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The screen was pushed down and there was a loud noise. Zhou Ji, who was guarding outside the house, was startled, and was about to knock on the door to ask, when he heard Chu Yuezhi's voice coming from the house.

"I'm fine, don't come in!"

There was a wonderful change of expression on Zhou Ji's face, and then he almost went from under the eaves to the yard silently, so as not to hear something he shouldn't hear. After all, he didn't want to listen to his master's corner .

In the room, Chu Yuezhi was pressed against the wall. Si Yuanting bit his soft earlobe, and whispered in his ear: "Don't provoke me, it's not the same as before. Never tried to get hurt by me."

When Chu Yuezhi was pressed against the wall, Si Yuanting was still supporting him with his hands on the back of his head to prevent him from hitting his head. He felt that Si Yuanting was grinding the soft flesh of his earlobe with his teeth, and all his breath fell on the pinnae of his ears. In the morning, half of his body became limp, and he grabbed Si Yuanting's collar with his fingers, and said, "You promised, if I still like you when I grow up, you will marry me. If you still hate me, then you will marry me." Hurt me...Si Jiu, when I was young, you were the only one who treated me the best. During the years when I was fighting in the frontier, every time I got seriously injured and felt that I couldn't hold on, I dreamed of you. Although I couldn't see your face clearly, I kept hearing about you. Call me Chu Qi, you have always been in my heart, when I was ignorant, it was you, when I listened to others in the military camp saying those things, the obsession I grasped when I started to have a little love was you, and now people are also yours, I I know it was not good for me to leave you behind in the past, but I have always only had you, and I will never change in the future, and there will never be anyone else. You, don't dislike me for not being able to stay for your Si family, okay? ?”

Biting Chu Yuezhi's earlobe hard, Si Yuanting pinched his chin, and said with a bit of viciousness: "How can I despise you, I am now like this, can I let you stay for the Si family?"

"It's not that you can't, it's that I'm not good. I know it's unreasonable to marry you, but I insist on marrying you. I don't care that I'm a man and I can't bear children for you. In fact, if a man can bear me, I'm willing." Chu Yuezhi He doesn't hide from being bitten, and his cold eyes towards others always appear more docile in front of Si Yuanting, even the voice of that speech is soft: "I want you to remember, it's not you, Si Yuanting, you can't do that." It's because I, Chu Yuezhi, can't stay behind for your Si family, if there is one party between you and me who wants to be disliked, that person can only be me."

Si Yuanting has never been defeated in the verbal battles with those ministers in the court all these years, and he never expected that one day he would be rendered speechless by Chu Yuezhi's sophistry. He could not refute it, so he just I was able to bury my head in Chu Yuezhi's neck and bite the collarbone that had been cut, until I left several teeth marks on Chu Yuezhi's collarbone, then raised my head and said to Chu Yuezhi: "I don't hate you anymore, I just After hating for so many years, I suddenly realized that I hated it wrong, so I don't know what to do."

"It doesn't matter if you continue to hate me. I don't force anything else. I just hope that your feelings for me will gradually deepen in the future. No matter what it is, at least I can keep you by my side." Chu Yuezhi told Si Yuan Everything Ting gave was sweet, he didn't need Si Yuanting to say love to him, he just wanted to protect Si Yuanting, and prevent Si Yuanting from any harm.

No one can hurt Si Yuanting, even Si Yuanting himself, he will not allow it.

Looking at Si Xu silently with Chu Yuezhi, Si Yuanting has never told anyone about his inner pain and feelings, but at this moment, Chu Yuezhi looked at him with so focused and pure eyes, just like when he was young, he Suddenly, he felt as if he had returned to the night of his last birthday, he could show his forbearance to Chu Yuezhi without any scruples.

"Chu Qi, maybe I don't love you that much now, so don't be sad." Si Yuanting hugged Chu Yuezhi, he would always carry Chu Yuezhi away like in the past, maybe it was intentional Or maybe it was unintentional, as if he wanted to prove that he didn't become weaker than other men because of his physical disability.

Holding Chu Yuezhi to the bed, the cloak that was originally draped over Chu Yuezhi's shoulders fell to the ground when he picked him up. Si Yuanting untied his waist seal and tore off his outer robe, and hugged Chu Yuezhi again. He turned over on the bed and let him lie on his body, then rubbed the old sore spot on Chu Yuezhi's waist, and after a little more consideration, he continued: "In the first eight years as a eunuch, I relied on the memories with you to carry the burden." I came here, no matter when I think about it, being your attendant is the happiest time for me. You are the last sustenance in my heart, and I never blamed you until I met you in the Supervisor of Rites. The inspector of ceremonies sees you again, when I thought you didn't recognize me, I..."

Si Yuanting closed his eyes with a distorted expression of pain, even his body was trembling faintly, and the gloomy emotions that always had to be suppressed surged in his chest. He was a little bit speechless, and Chu Yuezhi hugged him again. He held his neck and gently pecked the corners of his lips. After he recovered for a while, he opened his eyes again, looked at Chu Yuezhi and said in a hoarse voice: "I can't accurately express my feelings at that time in words. The last bit of light was also extinguished. At that time, I really hated you. But you are willing to come to the chief of ceremonies for a few eunuchs. You still remember our ideal. Please go to the military camp and finally lead the army. You hate me so much. I went to the palace wall to watch you when you were going to war. It was the first time I realized that there was something I couldn’t say about you other than hatred. Love is here, if I hadn’t become a eunuch, or your attendant was with you every day, I might have fallen in love with you earlier. I can’t tell, maybe it’s because the memories with you are the only ones left for me Comfort, I was stunned when I thought about it; or maybe it was your determination and bravery to go to the frontier for the stability of Daheng country and the people, which made me unable to control myself. You have childhood memories in my heart, remembering us Common ideals are always good.”

