I should set you free.

The flowing spring water in the eyes as clear as water is still at this moment, like a pool of stagnant water.

Yu Huaixing looked at Gu Cinian quietly, then lowered his eyelashes halfway, and smiled faintly: "It's okay, then I won't smoke—"

"Okay, I'll get the stars for you." Gu Cinian lowered his head and kissed Yuhuai Xing's eyelids, his gentle words were slightly hoarse, and his voice was a little hoarse.

He got up to find out the hidden menthol cigarettes, he took out one and handed it to Yuhuai Xing, and then helped him light it with a lighter.

Yu Huaixing looked at the menacing heavy rain outside, he took a mouthful of mint smoke and slowly exhaled the smoke.

The white smoke gradually dispersed in front of his eyes, slowly obscuring the heavy rain outside, just like the tulle in his heart.

The coolness of mint poured into the lungs, hitting the crack in the bottom of my heart bit by bit.

The memory of him smoking suddenly flashed in his mind, his eyes looking forward were not bright at all, sadness surged in his eyes, but there was no life anymore.

Has he ever smoked before?

But why does he feel sad when he smokes?

Everything now and the fragmented picture he recalled are like two worlds.

Listening to the noisy sound of rain, some strange but familiar pictures floated in my mind like memory fragments.

During this period of time, happiness dazzled his mind, and when he felt himself trapped in the darkness again, he woke up.

Everything now is like a dream, illusory like the misty smoke now, and one day it will dissipate.

Lightning flashed by, and after disappearing in an instant, the whole world fell into darkness again, and what filled my ears was the sound of heavy rain falling.

It hit the eardrums hard.

The small fragments I remembered were pieced together, and I couldn't put together a complete picture, but deep down in my heart, I had already engraved the feelings I had encountered before.

What happened before was not a hallucination of his insanity, but a real thing.

The bitterness and sadness gushing out from the bottom of his heart were not caused by his emotional instability, but the past that he had forgotten and could not fully remember.

"Brother Nian..." With Yu Huaixing's back against his warm and generous chest, Gu Cinian embraced him from behind.

Hearing his soft call, the man's thick eyelashes moved slightly and slowly lowered, quietly waiting for Yuhuai Xing's next words.

"Our relationship was not good before, right?" Yu Huaixing looked out at the dark world where only the sound of rain could be heard outside, "I should have done a lot of things you don't like, and we are about to break up or are about to break up the point."

The bitterness and sadness gushing out from the crack deep in his heart was like a vine, which grew rapidly and wrapped around his heart tightly.

Even though he didn't have a complete memory, what he saw the most in those memory fragments was Gu Ci Nian's impatient look.

He must have done a lot of things that Gu Cinian hated.

Now Gu Cinian is with him, maybe because of pity, or maybe because of sympathy, but whether it is pity or sympathy, it seems that he should no longer enjoy Gu Cinian's tenderness.

During this period of time, he seemed to be living in a dream. The dream that he didn't dare to hope for actually happened, and he was already satisfied.

"It's not like this!" Gu Cinian hugged Yuhuai Xing a little bit tighter, his tight body revealed his uneasiness and fear.

"Xing Xing, you didn't do anything wrong, you didn't do anything wrong, it was me who was wrong!" For the first time, he felt that the language was poor, as if he couldn't explain it at all.

All of this is his fault, if he had realized his feelings for Yuhuai Xing earlier, then Yuhuai Xing would not have been hurt, and he... would not have lost him.

The cigarette was caught between the index finger and middle finger, Yu Huaixing's long eyelashes trembled slightly, the cigarette slowly fell to the ground, he turned around, pulled Gu Cinian's collar and raised his head to kiss his lips.

The cool mint breath spread between the lips and teeth, but poured down the throat like ice, and gradually condensed in the chest cavity.

"Brother Nian, I should set you free." Yuhuai Xing let go of Gu Ci Nian and said lightly.

"Xing Xing, what are you talking about!" Gu Cinian hurriedly held Yu Huai Xing's released hand, at this moment he was a little at a loss.

Holding Yuhuai Xing's hand tighter, his deep voice begged in a helpless voice: "Xing Xing, don't be like this, please, please, don't leave me..."

