wake up from dream

Refers to marriage, waiting to be married, these are all the topics that Ziqing has only heard for a few days, she no longer has any thoughts about what others say, Kangxi sent Yanluo to Qingyuan, naturally Yanluo's identity is still a secret, So she didn't publicize it, and Ziqing didn't bother to hear about the marriage, so she only played with Yanluo all the time, and it's just that she didn't see her these days. She didn't expect Yanluo to be so popular.While holding Yanluo, Ziqing heard Mammy say: "Our little Gege is really smart, he can already call Ama now, one day the emperor came to see Gege, Gege suddenly called Ama, to coax her." It makes the emperor laugh out loud!" The one who said this was the nanny who used to be Yanluo's nanny, and she was also taking care of Yanluo during this time.

"Really? Will you be called Ama so soon?" Ziqing was very happy when she heard that, and thought to herself, if Yanluo is so cute and smart, Princess Heshuo would be very pleased if she knew about it, and she is actually here. After seeing Kangxi, this sentence Ama blurted out like this!

"Gege is also one year old! The princess has just become a mother for the first time, so it's probably not quite..." The nanny stopped talking, perhaps because she felt that it was out of order to say that Roujia was a mother now, but the words had already come out After she finished her mouth, she couldn't take it back, so she panicked and said: "Princess, the servant has said something wrong, I hope the princess will punish you!" Although the words were high-sounding, but I was naturally scared and nervous in my heart.

"Forget it, as long as you don't make the same mistake again next time, you must never mention this matter again in the future." Zi Qing said.Originally, Zi Qing didn't think too much about it, but this nanny suddenly admitted her mistake and realized that she now has a different identity.

"Yes, thank you Princess for not blaming me."

During the conversation, Yanluo was tired from playing and fell asleep, so Ziqing handed Yanluo to the mother and asked her to take Yanluo back to her room.

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"Knock, knock..." There was a knock on the door.

Ziqing has gotten used to being notified of the comings and goings of servants outside these few days, but today is so strange, why no one notified, and someone knocked on the door?

"It's me, Qing'er." When Zi Qing heard this voice that she hadn't heard for a long time, she was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to react.After being dazed for a while, he hurried to open the door.

"Rong Ruo..." Before he could see the man in front of him clearly, he fell into a warm embrace.

"Qing'er, why is this happening?" Rong Ruo hugged Zi Qing tightly, her tone full of unbearable pain.

"I'm sorry, we..." was just a sentence of "We have no future...", Zi Qing couldn't say it out, choked up, this was the ending she knew a long time ago, she just had a glimmer of hope in her heart, thinking it wouldn't happen, but still happened...

"No, you shouldn't say sorry to me, it's me! I failed..." Rong Ruo was annoyed, but he was equally helpless. This was the order of the emperor, the order of the empress dowager, he What can a little guard do?he can't do anything...

"No, it's not your fault, it's my fault, I clearly... know it..." Zi Qing couldn't cry anymore, the grievance and helplessness of the past few days completely collapsed the moment she saw Rong Ruo.

"Qing'er, let's go ask the Empress Dowager for a marriage order, the Empress Dowager..." Rong Ruo said to Zi Qing.

"No, it's useless. The Empress Dowager gave the marriage this time. Even the emperor didn't say anything. We..." Zi Qing shook her head and said, is this a resignation to fate?But, how could Xia Ziqing be a person who would bow to fate?

"Empress Dowager, yes, I know, but maybe we can..."

"No, I can't bet your future and your life on our future." Because Zi Qing understands that it is a future without a future, and that there is no ending for Rong Ruo.

"Why? Don't you want to be with me? You said that you only consider Geng Juzhong as a friend, are you willing to marry him?" Rong Ruo grabbed Ziqing's shoulder, not wanting Ziqing to give up just like that.

"No, Geng Juzhong and I are just good friends, but Rong Ruo, do you still remember what I said, I know something that you don't know?"

"You..." Rong Ruo said puzzled.

"I...we can't be together, we have no future..." Ziqing cried and said this sentence, maybe she couldn't fully accept this statement in her heart, but now she must persuade Rongruo, and she can't let Rongruo take risks .

"Why? Why do you say that? Didn't we agree on the medicine and wait for the emperor to open his knot? Now that the emperor is willing to let you go, why not come with me?"

"No, just no, I can't explain it all, sorry."

"I don't want to hear you say sorry, I want to hear why? Why do you always say we have no future?" Rong Ruo looked directly at Zi Qing, but Zi Qing didn't dare to look back at him in the same way. It's a strange thing, who would believe it?So what if Rong Ruo believed it?The fact is, nothing can change!

"Rong Ruo, let's separate! You will meet a woman you love very much. From now on, forget about me and Xia Ziqing, and act as if I never appeared before."

"No, what are you doing? Are you just throwing in the towel? I don't want to!" Rong Ruo was a little annoyed, and sat by the side waiting for Ziqing to change her mind.

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Ziqing didn't say anything anymore, because it would be futile to say anything, but the tears couldn't stop, and she didn't want to cry out, so she just bit her lower lip tightly.Seeing this, Rong Ruo didn't force Zi Qing anymore.

"Qing'er, don't just give up like this, okay? You finally mustered up the courage to be with me. It's only been a few days, are we going to separate again?"

"I...do we still have a chance? It's too difficult, Rong Ruo." Maybe only Zi Qing knows how difficult it is, she already knows who Rong Ruo's wife is, and she already knows that Rong Ruo will do it again. Whoever you meet, you already know who Rong Ruo will fall in love with, and who you will spend your whole life mourning for, so how can you expect anything else?

"Rong Ruo, let's separate. This is good for you, me, and everyone." Since there is no result, why do you still hold on tightly and not let go?

"Do you have to say something like that? We're okay, we still have..."

"You came today..." Ziqing interrupted Rong Ruo loudly, "I'm very happy because...under such circumstances, you still risked to visit me...but I have to say goodbye to you..." Ziqing thought that since there is no future, she should not go on like this now, and separate quickly before they get too involved, and maybe they can still be friends in the future, otherwise when it really comes time to hurt each other, maybe even friends I don't have to do it either...,