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118, I looked at the ceiling...watched...watched...tears...I whispered your name...

Sha Ying did not return to Jingang this year, and came to Wuxi with Sun Qian. Everything was the same as before. Sun Qian's family loved Sha Ying very much as always, and Sun Qian's relatives also envied the Sun family for marrying such a beautiful and outstanding wife.

At night, Sun Qian and Sha Ying slept together. A few years ago, when Sha Ying came to Sun Qian's home, Sha Ying would accept Sun Qian's one night. All these past things were circling in Sun Qian's mind. Although the divorce was imminent, But he loves Sha Ying so much that he wants to stretch out his hand unconsciously...

But Sha Ying no longer agrees this time.

Sun Qian asked Sha Ying in words, even if Sha Ying owed him these four years and this marriage, can he use these few nights to make up for it... As soon as he returns to Beijing, he will immediately go through the divorce procedures with Sha Ying.

Sha Ying couldn't deny Sun Qian's indebtedness, and she couldn't kiss her mouth. She accepted Sun Qian's entry into her body for two consecutive nights.

Sun Qian, who has Sha Ying again, suddenly feels that he has received all the grace from heaven, and what he thinks in his heart is no longer how to go through the divorce procedures, but how good it would be if he and Sha Ying can go on like this forever... The feeling of having Sha Ying made Sun Qian really want to stop.

Back in Beijing, they each went to work. Sun Qian didn't mention anything about the divorce. Sha Ying hoped that this week, she could spend half a day or even a few hours with Sun Qian to go through the divorce procedures.

But I didn't expect Sun Qian to say that he couldn't find time for a whole week.

After another week, Sun Qian still couldn't get two or three hours off, which made Sha Ying feel that Sun Qian seemed to be repenting.The mood is very low, the appetite is extremely poor, and even when I can't eat, I always want to vomit...

When Sun Qian came home on Friday night, she saw that Sha Ying was still cooking the meal, and Sha Ying was sitting on the sofa watching the dance show.

Sun Qian went to wash the dishes as usual after eating, everything was as usual, but he knew that he might be facing some questioning from Sha Ying. Sha Ying always treated him calmly, but she might hurt him every sentence. Sun Qian dawdled in the living room, dabbing here and there.

"Can you tell me what you will be busy with next week?" Sha Ying's words were unusually cold.

Sun Qian had the patience to prepare for Sha Ying's series of questions to him. It didn't matter, he could agree to anything, but he couldn't do divorce.

"I don't know yet, the regiment—"

"Is the group very busy recently? I met the head of the group at noon. There were no special arrangements for the first two weeks. It can be said that it is very free after the new year. The group leader does not know that you want to ask for leave. It seems that in the group You didn't even mention asking for leave at all."

"Then, I think the head of the group seems to be in a bad mood, and I really don't have the nerve to speak."

"Really? Why didn't I see it when I was so stunned at noon? Tell a decent lie, or don't you want to go through divorce procedures with me at all?"

"Aying, we still don't want a divorce."

"...Sun Qian, you really regretted it...Why are you all like this? You have to go back on things that you have clearly agreed to. Do you know that I really hate this kind of repentance?"

"Us? Who else are you referring to?"

"You don't need to ask for leave. I have already greeted the head of the group. Come with me on Monday morning to go through the formalities. I don't want anything here. I only take my clothes."

"Aying, how can you decide my affairs like this?"

"I should be able to figure it out. If you don't want to go, of course you can't ask for leave, so you don't have to question my way, but if you definitely don't go, then I will unilaterally file for divorce. It's just a little more troublesome. I just say Come here, whatever you want." Sha Ying got up to enter the room.

"Aying, Aying! Aying!! Do we have to go this far? You saw how much my parents and relatives like you."

"Because of this, we can no longer pretend."

"I didn't pretend, I love you very much, very much, yes, it doesn't matter if I love you enough to allow you not to love me, or even to never fall in love with me!"

"But I'm tired of pretending, and I don't want to pretend anymore. It's not something I'm good at."

"Aying, I'll listen to you about the children. As long as we don't get divorced, as long as you live here, okay? That's all I ask, you can't leave me."

"If you say something good, you must do it. I hate going back on my word. I am a very serious person. I always mean what you say. Don't test me again and again. I don't have this kind of patience anymore."

"It's us again? You mean she regretted something too, don't you?"

"Yes, but I want to tell you that her repentance only makes me love her more and your repentance only makes me feel worse!"

"Don't say you love her!!"

"I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I don't want to force myself anymore!! Sun Qian...your repentance...reminds me a lot...she repented to me...she promised me to go abroad but because I was in front of her again I was sick so she regretted it... She wanted to be a person who is always in my life and she didn't want me to always have a heart in vain... She didn't want me to be sick and she was reluctant to speak to me a little louder...