It is rare for Yuhuai star to see Gu Cinian like this. In his memory, Gu Cinian has always been a proud person, never begged others, and never humbled himself.

During the period of amnesia, Gu Cinian seemed to be only soft on him and lowered his head.

He didn't know why Gu Cinian's attitude towards him was different after he lost his memory. At first, he felt warm in his heart when he blamed himself, but at that time, he was dazzled by the love that he didn't dare to ask for before.

As more and more memory fragments emerged, he realized that something happened before he lost his memory, and Gu Cinian was kind to him regardless of the past.

But he couldn't accept it with peace of mind—even if it was the happiness that he didn't dare to ask for before, but he longed for it so much.

His happiness should not be based on Gu Cinian's pain.

It was raining non-stop outside, and the rain was blown by the wind, slapping on the window one after another, leaving water marks.

Yu Huaixing slowly withdrew her hand from Gu Cinian's, her beautiful eyes were clouded with mist: "Brother Nian, I love you, so..."

He forced himself to smile, but the mist in his eyes blurred his vision: "So... let's separate."

"Xing Xing, don't say such things..." Gu Cinian's heart trembled, he forced himself to calm down, his voice was hoarse, "Xing Xing, have you recovered your memory?"

"That's why..." He took a deep breath and murmured softly, "That's why you left me..."

He spoke in a low voice, the noisy rain overshadowed his voice, Yu Huai Xing didn't hear what he muttered to himself.

Wiping the corners of his eyes with his fingers, and wiping away the tears that blurred his vision, Yu Huaixing shook his head: "No, but I recalled many pictures of us together in the past. It is very painful for you to be together... .”

"It's not painful at all, it's what I wish for!" Gu Cinian crazily denied Yuhuai Xing's words just now.

How much did Yuhuai Xing remember? He said that being with him was very painful. It was because he remembered that he wanted to erase Yuhuai Xing's figure and had been coldly facing Yuhuai Xing. He even attributed these things to crazy Want him?

The things he did to Yuhuai Xing in the past flashed one by one. Yuhuai Xing was careful to make excuses. He was obviously uncomfortable, but because he once told him that he hated others crying, he forced himself to laugh. He heard himself say I wanted to go home and carefully prepared a table of meals, but I didn't go back because of my own randomness and waited until the next morning...

All of these are vivid.

In his previous life, he brought too much grievance and sadness to Yuhuai Star...

"Xing Xing..." Gu Cinian felt his throat was choked, making it difficult to even speak.

Yuhuai Xing said that he wanted to separate, but how could he be willing, at least... At least he wanted to be by his side until Yu Huai Xing fully recovered his memory.

If Yuhuai Xing would not leave him, he could actually confine him by his side like before, but now he can't see Yuhuai Xing suffering.

Every time he saw Yuhuai Xing's reddened eyes, he felt as if his heart was being tightly squeezed by a hand.

Painful breathing is difficult.

"Xingxing..." Gu Cinian took a deep breath, his eyes were flushed, and he begged, "If you want to separate, I can promise you, but...you haven't recovered your memory yet, let me stay by your side until you recover your memory ,May I?"

Yu Huaixing looked at Gu Cinian, and the water mist that had just been erased surged up again, blurring his vision again.

Gu Cinian is always so kind, obviously he can ignore him who has no good memories, but he is still willing to stay with him for a while.

These are painful to Gu Cinian, but to him... it is something he can only wish for.

Then... can he let go of his selfishness and dream a little longer before recovering his memory?

"Okay..." Yu Huai Xing smiled slightly.

-

The rain never stopped at night, and the temperature slowly dropped with the cold rain that fell all night.

"Did you not sleep last night?" Gu Cinian stretched out his thumb and gently wiped the red corners of Yu Huaixing's eyes, his eyes were full of distress.

Last night, Yuhuai Xing kept sleeping with his back facing him, and in the second half of the night, his body seemed to be curled up from the cold.

Later, he seemed to have dreamed something that made him sad, and his body trembled a little.

Those dreams that make him sad may be Yuhuai Xing's hard-to-remember childhood, or they may be small fragments of memories-the harm he once caused him.

"It's okay." Yu Huaixing shook his head and smiled.

