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136. It’s like stepping on a swamp and leaning against the wall... I have to admit that life is different

Lan Tian was persuaded by Lan Fang to change her dressing.

She held Sha Ying's hand and said, "Then... I'll be back soon, and I'll change my medicine after a while... Actually, it's nothing serious, it doesn't hurt at all, don't worry." It's damp, but it's still so warm. She doesn't want her rustle to worry about her...

"Go, I'll wait for you to come back." Sha Ying also smiled with tears in her eyes, but after leaving her embrace, her whole body became very cold very quickly...

Ye Yu sat down beside Sha Ying's bed.

"Sister Yu."

"rustle."

"I never asked you, are you and Atu... married?"

I didn't expect Sha Ying to ask about this, did she ask on purpose?This person is actually very careful, and Ye Yu knows it very well.

"Oh... no. I broke up with him."

...Sure enough, we broke up.

"then you……"

"Heh... don't talk about me, I'm fine. Shasha, she... has been waiting for you. I don't know why I have to tell you like this. Although you are married to Sun Qian, it may be my idea to break up. I can't refuse blame."

"I won't walk into her life again, don't let her wait any longer, I can't give her anything, it will only drag her down."

"Why do you think so? It shouldn't be what you said. I still remember that you liked her bravely than anyone else in college. Why do you care if you can give her something now? Is it what she wants? "

"No, no, I want to give her something but I really can't give it."

"I don't know."

"Is there a vice-principal Zhuo in your courtyard?"

"You...you know?"

"Sister Yu...I came to see her on November 11 last year...but...when I really wanted to see her, I saw her in a surgical gown and a white coat. I heard about her and Vice President Zhuo, she already has a brand new life, she can adapt, she has a smile, she is positive...I...don't have the courage to really see her, don't tell her, never Tell her that that day, I hid in the innermost staircase of her office to listen to her conversation with Vice President Zhuo, I saw her office from the window, I... I walked away."

"Shusha! You! Why did you do this?! Why?! Working in this environment, she has to smile and be positive. She still works so hard just to keep herself busy and not leave time to think about you! She Afraid of being idle, afraid of having nothing to do! She reported to the hospital the second day after she came back, and went to your hometown on the first Sunday. Do you know how sad and lonely she is when she looks at the Yangtze River with chapped lips and silent? She woke up more than once because of you in a dream... Asking where you are going, even when you are exhausted from work, she still calls your name on the hospital bed, other people, other people can't get into her heart at all! Rusha ...Shusha...why don't you come out? Let me tell you again, she saw you...she really saw you..."

Ye Yu's eyes were blurred with tears...

"In this life, she has collapsed twice because of you, one time when she walked out of your wedding, in a torrential rain in Shanghai, she heard the song "Forget You, I Can't Do It", and she burst into tears Crying and I couldn’t help her, so when she returned to the dormitory, she tore up the experiments and course notes she had worked so hard for days and nights, and then...the high fever continued...I lay on the hospital bed for ten days and kept calling your name... She didn't come back to her senses until her mother came to Shanghai... Shasha, you hurt her, do you know? The second time you broke down, it was the day you came back to find her. She said she saw you, and she went upstairs Running down, she said you were standing at the gate of the hospital, you were wearing a white top and blue pants, but when she ran to the gate of the hospital, she couldn't find you anymore... She knelt in the middle of the road and didn't know which direction you were... … She cried and called you, she said she saw it, and I said it was her illusion, she said she remembered you so much that she would not be wrong, rustle! You hurt her, why do you do this? why?!"

"Stop talking, don't talk! Please...please...don't go on...If you go on, I'm afraid I'm going to kill this child...Sister Yu...Sister Yu..."

Ye Yu held Sha Ying's hand sadly: "Shasha..."

"Did she really see me..."

"Yes... She went to your house to look for you that night, but you didn't go back, she thought she was insane!"

"she……"

"She needs you...she can't live without you...so much...misses you..."

"Don't say...don't say such things...Sister Yu...help me...help me...help me take care of her..."

"Care? What kind of care?"

