauce.

Probably because he has grown up and is sensible, and he didn't even bother to call me by my name before.

He asked me, "Do you still feel bad now?"

Physically it's not hard, but it's hard inside.

Jin still insisted on not handing me over to the government. He would rather sink the entire island into the sea than keep the secret.

He finally decided to send me to Russia.In my opinion, Jin is almost omnipotent except for being afraid of the cold. There must be a reason for his arrangement.

"Can I make new friends by going to Russia?" I asked Dazai.

He didn't throw cold water on me like he did when he was a child, and said with certainty: "Yes."

I told him that I had been dating Seiichi Yukimura for 148 days.

Yukimura is very gentle. Every day after tennis training, he would take me to the nearby botanical garden for a walk. During those leisurely and quiet days, we gradually held hands.

Just when I was about to give up All Might and focus on Yukimura alone, another slap from reality woke me up from the dream.

The childhood wish had just set sail, and it had to return, no, it should be regarded as a shipwreck.

I clearly realized that I am not normal, nor can I have a normal life anymore.

I showed Dazai the photo of me and Yukimura, which I thought was the prettiest one. We wore yukatas and ate cotton candy at the summer night temple fair, and Yukimura even caught a small goldfish for me.

I said that I didn't know how to break up with Yukimura. If I told the truth, I don't know if he would report my situation to the government because of his strong sense of justice.

...and I don't want to be caught.

After listening to my words, Dazai took the photo from my hand: "I'll go for you."

"Hey, don't speak ill of me, don't talk nonsense about me being in two boats, choose a reason to beautify me, and keep my image in Yukimura's heart."

I was very worried that he would say a lot of bad things about me, but I didn't have time to think about those things.Tsu took me away from Dazai, and when I turned to look at him again, he stood where he was, looking at me without blinking.

"Zhijiang, you have to study hard and strive to become a working cadre."

"it is good."

"Go to a good university and find a good job in the future."

"it is good."

Whatever I say, he says yes.

When I was nine years old, I watched him leave, and when I was 14, he watched me leave.

The encounter time is always sudden and extremely short.And never ask the return date, there is no agreement.

……

The other time was eight months ago, when I started chasing Ranpo and went to his company to deliver ice cream cakes.Ranpo called and said he had something to ask me to wait, and I stood in the corridor outside.

I can wait, but the ice cream cake can't wait. When I was regretting not bringing a few ice packs, I heard a hearty voice.

"If you do this, the cake will melt, why don't you let me eat it."

He walked against the light, and the tail of his hair streaked across the trail of light.

He has grown taller, and has become a cheerful young man who loves to laugh, and he is actually a colleague of Ranpo.

I am really happy for him.

To be honest, I saw how gloomy he was when he was a child, and when he held the "Complete Suicide Manual" all day long, I was afraid that he would go astray.

I swallowed the "Zhi Jiang" that I almost blurted out, and I said politely, "Dazai-kun, what a coincidence."

What a coincidence, every time I was at a loss, he just appeared.

At this time the door was opened, Luanbu poked his head out, pointed at the cake in my hand and reminded Dazai: "This is my cake, don't think about it."

I'm embarrassed to tell Dazai that I'm after Ranpo, but he only seems interested in my food.

Dazai smiled at me: "Do you need my help?"

"Eh?"

"Help you get rid of Mr. Ranbu."

Tuosi's mouth was red and swollen from the noodles mixed with hot sauce, and he kept covering his mouth and coughing. I was tired of hearing this, so I dug out a carton of milk from my shopping bag and threw it heavily in front of him.

"Drink it!"

The casein in the milk neutralized the capsaicin, which should at least ease his nasty cough.

"I want yogurt...ahem...no milk."

"Why do you have so many problems?"

It's been like this since before, what I give him, he insists on something else, a natural rebellious psychology.

There were yogurt, milk, potato chips and a bottle of wine in the shopping bag. I gave him another box of yogurt, and I handed the box of milk in front of him to Dazai.

"Speaking of which, Dazai-kun, when did this guy run away with the money? Couldn't it be when you were studying?"