In those four years of college, I tossed her how many scholarships she didn't let me ask my parents for money, she offered me three full years of college... taught me how not to love her...

She uses the same hands as all the girls in the world...and the perseverance that can be surpassed by few people in the world...persistence...diligence...give me the embrace of the world...

But it was her repentance...that made things serious...and made me understand...the relationship with her...that was dragging her down...that she didn't say a word...that made me afraid of her How much will I give up in this life... It can be said that this kind of repentance has ruined me... and dragged you in..."

Sun Qian retreated on the sofa: "Then I...should I thank her for her repentance or should I hate her for her repentance? Aying, her repentance ruined you, but if I don't repent today, I will also be ruined." Do you understand if it is ruined?"

"I don't want to tell you any more... I have to go tomorrow!" Sha Ying walked to the room again.

Sun Qian grabbed Sha Ying again: "Go ahead and talk to me!!"

"What else is there to say? You proposed, I agreed, and I proposed, please honor it!"

"Do you mean that you accept me during the Chinese New Year? If you admit that this can be used as a condition, it means that it is not difficult."

Sha Ying slapped Sun Qian's face...

"It's hard, you'll never realize it. Don't stop me." Sha Ying was already as cold as an iceberg, her tears were streaming but she was completely silent.

"Sha Ying!!! I just don't agree!!!"

Sha Ying still walked inside.

"Hiring a lawyer is easy."

"Drag me in and leave me like this, do you have any conscience!!!"

"It was my fault to drag you in. Do you have a conscience to understand me? Don't say harsh words."

"Believe it or not, I won't let you even get out of this door!!!"

"Don't do anything cruel."

"Aying... Aying, don't leave me, okay? She has a new life. Why are you divorcing me? I really don't understand. I don't understand. Tell me, what do you think? of?"

"People are different... some people... can love many people in a lifetime, and even love several people at the same time, but some people... if it is true, they will remember it too firmly. They will only remember one promise and love one person in their lifetime."

"Is it because she's a woman? Is it because I'm a man?"

"No! She is a woman, I will fall in love with her, she is a man, I will also fall in love with her, I just fell in love with her, this person who is so worthy of my love... It has nothing to do with everything, you do you understand?"

"She, this person, why does she really fascinate you so much and make you like her so deeply? God created men and women, so is God also wrong? According to what you said, why should there be gender distinctions? ?”

"God created gender only to give birth to a new life while loving. That is indeed the most perfect thing, but God also endows people with unique feelings, even picky feelings. For example, you think it must be me, and I I also feel that it must be her.

There is no emotional union. In this era, a casual one-night stand can satisfy me, but I cannot accept such a union, just like you cannot accept such a union in your bones. If you are stubborn, maybe I am more stubborn than you.

Sun Qian, let go, let go is the relief for me and you, you will find that the world is actually big, you are still young, so handsome, have such a good job, have a house, a car, as long as you let me go, let go This marriage, happiness will really knock on your door and really walk into this house. "

"Aying... leave me, what will you do? What will you do alone?"

"Maybe I will stay in Beijing for a while, and I can't just let go of my job, but in the future, I will go back to Jingang, stay with my grandma, work in Jingang, and be closer to her..."

"She...she...she...she, she, she! No, I'm going to see her, I want to ask her clearly, ask her to understand why she works there with peace of mind! You are so for her! How could she have How can I just forget about you after I have lost my own life!!"

"Don't go!!!"

"Why? You are not allowed to go? Are you going to stop me from fighting for your happiness if you leave me?"

"Don't go! You are not allowed to disturb her. If you go to her, I will hate you forever!"

"Do you want to think about her so much? For her, you lost yourself, why do I feel that I should look up at you? How much do you love her? You love her so much that you just want to... just want to be alone and far away Watching her protect her?"

"I'll say it again, if you go to her, I will really hate you for the rest of my life."

Sun Qian looked at Sha Ying in pain, deeply at Sha Ying, and angrily at Sha Ying...

"It seems that I have found your dead spot, heh..."

"What do you mean?"

"If you leave me, if you must divorce me, my grandson will find her as soon as possible. This is the only way to save my marriage."

"You are forcing me." Sha Ying's expression was cold with tears all over her face.

"Yes, yes!!! I don't allow you to leave me! I just don't allow it. In this life, for you, I am willing to be this unkind, unrighteous, loyal, and unfilial person!!"

"You...you...I told you not to speak harsh words."

"It was you who said the cruel words first, and you who said it first would hate me for the rest of your life! It seems that you will hate me for the rest of your life no matter what I do, it's better...it's better for me to force you to stay by my side than I have nothing!"

"Why are you doing this? You know it might drive me crazy."

"I'm already crazy, can't you see?"

"Okay... okay... then let's go crazy together."