Sha Ying stopped sobbing and looked at Ye Yu with tears in her eyes... She saw Ye Yu's heart.

Ye Yu met Sha Ying's gaze, only to realize that she had asked the wrong question, and she shifted her gaze.

"I... I meant to say—"

The door was pushed open, and Lan Tian and Lan Fang came in together, the conversation ended, but Sha Ying began to look at Ye Yu from time to time, but Ye Yu was afraid of bumping into Sha Ying's eyes.Soon, she went out with Lan Fang to continue working, and Ye Yu never looked at Sha Ying again.

In the evening, when the infusion was over, Sha Ying could be discharged from the hospital. Sun Qian was preparing silently, maybe waiting for Sha Ying to leave with him peacefully, or maybe still waiting for Sha Ying's excessive demands, for example, that she didn't want to go back with him.No matter what it was, Sun Qian felt that he would promise her calmly, as long as she returned to Beijing with him, he would promise her everything.

And Lan Tian, ​​even if the whole world is against it, even if it really means nothing, she doesn't want her rustle to leave her so soon, she knows that her rustle really wants to be with her, not to mention that if she separates again, she doesn't know Will there be another chance to meet again in this life?But how should I speak, do I still need her rustle to speak?She panicked and said to Sha Ying, "Wait for me."

She ran into the corridor and called Ye Yu on her mobile phone. Ye Yu and Lan Fang were already off work and were coming over just after changing their clothes. I'll keep her, Xiaoyu, you understand, Sun Qian knows, my position is not acceptable, just one night, sister, help me, no matter what method is used."

Seeing this sister so sad, how could she not try her best to help her, even if it was to atone for the broken relationship.

"Xiaotian, my sister will help you keep her, don't feel bad, my sister will definitely do it."

The truth is, can she do it?

Entering the room, I saw that Sha Ying and Sun Qian were undoubtedly still in the cold war. They knew that speaking out might bring another disaster to everyone, but looking at the painful and pitiful Lan Tian and Sha Ying, both of them knew they had to give it a try.Lan Fang spoke first.

"Sun Qian, we want to stay with Sha Ying for one night, is that okay? We see that she is still not in a good mood, let's enlighten her, um... we will take her to have a meal together, and then we may chat a lot In our past, we were all very good old classmates. It was a surprise to meet this time. I don’t know when the next time will be. We will stay at our house at night, and we will send Rusha home tomorrow. You see OK?"

Sun Qian was obviously helpless, flustered, and suppressed. He sat on the bed for a while, stood up again, walked to the window, remembered the conversation with Zhang Yang, stepped back, went to the bed, and looked down at the sofa with his back facing him. Ying sat on the bed again, stood up and said:

"I just want to take my wife home, I just want to go home and live a good life with my wife, I love her." All the prepared compromises are useless, he really can't bear his beloved to have a "heart-to-heart" night with others, Even a man can't do it, let alone a woman.

Lan Fang continued: "We know you are very sad that Shasha fainted this time, no matter what the reason is, fortunately there is nothing serious about it, Shasha is not in a good mood now, after all grandma just passed away, I think we old classmates may Bring her some different mood, you see, let's get together for one night, shall we?"

"I, I, just want to take her home, I don't want anything now, I just want to take her away."

"But I think—"

"Is there anyone here to ask me what I want?" Sun Qian interrupted Lan Fang loudly, "Do you want to keep Sha Ying or does she want to keep Sha Ying? Do you want to keep Sha Ying for one night, or do you want to keep her forever? Come down?!"

"Sun Qian, what are you talking about? Why are you always so excited? Can you be happy when you are rustling like this?"

"You can ask her if she ever made me happy!!" Sun Qian yelled.

"Don't talk anymore...Everyone don't talk anymore..." Sha Ying burst into tears: "I'll go back with him, don't quarrel here, grandma said, don't quarrel anymore."

"No! Shasha, you are going to go back with him when he yells like this? Why are you so afraid of him? Sun Qian, I must keep her today. Whether you agree or not, why is Shasha staying with you even with the old man?" You can't even have a dinner with your classmates, is this the way you love her?"

"It seems that you don't know anything, it seems that I must explain it clearly!"

