Kaka is a cat?

What kind of existence is Caris Howard to Echizen Ryoma?

Echizen Ryoma said he didn't know either.

It's just that since I can remember, that person seems to be by my side all the time, always likes to be in a daze, but also likes to pretend to be like a little adult, it's okay to be careless, but he always doesn't admit it, even if it's near his home, he can Lost, and then when I called him, I seemed so wronged that I was about to cry.

He actually hates idiots the most, because they are troublesome.But for his childhood sweetheart, he just felt helpless. Every time he found her, this guy rolled over with tears in his eyes and begged to be touched, just like Karubin's way of currying favor with him when he did something wrong.

Not annoying.

In fact, he can completely ignore her, but habit is such a wonderful thing, every time he resigned to his fate and kept calling her "idiot", and finally took her home, she followed him step by step with a smile on her face , Such time almost filled their childhood and even their youth life.

Since when did it change?

Kaka loved to say "I like you" to him for a while. At first, he was surprised, but there was a little joy in his heart, and then his ears seemed to be burning, and he shyly pushed the brim of his hat to try to cover himself. expression, and then pretended to respond casually, "Yes."

As time goes by, looking at her firm and persistent eyes, I can't help but want to dodge, and gradually I feel overwhelmed. He doesn't know what kind of emotion "like" is, is it like those in school? Girls would scream when they saw him, which was disgusting and frivolous, but he was sure that Kaka was different from others, but he couldn't tell what the difference was.

With the passage of time, this kind of entangled emotion intensified. It was obviously an irritability that made people unable to calm down, but it felt so warm in my heart that I couldn't refuse it.

When he started learning tennis from the first day, he had a big dream, that is to surpass that stinky old man. Later, he got to know the minister and seniors, and after so many joyful and exciting matches, he felt that tennis was really for him. The favorite thing he pursued all his life is his living goal and belief. Moreover, with the improvement of technology and the growing reputation in the online industry, he began to feel that there are quite a few powerful guys. After defeating one, there are even more It is so powerful that he needs to surpass it.

This feeling of conquest makes him feel fulfilled. He practiced lifelessly every day, and sometimes he felt frustrated because he couldn't beat his opponent, but Kaka would always watch him silently and trustingly, and prepare all the trivial things for him. It made him feel very uncomfortable, and felt that the time seemed to be still like this was very comfortable, but sometimes he would feel uneasy and vaguely guilty when he looked at her expectantly looking at him. Go out a little, and then be overwhelmed by the stronger fighting spirit.

When he was 19 years old, the old man and his mother urged him to get married and start a family. He felt very reluctant and angry that he was forced by them and his ideas were not adopted.In his understanding, marriage is to be bound, it is a strange field that he does not understand at all, and there is an extra responsibility in it, which means trouble.His mind is full of tennis now, and he just wants to overtake the opponents who are blocking him one by one, and keep getting stronger and stronger, but there will be one more person in his future life, just like those who are constantly entangled with him. Emotions also made him irritable and repulsive.

Later, after knowing that the person who was going to be his wife was Kaka, the first reaction was not to refuse, but to take it for granted, as if no one could stand in this position except her.The people in the family saw that his reaction was no longer so violent, so they settled the marriage.

"Hey, Ryoma Ryoma, how should we arrange our home in the future? If we go on our honeymoon, we should go to France to be more romantic. Don't frown please. I know you are a little bit reluctant now, but I I will promise to be a good wife and won't cause you any trouble, so why don't you just smile?"

Obviously I want to tell the other party clearly that I only want to pursue my dream and don't want to be distracted, but seeing the little girl talking about the marriage so happily and in high spirits, I am so uneasy about his unhappiness, and I am careful to please him, I am about to cry I can't say those hurtful words of refusal.

In fact, maybe marriage is not a bad thing?After all, the person who lives with him is Kaka, but they just changed their identities. Besides, they have lived together since they were 12 years old, and there will not be much change in the future. Since this incident makes her If you are happy, so what if you let her go?

