Full marks

100, seeing your Qianyan...and Wanyu...I miss your sudden appearance...crazily let myself believe that we are already two worlds...

On December 1998, 12, the weather was extremely dry. Jiang Ling, a student of the 15th Class of Choreography Department of Beijing Dance Academy, was sitting in the rehearsal hall of the school, dazed for the program she was about to arrange. It is also time to show her ability.But she was at a loss for the ideas and ideas in her mind, the feeling that she couldn't start.

The teacher came over and sat beside her: "What? Haven't figured it out yet? Time is running out, this is a good opportunity, we must grasp it well."

"Teacher, this topic is different from the style I danced before, and I'm a bit confused, but I know that this kind of modern dance is very popular nowadays."

"There is a sister named Sha Ying who does this kind of dance very well. It's just a pity that she has quit the dance industry. But I have her husband's phone number. You may wish to contact her. If you have her help, you will definitely benefit. A lot."

When Sun Qian came back from get off work, Sha Ying was already cooking in the kitchen. Sun Qian took off his coat and went to the kitchen to help: "Are you tired today? I heard that your Children's Palace is holding a New Year's Day children's cultural show, and you have planned several programs."

"Where did you hear that?"

"A colleague started chatting today, saying that his nephew is the class you lead, and he has a very good impression of you. He wants to go to the Children's Palace every weekend."

"Ah……"

"Is it almost ready? Then I will take all these out."

"Ah."

The house with three bedrooms and two living rooms was bought by the parents in Beijing for their only son, Sun Qian.

At the dinner table, Sun Qian mentioned that a school girl wanted to find her.

"I know you may not want this matter, and I didn't agree to it. This is her phone number. If you want, you can contact her directly. Her name is Jiang Ling."

Sha Ying looked at the phone number, thought for a while and said, "...Let's talk about it later."

After two years, Sha Ying walked into this rehearsal hall again, her face had changed, but the hall was still facing this direction, and it was so easy to think of Lan Tian looking for her, standing at this door and looking at herself... Her heart was getting wet... Actually, she didn't even dare to come to this school... Afraid to see the place where her blue sky once appeared, especially afraid of the tree in front of the dormitory building...

A teacher stood up and walked towards her.

"Sha Ying?"

Sha Ying walked over: "Teacher Zhang?"

"Sha Ying? I lost a lot of weight, long time no see, how are you?"

"Mr. Zhang, I'm fine."

"After attending your wedding with Sun Qian two years ago, you disappeared after watching you dance "I Can't Forget You". I never asked you why you quit the dance troupe? Can you talk to the teacher? "

"There is no special reason, maybe, I'm tired. Heh... Teacher, thank you very much for your concern. Look, there are so many good seedlings, are you worried about more exciting ones?"

"Sha Ying, it's different. It's just different. In fact, I can't tell where the difference is. It's just a pity. By the way, you are here today to see Jiang Ling, right?"

"Yes, I really miss everyone, come back and have a look."

"Welcome, Jiang Ling just left, she will be here in a while. Hey, she is here."

"Oh?"

Jiang Ling recognized Sha Ying at a glance, and ran over: "Are you Sister Sha Ying?"

"Ah yes, you are Jiang Ling, right?"

"Yes, Sister Sha Ying, I know you. I've seen all your dance videos, which makes me ashamed."

"How do you say that? Your ability to pass the exam already shows that you are very capable."

Teacher Zhang put both hands on the shoulders of the two students: "Well, what Sha Ying said is right, you have to have confidence in yourself, now Sha Ying is willing to help you, don't worry, there must be no problem, then I will go to other things first , Sha Ying, if you are not busy very late, come to me, I really want to talk to you, okay? This is my phone number, we will keep in touch in the future. "

"Well, Mr. Zhang, you can go to work first."

"OK Bye Bye."

She rehearsed with Jiang Ling until evening. Before leaving, Jiang Ling asked Sha Ying to wait for her. She had something to give Sha Ying.

Sha Ying sat in the rehearsal hall and put on her clothes again. She didn't know what to give herself. Jiang Ling just wanted to thank her.

Five minutes later, Jiang Ling trotted over: "Sister Sha Ying, here. It may be because the dormitory I live in is the dormitory where you used to live, so this postcard was sent to me. It has been almost two years since I received it, because it is in the school window. I saw you in the video and watched all your dance videos. I admire you very much. Also, the postcard is very beautiful. I was very moved by the words on the postcard, so I kept it all the time. you."

"rustle:

Are you OK?Xiaotian...has come to England.

My heart is empty, terribly empty, sorry, I may not forget you.

The other hands... came so that I was unprepared, the words I used to say are still ringing in my ears...

That being the case!

Please rustle...be sure to be happy...please be happy.

A thousand words... and ten thousand words...

Xiao Tian

November 1997, 2"

Tears welled up, and she quickly turned her back to Jiang Ling.

"Sister Sha Ying? What's wrong with you?"