"You don't need to say that everyone here understands what happened, and I know what the situation is now."

"You are very clear? You are her sister and you say you are very clear?"

"If there is no sister like me, you and Sha Sha may only be classmates forever!"

"What did you say?"

"Whether you understand or not, now, I just want to stay with Shasha. I don't have too many demands. I just have to get together with Shasha for one night."

"I disagree."

Ye Yu answered: "Sun Qian, make room for the other party, don't use this method to occupy a person, hurt the other party, and also hurt yourself, there is no need to restrict it like this, this is also Shasha's freedom, I believe you can say no When you agree, you don't feel good."

"I can't see you clearly. It makes me feel so complicated. The simplest thing has become extremely complicated here. Why does it seem to be all my fault? Lan Tian, ​​why don't you speak? The one who wants to keep her the most is not you You can't open your mouth, you know what I can't bear the most is that you open your mouth to keep her, you are really smart, and you have found your sister and friend to help you keep her!"

Lan Tian kept looking at her rustling, how could she have nothing to say: "Don't think you are such a failure, if you have the heart, she will still smile at you; we have an unforgettable past, this is an indelible fact, but if If you have a heart, she will still try to forget.

If she is unfeeling, she will kill the child in her belly, because it is an accident she was not prepared for; and if she is desperate, she will find all ways to leave you, because no one will be willing to be with someone who does not understand her and cannot tolerate her. People who treat her live together.

Sun Qian, listen, your happiness has grown slowly in her belly, no one here will take her away from you, you are her husband, even if I hold her hand now, if you don’t Look at things with your own thoughts, then the next thing, besides being grateful, is to be grateful. The baby will be your eternal bargaining chip, another reason for you to love her, and another reason for her to love you. Hugging and holding, instead of holding it up high, she and I both understand that what should be let go will definitely be let go, but don't rush her, don't force her, don't let her sit in the taxi by herself The car drove around all over the world. Today, I really want to keep her, and I want to let her tears stop for a while. "

"I really regret forcing you to speak. This world is obviously absurd. You are almost convincing me, but you seem to be responsible for half of her tears. If it weren't for you, she wouldn't have given up her stage. If it weren't for you, she How brilliant life will be! Do you know? I hate the last dance she choreographed, which touched everyone in the audience and broke my grandson’s heart. She goes home."

"Sun Qian, can you be more generous?" Ye Yu asked.

"Standing in this position, I believe no one will be generous. Sha Ying, you must go back with me!" He tried to take Sha Ying's hand away from Lan Tian's.

"Sun Qian!" Lan Fang and Ye Yu shouted together.

"Don't force me either. I don't want everyone in the courtyard to know what the masters of Jingang City are thinking. In order to defend my marriage, I will do anything."

"You!" Ye Yu glared at him, but she really couldn't ignore what he said, it might be an unmanageable consequence, so she retreated.

Pain Sha Ying's whole body...

It also angered a person. This person stared at Sun Qian with wide eyes, and said in a firm tone that she had never let everyone hear:

"I hope you have never spoken to Shasha in this tone in your life! I don't care what you want the whole world to know! I can't change who I am and what kind of environment I am in! Sun Qian! I don't deny that I still Thinking about someone I shouldn't think about! She is already your wife, a man, if you really love her, don't give me a chance to have her again, you already have children, please let her continue to discover your goodness from your childhood Tolerant of her past feelings! This is your fate! Just like I can't get her! It is my fate!"

"Heaven..." Her Lan Tian still loves Shasha so much... This love... is so strong...

"You!" Sun Qian looked at Lan Tian in surprise. This man's words were very sharp and irrefutable. , was about to say something but was directly interrupted by Lan Tian:

"Let me finish!"

The rustle who called her was soft and gentle, and it was many years ago: "Sandsha..."

Then I heard Lan Tian's bleak words:

"Shusha...don't be afraid...Shusha grows up...soon to be a mother...then...life may be different...Shusha...listen to Xiaotian again...be strong...okay... ...There are so many differences...Xiaotian...will bear it with Shasha...Shusha don't feel lonely...God will play tricks again...Finally...we walked together..."

