such as Yue Linyuan

Si Yuanting was busy with business and couldn't stay in Prince An's Mansion to guard Chu Yuezhi until he woke up, so after repeatedly confirming with Lin Yi that Chu Yuezhi's condition was stable and there would be nothing wrong, he hurried back to the East Factory.

Lin Yi had to give Chu Yuezhi an injection every two hours, and lit the tranquilizing incense he made in the inner room. When Chu Yuezhi woke up again, it was already dark again, and even the two doors in the dormitory The doors have all been redone.

As soon as Chu Yuezhi woke up, he didn't even have to turn his head to look to know that Si Yuanting was no longer by his side. He was very familiar with Si Yuanting's breath, and he was extremely sensitive to whether Si Yuanting was in the same room with him, even if he fell into a coma. , he could actually vaguely sense when Si Yuanting left.

After moving his stiffly lying body, Chu Yuezhi sat up from the bed very slowly. He still felt a little dizzy, and there was still a dull pain in the Fengfu point, but it was all within the tolerable range. .

"Prince An is awake." Si Zhuxi, who was sitting on the chair by the window, saw Chu Yuezhi wake up, got up and went to the table to pour a glass of water, then went to the bed and handed the teacup to Chu Yuezhi In front of him, he said in a neither humble nor overbearing tone: "I have offended you a lot before, please forgive me, Prince An."

Chu Yuezhi took the teacup but didn't drink it. He looked up at Si Zhuxi, and after a little silence, he said, "Miss Si wants me to kneel down and apologize to you?" It means to put on airs in front of Sizhuxi.

Pursing her lips lightly, Si Zhuxi wanted to ridicule him a few words, but thinking of Si Yuanting, she still endured it, and said: "Prince An's words will ruin my concubine's life, since Prince An is the current Holy Majesty The younger brother of the emperor, and the darling of my cousin, this concubine can't bear Prince An's apology."

Putting the teacup on the low stool beside him, Chu Yuezhi put on his shoes for himself, and said, "Father is fatuous and cruel to Zhongliang. As one of the parties involved, I have an unshirkable responsibility. Even if Miss Si forgives me now Kneel down to apologize, and when I ascend the throne in the future, I will also rehabilitate the Si family and personally go to Si Lao Shangshu's grave to kowtow and apologize."

Si Zhuxi looked coldly at Chu Yuezhi's tired face, as if he was thinking about how credible his words were. After a long while, Si Zhuxi retreated to the window and sat down, saying, "Cousin said, you were He was forgotten because his memory was sealed with gold needles, not because he became a eunuch and deliberately denied him."

Chu Yuezhi did not avoid Si Zhuxi's eyes at all, let alone defend himself, saying: "It is a fact that I abandoned him and hurt him. I will not say that I am right because of amnesia, let alone use it I beg you to forgive me."

Si Zhuxi didn't expect him to say that, she was slightly taken aback, she originally thought that Chu Yuezhi would use the excuse of amnesia to excuse herself.

With a light snort, Si Zhuxi still couldn't believe Chu Yuezhi easily, and asked, "You're pretty sweet, so how do you want to make up for your cousin?"

"I have already killed the envoy who injured Si Jiu back then. As for the others, I cannot make up for them. A severed limb cannot be regenerated. I cannot empathize with Si Jiu's pain, and I am powerless to heal Si Jiu's injury. He is alone in the deep palace. After 21 years, would you believe me if I said that I could give back to him what he lost completely and cleanly?" Chu Yuezhi's face was dark and his voice was grave, he cried a lot before falling asleep, his eyes Still swollen and looking increasingly haggard.He knew in his heart that even though he had talked a lot with Si Yuanting, the affection, hugs and even kisses he gave Si Yuanting now could not heal the pain in Si Yuanting's heart.

"I want to return my dignity to him, and I don't want to hear anyone call him father-in-law again. He is not father-in-law, he is Si Yuanting." Chu Yuezhi said, now he only needs to think of Si Yuanting who was once so proud and ambitious These years, I was tortured day and night by being a eunuch, hearing others call me "sigonggong", knelt down to so many people, and humbly called myself a "servant", and felt like a knife was unbearable.He just couldn't stand it just thinking about it, but Si Yuanting endured it for 21 years.

What a desperate and sad 21 years this must have been.

——I don't want to be a father-in-law, but I can only be a father-in-law.

What Si Yuanting said to her not long ago sounded in her ears, and Si Zhuxi stared blankly at the faint pain in Chu Yuezhi's expression, and suddenly realized that the man in front of her might be the only one in the world who could understand Si Yuanting's heart , understands what Si Yuanting thinks better than anyone else, and even really hurts those who Si Yuanting hurts.