On March 2001, 3, Sun Qian received a call from the Children's Palace, saying why Sha Ying didn't come to work, because she didn't ask for leave in advance, and a group of children were all waiting for her.

Sun Qian made a phone call at home, but no one answered, and he didn't know where he had gone. Sun Qian's eyelids twitched violently, and he had a bad premonition. Did she go to a lawyer?Isn't she worried that Sun Qian will go to Lan Tian?Sun Qian put down his work and drove back home immediately. There was no one in the living room, but the door of Sha Ying's room was locked, so she was inside.

"Aying! Aying! Open the door! Why didn't you go to work? Aying!! Aying!!"

Stick it on the door and listen, but there is no sound inside.

"Aying!!! Aying!!! Open the door! Quickly open the door! The Children's Palace called me!! Why didn't you go to work? Aying!!! Aying!!!" The sound of knocking on the door was heavy About to break the door...

Sun Qian was sweating anxiously, no, no, what was she doing in there? ? ?

Sun Qian kicked open the door and saw Sha Ying lying on the bed...

There was an empty bottle on the table, and she swallowed the whole bottle of sleeping pills...

Sun Qian picked up Sha Ying and rushed to the door. The hysterical shouting was useless. He took Sha Ying to the hospital with a glimmer of hope...

In the ward, Sha Ying was drinking a bottle. She opened her eyes and saw Sun Qian sitting beside her bed looking at her.

"Aying...you're awake..."

"How...how did I wake up? Impossible, how did I wake up?"

"Aying...don't be like this..." Sun Qian's tears rolled down his face: "Don't be like this...Aying...I promise you...I promise you everything...when you leave the hospital...I will accompany you as soon as possible Finished the divorce procedure... This time... I promise I won't regret it... Believe me this time... I will definitely... definitely not regret it... Aying... I beg you, please don't do stupid things again... I just Please be good... If you want to leave me, if you want to leave, if you want to get a divorce, I promise you everything..."

Sha Ying looked at Sun Qian's tears, frowned tightly and the tears slid off the white pillow, just about to say something...

The doctor came over and said, "What's wrong with you, you've been pregnant for more than a month, and you still take medicine like this. Fortunately, many of them are vitamin pills, and the amount of sleeping pills is not too much. This time, you are lucky, and you didn't hurt the fetus. Don't do such stupid things, young people are young people, and they don't know how to cherish themselves at all."

The doctor pointed at Sun Qian again and said, "You! Come with me to get the medicine and settle the bill. You are unshaven, what are you doing?! Let me tell you, it is not easy for a woman to get pregnant. You have to be considerate of your wife, do you understand?"

Sha Ying stared blankly at the ceiling...

"Don't come out, let it go for a while, let it go for a while... If I can have a baby with you, with eyebrows like you, eyes like mine, nose like you, lips like me, body like you, temperament like me, how wonderful it would be... "

Hearing such words, how could she be willing to pull it out... She began to squirm slightly in Sha Ying's body... It seemed to be in every accessible place in her body... Be careful...

And this tender possession after the pleasure... This unusual whisper is as careful... It is clear that it will be loved again and again in the near future... She can no longer be sure of her own strength. She is really afraid of her blue sky Don't like the way her bed may be out of control she can only let go of her blue sky...grabbing the pillow and burying her face in it is the sound of need that can be heard all over the room...

"Shusha, I think there is another very important thing. It seems that she must not have told you."

"What else is there?"

"The responsibility on her shoulders. She certainly didn't tell you that the Lan Family swordsmanship she practiced must be passed on to the next generation of her direct relatives."

"What do you mean?"

"The next generation of direct relatives must be her own child. Has she ever told you why there are fewer and fewer people who know this kind of swordsmanship now? Why are there fewer and fewer people who may only be her and Atu now? Because It must be the blood of the Lan family's own blood. This rule existed as early as when the ancestors of the Lan family created this set of swordsmanship during the Kangxi period of the Qing Dynasty.

Really... It is not accidental that she can easily pick you up and carry you upstairs, and it is not accidental that you see her flying around. She has the responsibility to pass on the sword skills to her next generation. She must have not told you her fate, did she? "

"what……"

"If we can have a child, it must be... the most... the smartest and most beautiful child in the world." After speaking, her heart flooded, and she was afraid that the blue sky would see her, so she quickly reached out to turn off the desk lamp, and buried her face in the pillow , to swallow the sorrow back into the stomach.

"rustle?"

"Heh... I always fantasize, but Xiaotian doesn't mind, how can Rusha mind, right?"

"Shusha is the most important thing. Does Shasha really want a child?"

"Sandsha just wants to be with your kids."

It turned out that God...was joking with Sha Ying...joking from head to toe...she was almost blind from tears...she was still staring at the ceiling in a daze...watching...watching...tearing...tearing...

"God..." A desperate voice whispered... Her life... has come to this...