In the next life, remember that I am crazy for you

更新时间2013-2-122:09:04字数：2854

I remember that time when I was frustrated, I cried silently and repeatedly at night alone, no one comforted me, no one cared, and no one knew.And I met you when I was online, that gentle man who I thought was just passing by...

You told me a lot that day, and I also said a lot to you. I don’t know which words of mine moved you. You told me that as long as I am willing to leave him, you will take care of me for the rest of my life and never leave him...

At that time, I was facing the computer, looking at that sentence, and laughed silently. I don’t know whether to laugh at you for being naive, or for laughing at me for being stupid.In this 21st century, there are as many men who can say that sentence on the Internet as dust, pervasive.

And if I met you a few years earlier, and I was the innocent little girl when I first entered the society, maybe I would have believed you seventy percent, but now that I am suffering from love and hatred, I refuse to trust you even half of it. …

Once again, I quarreled with him, and you advised me to leave him. The long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain. After leaving him, I will be much better than now, and again you said that sentence, if I am willing to leave him, you will take care of me. In my whole life, I have never listened to you. It can even be said that I have no reason to trust any man...

After that quarrel, I fell into a cold war with him. I had no job, no friends, and I was away from home. I could only rely on him to not starve to death. At that moment, I suddenly understood that the reason he asked me to quit my job was because he wanted to After cutting off my wings, I can only rely on him pitifully, and cannot spread my wings and fly away from him again.

At that moment, I suddenly hated him so much, so I stubbornly refused to bow my head and admit my mistake, because it wasn't me who was wrong!But fate made people, I unexpectedly had his child, and I, who planned to never bow my head, suddenly became confused. I sent him a text message to tell him, but he didn't reply, and even turned off the phone when I called. It's time.

I suddenly felt so helpless, so scared, and so powerless.

After thinking about it over and over again, the only person I can find and ask for help is you...

When my parents didn't agree with me being with him, I had a falling out with my family, but now, I don't have the face to go to them.

I looked at your number stored in my phone, and I have been hesitating. You gave me the number before, hoping that I would ask you for help when I was in trouble, but I have never called this number...

After hesitating for a long time, I still got through your call helplessly, because apart from you, I couldn't find another person who could help me.

The phone was connected, and that was the first time I heard your voice, it was so gentle and pleasant to hear, that the moment I heard your voice, my uneasy heart calmed down.

"Hi, hello, may I ask if you are..."

"I'm Ruolin."

"Ruo Lin? What's the matter? If I remember correctly, this is the first time you called me." There was a little bit of unconcealable joy in your voice, which made me believe for a moment, maybe You really like me.

But I was afraid that if I told you, you would ignore me again... Even I didn't realize that I was already afraid of losing you...

"Ruo Lin, why don't you talk? Something must have happened to me, right? It's okay, just tell me, I will help you if I can." You said so swearingly, which made me want to rely on you even more.

Keeping my mouth shut, I still had to tell the truth.

"Ziru, I...I'm pregnant..."

"What did you say?" There was a bit of surprise in your voice. At this moment, my heart is in a mess, but I have said everything, no matter what, I have to finish it...

"I'm pregnant with his child, Ziru, I sent him a message to tell him, but he turned off the phone. I'm scared, I don't want this child, but I..." I dare not tell Ziru that I don't have the money to kill the child …

Ziru was silent, I was suddenly afraid that my worry would come true, but Ziru surprised me.

"Tell me the address of where you live now, and then stay at home and don't go anywhere, don't be afraid, I will always be by your side." This is Zi Ru's answer, I thought he would call me a bitch, and then hung up the phone Never contacted me again, but he didn't, he just told me not to be afraid.

I suddenly wanted to cry, I don't understand why Ziru treats me so well...