Thinking of this, Si Zhuxi suddenly got up and walked to the side of the bed again, then knelt down straight to Chu Yuezhi, on the beautiful face somewhat similar to Si Yuanting, the cold mask of a moment ago had cracked, revealing Showing a trace of helplessness that was invisible on weekdays, he said to Chu Yuezhi: "If you really care about my cousin, then I beg you, save my cousin. Although he doesn't want to admit it, I know that he Already, I don’t want to live any longer. Long before you came to him, he was planning to put you on the throne of God, and he didn’t leave any way out for himself. In fact, he wanted to push you to the throne of God and then it’s over. Own."

The hand that hastily stretched out to help Si Zhuxi froze in mid-air, Chu Yuezhi froze as if his soul had been taken out suddenly, he understood every word Si Zhuxi said, but his reason and emotion were both He refused to react because he realized that he was not surprised by what Si Zhuxi said.

Not only was she not surprised, she even understood why Si Yuanting made such a decision the moment she heard it.

If it were him, he would make the same choice as Si Yuanting.

"He can't die." Chu Yuezhi heard his own voice, which was so hollow that it was unreal, weak but with a trace of cold blood, "I know he is tired, and I also know that it is far more tormenting for him to live than to die , but he cannot die, as long as I am alive, he cannot die."

Chu Yuezhi stood up unsteadily.

He didn't care what Si Zhuxi would think of what he said, he only knew that he couldn't let Si Yuanting die.

Even though he knew that Si Yuanting wanted to be relieved, he still selfishly wanted to keep Si Yuanting by his side. No matter how many injuries or severe pains, he would find a way to heal Si Yuanting, one year, two years, three years. years, no matter how many years it takes, even if it takes the rest of his life to cover what Si Yuanting has endured in these years, even if one day Si Yuanting may resent him even more than now, he will let Si Yuan live with him .

If there is no Si Yuanting for the rest of his life, even if he ascends to the throne of God, the mountains, rivers, lands, seas and rivers will be meaningless to him.

In the darker night, when Si Yuanting entered Prince An's mansion wearing a gray cloak, Zhou Ji, who was guarding outside the dormitory, saw him with a forbearing and tangled expression on his face, but in the end he saluted him respectfully. Said: "Young Master Si, the prince is waiting for you."

Si Yuanting's hand that pushed the door paused when he heard Zhou Ji's address. He glanced at Zhou Ji who lowered his head, and curled up his fingers almost imperceptibly. Unknown emotions flashed in his eyes, and then he pushed the door hard. The closed door in front of him was pushed open.

Chu Yuezhi was sitting at the table, looking intently at the scroll in his hand.

He is always very serious when reading a book, his eyebrows are slightly frowned, and his lips will be slightly pursed. If you look closely, you can find that his teeth are also clenched unconsciously.

This expression is very familiar to Si Yuanting. The eight-year-old Chu Yuezhi also has this expression every time he does homework assigned by Shaofu. Now he is 31 years old and still has not changed. The milk fat no longer exists, so it doesn't look as cute as when I was a child.

"Why did you get up? Don't you just lie down and recuperate in the inner room." Si Yuanting walked over, took off his cloak and put it on Chu Yuezhi's shoulders, and said, "Don't you think it's bothering you to read military books?"

Chu Yuezhi raised his eyes to look at him, and said: "It's not some delicate lady in the boudoir. When fighting in the frontier, she often goes into battle with injuries. This internal injury is not enough to make me unable to get up. It's you, Lin Yi said you Not only internal injuries, but also excessive worry and stagnation in the body, and long-term lack of sleep and food, which consumes a lot of body, you need to start recuperation immediately, so as not to continue to aggravate the internal deficiency and damage the heart in the future."

Pulling the stool, Si Yuanting sat down in front of Chu Yuezhi, and said flatly, "I'm not in the way, but it's just that castration makes you weak."

Putting down the book of war, Chu Yuezhi took Si Yuanting's hand on the table, and said, "I want you to ask me from the palace if I know how painful it is. I really don't, but I know you are in pain, and it hurts a lot." Year."

Si Yuanting didn't want to talk about it with him, so he lowered his eyes and tried to change the subject: "Lin Zhifei committed suicide in prison this morning, and I ordered her body to be thrown into a mass grave. Your people should have picked her up It's gone." In the East Factory, he didn't order anyone to be killed, so it was impossible to seek death by himself, Lin Zhifei's suicide was obviously Chu Yuezhi's intention, and he just sent people out along the way.

"That's not important." Chu Yuezhi didn't give him the slightest chance to escape. Originally, he wasn't worried that Lin Zhifei would make any mistakes. If his people failed to do things like this again and again, it wouldn't work. joke.

"If you want me to continue to take good care of you, then you can't refuse. I'll let Lin Yi help you take care of it." Chu Yuezhi was also seriously injured this time, and Lin Yi was very stiff when he gave him the needle after he woke up With a face, as a doctor, he wants to reprimand the patient, but the patient is his own master, and he can only hold back the lessons full of lessons.

"It's not good for you to be like this. Not everyone in your Heron camp can accept that you are so close to me." Si Yuanting actually disagrees with Chu Yuezhi's way of showing too much importance to him, "No matter what Said, I am an eunuch in the eyes of outsiders, not a good person."

