In the next life, remember that I am crazy for you

更新时间2013-2-1223:07:00字数：2229

When he said this, I couldn't help laughing, but the smile was very bitter.Overwhelmed?What about me?Where does it leave me?I was silent for a long time, facing him, I found that I felt very powerless, and I had lost the strength to say anything more to him.

A few years, a few years, between me and him, we have talked about everything, but it still fell into such a situation, even if I want to maintain this unnecessary 'relationship', at this time, I also feel tired.All along, I endured him for so long, and the resentment in my heart is not without, but I was helplessly suppressed by reality.

I have nothing to rely on, so I can only bear it, but now I can't bear it anymore.

And now, I don't know if it's because of the appearance of Zi Ru.I started not wanting to talk to him anymore, he made me miserable, why should I talk to him?

As if he saw that I didn't want to talk to him, he sighed and sat beside me with a helpless voice: "Ruo Lin, you also know that you don't have a job now, and I not only have to support you, but also take care of you. You don’t know that my mother is in poor health. My family has always opposed me being with you, but I didn’t listen. My monthly salary is only four or five thousand. I treat my mother’s illness and support my family and You and I are under a lot of pressure."

Hearing this, I pursed my lips tightly and said nothing.Who asked me to choose between work and love?You are so tired now, do you mean I have nothing to do?

Hehe, I don't know why I think I'm so stupid that I would give up my bright career future for such a man. If I dumped him back then, my future would be bright, but what about now?Just because of his words, if you love me, follow me, it made me into what I am now.

I took a deep breath, and still chose to remain silent. Now, I have nothing to say, nothing to do, and I don't even bother to think of words to answer.For this man, I'm almost giving up. He never thinks about himself, never about me.

Yes, it's not easy for him to work, what about me?When I just had a successful career, who personally pulled me down the abyss?Are you ashamed to say I have nothing to do now?Ha, who said they would take care of me?Tell me not to do anything, just stay at home?

It turns out that such a man is like most men, cheating the dead is not worth the life!How many good men are there in this world now?Almost extinct, right?I know that if a man is rated well, this one beside me will definitely not be on the list.

Involuntarily, I thought of Ziru again, the most gentle and perfect man that ever appeared in my life, but he... can only be the existence I stare at from afar.

"Ruo Lin, kill the child, we don't have the ability to support the child now, do you understand?" After a long silence, he seemed to have made some decision, and what he said made me completely stop thinking about him.

I bit my lower lip tightly, lowered my head and turned my back to him, otherwise he would see my expression.

My heart was sour, I still couldn't hold back the tears after all, the warm tears ran across my cheeks, and then it was cold.

I have always been unwilling to admit that he never loved me, but now I have to admit that he really never loved me. All he wants is that I am good-looking, and I will not lose face when I go out; all he wants is me. I have no second thoughts about him; what he wants is that I can only live in his shadow for the rest of my life.

He got up and put down a stack of banknotes on the table, his voice was a little faint: "Here is 3000 yuan, you go and kill the child, and then go to find a job, I really can't hold on, if you love me , I hope you can understand my difficulties." After finishing speaking, he turned around and went out without closing the door.

I heard his footsteps gradually drifting away, and finally I smiled bitterly... If you love me, I hope you can understand my difficulties.

How many times has he said this to me?I don't remember it anymore, but there is no doubt that he has said this sentence to me countless times. At this moment, my heart is cold. His last words broke the possibility of me giving him another chance, and also broke I might turn back.

I got up and looked at the stack of money on the table, feeling nothing but pain in my heart.I have lived in such misery and pain for several years, he is right, it is time for me to find a job.

Looking at the banknotes on the table coldly, I smiled, well, I have nothing anyway, and I don't care about losing anything.I took a look at this small room where I lived for several years, and let out a long breath, wanting to let out all the depression in my heart.

Picking up the money on the table, I cleaned up the room and packed my luggage.I am no longer the weak little girl who can only cry. Now I am a woman who has experienced pain and torture.

There is no room for me here, really no room for me.

His parents never liked me, even slandered me and poured a lot of dirty water on me.Who knows, you don't like me, in fact, I don't like you either.

I have always been a very proud person, but for this man, I actually threw away my arrogance, my integrity, and all my pride.I have suffered the consequences of my own fate, but I... have no regrets.At least these years have made me understand that this society is very realistic, without money, you are nothing!

Without money, you are nothing!

I don't know exactly when I came up with this idea, but I believe it has something to do with Ziru.I was pregnant once, and that time, he accompanied me, and I heard the doctor's sarcastic remarks and ridicule a lot.However, when Ziru took me there, I had never heard of it. The hospital received the best treatment, the best ward, and even daily life was taken care of by Ziru himself, even day and night. take care of me.

I have to admit that even though I was hospitalized during the days when Ziru was by my side, those were the happiest days I had in the past few years.

After I packed my things, I left the place where I lived for several years with my own few clothes and money.I should bid farewell to this moth-like life of eating and waiting to die. If this continues, I will definitely die!

I hailed a taxi and went directly to the train station, bought a train ticket to City A, and then went to another city overnight.But at this time, I didn’t know that city A was the city where Ziru was located. It’s ridiculous to say that I’ve known Ziru for nearly a year, but I didn’t know where he lived, and all I knew was his name and his phone.

When I came to this unaccompanied city A, I didn't know what the first thing I would do was. I only had more than 2000 yuan, but what can more than 2000 yuan do in this realistic society?

No matter how long I hesitated, I still had to find a small hotel to live in, and then went to work overnight.I put my luggage into the hotel and came out with my bag. I stood at the door thinking for a long time, and finally I only thought of being a waiter.Smile bitterly, with my current ability, I can only be a waiter?