blowing clouds

Due to the severe cold, the snowflakes sucked into people's mouths all smelled bloody. It was in this environment that [-] came to an end.

Along the main road, bright red lanterns are hung on the street lamps on both sides. As far as the eye can see, there are nearly 21-story skyscrapers in this city, and there are also high-end cars on the road. Therefore, although Ding Zhaoyan is lonely The ground was buried in the rented building. Although Mrs. Tang's wife entered the emergency room again, and despite Chen Xiyang's silence and trance on New Year's Eve and his [-]st birthday, most people in the city were full of joy and stepped forward. Towards a new era.

Chen Xiyang's family didn't have any relatives to visit, except for the relatives' family. After arriving, Xu Donghai secretly pulled Chen Xiyang aside, and the smile on his face gradually disappeared.

"I'm so worried. As soon as the guest left, there was no news. I called Xiao Ding countless times before he answered. His tone was deadly. He wouldn't come when I asked him to come to my place for the New Year."

"It's useless for you and me to enlighten him about this." Chen Xiyang took a heavy breath, "He has to come out by himself. Everyone has their own destiny, so don't think too much about it."

Xu Donghai nodded reluctantly: "This year seems to be over, but there are constant twists and turns on the tail. I contacted Mr. Tang two days ago. His wife's health is not optimistic. He asked for leave to take care of him for a long time before. It’s not getting any better, but I hope you’re safe.”

Chen Xiyang followed suit, and after hesitating, he couldn't help but look back. Lin Ji was sitting alone on the sofa in the corner, as if he couldn't hear the lively conversation between his parents and godmother, and just looked down at the cracks in the floor.

After all, Xu Donghai is an optimist, and he will not always be sad. After talking about it, he laughed and joked: "When I get married in May this year, I will cheer up the people around me! Hey, you should also hurry up, don't always talk about it every day." I'm busy with work and don't touch girls."

"At home, I introduced you." Chen Xiyang took the initiative to explain something inexplicably, but after finishing speaking, he left his mouth full of bitterness.

"Hey? Tell me, how are you, can we chat?" Xu Donghai raised his eyebrows curiously.

"I haven't seen it yet," Chen Xiyang shook his head, "She went on a business trip before, and she came back just in time for the Chinese New Year. Let's wait until the next year."

Xu Donghai nodded: "Okay, be more enthusiastic when the time comes, and don't put on a cold face like you are in front of me every day."

Chen Xiyang was thoughtful, Gu Honghong called Xu Donghai to serve the dumplings, he groaned and was about to go, but Chen Xiyang stopped him: "My face is cold every day?"

Xu Donghai probably didn't know why he was so serious, and said with a little confusion: "It's not every day... But to be honest, I haven't seen you happy a few times since I met you in college, especially recently, probably It must be an addiction to pretend to be deep."

Chen Xiyang was stunned for a moment, then slowly smiled bitterly: "There is a reason for everything..."

Xu Donghai became more and more confused, but his old lady yelled again, so he could only walk away temporarily full of doubts. Chen Xiyang turned around after him, and his gaze once again fell on Lin Ji habitually.

Lin Ji maintained the same posture as before, as if there was some treasure in the cracks of the ground.

After saying goodbye to Xu's house and going out, even Chen Li noticed Lin Ji's abnormality, walked over and asked with a smile, "Ah Ji is very quiet today, what are you thinking about?"

Chen Xiyang originally thought that Lin Ji would deal with it casually, but he didn't expect that the other party said in a serious manner: "I was wondering if I should go to the mountains to support teaching in the last year of the normal school."

Chen Xiyang looked over suddenly, startled Lu Yan beside him, but Lu Yan was not too surprised, and subconsciously took two steps: "Ah Ji, why do you suddenly have such an idea?"

Lin Ji forced a smile: "Isn't this a good idea?"

Lu Yan sighed: "Contribution is a good thing, but it's too sudden...and the conditions in the mountains are poor, I'm afraid you will suffer."

"It's just a preliminary idea, and it's still too early for the last year," Lin Ji said softly, the content of what he said was mixed in the cold wind, without a trace of warmth, "However, if you plan to put it into action, you must Prepare early, such as taking qualification certificates, or learning something other than major.”

Lu Yan never thought that Lin Ji still had such ambitions before. She didn't know what to say for a while, so she could only look at Chen Li anxiously, wanting him to persuade the child.

In the end, Chen Li patted Lin Ji on the shoulder in relief despite his complex gaze: "When a child grows up, he will always have his own ideas. If you really plan to do this, I will only feel relieved. If you are struggling, just be tough. The impoverished children in the mountains need ambitious young people like you!"

Lu Yan pushed him: "Let's not talk about whether to go to the mountains for the New Year's Eve. Anyway, this is not a matter of slapping your head. You should think about it yourself, A Ji."

From the beginning to the end, Lin Ji didn't look at Chen Xiyang, but Chen Xiyang knew that 90.00% of the reason why Lin Ji had this idea was on him.

But how should he react, angry?resentment?Do you think the other party is deliberately competing with him?These feelings that made him feel depressed only appeared for a moment and then dissipated, because he was very clear intellectually that it was good for both of them to separate.

Even if Lin Ji really wanted to go, it would be more than two years later, and he was extremely far away from Chen Xiyang at this moment, but realizing that he would be separated from Lin Ji for a long time, Chen Xiyang still felt intense panic and unwillingness.

Walking on the snowy road, Chen Xiyang's eyes were fixed on Lin Ji's back. The other party was not as thin as when they first met, and he did not dare to look directly into the other party's eyes like when they first met. .