Senior Taocheng and the others booed and urged him to buy a ring. He actually didn't know what it meant to wear a ring on his ring finger, but seeing her smile so happily at the wedding, he also unconsciously paid attention to such things. Woke up.He can't wear it during normal competitions. He is afraid that he will lose it when he swings the racket, so he took a rope and hung it around his neck. He only put it on again when he went home because he was afraid of Kaka. Uneasy, he remembered that Kaka had always had a heart attack.

In fact, he felt that such a mother-in-law was so cautious and clumsy that he was really stupid, and he was not like him at all.Why do you do this?He seems to remember that when he graduated from junior high school, there were many blushing girls who came to ask him for the second button on his uniform. Twisting to the side, the mouth pouted.

He thought it was funny, and when he finally put the button on her desk indifferently, the surprise on her face almost overflowed.

He didn't see the button for a long time afterwards, and he wondered, wasn't this guy very happy to cherish it at that time?

Then when he asked her so curiously, the little girl shyly pulled out the button that had become a pendant from her neck, "Well, the second button on the uniform is the closest to the heart, I wear it Get up, isn't it closer to your heart?"

He clearly remembered the heat on his face and the beating sound of his heart.Then when I thought about myself doing this now, I felt so hypocritical, I was so entangled that I wanted to scratch the wall, so I should go out and play a few games.

After getting married, not much has changed. His mother always looked at him hesitantly, and the old man would say, "Be nicer to the little girl, you nasty brat." Because there are many competitions throughout the year, he hardly has Too much time at home, every time he looks at Kaka, who has become his wife, and sees her cheerfully doing housework for him, washing hands and making soup, he always feels at a loss, his throat seems to be blocked, and the hints from his parents make him He felt as if he had done something wrong, but he didn't know what it was.

As time went by, this feeling became stronger and stronger, and it made him feel full of pressure, as if facing Kaka, whatever he did was wrong. This kind of thinking made him want to stay on the court more and more. It is a hearty place, and no one will force him to do anything.

After his parents passed away in an air crash, he didn't want to go home even more. The old house was full of memories of his youth. Compared with the reality, it made him feel painful and depressed.Every time after he defeated his opponent, some uneasiness and a little guilt flooded up. In fact, he also felt that it was not good to leave Kaka alone in the old house like this. Sometimes he also mentioned that he wanted her She came to her, but she always smiled as if she didn't care, and then she still arranged the old house clean and bright, just like when the old man and the others were still there.Sometimes when he looked at Kaka's busy appearance, he felt as if his heart was being soaked in warm hot water, and his whole body was warmed up. Such a warm and quiet feeling made him feel that it was very good, maybe life could be changed. a method?

In fact, Kaka didn't force him to do anything, but he wanted to give her something, which was something he never figured out in his whole life.When he felt uneasy, there would always be another voice in his heart saying, it's okay, these things can be discussed slowly, there is still time, Kaka will always be there waiting for him to go home.Then he can still challenge those opponents, but work harder, as if he has a new goal and motivation.

In fact, the professional Internet world is not as simple and happy as chasing dreams when he was young, but there are people he wants to defeat here.As his reputation became more and more famous, there were more and more boring reports. Sometimes he would feel uneasy, but every time he went home and looked at Kaka’s peaceful face, he felt that he was really bothering others. The person who knows him best, she always believes in him like that, so explaining is superfluous.

He once accepted an interview, and the host asked him, "Mr. Echizen has already achieved such impressive results at a young age. Is there a strong woman in the family supporting you? May I ask if you have a family yet?"

He was just in a daze for a moment, because Kaka's face was what he thought of for a moment, but he couldn't affirm her existence in front of the media, even though it made him very uncomfortable.Kaka suffers from heart disease, she doesn't even know it, but he deeply understands how scary and powerful these reporters are, and he doesn't want to expose their only peaceful life to the public. There is no benefit at all, it will only irritate her.

