Don't move the old man's bounty

After Xiao Shi heard the bad news, he returned to the country as quickly as possible. He was worried that Jiang Zhu would not be able to accept his brother's death, so he couldn't think of doing something stupid for a while.

When he saw Jiang Juan huddled in a mess at home, he couldn't help but hugged him in his arms, and kept kissing him lightly on the forehead, one... one...

"You still have me, I am also your family, can you live for me?"

Jiang Juan raised his eyes to look at Xiao Shi, there was doubt and bewilderment in his eyes, that extremely strange expression made Xiao Shi feel that he had never really known him.

"Xiao Shi..." Jiang Juan burst into tears, "He's gone, he's gone, he doesn't want me anymore..."

The mournful cry made Xiao Shi feel at a loss, and all he could do was a dose of composure to let the man escape from this painful reality for a short time.

When Jiang Juan woke up, he felt very uncomfortable. When he opened his eyes, he found that he was handcuffed to a chair, and a dim yellow lamp barely illuminated the cramped space. The room was filled with a strong smell of smoke, and the man sitting in front of him Slowly extinguishing the burnt cigarette butts in the glass tray full of soot.

"Are you awake?" Xiao Shi glanced at Jiang Juan, his expressionless eyes were startling, "Wake up, can you tell me who you are?"

Jiang Juan subconsciously squeezed the ring on his left index finger. It was a relic left by his father to his eldest son. Jiang Zhu had been wearing it close to his body. In order to prevent wear and tear, the man specially wrapped a circle of black thread around the surface of the ring. , Things that you can't see the whole picture at ordinary times, but now they have become the inheritance of identity.

He really wanted to know what was the omission that made Xiao Shi see through his disguise at a glance, but the moment he met Xiao Shi's eyes, he understood everything.

Those were a pair of eyes that had been robbed of his beloved and had nothing to love. The eyes were bloodshot. Before that, he had been crying for an unknown amount of time, and he could tell at a glance that he was not Jiang Zhu. Xiao Shi's feelings for that person had already surpassed that of Jiang Zhu. The category of "savior" is out of the question.

He felt an indescribable sadness.

"Has he ever accepted you?" Jiang Juan asked back.

Xiao Shi didn't answer, he asked again: "My brother knows your feelings for him, has he ever responded to you?"

"……To shut up!"

Jiang Juan looked at the distraught man, laughed hoarsely, and looked at Xiao Shi with pity.

At this moment, he finally knew what it was like to look down on the sufferings of the common people from the position of Deputy Yu. No wonder he was always compassionate. It turned out that they were so insignificant as ants, so ridiculous.

He laughed at himself, and murmured: "Why did I call you back... If you don't say anything, you can live happily ever after. I can use Jiang Zhu's tone to make you live in that illusion, trapped in the illusion... In that tenderness, until you decide to go back to your country, you don’t find out that the person you care about has passed away a long time ago, that’s far more painful than it is now, maybe I just want to take revenge on you.”

"Jiang Juan!"

"Maybe I'm just in too much pain, and I want to drag someone who hates me into the water. You will never know that I really, really hate you very much. You broke my brother's peaceful life and made those things that are incomparable to us. The distant truth was brought to him, and he died because of it, and you are the one who killed him!"

Xiao Shi stepped forward impulsively and picked him up, extremely angry, but found that he couldn't find any reason to refute.

Xiao Shi yelled at him: "What do you know, what do you think you know about him! He has been hiding you in the safest place for protection all these years, but what have you done to him!"

"Xiao Shi..." Jiang Juan's exhausted voice often reminded Xiao Shi of Jiang Zhu frowning slightly and calling his name helplessly.

But he knew that Jiang Zhu would never come back.

At that moment, Xiao Shi's emotions broke the embankment, and he pressed Jiang Juan to the ground fiercely, and roared: "Give it back to me! You give him back to me!"

Heartbroken, Jiang Juan's eyes slowly wandered from an uncertain point in the void to his face, and he said helplessly, "I'm sorry...I can't do it."

Xiao Shi was dumb, he stared at Jiang Juan, teardrops rolled down one by one like they were off the thread, hit the man's face, scalding him like blood.

