blowing clouds

Among all the professional courses in the normal geography department, hydrology has the highest absentee rate. The main reason is that the old professor who teaches this course is too boring and dry, so half of the classroom is empty in each class.

After painstakingly writing on the blackboard, the old professor looked back and saw that the students were all lacking in interest, and immediately didn't want to talk anymore. He glanced back and forth twice in the front row and found that the man who was never absent The student didn't come today, so he couldn't help but sigh slightly, picked up and put down the crumpled textbooks, wondering if his class was really boring?

Lin Ji, who was rarely absent from class, did not slip out to play, but lay on the bed in the dormitory with his head covered, motionless, not sure if he was asleep or not.

It wasn't until after class that his roommates ran back talking and laughing, that he lifted the quilt indifferently and got up, ignoring the greetings of others, went straight to the sink, scooped up a handful of cold water and slapped his face hard.

The slightly gloomy corridor was filled with the laughter of the students, but these seemed far away from Lin Ji and had nothing to do with him. He stared at his dripping face in the mirror until the drops of water gathered together Wet neckline.

The taste of drunkenness that night seemed to be in his body for a long time. He had no energy, and he couldn't raise his energy for anything. Of course, Lin Ji knew that this state was harmful and useless, and he couldn't reverse the reality, but people who fell into quicksand It is always difficult to save himself, no matter how sober he is.

There were many people coming and going in the building, and many people were very curious to see Lin Ji standing here in a daze, but Lin Ji didn't care about those eyes with different expressions at all, and kept staring at himself, wanting to see through what was lingering in his heart. drowsy.

He didn't hate Chen Xiyang at all, if there was any change in him after that night, it would be that he loved Chen Xiyang even more, because the other person's heart was suffering much more than he did.That sentence is right, there are many concerns in life, so don't be willful and reckless, but if you can't love it, what's the point of living a lifetime?

When Chen Li found him and expressed implicitly that he wanted to adopt him, Lin Ji did not expect that things would develop to this point, and even he himself felt a little joy, as if he had seen the thread of fate, but at the same time , but there is a persistent uneasiness in my heart.The slap Chen Xiyang slapped on his face scared him into a shell. After a long period of hesitation and testing, he regained his courage, and Chen Xiyang was even more courageous. He forced each other to look directly at the reality.

Lin Ji looked at himself and thought, after graduation, it's time to leave that home, which is good for both him and Chen Xiyang.

Under the same sky, Chen Xiyang had almost the same expression as him.

Xu Donghai picked up the manuscript, and wanted to slap it hard on his desk, but after seeing his expression clearly, he stopped his hand abruptly: "Brother, what expression do you have... Are you feeling unwell?"

"It's nothing." Chen Xiyang frowned, and quickly pressed his fingers on his temples, his movements revealing obvious irritability.

Xu Donghai sighed: "You are really in a bad state. You looked at the manuscript you reviewed in the morning, and you couldn't even pick out the typos, so you dared to send it to the re-examination? What's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing," Chen Xiyang repeated again, as if he also felt that these three words were not convincing, and added, "My heart is inexplicably irritable, and I am not in the mood for work."

"It's normal to have pressure at work," Xu Donghai said in the tone of a caring brother, "Look at our office, Ding Zhaoyan invited me to take a long vacation for her honeymoon, and Teacher Tang was away at home, everyone has too much work on hand, so a little Bear with it."

Although Xu Donghai didn't say a word to the point, it was better to listen to his nonsense than to be mediocre, so Chen Xiyang didn't drive him away, but nodded perfunctorily.

After finally getting off work, Chen Xiyang rejected the concern of his brother Gan to send him home, put on his coat and walked out of the unit.

He is already familiar with the way home, and he can let go of his thoughts boldly while walking.

Ding Zhaoyan and Gao Peng are indeed courageous people. In a sense, they are like the inspiration of fate to Chen Xiyang, encouraging him to move forward boldly, but he is not that kind of character after all. , and clearly felt the fear, he was afraid of too many or too many known or unknown changes, as if he could only recover his life if he completely blocked the way forward and walked back.