Chen Xiyang stopped silently. If he had rushed forward to hug Lin Ji and kissed him fiercely, perhaps many years later, he would have saved a lot of regret in his heart, but that crazy scene only appeared in his mind .

The backs of the three of them look like a family. They are indeed a family. Chen Xiyang himself and Lin Ji have come together as family members, and there is no other way to go.

But Chen Xiyang's heart was getting heavier and heavier, as if the snow in front of him was about to take Lin Ji away, what else could he do besides watching in vain?

Now the winter vacation has nothing to do with Chen Xiyang. Every morning, Lin Ji who wakes up early can always hear the sound of his door closing when he goes to work, and it takes a long time for Lin Ji to concentrate on reading again.

Of course, Chen Xiyang couldn't know about this. The weather was very cold, and Ding Zhaoyan and Mr. Tang were missing in the office. would accuse him of inefficiency.

Time flew by in this muddled atmosphere. One day in nearly March, A Ling in the office received a call, and then came to Xu Donghai's side with red eyes.

Elder Tang's lover still left in early spring. In order not to cause trouble to everyone, he and his family had finished the funeral arrangements, and only asked his colleagues to go to the cemetery to pay homage. The purpose of A Ling looking for Xu Donghai was to let him inform Ding Zhaoyan was also present.

Naturally, Xu Donghai would not refuse to agree, and Ding Zhaoyan and Tang Lao were also very hypocritical, and they would go no matter how lacking in energy they were.

On the day when everyone went to pay homage to Mrs. Tang, the sun was exceptionally bright. Xu Donghai, who was wearing this black suit, said with emotion: "I used to always feel that if God deliberately sings the opposite tune when people are sad, it will only make people feel more desolate. But today I realized that good weather is the gentleness of God. I met Teacher Tang’s lover once, she is a very gentle and intellectual old lady, she definitely doesn’t want people who come to see her to brave the wind and rain.”

Chen Xiyang pursed his lips, not without emotion, Ding Zhaoyan did not open his mouth to express his opinion, but because of the double blow, he had the worst complexion in the crowd, as if he was the least able to accept this reality.

The cemetery is not deserted, but it remains quiet. Except for the restrained footsteps, there is only the sound of birds chirping overhead. The floor tiles are lined with vibrant greenery. Most of the people in the photos on the tombstones are smiling. Under the reflection, it becomes more genial.

Mr. Tang had obviously lost a lot of weight. He forced a smile on his face when he saw the crowd, but the extremely hoarse voice still betrayed his mood: "Before she died, the old lady said she didn't want to trouble you, thank you all for coming..."

As the only woman, A Ling stepped forward and gently placed the flowers in her hand in front of the tomb. Chen Xiyang looked at the photo of the tombstone, and saw a kind-hearted old woman with a gentle smile in her eyes and a radiant smile. Looking at the elegant demeanor of intellectuals, it is not difficult to imagine the picture of Mr. Tang and her harmony over the years.

Chen Xiyang couldn't help sighing, if he was the only one today, he would rather cry bitterly through the rising sorrow.

Elder Tang lost his beloved, but he couldn't even meet the prerequisite of losing his lover.

Seeing Ding Zhaoyan with a haggard look, Teacher Tang couldn't help but turn red. The two friends didn't say anything, but that was enough.

After everyone bowed together, several colleagues with similar qualifications as Mr. Tang stepped forward to comfort him. Chen Xiyang, a young man, was not suitable to go over and speak, so he stood aside and waited patiently.The sun is warm, but the atmosphere here is always shrouded in sadness. Xu Donghai also staged a rare moment when silence is golden. He kept looking at Ding Zhaoyan who was standing alone in the distance, with worried eyes.

After lighting new sandalwood in front of his lover, Mr. Tang greeted everyone to leave, and told them to work hard, and he would return to his post soon.He also specially kept Chen Xiyang, saying that he had read his book and would correct several articles for him when he returned to work.

The pain in Chen Xiyang's heart didn't ease, but he was moved and respected a little more. After bowing to say goodbye, he found that Xu Donghai and Ding Zhaoyan didn't go far, but stood tensely in front of a brand new tombstone.

Chen Xiyang walked over suspiciously, and the words on the tombstone hit his heart like a heavy hammer.

Tomb of VIP.

Ding Zhaoyan stood in front of the tomb without saying a word, his expression was not so much enduring grief as holding back anger, but soon, his eye sockets became red and swollen, and his body shook violently.

Ding Zhaoyan did not fall to the ground with Xu Donghai's sharp eyesight and quick hands. He supported Xu Donghai, gritted his teeth, and stared intently at the four words that gave him infinite pain. After an unknown amount of time, his body could not hold back the trembling , the sun shone on his face, and Chen Xiyang couldn't bear to look at his expression.

After the heart and lungs were all burned to ashes, the pain finally stopped. Ding Zhaoyan gently pushed Xu Donghai away, squatted down slowly, and sat on the cold stone brick.

The moment Ding Zhaoyan curled up, Chen Xiyang heard thunder in his ears, as if the emotions he had accumulated over the years suddenly exploded at this moment, he turned around and ran wildly, throwing away all the shrinking, fear, and grief, and ran home desperately .

He couldn't help himself not to think, what would he do if Lin Ji was lying in the tomb?All of a sudden, all the previous worries and fears could no longer control him. He was not afraid of anything, the only thing he was afraid of was being separated from Lin Ji forever.

He wants to smash everything in front of him, he wants to run, he wants to roar, he wants to hug Lin Ji tightly in his arms, and then kiss him crazily.