blowing clouds

Chen Xiyang's mind lost all conception of everything. Regardless of the surprised eyes of people along the way, he unconsciously watched the scenery passing by on both sides. With the feeling of being out of breath, the moonlight of that night slowly condensed on him. The bottom of his heart made his chest as heavy as his legs.

The moonlight on that rainy night was like frost on Lin Ji's body.

The burden of more than two years disappeared in an instant. Chen Xiyang had no doubt that he could fly up with just a wave of his arm, so even though his back was soaked in sweat, he did not slow down his pace. down.

Surrounded by the unique atmosphere of home, Chen Xiyang stood outside the door, panting heavily, his heart trying to jump out of his chest.

After wiping off the sweat on his face, Chen Xiyang's vision was no longer blurred, and his panting and heartbeat could be heard clearly, but other than that, his world was quiet.

The winter vacation is not over yet, Lin Ji should be at home, but at this time the house in front of him is empty.

He seemed to have stepped into a completely unfamiliar territory, and every step he took was slow and hesitant, and even the subtle lines on the wall made him uneasy and made him self-deceived doubts.

Is this his home?Why isn't Lin Ji here?

The powerlessness after strenuous exercise began to spread to his limbs. He leaned on the wall with one hand and approached Lin Ji's closed bedroom door step by step. He knew that he was very likely to face extreme pain, but he didn't stop. After holding the doorknob, he slowly pushed away the barrier that he had never dared to cross.

The lighting in this room is very good, which makes the tidy beds and table tops look even more impersonal and tidy, without any popularity.

Even though he was mentally prepared, Chen Xiyang still panicked when the heavy hammer came down. He stepped forward and pushed Lin Ji's wardrobe away suddenly, his heart sank.

The clothes in the closet are more than half empty.

Lin Ji left.

Chen Xiyang's eyes were lost for a moment, he suddenly took a step out, and he had inexhaustible strength again, no matter where Lin Ji went, he could use his legs to chase him back!

But one step later, he saw through his pretended strength. He leaned weakly against the wall that separated him and Lin Ji day and night, tremblingly took out his mobile phone, and dialed his mother's number.

"Hey!"

Festive music and young people chatting and joking came from the handset. The business in the store was booming, and Lu Yan had to talk to him at the top of his voice.

"Mom... where did Aji go..."

Chen Xiyang's voice was so low that Lu Yan almost didn't hear it, and all of them didn't notice that his tone was crying.

"The little girl is so beautiful, that one is cheaper for you, four yuan... Hey, Aji? He said he wanted to go back to school early, maybe he is at home, or he may have already left..."

Like a dying person drowning in the water, he suddenly breathed fresh air, and the hand that tormented Chen Xiyang's nerves finally receded. He collapsed on Lin Ji's tidy bed in relief, and he didn't even have the strength to pick up the phone to speak. After feeding twice, Yan muttered and hung up the phone.

When he sat up from the bed, he didn't know how long it had been, his eyes lost the fanatical and paranoid look just now, but after he calmed down, the love that sprouted in his heart rose instead of falling, and once the deeply buried seeds broke through the ground, they would grow rapidly , the splendor of blooming takes only a moment to be born.

Chen Xiyang smiled self-deprecatingly, he was too cowardly just now, even if Lin Ji went not to school, but to a foreign country, or Mars, he must see him today.

The direction and determination have been set, how difficult is it to move forward?The only thing Chen Xiyang regrets is that he didn't get up brave one day earlier. Fortunately, he didn't delay until it was too late for regret.

Chen Xiyang changed out of the wet and cool dark formal clothes, and went out in casual clothes.

Today is an extremely ordinary day, but in some respects it is extraordinary. For example, the unit will not ask him for absenteeism today. For example, the normal campus that has not yet started is deserted, and no one disturbs the quietness under the sun.

Like most places on the campus, there was peace under the old elm tree that was full of people in the past. Lin Ji sat alone in the most comfortable place under the tree. Under the luxuriant old tree was a shapeless shadow, which did not exist. Mottled said, fortunately, today's temperature is not low.

He remembered that at this time almost two years ago, Chen Xiyang took him to ride a motorcycle for an outing, and he sat under a tree that was not so old and ate a chicken leg.It was the most delicious chicken leg he had ever eaten, and the puppy that took the bone was the cutest puppy, so the one beside him was naturally his favorite brother.

Unfortunately, it was his brother.

This year's birthday is coming soon, but Lin Ji doesn't know how many times he can still look at Chen Xiyang. In fact, every look is a sin, and he shouldn't look at it.

Lin Ji silently looked at the sunshine playing outside the shade of the tree. He had experienced many misfortunes and fortunes that no one else had, such as the pain he had suffered, the family that was broken early, the father who was taken away by illness, and the fact that he regarded him as his own. Chen Li, Lu Yan, and Chen Xiyang who used to give him a gentle smile.

He smiled wryly, was he too greedy after all?