Is he willing?The answer is definitely no, but this is not the reason for him and Lin Ji to act casually. Whether he likes to escape or he is used to wronging himself, in short, he dare not take that step forward, even if all emotions are Forced him to move forward, the only rationality shrank and trapped him in place.

A gust of cold wind seemed to seep into his heart, he suddenly thought, if only Lin Ji took the initiative to tell his parents, it would be great if he cut off the retreat, and he would be brave together with him.

But in the next second, Chen Xiyang couldn't help despising his despicableness. He shouldn't expect changes in others or society. The only thing he has to do is to make himself braver.Of course, he didn't dare.

Chen Xiyang lit a cigarette against the wind, and within a few puffs, the combustion-supporting paper spread to the filter tip with the whistling agitation, and the burnt-smelling green smoke got into his eyes, making him shed tears.

When he got home, it was already dark, but the house was brightly lit, and his parents were actually at home, and they prepared dinner early and waited for him to come back.

Chen Li and Lu Yan were in a good mood, talking and laughing together, but this also made the new wrinkles on their faces more conspicuous. Looking at his father's gray temples, Chen Xiyang felt that the warm current in the room was denying him entry.

"Close the door and come in!" Lu Yan shouted standing by the dining table, "Why are you leaving get off work so late today?"

After walking in slowly, Chen Xiyang put on a faint smile: "I have something to do...why are you all at home, the shop is not busy anymore?"

"Isn't it a civilized city? Streets are being repaired and businesses are required to close for two days," Chen Li explained, "It's really affecting business."

Lu Yan was more open-minded than him: "Will the money be earned? Just take this opportunity to rest your old bones. It's been a long time since you took a good look at your son."

Chen Li nodded with a smile, and pushed the roast chicken on the table to Chen Xiyang's hand: "Okay, when Ah Ji comes back this week, Dad will take you to the amusement park."

Chen Xiyang paused, and Lu Yan couldn't help laughing: "One of your two children is a college student, and the other is working. Playground, do you think you are a child?"

Chen Li laughed at himself: "I'm a little confused, but after all, time flies, two or three years have passed in the blink of an eye... You are right, you should spend time with your children."

"It's not enough to just express your opinion, it depends on your actions!"

The family had dinner talking and laughing, but while eating, Lu Yan couldn't help but look at Chen Xiyang frequently, as if hesitant to speak.

Chen Xiyang smiled slightly: "Mom, what do you want to say?"

Lu Yan put down her chopsticks with a smile, and said in a negotiating tone: "That's right, I chatted with your Aunt Zhao downstairs two days ago. She is also kind and wants to introduce you to someone... I said I don't like being a child." Lord, she keeps bugging me and talks about that girl in a crazy way, but the conditions should be really good, I work in a newspaper, and I'm considered a colleague with you, so we must have something in common."

Lu Yan's appearance was indeed a little deceiving, she said that she didn't want to make decisions, but the meaning she expressed was still obvious.

However, Chen Xiyang understood why her mother was cautious, because she was always extremely resistant to the topic of blind dates mentioned before. Although her mother also showed her face to him a few times, she was still afraid of his upset after all.

Chen Li spoke in a timely manner: "My son doesn't want others to introduce himself, which means he has high spirits and high vision. I'm afraid you won't be able to choose him! But this time the girl is really nice, if it's convenient, let's meet each other, even if the conversation doesn't work out. Many friends."

Chen Xiyang lowered his head and did not answer.

Lu Yan paused, and when she was worried about whether her son would sternly refuse, Chen Xiyang said slowly: "Then see you."

Seeing his parents' gratified and joyful expressions, Chen Xiyang took a bitter bite.

This weekend, the playground was indeed not completed, and the four members of the family looked the same as before. They were joking and laughing, and they were silent, just like thousands of ordinary families, without any unnecessary conflicts or changes.

