After the rebirth, the scumbag went crazy for me

don't do this, please...

"Xingxing..." Yu Huaixing's subconscious retreat caused Gu Cinian's heart to be stabbed suddenly.

Just now he heard the painful murmur from the bathroom amidst the sound of running water, worried that something might happen to Yuhuai Xing in the bathroom, so he hurried over, but when he met Yuhuai Xing's lax and desolate eyes, his heart seemed to be ripped out A piece of meat hurt so much that he was breathing heavily.

What did Yu Huai Xing remember?

Yu Huaixing came back to his senses, and stared blankly at his subconscious actions—maybe his own sadness in the dream infected him, so he retreated subconsciously when he saw Gu Cinian.

What did he do wrong before that Gu Cinian treated him so indifferently?So indifferent that you just want to sleep with him, not even willing to give him a good face?

Bitterness spread deep in his heart, sourness and sadness intertwined into a big net, gradually wrapping his whole heart.

"I, I'm fine." Yu Huaixing clenched his fists and loosened his hands a little helplessly, he looked away, his long eyelashes blinked quickly, as if he wanted to swallow all the sourness in his eyes.

"Brother Nian, don't worry about me, go get busy first." He twisted his fingertips, trying to calm down and said, "I want to take a bath, Brother Nian, go get busy."

Gu Cinian kept his eyes on Yu Huaixing, watching him twist his fingertips helplessly, as if a big hole had been opened in his heart.

His thin lips parted slightly, and it took him a while to find his own voice, and said softly in a hoarse voice: "Okay, Xing Xing, take a bath first, and call me if you need something."

The bathroom door closed, Yu Huaixing leaned against the bathroom door and slid down feebly.

With his legs bent, he lowered his head and put his forehead on his knees, his whitish fingertips trembling slightly.

The sourness that he couldn't fully remember poured out from the gap deep in his heart, like a huge wave that suddenly rolled up on the calm sea, beating his heart violently.

The uncomfortable and helpless feeling frightened him, and the memory deep in his heart seemed to be engraved deep in his memory, even if he forgot it, his body would still remember it for him.

Looking at the closed bathroom door, Gu Cinian stood at the door, put his hand on the bathroom door in front of him, and slowly lowered his eyes.

He seems to be unable to do anything now, not even hugging Yuhuai star.

Pain and self-blame were intertwined, tightly netting his entire heart.

This day, Yu Huai Xing continued to sleep after eating, they seemed to have only spoken a few words, and at night, Yu Huai Xing finally talked to him a few more words.

"Brother Nian, can I go out later?"

Yu Huaixing looked at him, his eyes seemed to dodge subconsciously: "I want to go out for a walk, but the rain stopped and the ground was dry."

"Okay, I'll accompany you." Gu Cinian responded directly without even thinking about it.

"No need!" Yu Huai Xing lowered his eyelashes and raised them again, and then whispered after a few seconds, "Brother Nian, you don't need to accompany me, I can do it myself."

He smiled at Gu Cinian: "Secretary Li came over before, Brother Nian, you should be busy, you should finish your own business first, I can do it myself."

Gu Cinian opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but his throat seemed to be choked by something, and it was difficult to speak. After a long time, he said in a hoarse voice: "Okay."

Walking to the beach by himself, Yu Huaixing stood aimlessly on the beach and looked at the sea in front of him.

Occasionally, a gust of wind blows, and the calm sea ripples circle after circle, rippling in the center of the water, slowly expanding to both sides, and slowly disappearing.

The illuminated street lamps shone brightly, making the ripples on the river more transparent, but they couldn't calm people down.

The night wind was cool, blowing the corner of Yuhuai Star's T-shirt as it passed by, and his drooping eyelashes lifted slightly, catching the occasional waves of the sea.

The memory recalled in the morning has been circling in his mind, and Gu Cinian's indifferent expression has been passing through his mind, stinging his heart.

At this moment, the tingling wormhole in his heart seemed to be illuminated by a very bright lamp, forcing him to see clearly how festered and blurred the place in his heart that was eaten by insects and ants was.

Although he tried his best to forget, the memory of this scene lingered as if the playback button had been pressed.

After the heavy rain, the clouds in the sky covered by dark clouds dispersed, revealing the bright moon.

The silvery moonlight spilled down and sprinkled over this vast sea area.