If there is no episode, no one knows how long he plans to sit here today, but the episode did appear, so the former has become an unsolved mystery.

The mobile phone in his pocket vibrated, Lin Ji took it out and saw waves on his calm face, it was a message from Chen Xiyang: I think we need to talk again.

In just a few words, Lin Ji's brows and eyes suddenly lit up with bitterness. What else is there to talk about? Could it be that Chen Xiyang is afraid that he will not give up and insists on being a beast with no regard for ethics?

With difficulty, Lin Ji replied with one word: Good.

Soon, new news came from Chen Xiyang: Why did you leave home suddenly?

Lin Ji's expression froze, and he habitually began to look for some high-sounding reasons, such as wanting a learning atmosphere, laying the foundation for future studies, etc., but after typing two lines, he quickly deleted them completely.Chen Xiyang knew the real reason, and it was meaningless for him to make up these insincere words, but why did the other party ask?

He didn't reply to the message, and there was no movement from Chen Xiyang, as if he was competing with him. Lin Ji didn't know that was the case until a new message was sent, and the other party typed for a long time.

I am a person who is not brave enough. I have been like this since I was a child. My indifference, my cautiousness, my thoughtfulness, and my consideration of the overall situation are all my cowardly umbrellas.It's a huge bad thing, and it's kept me huddled in my comfort zone for years, before and after I had a relationship, circling in circles as I watched people come and go have My own emotions, but I just watched and never dared to participate in it, because if I don't participate, I don't have to bear any consequences, whether it is good or bad.I have been having a nightmare, it was born because of my cowardice, also because of my cowardice, the wall in the nightmare extended to the reality to trap me, I dare not climb out because I am afraid of falling, as time passes, I even think I should have stayed here, and at this time, at least I have a reason to leave the place.I said this not to ask you to understand me or forgive me, but to insist on my intentions, probably to let you know how difficult it is for me to dare to take this step, so that you can have more pity on me, feel more sorry for me, and feel more sorry for me. ……like me.

After reading this long paragraph, Lin Ji felt like he had a dream. Did Chen Xiyang say this?Is he willing to reveal his heart and make himself like him more?

When he was in a trance, the phone in Lin Ji's hand vibrated again. He fixed his gaze in a panic and saw these two lines: You can call me whatever you want, just like you can do whatever you want.

Lin Ji seemed to have lost all the strength in his body, and fell powerlessly on the damp green grass. He turned his head subconsciously, and saw Chen Xiyang standing there tall and straight in the shadow of a tree in the distance, and there was no enduring sorrow in his eyes. .

Even though all the rationality in his mind told Lin Ji that this was his fantasy, he still got up on the grass, wanting to get close to hug his lover, even though it might burst the bubble of this dream.

However, before he could take a step, Chen Xiyang strode over and pressed him against the thick and rough tree trunk without any explanation.

perm

There was a momentary pain in Lin Ji's back, but the next moment he could only feel the touch of his lips and tongue.

There is no one else here, even if there is, today's Chen Xiyang will turn a blind eye.

Lin Ji's lips and tongue had a smell similar to that of the grass under his feet. It was fresh, and it was like a bud sprouting from a tree stump. Chen Xiyang had no doubt that he would be captured by this smell in his life.

After reacting, Lin Ji hugged him fiercely with his backhand, fearing that Chen Xiyang would go away with the wind in the next second.He was afraid that this was his own delusion, but he didn't care about the fear, because the aura belonging to Chen Xiyang also made him addicted, like a rainbow that appeared with the first rays of sunshine after the rain, obviously out of reach, but always It makes people want to get closer, and get closer.

After the fiery suffocation, they gasped heavily and pressed each other's foreheads. Lin Ji's vision of Chen Xiyang, who was close at hand, became more and more blurred. This was indeed his hallucination!He couldn't help but tighten his embrace.

Chen Xiyang held the other's cheek affectionately, and wiped away the tears from the corners of the other's eyes with his thumb: "Look at me, Ah Ji."

Immediately after the tears were wiped away, countless others of its kind appeared again. Lin Ji pressed onto Chen Xiyang's shoulder and sobbed, calling vaguely brother.

This call is full of hope, grievance, and complex emotions that cannot be explained clearly, but even without these, it is different from the countless calls in the past.

"I'm sorry," it's enough for the couple to leave crying, Chen Xiyang resisted the desire to cry and said softly, "But please believe me, I'm not brave enough, and I don't have the guts to go back after I walk out gone."

Lin Ji shook his head, what he meant was that it doesn't matter whether Chen Xiyang is brave or not, he will back off, he likes this person, everything about Chen Xiyang is within the scope of his liking, he can't speak at all, he can only cry Shaking his head vigorously.

And Chen Xiyang actually understood what he wanted to express, with a gentle smile in his eyes, he patted Lin Ji's back lightly.

A gust of wind blew, and the leaves covered their eyes shyly. The two of them stood in the ever-changing shadows, but they didn't hesitate to embrace each other and walk into the bright sunshine.