It's really hard to hide my heartache, and it's useless to turn my back. I reached out and grabbed my forehead... The handwriting is so familiar, and the words are so painful. Looking at the postmark, it has been so long since I crossed the ocean...It hurts so much Ying's internal organs...

The voice trembled like the wind: "Is this the only one? Is there anything else?"

"Just this one, nothing else, Sister Sha Ying, you..."

"Oh...it's okay, Jiang Ling, I'm going back."

"Sister Sha Ying, I still want... to treat you to dinner."

"No, no, it's okay, I really have to go, this postcard, thank you very much...I haven't lost it all the time...Thank you very much."

"Oh, Sister Sha Ying, but, don't be sad, can you?"

"Not sad, I'm fine, I'm leaving, goodbye."

Escaping from here in a hurry seems to find a place to cry...

She ran out of the rehearsal hall, but as if she couldn't get out of this school, her footsteps turned in another direction, and she went straight to the tree in front of the former dormitory building...

She watched the tree's ten fingers about to insert/into her face...

"Heaven... God... Qianyan... and Wanyu..."

Walking all the way to Sun Qian’s home, the sun has set, and there are many pedestrians and cars coming and going on the road, so lonely, people are too small, this love is too big, it can’t hold it...

The wind is very biting, and the heart seems numb. The last time I sent Lan Tian to the train seemed to be yesterday. The last time I saw Lan Tian was at that wedding. It was the most ruthless time she had ever grown up. She hated that this ruthlessness was applied to her, the only one she loved. Her tears had stopped and her heartbeat seemed to have stagnated. She just walked on the road without taking a bus or taking a taxi. , just walking in the direction of that home...

It seems that half the way has been gone, it seems that the twisted heart is always brewing the next wave of tears, everything with the blue sky has never been far away in her heart, her eyes are always red, and she has to hold back again and again, looking up Looking at the dark sky with no stars, the sky is so far away, but love is still so deep and so heavy... She lowered her head and looked at the rushing crowd. The neon lights on both sides of the road kept flickering. A date" bar attracted her, she opened the door and went in.

"Hi, what would you like?"

The bartender asked Sha Ying enthusiastically.

Sha Ying sat down on the bar counter: "Whatever."

"It seems that you are not in a good mood, let me give you a cup of my self-made appointment in this life."

"Okay. May I ask why you call this life a date?"

"It all depends on the mood, you must be here for the first time."

"It's the first time, I want to experience the feeling of having an appointment."

"I don't know if that agreement has come. If it has come, it seems that it must be a fruitless agreement."

"What if you don't come?"

"It's not that I didn't come. If I didn't come, you must be looking forward to it with eyes full of light, instead of feeling sad and thinking about it infinitely."

After listening to the bartender, Sha Ying drank the "A Date in This Life" in the glass... When it slipped into her throat and flowed into her stomach coldly, she remembered that Lan Tian drank that glass of wine at the wedding... She stared straight at the pain My own appearance... Those eyes that love Sha Ying so much that they forget me...

"Give me another drink."

"What's your name?"

"Heh...whatever."

"If you can't get over it, you will be the one who is sad. Alcohol can't relieve your sorrow, and it may be more worrying."

"You sell wine, why do you say such things?"

"You are not a party member, please don't drink too much."

"Isn't this a place to get drunk?"

"Did you come here to get drunk for that fruitless agreement? Have you ever wondered if it's worth it?"

"Drunk to death...it's all worth it."

Her heart was crying... bleeding... her heart was thinking how good it would be if she could die, but she couldn't take this step because she knew that her blue sky would never agree... If she died... her blue sky would definitely Come along...it can't be such a complete tragedy...she still loves Lantian so much...listen to Lantian...this is the way she loves Lantian...

"I have an appointment in this life...the appointment was so early...so wrong...so profound..." She looked at the wine glass and said to herself.

The second glass of spirits was swallowed again, and when the third glass was close to his lips, Zhang Xinzhe's "Love Like a Tide" was played in the bar...

She quickly swallowed the third cup, the fourth cup, the fifth cup, and the sixth cup... She suffered for herself, and even more for her blue sky. She didn't know how her blue sky spent those days, why she lived in this life To do such a thing to her, now, a postcard has been received for two years, and her blue sky is getting farther and farther away from her... Her blue sky... I would rather her Rusha is still in school...

Sha Ying was in a trance with tears streaming down her face. She paid the money and staggered out of the bar. A man came over and grabbed her shoulders, but subconsciously remembered the martial arts taught by Lan Tian and threw the man to the ground... He gave the man a hateful look, didn't say anything, and continued to walk out the door...

In this world, there seems to be only one place where you don't need to be wary, and that is Lan Tian's embrace... She knows that there are thousands of kinds of love, but she only loves Lan Tian... the person who always gets perfect marks in the test...

Her blue sky... always worried about her going out... her blue sky is always stingy with her face being stared naked/naked by the sky...she used to be proud of the possibly redundant guard, until now Today, it seems that the blue sky is still protecting her...just like before...but...her blue sky will not appear suddenly like in the past when she needs her very much...