So he said, "No." Immediately, he felt deeply uneasy, as if he had done something wrong, and then he comforted himself, maybe he was a little bit stuck. Don't go back and see her?

He always felt that Kaka seemed to have changed, even though she still prepared everything for him and waited for him quietly at home as usual, but he rarely saw a smile on her face, which made him feel irritable and somewhat He also wanted to ask her what was wrong, but his arrogant self-esteem just couldn't be compromised, and then he felt that he seemed to be getting farther and farther away from Kaka, so he was so at a loss that he wanted to scratch the wall.

Then that night he went out to a party with his senior whom he hadn't seen for a long time and drank too much.Back home, he seemed to be holding Kaka under him in the twilight, and many turbulent waves of strange emotions rushed in. He just wanted to get closer to her, closer, and finally, he seemed to get something quite The precious thing, the taste of this thing is so wonderful, it is a completely different kind of happiness that he can't feel in the world of tennis.

The next morning, when he saw Kaka and himself naked, he was stiff and at a loss for a moment, and then his face turned red like blood.He put on his clothes almost in embarrassment and fled the house.

He felt embarrassed, which made him feel even more unable to face Kaka.Sure enough, let each other calm down for a while, just as the Australian Open is coming soon, he needs to calm down and meet the final challenge.

As a result, two months later, Kaka called him and told him that he was pregnant.

He felt as if he had heard it wrong, and then great joy surged through him.

But then, it was as if a pot of cold water poured down, and he knew clearly that this child could not be had.

Kaka has congenital heart disease, this is what her mother secretly told him when she was in a coma in the hospital after losing everything.

He has been tricking her into taking a vitamin, but in fact the bottle is filled with healing medicine.Originally, I thought that the operation could be performed after she was recuperated, but at this time, she had a child.

He opened his mouth with difficulty, but found that he couldn't say anything.Kaka's happiness on the other end of the phone can be conveyed to him through the microphone. She is looking forward to this child so much, and he hasn't heard her energetic voice for a long time. He really doesn't want to disappoint her anymore.

So he luckily thought, maybe, maybe this kid can stay?

Once this thought arises, it cannot be stopped.He thought optimistically that when he won the Australian Open, he would have won the Grand Slam, and there would be no opponent worthy of his challenge. Maybe he could retire early and stay at home like the old man did at that time to train the kid into a next opponent?

What would that kid look like?Will he have a pair of arrogant cat eyes like him?In fact, he expects him to look like Kaka. If he looks like him when he was young, he will definitely make him angry like that old man, but if he is as crazy as Kaka, he will be in trouble.

Haha, thinking of this, he unconsciously smirked, um, Echizen, what should I call Echizen?

Hey, he remembered that there seemed to be a lot of rackets he used when he was a child, but children still like new ones. He remembered that Kebin seemed to open a tennis shop after he retired, so he quickly found the phone and dialed go out.

"...Echizen Ryoma, you bastard, it's three o'clock in the morning!"

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He once calculated that after the game, there are still about 20 days before Kaka's due date, and he can accompany her quietly waiting for the arrival of the stinky kid.Although there was inexplicable anxiety and guilt in his heart, as long as he thought of defeating this opponent, he would be able to accompany her well, and he forcibly suppressed such thoughts.

He asked Ryuzaki to take care of Kaka for him. He vaguely knew that she thought about him carefully, but when he thought that she was Kaka's best friend, he no longer worried about anything.He repeatedly emphasized to Ryuzaki that Kaka should be supervised to take the medicine on time, and if there was anything wrong, he would be notified immediately.Then, with endless fighting spirit, he walked towards his battlefield.

Sometimes in the middle of the night he would think about what Kaka has become, the belly must be big already, can the stinky brat move, and then he would giggle haha, the athletes in the same room as him thought he was crazy , and then under the anger of the other party, he would happily say, "Ah, you know what, I'm going to be a father soon!"

After the final was over, facing the live camera, he didn't feel any joy. He just felt bewildered. He didn't know why. In the moment just now, his heart seemed to be inexplicably empty, as if he had lost something, which was quite precious. same thing.