A gust of wind passed by, and waves surged in the sea, and the sea surface was shrouded in moonlight, reflecting silver-blue light.

It is as if thousands of stars have fallen into the entire ocean, shining with charming light.

The cool sea breeze is blowing, with the smell of the sea.

"The night is cool." A familiar voice passed by my ears.

A coat was put on his shoulders, and his skin, which was slightly cool by the sea breeze, was gradually wrapped in warmth. Yu Huaixing turned his head to the side, and saw that Gu Cinian was gently wrapping him in clothes.

Gu Cinian touched his slightly chilled face, and said softly, "Is it cold?"

Yu Huaixing was stunned for two seconds, then shook his head, his eyes drooped, and he subconsciously squeezed his fingertips tightly.

He never thought that Gu Cinian would come over, he just felt dazed looking at him who is so gentle now, Yuhuai Xing - now all this is more like a dream.

……

When sleeping at night, Yu Huaixing stared at the big bed in front of him and paused. After a few seconds, he carefully walked to the other side of the bed and lay down on the side of the bed.

The curtains were not drawn tightly, and the moonlight shone in through the gaps in the curtains, falling on the carpet, soaking up the light on the carpet, Yu Huaixing slightly lowered his eyes and was lost in thought.

"Xingxing sleeps better, it will fall." Gu Cinian stretched out his hand to grab him back into his arms.

Feeling the warm body temperature, Yu Huaixing's body suddenly stiffened, and then he closed his eyes deeply and did not dare to move again.

Feeling the stiffness of Yuhuai Xing's body, Gu Cinian slowly lowered his eyes.

The night sky in the middle of the night is only illuminated by the cold moonlight, and the only silence around is the sound of the wind.

Under the pale yellow light, Gu Cinian slowly opened his eyes, looked down at the person in his arms, he moved his stiff hand lightly, stopped when it was about to touch Yuhuai Xing's face, and slowly clenched it into a fist .

Carefully getting up and going out of the room, he went out to the balcony in the next room, feeling the cold wind blowing in front of him and lowering his eyes.

Looking down at the scars on his arms, even though these scars were scarred, he could still see the severity from the beginning.

He raised his hands and pressed those scars expressionlessly, feeling the pain from his body, he took a deep breath, his red eyes filled with bitterness.

The scarred skin was covered with red marks, and the sharp shards of glass shone coldly under the light.

The sharp corner of the glass scratched the skin, piercing the outermost layer of skin and cutting into the flesh. The blood slowly gushed out, staining the sharp corner of the glass shards red.

These pains can't make up for anything, but he still wants to experience the pain that Yuhuai star has suffered, even though the pain is not one ten thousandth of Yuhuai star's.

The pain he brought to Yuhuai star cannot be measured at all.

In the previous life, when he crushed and crushed the sincerity that Yu Huai Xing gave him, the grievance and pain he brought to him also destroyed the innocent smile in Yu Huai Xing's eyes. .

The hole in his heart was getting bigger and bigger, Gu Cinian took a deep breath to suppress the suffocation in his heart.

He lowered his eyes and slashed the sharp glass shards in his hand, hot blood gushed out, and he could see the shocking flesh and blood on the wound.

"Xingxing, I'm sorry..."

Blood dripped down, staining the woolen blanket on the floor red, and the hot blood melted on the carpet, blurring bloodstains one by one.

Feeling the pain in his arm, he made the wound deeper with a blank expression.

He knew that he was crazy, and the only person who could cure him was Yuhuai star.

Waking up in the morning, Yu Huaixing stared blankly at the warm position on the bed, he sat on the bed hesitantly for a while before getting out of bed and going to the window sill.

Sitting on the windowsill, he leaned against the cold tiles and stared at the sea not far away.

Time passed bit by bit, and he opened the door of the room to go out when the sun climbed over the clouds and cast golden light.

The moment he opened the door, he was suddenly at a loss, what should he say to Gu Cinian?

Ever since he remembered these fragmentary memories these days, he couldn't talk to Gu Cinian like before.

Every time he meets Gu Cinian's gentle eyes, he always thinks of Gu Cinian in his memory, afraid that Gu Cinian will be as indifferent to him as he remembers in the next second, and there is impatience on his handsome face.