Because Sun Qian couldn't wait for Sha Ying to come back, he started to look for the route from school all the way home. When he saw Sha Ying, Sha Ying was leaning against the wall and spitting crookedly...

"Aying!" Sun Qian was distressed and surprised to see his Sha Ying vomit in front of the bar, his Sha Ying would never come to these places.

"What happened? Ah Ying?"

"... Sun... former?"

Sun Qian supported her with both hands: "Yes, I am Sun Qian, Aying, sober up, what's wrong with you?"

"I...I...I'm fine...Sun Qian...you're here...Sun Qian..." When she hugged Sun Qian for the first time, when she was so fragile, it wasn't Lan Tian, ​​but Sun Qian.

Sun Qian carried Sha Ying home, laid her flat on Sha Ying's bed, went to the bathroom to wash a hot towel, wiped Sha Ying's face and hands, took off Sha Ying's shoes, socks, and coat, and covered Sha Ying with a quilt.

Then he sat on the chair next to Sha Ying's bed and looked at her.

When I saw Sha Ying for the first time, I was pushed by my classmates to say that we would go to see the beauties who were so soul-shattering in the school. With just one glance, Sun Qian, like many boys, fell in love thoroughly. It was just her in the first semester of freshman year. , is so unhappy, without a smile, very glamorous, lonely, she seems to have something on her mind, seems to see through the world, he can't get close, until one day I met on the train, I remember the moment when she was crying and took off the mask , Two lines of tears made her face even more charming and moving... He desperately let go of everything to pursue her, and left countless girls behind him, but even if he got married two years ago , he failed to make this girl fall in love with him.

He just sat on the chair and looked at Sha Ying, a few strands of messy hair scattered on Sha Ying's face, what happened to her Ah Ying today?After a few months of marriage, she finally stopped her tears, but what brought back her memories?It was a wrong thing to let her go to school. Sun Qian began to blame himself. He couldn't help reaching out to caress Sha Ying's face, brushing those strands of hair, and lightly stroking her eyebrows with his fingertips... But this Her face...he stared blankly again...the back of her hand covered her flawless face...

Sha Ying didn't move, didn't refuse, he couldn't help but came close and kissed her forehead lovingly, Sha Ying still didn't refuse, usually she was so close, Sha Ying had already dodged away, this made Sun Qian surprised and excited, aroused his depression desire for too long...

Sun Qian took off his coat, got into Sha Ying's bed, and began to kiss her face, neck, and lips...She didn't refuse, Sun Qian moved his hand to Sha Ying's chest excitedly, and the sound came from under his body. The signal made him unbelievable, but he was always worried that Sha Ying would resist, but Sha Ying didn't seem to resist and let him...

Is she starting to accept herself?Sun Qian took off all his tops and her underwear, kissed and touched the place that he had fantasized about for more than six years, and the desire/fire was on the verge of breaking out, Sun Qian's hand stretched out to Shaying... After taking off his and Sha Ying's last clothes, the already excited "he" entered Sha Ying's body, and he heard Sha Ying's incoherent voice... It aroused his confidence to continue...

Can't let go of this night, even if she didn't open her eyes and look at herself, at least she started to accept him, didn't she?

And being possessed like this without preparation and emotion, it hurts so much... She endured... Hold back... What pleasure is there... This kind of "fulfillment" made her force herself not to resist...Because, that's the case!She wants to achieve happiness as Lan Tian said, this is the path she chooses, and alcohol makes her "bravely" take this step...

A burst of heat seemed to stay in her body, and Sha Ying was covered in cold sweat to hold back her trembling...Close her eyes tightly...the sun on her body stopped for a moment, but he continued to kiss her at that moment...The man's body was completely seen through and... Possession

The beard disgusted her, as if reminding her that it was too different all the time, and the faint smell of tobacco was even more strange, which made her miss the lemon smell... She heard Sun Qian calling her Aying, and felt that Sun Qian called her Putting her hand on the back of his neck, she told herself to cooperate with him...

Feeling the penetration between her legs again, that little bit of submissive cooperation and Sun Qian's extreme caress still played a little role in reflecting her body, but it didn't take long for her to feel more and more painful. What paranoia!The violence continued, but Sha Ying couldn't bear it and moved her body, and "he" slipped out of her body.

Sun Qian stopped, did he hurt her, did she want to resist?Whether he shouldn't do such a thing to her when she is so depressed, he is afraid and anxious.

"Aying, I..."

Sha Ying didn't open her eyes, didn't speak, didn't blame him, she never said a word from the beginning to the end.

But for Sun Qian, not speaking was the greatest acquiescence given to him. He smiled flattered, and looked at this wife whom he had never touched after being married for two years lovingly. He couldn't resist this face and this body.

When he kissed Sha Ying again, he was also very flustered, always afraid that she would not allow it again.However, to his surprise, Sha Ying still did not resist, his ambition resurfaced again, kissing Sha Ying as if he wanted to get back everything he owed over the past two years...