Chu Yuezhi lay quietly on Si Yuanting's body and listened to him, just like he did when he was a child, except that he was the one talking non-stop, and Si Yuanting patiently listened to what he said. innocent words.Si Yuanting has always spoken less than him. This is the first time, and possibly the last time, that Si Yuanting is willing to tell him everything he doesn't know without reservation.

"Actually, I don't have a lot of time to indulge in my feelings for you. I want to climb up and reorganize the chief of ceremonies. I want to get rid of Daheng's corruption and take revenge. There are too many things waiting for me to do. Even when I think of you when I am awake, I still hate you. Only occasionally when I feel too desperate and can only escape into the past with you, will I have a faint love for you again. After all, I hate you more than you Aiduo, I want you to suffer as much as I do, but also want to protect you, this kind of torment and tearing makes me clearly feel that I am still living in this purgatory on earth." Si Yuanting said with a low voice After stepping down, there was a bit of daze and loneliness on the face, like a lonely ghost wandering in the world, with nowhere to come from and nowhere to return.

In the past few years, his life, which has long been beyond redemption, has been intriguing every day. Even if he makes a wrong step, he may give up his previous efforts and die of hatred. He dare not and cannot relax. Even Si Zhuxi couldn't believe it. Within the palace walls, as an eunuch, the only person he could trust was himself.

There is no pure land in his heart, only a wasteland full of corpses and a cemetery where the sun never rises.

Those corpses on the wasteland are all those who died directly or indirectly by his hands, while those lying in the cemetery are all Si family members who were executed or died on the way to exile, as well as Si Yuanting before the age of 14.

"I can't hug you well, even if I love you, I can't help but want to hurt you..." Si Yuanting's hand on Chu Yuezhi's waist suddenly tightened, and then he deliberately hugged Chu Yuezhi with paranoia. He pinched and rubbed his body heavily, watching Chu Yuezhi bit his lower lip and let him move, until Chu Yuezhi took two uncomfortable breaths, then he stopped in a daze, and said: "Chu Qi, I don't want to be like this, I don't want to be like this. To live with this broken body, can you, after rehabilitating the Si family, let me go, I will go far, I..."

"I can't." Chu Yuezhi refused, he didn't stop Si Yuanting from leaving the marks on him that would take a few days to fade, and he didn't care that Si Yuanting made him hurt, but he never agreed to let Si Yuanting leave him.Pulling Si Yuanting's right hand and interlocking his fingers, Chu Yuezhi took off his pajamas with his free hand, and said, "Si Yuanting, I won't let the status of eunuch be on you forever, In the future, I will not only rehabilitate your father and the Si family, but I will also hold your hand in front of all the subjects. In the future, you will never be an eunuch. Husband of Chu Yuezhi, I will bring you back to the world from purgatory cleanly."

Sitting up, Chu Yuezhi brushed his black hair, which was simply tied into a loose bundle, to his chest, then turned around and exposed his back to Si Yuanting.

Originally there were only scars on Chu Yuezhi's back, but now, from the bottom of the waist to the upper back, a piece of ink was tattooed on it. A swimming dragon jumped out of the water, entangled from the bottom to the top, and was drawn by the swimming dragon. Entwined among them is a high mountain, and the top of the mountain is the dragon's head.

In the Daheng Kingdom, tattooing ink on the body has always been regarded as a shame equivalent to ink punishment. It is an act of humiliating the person who was stabbed. Be a lowly person, because tattoos have only appeared on lowly people like slaves and brothel girls.

The ink was obviously pierced not long ago, the skin was slightly red and swollen, and the ink painting was still oozing blood from the ink.

The moment Si Yuanting saw the ink piercing on Yue Zhi's body clearly, his eyes and pupils constricted for a while, and he sat up suddenly, his face full of disbelief: "What are you doing?!"

Chu Yuezhi turned around to look at Si Yuanting, and said: "Yue Zhiyuanting, when Shao Fu explained the meaning of these four characters back then, he said that they stand like a mountain and stagnate like a deep river, which is used to describe an army that is stable and unshakable. Later, I told you that I am a towering mountain, but you are not deep water but a swimming dragon hidden under the water. At that time, you said that I was too young to talk like that. Now I have grown up, but I still don’t I think I was wrong at that time. There are words made up of you and me in this world, which shows that you and I are destined to be together. I just carved you on myself. I don’t want anyone but you. You, live in the same quilt, and die in the same hole."

He asked Si Zhuxi to stab this ink painting for him. It was a shameful thing to others, but to him it was just a little proof that he was willing to dedicate himself completely to Si Yuanting. , Si Yuanting will always be the only one who can see his body.

"You, how... how could you..." Chu Yuezhi was so shocked that Si Yuanting was unable to utter a complete sentence for a long time. He pulled Chu Yuezhi over and made him half lie on his lap , His cold hands wanted to touch the newly tattooed ink painting on Chu Yuezhi's back several times, but he endured it all in the end.Pulling the quilt over Chu Yuezhi's body, Si Yuanting hugged him tightly in his arms like a dream, thousands of thoughts flashed through his mind, and it took a long time before Chu Yuezhi turned over gently and bowed his head Kissing Chu Yuezhi's lips, a shallow kiss, the four lips clinging together ambiguously, breathing intertwined, in such intimacy, Si Yuanting finally softened his brows and eyes, and told Chu Yuezhi that he The request that has persisted for several years: "Chu Qi, use your unhesitating loyalty to cure me, so that I can also miss this world and spend more years by your side."

With you in this world, even if Si Yuanting can't let it go in this life, Si Jiu is still willing to stay for Chu Qi.