These words wet the eyes of the three pairs of eyes... Lan Fang's, Ye Yu's, Sun Qian's... three identities, three positions, the whole world is sad...

"...Okay...I hear...God will play tricks again...I still live to this day..."

"rustle……"

"Don't worry, Xiaotian... Rusha will be fine...or it will get better and better...for you...accompany me to bear..."

"rustle……"

"God...Thank you for calling my name wrong...Thank you for letting me...do so many questions in my life...I am grateful..."

With teary eyes, the blue sky nods...

"Sandsha is leaving..."

"rustle……"

Sha Ying turned around and looked at Lan Fang: "Sister Fang...Sister Yu..."

Lan Fang and Ye Yu stepped forward together: "Shusha..."

Sha Ying... looking at Lan Tian's hand... touching the cocoon...

How much time is left to feel this love...

Sha Ying put Lan Tian's hand... into Lan Fang's and Ye Yu's...

Heartbroken: "This person...has meaning in everything...helps me...makes her happy...I'm leaving..."

"Shusha!" Lan Tian called to her sadly.

"Don't stay where you are...God...with Sasha...continue to do that last question...Take care..."

Turned around and walked out the door... My heart was full of pain and tears...

Without saying anything, Sun Qian picked up his bag and walked behind Sha Ying.

"Shusha...Shusha..." I have been in love to this day, but I still...have to do that question...

She rushed to the door, listening to the footsteps and watching Rusha's back... disappeared around the corner...

Stepping forward as if stepping in the mud... She took a few steps... She leaned against the wall...

"Shasha... Shasha..."

Ye Yulanfang came over and held her hand alone...

I don't know if we can meet each other again in this life, her rustle... went away again...

The author has something to say:

Seeing that many people blame Sha Ying, one of the protagonists in the article, for letting go by marrying a man in the end, which ultimately harms others and herself. Today, let’s analyze how many paths Sha Ying could take at that time.

As for her letting go, it's better to say that her decision was just to break Lan Tian's idea of ​​continuing to love her, and at the same time stop her own idea of ​​continuing to love her. The word letting go is not particularly appropriate, after all, they are two people in love.

In the article, more than ten chapters were used to describe the breakup in detail. This result was not achieved in a hurry. The decision was hasty, but it was not hasty to believe that it must be the result of her deliberation.In the middle, there are many love stories written about Lan Tian, ​​and even some stubborn thoughts. In the middle, it is also written that Sha Ying rushed back from Jilin to Beijing to relieve her sweetheart's lovesickness. This is enough to reflect the precious instinct in this love. It should be in 97 Zhang Shaying wrote in her psychological monologue that maybe there was nothing wrong with coming back this time, but it would be very wrong to let the instinct of love run ahead of reason again and again.

Lan Tian knocked over the laboratory equipment, as a doctor, what a terrible mistake, Lan Tian is the heir of the Lan family's swordsmanship, what an inhumane rule, but it is by no means that Lan Tian, ​​a junior, just casually changed the ancestral system, how could she Let the sweetheart take on so many responsibilities alone.

Going abroad is just an introduction, but going abroad is as important as everything to the Lan family. Why does her sweetheart keep silent about so many important things? Sha Ying can't bear the heavy love, and she can't give it to her. Lan Tian has a child, which makes it impossible for her to go on with Lan Tian.

So what should she do?She first used the method of escaping to buy herself time to think about this matter. One can imagine Sun Qian's hard pursuit, and she agreed to him to associate with her, which was an expedient method.

But when Lan Tian knew that she was dating Sun Qian, Lan Tian didn't believe it at all.

There were two things written in those bland chapters before. One was that Sha Ying was ill and she asked Xiaoju to tell a lie, but Lan Tian soon saw through it. The bag moved a bit, and Lan Tian saw that she stuffed money for her. All these plots were laid out in a stylish manner. If friends didn't read carefully or forgot after reading it, they would naturally ignore it, but don't forget Sha Ying won't forget, so she can't lie to her, and if she cheats and delays, the time will pass.