I told Ziru where I live, and it took Ziru less than a day to find me. I was surprised that Ziru is a handsome man. I didn’t even know that Ziru was actually a rich second generation Brother son.I don't know how much money the family has, but I recognize the car he drives. It is a Porsche cabriolet, which can only be bought for at least 100 million.I never knew that his family background is so good, so good that I can't match it...Zi Ru is a very good man, this is a fact I have to admit.He spent money to abort my child and took care of me in the hospital for a whole month. He refused to let me leave the hospital, saying that abortion is very bad for my health, and if I don’t rest and recuperate well, the root cause of the disease will remain in the future.

I remember that when I heard him finish that sentence, all my excuses and reasons were choked in my throat, and I couldn't say a word.

He was so gentle, so gentle that I couldn't even say a word of rejection.

I don't know if it's because I did too many bad things in my previous life. Something happened to Ziru's family company, and he had to go back the day I was discharged from the hospital.He told me to go with him and not stay here anymore, he would take care of me.

I was facing Ziru at that time, and I really wanted to agree to him. To be honest, he took good care of me for a month, and it was impossible for me not to be moved.But I can't promise him, he and I are people from two worlds, when he drove a Porsche sports car to pick me up that day, I instantly understood that Ziru and I can't be together in this life... I I still rejected Ziru's repeated invitations. I understand that I can't do it with him. If it's really for his own good, I'd better stop making trouble for him.

He has his career, and from now on the family will arrange for him a well-matched young lady, but what am I?Not to mention a broken flower and a broken willow, or a broken shoe that has been played with by others, which can make Ziru not dislike it. I don't even know how many lifetimes I have been blessed.I still went back to the small room of more than ten square meters, which I shared with others. Facing the white wall, the computer, and the bed, I suddenly felt very sick and wanted to vomit.

Because every inch of this place, I have stayed with that man, this place has the smell of that man, after staying with Ziru for a month, I am inexplicably disgusted with other men, even if it is The same is true of the man who used to sleep with me.I began to miss Ziru a little bit, he is handsome, gold-winning, gentle and considerate, any woman should not be able to resist his charm.

Ziru is such a perfect person. He has a successful career, a very good family background, and a very nice person. I never thought that there would be such a perfect man as Ziru in this world, but fate made me meet such a man. People, and I have a relationship.If a few years ago, the first man I met was not him, but Ziru, I don't think I would be as inferior as I am now, with only bitterness in my heart, eyes and mouth... I stayed at home for a few days, and the room The door was opened suddenly, and a man entered.The appearance is not very good, but this face is very familiar to me, if it is not him, who is it?

He entered the door with a tired face. When he saw me, there was a moment of astonishment on his face, and the next second he came back to his senses. When he spoke, his tone was a little surprised: "Where have you been these days?"

As soon as I heard this sentence, I suddenly realized that he has been back, otherwise how would he know that I am not here during this time?

I really want to sneer, but I don't think I can find any expression on my face now.Facing this man now, I even forgot how to smile.I was silent for a long time before I opened my mouth. The moment the voice came out, I was shocked to find that my voice was a little hoarse because I had been at home for a few days and was buried in the computer and hadn't spoken. ?”

I don't know why my voice is so indifferent, as if... my heart is very cold, a piece of ice.

"I know you blame me. You suddenly became pregnant. I was also at a loss. I didn't know what to do. Baby, are you angry?" His voice was surprisingly gentle, but he couldn't move me anymore.

Because I know that only when I ignore him, will he turn around and show courteousness. This man is such a cheap man.

When I was looking for him, he thought I was annoying, and I stopped looking for him and ignored him, but he was like a ball of cowhide plaster, which couldn't be shaken off no matter how hard I tried.

It was only at this time that I suddenly remembered that I was too innocent back then, deceived by him, and then forcibly defiled by him.

At that time, I was dead-headed, thinking that if I gave him my body, I could only be with him forever, so I followed him wholeheartedly. No matter how bad he treated me, I never thought of leaving, even when he gently said When I was afraid that I would leave him one day, I still swore to make the oath that would make me irrecoverable.

I said, as long as you don't say breakup, I won't say breakup.