I don't know if it was my illusion, but when I said this, Tosi's eyebrows seemed to tremble.

Could it be that I was right? !

Dazai's expression dimmed for a moment, and then I saw the pain and sorrow that he was trying to suppress in his iris eyes.

I know I must have guessed right: "Did he lie to you when you were still in school?"

If he was burdened with huge debts while studying, Dazai would be under great financial pressure.

Working part-time under the hands of the black-hearted boss Tuosi, I know how hard it is.

"Qingxi-chan, it's okay, don't mention it." Dazai forced a smile to comfort me, but he was too sad, and when he smiled, he seemed to cry, "It's all in the past. "

past!

There is no past at all!

Impossible to pass.

...This is a pity.

I asked Ranpo before, whether their detective agency has a threshold for recruiting people, is it necessary to have a college degree, and Ranpo said nonchalantly: "What kind of college degree is required, we don't have that kind of thing. Kenji-kun has never had one." Learn in a day."

I was thinking at the time, Dazai is obviously smart, quick thinking, and can do almost everything, why didn't he go to university?

Now finally found the reason.

I pointed to Tuosi and asked Dazai: "Is it because this guy ran away with money, which caused you to have no money to go to college? Mr. Xianzhi clearly said that you were a cadre."

To be a cadre, you must have good academic performance, and be loved by teachers and classmates. You must be an excellent student with all-round development of morality, intelligence, physique, art and labor.

"Qingxi sauce, you really...don't say it." Dazai covered his face, his voice was already crying, "Please don't say it, I've tried my best...to ignore it."

The culprit, Tosi, was biting the straw and sucking on the yogurt, not intending to repent for his actions.

I looked at Dazai's trembling shoulders covering his face, and wondered if I had hurt his heart by speaking too excitedly. After all, this was a past he didn't want to face, and it was a trauma in his heart.

"...I'm sorry, Dazai-kun."

"It's okay, Qingxi-chan." Dazai slowly raised his face, showing a hearty smile, he looked at me and said, "You see, even though I didn't go to college because I was cheated of money, I have a good one now. My colleagues in the detective agency have treated me very well...so Qingxi-chan, you don’t have to worry about me.”

Another ray of light came, and the corners of his mouth were wide open.

...is really a simple and kind young man.

There is a difference between him and Tuo Si, as well as me.

I stared at Tosi and gritted my teeth: "Do you know how many people you destroyed?"

When it comes to Tosi, I'm always more easily emotional.

Tosi squinted at me, then suddenly freed his hand, pressed his fingertips on the tip of my nose, and lifted it up.

"Become a pig—"

"Bastard Tosi, what are you doing!"

I slapped his hand off, and Dazai on the opposite side was already drinking milk.

"Qingxi-chan, you've gone to college, right?" Dazai still had a smile on his face, but I knew he was pretending to be strong, and this envious tone made me feel sore.

So what if I go to college?

It's not that I'm not doing my job properly, I've been wasting time under Tuosi's hands, being tricked by him into doing this and that, even if I know the truth, I can't kill him.

As of now, I'm already a lump of black mud.

Compared to me, although Dazai was kidnapped when he was young, and he was cheated of tuition fees because of his honesty when he was studying, he is still optimistic and kind, with a clean and innocent smile all the time, fighting hard and plainly, and through his own Your tireless efforts lead to a decent job.

"Dazai-kun." I whispered, "Compared to a bright and healthy person like you, I feel ashamed."

I am simply the black mud at the bottom of the pit.

"It's nothing—" He was still humble with me.

After the "stab" sound, the air became quiet.

I watched Dazai Kiyotoshi's face was splashed with yogurt, and a few drops were still hanging on his eyelashes.

The milky white milk slowly flowed and dripped down the corners of his eyebrows and lips.

This scene is a bit...

"Dostoevsky, did you drink milk in someone's face?!"

Tosi blinked at me innocently: "I'm sorry, my hand slipped." Then he picked up the cap with the Chu duck in it, and pressed it hard on Osamu Dazai's face, "... Wipe it for you."