Jiang Juan's heart was like a knife. At that time, he didn't know where the heart-piercing feelings came from. He just thought that Jiang Zhu's death had brought him too much impact, and he still couldn't get back to it.

But this knife pierced Xiao Shi's heart, stirred his flesh and blood, made him bloody and painful, but it didn't make him feel better at all. In fact, hurting others can't make him feel at ease...

That being the case, why should he stick his knife on others?

Jiang Juan closed his eyes, tilted his head, not daring to face Xiao Shi, who was like a ghost at the moment, and his voice was so soft that he could hardly hear him: "...Or, you can treat me like other people, and treat me as his ?"

Xiao Shi was stunned when he heard this, and immediately became angry. He strangled his neck and asked, "Take you as him? Can you also bear my feelings for him! Can you accept what I want to do to him!"

Jiang Juan exhaled tremblingly and tried to withdraw his hands, but he couldn't break free from the handcuffs.

With a hint of crying, he said humbly: "I can... I can be his..." These words were not for Xiao Shi, but for himself.

After a long time, Jiang Juan recalled his feelings at that time, and realized that he just wanted to prove to himself and everyone that he could live in place of Jiang Zhu and sacrifice everything for it, and took the first step It was Xiao Shi.

Only the person who loves Jiang Zhu from the bottom of his heart also thinks he is Jiang Zhu can he truly become Jiang Zhu.

Even if he needs to pay a very painful price to do so, he must destroy his heart, kill his nature, and become another person completely, but he has no way out.

"OK……"

"You will never be as good as him, Jiang Juan, you will always be a substitute!"

Xiao Shi hid him in his heart, and he didn't dare to say it out loud. Before he had time to express his fiery feelings towards Jiang Zhu, he turned it into an act of extreme revenge and vented it on Jiang Juan, giving Jiang Juan all his desires that he never showed to others. , as if he was not a real person, but just a tool for him to reminisce about his dead and pour out hatred at will.

He didn't even want to take another look at that person, he tore him roughly, forced him to turn over, and said the most hurtful words: "Back your back! Don't let me see your face like his!"

At that time, Jiang Juan also said to him: "Xiao Shi, please, if you still have any feelings for my brother, please take it for his sake, don't use me to trample on your affection, let me go." I..."

Destroying a person is far easier than redemption. Sometimes just one action or one word can make a person fall into the abyss.

It was Xiao Shi who made Jiang Juan learn not to beg for any hopeless things, and his heart gradually died in the torture and suffering.

Since then, Jiang Juan has spent a month of purgatory, more painful than when he was performing undercover missions. The constant torture was enough to drive Jiang Juan into a mental breakdown.

But these were nothing compared to what he had experienced before, and Jiang Juan couldn't figure out why he was even more desperate than then.

The only excuse he could think of was that he knew that he was sorry for Xiao Shi, and that if someone took away that person when he loved Jiang Xun deeply, he might be even crazier and more unreasonable than Xiao Shi at the moment.

On a certain night when Xiao Shi was drunk, after the intense and painful affair, the drunk Xiao Shi hugged the exhausted him uncharacteristically, rubbed his emaciated body into his arms, and kissed him patiently Beads of sweat on his forehead and the tip of his nose.

This was the only time since they reunited face to face, but the other party kept his eyes tightly closed, and he never had the courage to open them to look at him, repeating nervously: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Jiang Juan thought, this apology is definitely not for himself. Even if Xiao Shi felt guilty, it should be for the old man whom he easily found a plaything to replace and had no chance to make up for until death. What about the self who ate away his flesh and drank even the last drop of blood?

But by being drunk, Xiao Shi said something that was enough to shock him for a long time: "I'm sorry, Ah Juan, I don't want to hurt you, but I have to find an excuse for my incompetence, otherwise I can't face the fact that I couldn't protect him. Myself... I have to hate someone, sorry, I chose you..."

After he finished speaking, he fell asleep, as if it was just drunken words in a dream that never got out of his mind.

Jiang Juan's pupils constricted and trembled, his face instantly turned pale, and he turned around slowly, looking at the man in disbelief.

The cold moonlight shone on Xiao Shi's face through the gaps in the curtains. There were deep creases between his brows, and his eyelashes trembled slightly with the twitching of his eyelids. The heart in it was being crushed and trampled, cut into pieces.