The root of this matter is that she loves someone but really can't give this person what she must (please note that it is a must, not optional). She, she is the person Lan Tian loves deeply, yes, but how can she become the person who holds Lan Tian back, and the decision to let go came to this point.

How much she loves Lan Tian, ​​she can't even hear Lan Tian's voice, so once she lets go of this person, for Sha Ying, it will not be much different from death:

1. She may have thought about death, but she still has parents, mother, brother, and grandma. If she dies, how will Lan Tian bear it;

2. If she becomes a monk, her family will also not be able to accept it, and the damage caused by these methods is immeasurable;

3. She can still escape, but wherever she can escape, the blue sky will pursue her hard;

4. She has a boyfriend, but Lan Tian doesn't believe it. It's so serious that Lan Tian, ​​who has always been gentle, beat Sun Qian. She knows how much Lan Tian loves her.

Well, time is so tight, what else can she do?She decided not to fall in love anymore, and now she is just looking for a way to prevent both parties from retreating. If there is no such thing as going abroad, maybe Sha Ying will be consumed with her for the rest of her life, but since there is such a thing, she can only do it. Absolutely, just like her monologue, without Lan Tian, ​​it doesn't matter who she will fall in love with next, and she will try her best to put herself into this marriage, but, many things, you really have to try to know, Fortunately, Sun Qian really loved her.

The lesser of evils is the lesser, on the premise that it will hurt Lan Tian no matter what, she chooses to marry Sun Qian Lightning, the continuous damage is the least, she bets on Lan Tian's strength, and on the possibility that she will fall in love with the second person , she can't bring the harm to her parents again, she would rather hurt herself deeply, and wait for herself to discover more and more of her grandson's goodness, but, some things are really not that easy.

She fell in love with such a good person, because that Lan Tian was so good, Zhi Zhi couldn't find a little bit of wrong in her mind, isn't this the consequence of perfect marks?How can the later generations reach the blue sky?

People born in the 70s are different in temperament from those born in the [-]s and [-]s. Now most people will do their own way, but at that time, it was so important to follow a standardized path. How can we use our current eyes to accuse her of being a Self-made, self-inflicted, in the age without the Internet, many people can't tell how brave Sha Ying is, and so much love can let go, which is already the courage that many people look down upon.

Also, it is true that she hurt Lan Tian, ​​how sad she is, she does not want to do such a thing to Lan Tian, ​​her character and the degree to which she loves Lan Tian make her blame herself for that hurt all day long, she never thought that she would be so Can't let go.

A friend said that Sha Ying and Sun Qian were together not because she wanted to forget Lan Tian, ​​but to make Lan Tian stop thinking about it. Another friend said that no one is right or wrong, they are all wholehearted. It's really impossible to seek perfection...

Yes, I believe that after careful analysis, you will not be able to really blame Sha Ying, she is already a role model in same-sex love that should be emulated.

It's just that after taking this step, her whole life will change. Lan Fang is responsible for this step, and Lan Tian is also responsible. How could it be Sha Ying's fault alone?Is it true that her so many monologues are all empty words?

Look at her life, since she is one of the protagonists, she will not place the tragedy here. In the future, she will tell her friends more and more. She and Lan Tian still have a long way to go.

Friends, my article pays special attention to details. I may have mentioned it briefly, but he will be a very important clue in this article. I don’t know if any friends have seen it. No, don’t say it, just rest assured.

One more thing, do you think I will let this child stay in this world?Please don't talk about killing children, I can't write such a thing, sorry, I love life :) very much :) But... let Wen tell you.

Regarding the paragraph between Lan Tian and Ye Yu, I think, I will make you have an even more difficult dilemma than Lan Tian in the end. Even true love cannot be underestimated, and neither will the future you.It's just that at critical times, Lan Tian will be very sober.

Most people are saying that this article is too cruel, woo... It's a good drama, don't be discouraged, really :)

However, there is still a long time, I said that it is a huge romance, and I may have forgotten to say that it has spanned time and space for more than 20 years, bear it, my dear readers, by the way, if you don’t want to read the tags of this article again, you You may think of what else this article will involve...