After I divorced from chaos step

I resisted the urge to throw Tosi into the river.

With his sickly crooked appearance, he probably won't be able to climb up if he goes in.

I really want to kill him, my kick just now was for nothing.

I picked up the gun from the ground, somewhat regretting bringing it out.But I changed my mind, even without a gun, Tosi would have other ways to threaten me.

"Yuanjiang, do you have a handkerchief?"

You're welcome to me.

"Yes." I paused, "But I think you are dirty."

He lowered his eyes again and remained silent, putting on the most annoying appearance to me.

I go east and he follows me, I go west and he follows me.

There are such shameless people in this world. He can't kill you, but he always has a way to disgust you.

"There is a ramen restaurant nearby that is open until noon tomorrow. I'll take you there to eat something." I glanced at him and warned, "I'll be rude if you follow me after eating."

Tosi didn't say a word, but followed me obediently.

His clothes were all wet, and the blood on his forehead kept dripping, and he didn't reach out to wipe it off.

Want me a handkerchief?

Don't even think about it.

But I was worried that if he walked to the ramen restaurant like this, people would think that I would murder him.

I stopped, and he stopped too, tilting his head to look at me.

I raised my hand and unceremoniously tore off his collar, and then pressed the rag heavily on his forehead.

"One has to learn to be self-sufficient," I said.

"It hurts—" he took a breath.

Instead of sympathizing with him, I pressed harder.

He is not only the leader of the Rats of the Dead House, but also a member of the Five Decays of Heaven and Man. He was able to return to Russia alone when the entire army was wiped out. Although he did not retreat completely, he was completely injured and even unconscious , can also come out of the darkest underground hospital, and then touch back to Japan, pretending to be pitiful in front of me.

It is difficult for ordinary people to leave a city, and crossing the border in front of him is like playing.

My IQ is not high, and I am doomed to suffer when dealing with such people, so I must always be vigilant.But after getting along for ten years, I also have a certain understanding of him.

I know he will definitely play the emotional card.

Because he only has emotion cards now.

When I arrived at the ramen shop, I ordered two sets of ramen, bought a pack of wet wipes and threw it in front of him: "Wipe it yourself, if you let me do it again, I will break your hand."

This time he got the hang of it, and pulled out a wipe: "Yuan-chan, look at me, I can't see my face."

I stared at him, and he stared into my eyes, slowly wiping the blood off his face.

"Speaking of which, this is your habit, Yuanjiang."

What Tuosi said was right, it was my old habit to use the other person's eyes as mirrors to organize their appearance—as early as ten years ago, when I was a high school student.

Every day before I go to school, I pass by Tuosi who is sitting in the living room reading a book, and then I come to him to tidy up the white flowers on my head and the upturned hair.

There are so many mirrors in the room, I prefer to use his eyes.

He would always say: "Tuosi, Russian schools are so annoying. The school uniforms are all maid outfits and big white flowers."

Every time Tosi waited quietly for me to finish taking pictures, then turned his gaze back to the book: "Isn't it pretty?"

This is what I was waiting for.

At the age of 14, I was hypocritical and vain, which seems to be a dark history now, but at that time, I only had one friend, Tuosi.

It's a pity to say it.

Mr. Jin sent me abroad when I was in my first year of high school.In that strange country, the life I expected did not come, and I was out of tune with everything around me.

Not only did I fail to make friends, but I was also isolated and excluded. When I escaped from school and sat in a daze on the street, I met Tosi who was "pretending to be a dead body" on the street.

He is a kind Russian, and he didn't dislike me. After listening to me complain about the troubles in life, he handed me an apple and patted me on the back.

"Keep your back straight, you are no worse than our Russian girls."

He is so special. As a fighting nation, he couldn't carry it on his shoulders, couldn't lift it with his hands, he couldn't stand his back straight when he walked, and he criticized me.His complexion was pale, and his whole body exuded a kind of fragile and morbid beauty.Not to mention beating the bear, I think the bear can slap him twice and he will be gone.

But he was the first one to talk to me, I guess he was about my age, but he didn't go to school.

I was an outlier in school, and he was an outlier in society.

Two outliers can talk about everything.

No, it should be me unilaterally speaking, and he is only responsible for listening.Except for the supernatural ability that Mr. Jin explained that cannot be disclosed to others, I almost told him the whole story.

He is like a tree hole, containing my troubles of having nowhere to put them because overseas calls are too expensive, as well as my girlish feelings that I have a convulsion from time to time.

I asked him if he was usually lazy and dazed all day long. He said that he was thinking, and he wanted to set up an organization with the purpose of purifying the current dirty and filthy world.

I immediately said, "I want to join too!"

He looked at me in surprise: "Do you want to join?"

As naive as I am, I thought that what he said about purifying the dirty and dirty world was to protect the ecological environment and develop renewable resources.

I had never had ideals before, but at that moment, I saw a shining point of humanity in him.

He is sick and is an unwelcome alien among the fighting nations, but he still thinks about environmental protection and seeking the gospel for mankind.

He is simply a perfect existence.