"If they still recognize me as a general, they will also recognize you as my future husband. If they can't accept it, they can quit. I don't mind if they find another master. What's more, Si Jiu, have I ever cared what others think? ?” Chu Yuezhi has absolute confidence in the soldiers he has chosen to lead, and the Heron Battalion has always strictly followed orders. , They have never questioned, let alone think that they are qualified to control who Chu Yuezhi is with. They are soldiers and will never interfere with the general they believe.

Si Yuanting sighed silently, indeed, Chu Yuezhi had said that since he was a child, and how others see it is their business, but today is different, Chu Yuezhi and his respective identities are there, people's words are scary, How can you really not care if you say you don't care?

Just as he was about to persuade him again, Chu Yuezhi glared at him, and said to him, "When you asked me to be your plaything, didn't you think about what would happen if our relationship was known?"

Si Yuanting choked immediately, and after a while, he coughed and said, "I don't think you will let others know, it's because I didn't think carefully."

Chu Yuezhi still stared at him, his eyes didn't seem to be angry with him, but more like he was uncomfortable.

The two were relatively silent for a while, but in the end Chu Yuezhi spoke first and said, "You just listen to me and let Lin Yi help you recuperate, can't you?"

Si Yuanting didn't want to push him any further, so he nodded and said, "Okay, it's all up to you."

With Si Yuanting's consent, Chu Yuezhi didn't look happy, and remained silent for a while, before saying, "You accompany me to sleep for a while." After finishing speaking, he pulled Si Yuanting up and went to the inner room together.

Si Yuanting didn't know whether it was Chu Yuezhi who had just recovered his memory, so he always felt a little uncomfortable, or he was concerned about what happened between them when he lost his memory before. From the time he entered the room to now, he always felt that Chu Yuezhi was a little more depressed .In fact, it's not to blame Chu Yuezhi, because even he himself doesn't know how the two of them should get along.

There have been years of misunderstandings, separations, and misunderstandings between them. Thinking about it carefully, he was full of resentment and forced Chu Yuezhi to submit to him in the previous period. Chu Yuezhi was always the one who suffered. If you are humiliated, you will inevitably feel uncomfortable.

Thinking of this, Si Yuanting wanted to take back the hand held by Chu Yuezhi, but as soon as he wanted to pull back, Chu Yuezhi squeezed his palm even harder.

Standing in front of the screen, Chu Yuezhi hugged Si Yuanting as soon as he turned around, and said to him: "Si Jiu, there are many things that can't be put down just by letting them go. Don't care, let alone say that we get along like I did when I was a child, so unrealistic. I just hope that in the future, you will not have too many worries in front of me, and don't remember your identity as a eunuch. I said, I No. In the past, no one cared about your feelings, but now I care, and in the future, I can bear whatever you feel comfortable with me, whatever you do to me."

The injury can never be erased, the injury will leave scars on the body, and the wound will fester into a disease in the heart. If the serious illness cannot be cured after all, at least, let him relieve Si Yuanting's pain day and night.

Holding Chu Yuezhi's shoulders, Si Yuanting struggled for a long time, finally pushed him away, looked at him and said, "You should have heard many rumors about my twisted and violent nature, and they are all true. For so many years, the pain in my heart has not been vented, and I can only use this method to resolve it after I take office. I am no longer the Si Jiu in your memory."

Si Yuanting's eyes were gloomy, thinking of the dark room in the basement of the East Factory, the walls, the ground and even all the instruments of torture were stained with blood, how he had become more and more brutal in the past few years, he knew in his heart, and if all of that made Chu When Yue Zhi saw it, Mo Shuo let him hold him in his arms again, he was afraid that he would not even let him touch a finger.

"Do you think that I didn't know that you were in the East Factory, and that there was a dark room that no one else could enter?" Chu Yuezhi asked. Yu Yin was lurking in the East Factory, and had already found out the structure of the East Factory and reported to the dark room. The presence.

Seeing Si Yuanting's slightly stiff face, Chu Yuezhi never let go of his hand, just kissed his Adam's apple, and said to him: "If it changes, it will change, and I will accept it. If I ask, you will still It's the old Si Jiu, that's really unreasonable. If you don't want me to see it, I can't see it. As long as you are with me, you are Si Jiu, Si Yuanting. As for how much you have changed, it is good or bad Bad, it doesn’t matter; if you need to relieve, come to me, vent on me, ask me to give you mouth, ask me to cry, ask me to beg for mercy, or make me incontinent like before, even, you want to treat me Do even more excessive things, let me lose all my dignity in your hands, whatever."

Looking into the depths of Si Yuanting's stunned eyes that couldn't be avoided, Chu Yuezhi didn't care what dark and tyrannical things Si Yuanting had done. He just wanted to see again. Shine back on, even if it's a shimmer that's incomparable to before.

"Si Yuanting, I not only want the throne, I also want you."