"Xing Xing, are you awake?" Gu Cinian's voice came from the door just as he opened it.

Seeing Gu Cinian getting closer and closer to him, he retreated subconsciously while rubbing his hands helplessly.

There is no way to retreat back to the cabinet door at the back, and when Gu Cinian walked in front of him, he raised his head and smiled, "Morning Brother Nian!"

He didn't know where to look, so he had to cast aside his gaze and look to the side in a panic: "Brother Nian, have you had breakfast? Or did you just finish your work and didn't have time to eat? Let me make breakfast for you."

"I'll wash up first and then make breakfast—" Yu Huaixing was about to leave and Gu Cinian suddenly hugged him directly.

Gu Cinian's voice was hoarse, even lower than before, and there was a faint shadow in his eyes, as if he hadn't slept all night.

Yu Huaixing's body froze, his hands stopped in mid-air and he was at a loss.

Gu Cinian was still wearing last night's pajamas, his face covered with a layer of tiredness, he hugged Yuhuai Xing tightly, and begged in a hoarse voice: "Xing Xing, don't do this, please..."

He knew that Yuhuai star was avoiding him now, but he couldn't stand it, he would rather Yuhuai star scold him and beat him than Yuhuai star keep avoiding him.

The "separation" that Yuhuai Xing said has been lingering in his mind. He knows that after Yu Huai Xing regains his memory, he may never smile at him like before, but he still wants to stay with Yu Huai Xing more.

He knew that he could lose everything and endure everything, but he couldn't bear the departure of Yuhuai Xing.

The man hugged him tightly in his generous arms, Yu Huai Xing paused for a warm body temperature.

Begging him... Why did Gu Cinian beg him?

The breeze blew in from the gap in the window, and the smell of blood wafted in the room. Yuhuai Xing had been flustered and didn't pay attention to Gu Cinian just now, but now he only realized it later when he regained consciousness in the smell of blood.

Feeling the wet touch coming from the hand holding her, Yu Huaixing lowered his head only to find that the sleeve of Gu Cinian's arm was wet with liquid.

He stretched out his hand to touch it lightly, seeing a smear of red on his fingertips, his hand stiffened for a moment, then he raised his head: "Brother Nian...how could there be blood?"

Lifting up Gu Cinian's sleeve, he saw that one of Gu Cinian's arms was wrapped with a bandage, and the white bandage had already been soaked with blood.

The white bandages turned bright red.

Yu Huai Xing paused for a while, then nervously tugged at the corner of Gu Cinian's clothes and said, "Brother Nian...your arm is bleeding!"

"It's okay." Gu Cinian hugged Yuhuai Xing for a moment and didn't want to let go, his voice was hoarse, and his chest was filled with bitterness and depression.

The wound was too deep, and he just bandaged it casually. Just now when he moved, he accidentally tore the wound open.

Blood oozes from the soaked bandages and trickles down the arm.

"Doctor, I need to see a doctor..." Yu Huaixing pushed Gu Cinian away, and quickly picked up the phone to call the doctor.

"Xingxing..." Gu Cinian saw Yuhuai Xing who was finally willing to look at him more, his eyes softened.

Although Yu Huaixing was willing to look at him more because of the wound on his hand, he was very content with it.

If Yu Huai Xing, who can be changed because of this, looks at him more, he doesn't care no matter how much blood he bleeds and the opening is more serious.

"Don't hide from me, okay?" Gu Cinian touched Yuhuai Xing's face gently, "I'm sorry... baby, it's okay if you hate me, but don't hide from me..."

Yu Huaixing lowered his eyelashes halfway, and paused the hand that helped Gu Cinian stop the bleeding. He didn't know how to answer, and the dull pain in his heart spread, making him a little at a loss.

"Doctor, the doctor is coming soon." Yu Huaixing blinked several times, helping Gu Cinian put on a new bandage, but was soaked by blood that could not be stopped.

"Why hasn't the doctor come yet?" Seeing the blood-soaked bandage, his tone was a little anxious, and just as he was about to call the doctor, the doorbell rang.

"I'll open the door!" Yu Huaixing hurriedly stood up and left the room to open the door.

The doctor sighed silently when he saw Gu Ci Nian's eye-catching wound. Although he had seen Gu Ci Nian's wound like this several times, he couldn't help but sigh every time he saw it.