Jiang Juan thought, it turned out that he was also trapped in a nightmare like himself, shrouded in the haze of death, lingering, and unable to get out of the dead darkness for a long time, salty bitter tears poured in like a torrential rain, drowning them drowned in the boundless sea of ​​blood.

How pathetic, he thought.

But soon he sneered again, mocking himself, how could he have the right to pity others?The victim sympathizes with the perpetrator, how can there be such absurd things in the world?

He gently rolled over Xiao Shi's alcohol-smelling body, tore the key from his neck, and finally unlocked the handcuffs that had bound him for dozens of days.

Xiao Shi was quite violent and ruthless to him, but he was considerate to the details, just like he would put flannel on the inside of the handcuffs to prevent Jiang Juan from being worn out, and would also give Jiang Juan when he was ill and repeatedly vomited medicine. Mouth-to-mouth sips of water until he swallowed the bitter pill completely, showing patience to him that he has never had before, if he can be with the person he truly loves, Jiang Juan believes in his feelings Will definitely be happy.

But all of these were destroyed, he should hate someone to escape this cruel reality, otherwise he would be driven crazy like himself sooner or later.

It's just that unfortunately, the person he chose was himself.

"What a coincidence, me too."

Jiang Juan felt that it was only natural for Xiao Shi to hate him, and it was only natural for him to hate Xiao Shi. They each harbored hatred for each other, so it was fine to keep entangled like this. This might not be the future that Jiang Zhu wanted to see, but it was already It was the best result they could have achieved.

Jiang Juan sighed, and gently stroked Xiao Shi's brows with his cold fingers, soothing the pain that seemed to be engraved on his skin.

Xiao Shi's breathing gradually became steady, and from time to time he let out an unconscious low moan, calling out a name.

Jiang Juan was stunned, looked at Xiao Shi with pitiful eyes, and chuckled slightly mockingly: "You can't even be called the right person in your dreams, you are so pathetic."

Jiang Juan took out a small bottle of transparent medicine from the corner at the foot of the bed, poured it on a tissue to cover Xiao Shi's mouth and nose, and the other party's sleep talking stopped almost instantly, his head tilted to one side, and his breathing became deeper and longer.

He turned over and sat on Xiao Shi's body, and looked at the man in such a condescending posture for a long time, he was a little uncomfortable with being asked to turn his back and make a gesture of submission, he hesitated and stretched out his hand, and grabbed Xiao Shi's neck.

The man was in a dream and knew nothing about it. This was his best chance to get his revenge.

But the moment his fingers tightened, Jiang Juan felt powerless. Perhaps he had been ill for a long time and seldom ate, and his body was ruined by drugs. At this moment, he couldn't even do such a simple action as choking the trachea.

Just a little harder, maybe a little harder...

Jiang Juan looked at his hands with bluish-white knuckles due to excessive force, and suddenly realized that it wasn't that he couldn't do it, but that he didn't want to.

He sighed helplessly, "Forget it, if you die, I won't be able to live anymore. If I let you go, I might just let myself go..."

He and Xiao Shi are also poor people who need the support of hatred to survive, so it's good to keep entangled like this.

Jiang Juan handcuffed Xiao Shi to the head of the bed, changed into the clothes and pants that the man had thrown on the floor, kicked him a few times, flushed the handcuffs and the key to the anti-theft door into the toilet, and left.

Walking on the deserted street, the disturbed wild cat screamed at him, arched its back, stretched itself, jumped off the wall and ran away.

He had obviously regained his freedom, but Jiang Juan didn't feel any signs of loosening the shackles that bound him. On the contrary, it seemed that something heavier was pressing on his heart and choked in his throat, making his breathing difficult and stagnant.

At the end of the long street, a handsome middle-aged man was leaning against a black Maybach and smoking a cigarette. The cold white light of the mobile phone screen reflected his face. When he heard footsteps in the distance, he turned on the headlights, illuminating the whole street. A dark and deep alley.

Jiang Juan stopped, looked back at the dark window where he had been imprisoned for more than a month, and moved his lips slightly, but said nothing.

He knew that the story between him and Xiao Shi had just begun.

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The memories come to an end here.

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