Last night, with his back against Gu Cinian's chest, he didn't dare to move, he was afraid that he would wake Gu Cinian, so he kept the same position for a long time, until he was so tired that he fell asleep in a daze.

He seemed to dream of something, not when he was a child, but he couldn't remember it.

Trying to think back now, my heart seems to be blocked by something, as if there is a huge cocoon wrapping him, and then turning in a turbulent vortex.

It was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe.

"I'm going to wash up first." Ever since those fragments flooded in, and he knew that the memories he recalled were not hallucinations but real events, he suddenly didn't know how to face Gu Cinian.

He got out of bed and went to the bathroom as if escaping, listening to the rushing water, those memories that had been suppressed with great difficulty tried to break free from the shackles and try to squeeze them out.

Amidst the sound of running water, the brain suddenly felt pain, and some memory images slowly emerged.

It was the dream he had forgotten last night.

In a hazy white mist, he slowly opened his eyes and stood there, staring at the familiar place in the white mist, he didn't move for a while.

A faint voice came from his ear, but he couldn't hear or see it clearly.

The white mist gradually dissipated in front of his eyes, and what caught his eyes was the familiar yet strange villa in his memory.

This is Gu Cinian's home in Jincheng.

After the white mist dissipated, the originally dark night was revealed. There was no moon this night, only a few sparse stars.

The stars are not bright, and when I look up at the night sky, I can see a few small lights in the curtain of the night.

In the dead of night, the only quiet surroundings are the faint white light from the street lamps.

A black luxury car was driving towards this side, Yu Huaixing looked at it, a sore feeling welled up in his heart, he subconsciously ran towards the man, but passed through the man's body.

After being stunned in place for a long while, he finally came back to his senses and smiled bitterly.

"Brother Nian." Yu Huaixing looked at the man and called softly, the voice was so soft that only he could hear it.

Watching the man get out of the car with long legs, he subconsciously quickly followed the man's footsteps.

Entering the home, going from the living room to the kitchen, you can see a large table of carefully prepared meals on the dining table.

And on the chair by the dining table, a slender figure fell asleep lying on the dining table.

Standing there watching quietly, Yu Huaixing couldn't help but subconsciously clenched his hand.

The light in the living room was on, and the moonlight shone through the glass of the floor-to-ceiling windows and was hidden in the lights of the house.

The long curled eyelashes of the young man lying on the dining table drooped, casting a small shadow under his eyes, warm and soft.

Suddenly, he understood that this was his memory.

Yu Huaixing saw Gu Cinian approaching "him" who was lying on the dining table, leaned over and pinched "his" chin and rubbed his thumb on "his" lower lip with a little force.

"He" woke up dimly, fanned his long eyelashes lightly, saw the man, his voice was still soft, and said softly, "Brother Nian, are you back? I'll heat up your meal—"

Gu Cinian didn't even look at the dishes he cooked, and pulled him aside and pressed him on the sofa, kissing him without the slightest tenderness.

So... Gu Cinian came back tonight just to sleep with him?

Looking at all this in front of him, the memories hidden in the depths of his mind gushed out from the cracks and spread throughout his heart.

The night wind was blowing through the open window, with a penetrating coolness, and the thin body of "his" who was sitting on the edge of the dining table trembled slightly, as if he also felt a chill.

Slowly oozing from the depths of the heart.

He took a deep breath, trying hard to suppress the pain and coldness that spread rapidly in his heart, slowly lowered his eyelashes, and closed his eyes deeply.

The light of the incandescent lamp reflected on his pale face, making his red eyes even redder, as if coated with a layer of cool light.

Pulling the corners of his mouth, the emotions he had been suppressing all the time surged up like a collapsed embankment, and the impact made his eyes flush.

The apex of my heart was blocked by something, choked and uncomfortable.

Taking a deep breath, when he slowly opened his eyes, tears welled up along with his heart, blurring his vision.

The bitterness in his memory clearly unfolded in his mind, eroding his heart bit by bit with desolate bitterness and humbleness.

"Xingxing!" Gu Cinian's anxious voice came from next to his ear, interrupting his memory.

Yu Huaixing looked towards the source of the sound, and when he saw the familiar Gu Ci Nian's handsome face, he subconsciously took a step back.

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