Every time he looked at Gu Cinian's expressionless face when he was helping Gu Cinian to treat the wound, he would marvel at Gu Cinian's forbearance. A few times Gu Cinian even asked for stitches without anesthesia when Yuhuai Star was away.

Not having anesthesia and stitches is the worst pain. Although he didn't understand, he didn't dare to disobey Gu Cinian. Every time he saw Gu Cinian's indifferent face, he almost thought it didn't hurt.

The blood loss and the pain of suturing the wound without anesthesia made Gu Cinian's face pale, and the doctor sighed silently: If he didn't see the change in his face, I almost thought he didn't feel pain.

"Young Master Gu, is it the same as before?" The doctor glanced at Yuhuai Xing, but didn't dare to ask directly.

Gu Cinian looked at Yuhuai Xing, and gently made an excuse for him to get things.

After Yuhuai Xing left, he said to the doctor, "Sew directly."

Seeing the bleeding wound, the doctor raised his eyes to look at Gu Cinian, but in the end he still didn't dare to disobey him.

During the stitches, Gu Cinian remained silent as before. Yuhuai Xing who came back couldn't hide the anxiety and worry in his eyes. He reached out to touch Gu Cinian's face and asked him "does it hurt?" Halfway through, he paused and took it back.

Taking a peek at Gu Ci Nian's face, he asked the doctor, "Will it still hurt after anesthesia and stitches? Brother Nian's face is so pale, is it because of excessive blood loss?"

The doctor understood what Yu Huai Xing was asking, if it wasn't for Gu Cinian's pale face, he wouldn't have been able to see the clue.

Turning his gaze to Gu Cinian, and meeting Gu Cinian's sharp eyes, the doctor turned his head and said to Yu Huaixing: "Mr. Yu, don't worry, Young Master Gu won't hurt after taking anesthesia."

"Xing Xing, it's okay." Gu Cinian held Yuhuai Xing's hand, and his indifferent eyes were now filled with tenderness.

Yu Huaixing nodded, he didn't dare to move the hand held by Gu Cinian, he froze for a moment before he pulled out his hand in a panic and said: "Brother Nian, let me make you breakfast, what you like."

"No need!" Gu Cinian held Yu Huai Xing's hand, now he is not willing to cook for Yu Huai Xing at all.

How could he let Yuhuai Xing cook for so long.

He wanted to say "I'll do it", but he thought that Yuhuai Star would definitely not agree with him, so he said, "Auntie will make breakfast."

Nodding, sitting on the sofa in the room, Yu Huaixing looked down at the hand held by Gu Cinian, with the warmth, worry and sadness also mixed together from the bottom of his heart.

The moment he is touched by Gu Cinian, he will always think of the memories he recalled yesterday, no matter how worried he is about Gu Cinian, but the moment he is touched by Gu Cinian, he will still subconsciously freeze and be at a loss.

When the doctor finished suturing Gu Cinian, he looked up and saw that Gu Cinian was holding Yu Huaixing's hand as if he was reluctant to let go, and he suddenly understood what he was confused about just now.

Several times before, Gu Cinian also self-harmed and hurt himself like this, but he treated the wound behind Yuhuai Xing's back. This time he wondered how he let Yuhuai Xing know, thinking that Yuhuai Xing accidentally discovered it. Now it seems... Gu Cinian probably did it on purpose.

Maybe he just wanted to take advantage of Yuhuai Xing's soft heart.

Gu Cinian's paranoia towards Yuhuai Star seems to be incurable. As an outsider, even without knowing much, he can feel how important Yuhuai Star is to Gu Cinian.

It's like... the only reassurance that can calm down the bloodthirsty demon.

After the doctor left, the aunt also made breakfast, and Yuhuai Xing filled Gu Cinian's favorite porridge and pushed it in front of him, saying, "Brother Nian, be careful."

Gu Cinian's tensed heartstrings loosened a little, and he picked up a spoonful of porridge, cooled it down, and fed it to Yu Huaixing's mouth: "Eat, baby."

Yuhuai Xing was startled, hesitated for a few seconds before slowly opening his mouth.

Hearing the sound of "baby", he suddenly felt a little strange for some reason.

Looking at Gu Cinian's face in a trance, some fragments flashed through his mind quickly, and the sound passing by his ear made his heart tremble slightly.

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