"Think! Now that the environment has been destroyed, the living environment for human beings is too difficult. Tuo Sijun, I don't want to go to school anymore. My quiz is always counting down, and I am the last one in the test. It's meaningless to continue studying. Let me join, let's go together Vigorously develop renewable resources and purify this wasteful world!...Why are you silent?"

He was silent for like a century, and then said lightly: "I am so touched."

There is drama when you are moved, I smirked: "Then you agree with me to join?"

He closed the book and got up: "I don't agree."

I asked: "Why?"

He sighed: "It will affect your studies. You are a student, and your studies are the most important thing."

I was anxious: "I'm already at the bottom, can I have a worse result than the bottom one?"

"Yuan-chan shouldn't be like this." He paused, "The threshold for exchange students is very high, and your academic performance in Japan must be quite good."

"...But I don't understand it now." I was also helpless, "I don't want to ask the teacher, he is too fierce. I want to do business with you, even if I can't make money, but I have made a contribution to society, etc. I can still boast to my grandchildren when I am old, and I did amazing things when I was young."

Toss laughed, and asked me with a smile: "You want to join so much?"

"miss you!"

"Okay, but you can't do things halfway."

I remember that at that moment, Tuosi was leaning against the tree, and a beam of sunlight poured down from his head. He stood in the dense light, and the silhouette he cast was a thin and beautiful boy, "If you join, you will never be able to quit .”

……

Two steaming bowls of ramen arrived quickly, and I added plenty of chili sauce to mine.

My mother is from Hunan, China, and I also like spicy food. This restaurant serves chili sauce, so I often come here.

Luanbu does not eat spicy food, and basically does not put chili in the dishes at home.

"When eating ramen before, you always gave me the beef in the bowl, saying that eating more red meat can cure anemia." Tosi said softly, his eyes fell on the meat in my bowl.

Look how greedy this man is.

I picked up my chopsticks, and at the speed of wind and clouds, I first ate up the beef in my own bowl, and then ate up the beef in his bowl.

"Don't even think about it now!"

I ate so fast that I almost choked on the beef.

Tosi pushed me a glass of water: "It's okay, I should have paid you back."

The word "return" is really shameless, I mocked: "This is my payment, do you have the face to say it back?"

Tosi did not refute, picked up the spoon, and added a lot of chili sauce to his bowl.

He never ate spicy food before, unlike Ranbu who didn't like chili, he was not in good health and avoided spicy food.

"Are you trying to kill yourself with chili?"

He stirred it twice with his chopsticks, then lowered his head and started eating.

He ate very hard, sweating all over his head, and tears came out of his eyes. The meal became a torture. Finally, he couldn't help but took out a tissue, covered his mouth and coughed.

"You can't die if you don't do it." I commented coldly.

He wiped off the redness of blood or hot sauce on his lips, and looked at me tenderly.

"Yuanjiang, you added so much chili, much more than before, it must be because no one at home eats with you now."

He guessed it right, but——

"none of your business?"

"I want to eat the same with you."

"……unnecessary."

"You should be nicer to yourself... Cough cough cough - you have been like this from before to now, you will always sacrifice yourself for others -"

"You fucking dare to mention it!" My angry voice attracted the boss out of the store. I realized that I was overly emotional, so I quickly shut up.

"Yuanjiang, I only have you."

—And that disgusting remark again.

I raised my eyebrows at him: "And then?"

"Then, I hope you can find true happiness."

"I'm doing well now, as long as you don't show up, I'm truly happy."

"About your supernatural ability, there is actually another half of recombination cough cough cough—"

I stopped laughing, and stared at him: "You don't want me to get all the supernatural powers, and then use me to do crazy things, do you, Lao Tuo?"

He flattened his lips, his voice filled with grievance: "I'm not called Lao Tuo."

"Laotuo, Laotuo, Laotuo——"

"..."

I was tired and decided not to talk to him.

The more you talk, the accumulated hatred seems to be diluted in small talk.

This is too bad.

He patted his head and said to himself, "I'm really not used to not wearing a hat."

It was only then that I noticed that his furry hat was missing.

"That's a winter hat." I tried to defy him, "Besides, it doesn't look good on you."

He wasn't bothered by me at all, and continued to talk to himself: "That's a Christmas gift from Yuanjiang, and it's my most precious thing. Because it's raining, I put it in a safe place, wait for the rain Stop, I'll take it back—"

As he was speaking, the door of the ramen restaurant was pushed open, and the automatic sensor at the door mechanically sounded: "Welcome to—"

Then there was the sound of a duck quacking.

Tuo Si and I looked towards the door, Dazai Osamu was holding a duck and was waving at us.

"What a coincidence, Qingxi Jiang." He walked over to show me the duck in his arms as if he hadn't seen Tuosi, "I saw Zhongye's duck jumping into the river to commit suicide by the river, so I saved it. Well, luckily, I also picked up a good-hearted man's hat, and I just used it to wear it."

The hat in Dazai's hand was exactly that of Tosi.

I looked at the latter, his face froze and his eyes sank.

Osamu Dazai patted the duck's head and blamed: "Look at how skinny you are, how can you go to the bathroom in the hat of a good-hearted man!"