Call home, just idle busy tone.He felt inexplicable fear.Then he dialed Kaka's mobile phone, and it was Ryuzaki's crying voice.

As if he realized something, he ran towards the airport like crazy.

When they arrived at the hospital, there was a circle of people who looked like bodyguards around the ward. Lilith, who had been missing for many years, sat down on the floor of the ward and cried heart-rendingly.

He suddenly felt fear, as if his heart had been thrown into an extremely cold ice cellar, and he felt a shiver from his toes.

Then he pushed open the door recklessly, and walked forward, wanting to get a little closer, a little closer, so that he would know that this was just an absurd and bizarre nightmare, and Kaka was still waiting at home. What about him?

Someone frantically rushed forward, tore him and beat him, "Are you satisfied with this! Are you satisfied!" There were also some people screaming in surprise.

And he just moved forward regardless of everything, forward, he wanted to see clearly, don't stop him, okay, don't be like this, there is no need to cry, the one lying there is not Kaka at all!

Someone beside him choked up and said, "Mr. Longma, Lisi Sang gave birth to a boy."

Then he finally saw clearly the two bodies, one large and one small covered by the white cloth, and he collapsed to the ground, his body trembling like chaff, but his trembling hands never had the courage to lift it to see the face below.

"Don't dare to watch it, I just want you to remember it! Show me!" Someone screamed hysterically, tearing him forward.

The moment he saw it clearly, his first reaction was that Kaka really doesn't know how to take care of himself. She's lost weight these days, ahhh brat, she looks very similar to him in terms of facial features, and doesn't look like his mother at all.

Then my heart went crazy and hurt, like being cut alive by a knife, my brain was roaring, and I wanted to scream but found that there was no sound in my throat.

He wants to laugh, he wants to laugh like crazy, are you kidding me?Definitely kidding, right?Kaka her, how could she leave?No matter what he does, she will not be angry, she will always stay where she is and wait for him, because it is Kaka.

Yeah?Is not it?

He felt out of breath, this dream was too real, he kept beating himself hard but couldn't wake up, he had to wake up quickly, Kaka was still waiting for him to come home, their children were still waiting for him Going home, he wants to tell them, look, this is the Australian Open trophy, I can be with you every day from now on, everything is fine, isn't it?

"Hey! Calm down! Damn, he's so excited."

"Stun him, quick!"

Then, before he fell into darkness, he thought, this is really just a dream.

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He is still the same as before, crazily practicing and competing, and the seniors always look at him with worried eyes, hesitating to speak.In fact, he really wanted to smile and tell them not to worry about him, but the corner of his mouth twitched, and he found this movement quite difficult.

No matter how late he is now, he will insist on going home, facing the empty house, shouting loudly, "I'm back." Then it seems to hear that person say "Welcome back" with a gentle expression.

For the first time, he knew that tennis is such a good thing, it can make people feel that they are alive and have things to do in this world. After every game, he faces the camera with deep eyes, always Looking for something, and then proudly said, "Ne, did you see, I won again." It was as if the person was still watching in front of the TV, and then happily said "Ryoma is awesome".

He would often dream of her, not when she was pale and emaciated at the end, but at the very beginning, when she stood in the sun and firmly said "I like you", the corners of her lips raised brightly Smile, and my own roaring heartbeat at that time.

Then she sat on the edge of the bed, unable to fall asleep any more, and shed tears in a daze.

He is always thinking about something, this idea is bizarre and unrealistic, but it can support him to live well.

If there is a next time, he will definitely respond to her with a gentle voice that he has never tried before when she takes the trouble to say "I like you" over and over again.

If there is a next time, he will also try his best to make her happy as she chased him so enthusiastically, and become the person who will smile unconsciously every time he recalls it.

If there is a next time, he wants to cherish her well and sort out what these intense, tangled, sour, and painful emotions are.

If there is a next time.

The third volume