When facing each other, Chen Xiyang and Lin Ji could maintain a superficial calm, but only they knew what was going on in their hearts.Chen Xiyang was a little worried that his parents would tell Lin Ji about the arrangement for the meeting, but he wanted them to open the mouth, which completely eliminated the thoughts he and Lin Ji shouldn't have. However, Lu Yan and Chen Li are also busy at home with settlements and contact channels , there is not so much time for gossip, and the weekend flows by plainly.

A few days later, Lu Yan suddenly told Chen Xiyang that Aunt Zhao had made an agreement with the woman, but the woman suddenly wanted to go to Beijing on business, so she had to temporarily put the meeting on hold.

Chen Xiyang didn't feel disappointed at all, he was full of joy. This is a conceivable fact, but it's hard to say whether it's good or bad.

Lu Yan pretended to accuse Aunt Zhao of being unreliable, but then changed her tone: "To be able to travel to the capital, the girl must have good abilities and background. When she comes back, you must seize the opportunity!"

Chen Xiyang was noncommittal: "Maybe when someone goes to the capital and comes back, his vision will be higher, and he may not be able to see people from small places."

"No matter how good a woman is, she still has to live with a man. There aren't so many people with eyes above their heads." Lu Yan hurriedly explained, as if she fell in love with this daughter-in-law whom she had never seen before.

Chen Xiyang nodded perfunctorily. It was rare that he did not dwell on the troubles of this matter itself, but thought that Liu Bannong had proposed the word "she" nearly 100 years ago to give women human rights, and the slogan that women can hold up half the sky has never been less shouted As a result, my mother still has this feudal thought that women should be attached to men.

The next day Chen Xiyang came to the unit and found that Ding Zhaoyan, who had already passed the leave period, was finally willing to come to work, but his face was extremely ugly. He sat on his seat and gritted his teeth. By his side, it seems that he has been persuading him for a long time, but unfortunately it has no effect.

Intuitively speaking, Chen Xiyang thought that the only person who could cause Ding Zhaoyan to have such emotional fluctuations at this time could only be the distinguished guests. When he came over, Ding Zhaoyan was still staring at the air viciously, ignoring him, he asked Xu Donghai in a low voice: "What's wrong?"

Xu Donghai sighed, patted the silent Ding Zhaoyan, and led Chen Xiyang out of the office.

The answer he told was the same as Chen Xiyang expected, about Gaopeng.

"He disappeared again?" Chen Xiyang was a little puzzled, "They were fine when they met last time, and they have been getting bored recently, why did they suddenly leave again?"

"Who knows," Xu Donghai was also very irritable, "Gapeng is getting along with him, so it's not that he can't accept it, I think...fuck, do you think he thinks Xiaoding is profitable, so he can get involved with him? The money ran away?"

Chen Xiyang thought for a moment: "Ding Zhaoyan said that?"

Xu Donghai shook his head: "He just said that the guest is gone, he didn't say anything else, he kept putting on this sad face."

While thinking about it, Chen Xiyang said: "Ding Zhaoyan is a good judge of people and will not be deceived by others, and I think Gao Peng is really not that kind of person. Besides, if he is cheated of money, Ding Zhaoyan will definitely be furious, not like now So... sad."

"That's true..." Xu Donghai nodded sadly, "What will happen then?"

"The high probability is the same as last time, and I left without saying goodbye." Chen Xiyang's eyes were deep, "The actions are the same, and the reasons may not be the same."

Xu Donghai grabbed his hair: "Really, do you think it's easy for two men to be together in this society? Let's have a good time, what's missing if you have nothing to do, it's really annoying!"

Chen Xiyang had a premonition that although he didn't know the reason, perhaps Gao Peng would never return to Ding Zhaoyan's side again.He longed for Ding Zhaoyan and Gao Peng to show him the wonderful life in his dream, but the beautiful plot suddenly changed, and Chen Xiyang didn't understand what fate wanted to tell him.