paranoid dependence

Gu Zhi is a liar, he said 'tell me if it hurts', but when Shen Nian really hurt, he came over to coax him and told him to bear it.

Shen Nian endured once thinking it was over but didn't want to have a second and third time. The first time was tolerable because the excitement was too much and it was over before it even started, but Gu Zhi didn't even bother to leave. A new round of battle started again, this time Shen Nian was defeated and defeated, and even the qualification to surrender was robbed.

"You're a liar!" When the fighting subsided, Shen Nian squeezed Gu Zhi's chin to force him to look at him, squinting his eyes and accusing him of breaking his word, but he didn't have much strength in his hands. It has been exhausted in several rounds of battles.

Gu looked at him obsessively, Shen Nian probably didn't know that he was holding on to his aura like this, but the corners of his eyes were red with lingering love looking at him, it was very easy for people to think about it for the fourth time regardless, Gu Zhi endured and endured before he suppressed it, kissed his sweaty hair, and begged for mercy:

"I was wrong, don't be angry."

Shen Nian ignored him, he was really a little scared by his posture just now, and decided to teach him a lesson, otherwise he might not know how to make progress in the future.

Gu Zhi noticed that Shen Nian was losing his temper, and wanted to coax him again, but when he lowered his head, he found that he was so tired that he fell asleep. Gu Zhi raised his hand to gently stroke the sweaty hair on his forehead, and couldn't hold back the kiss again. Kissing him, Shen Nian didn't sleep too soundly, Gu Zhi's hair hanging down made him a little itchy, he frowned slightly, Gu Zhi immediately backed away and didn't disturb him.

Maintaining this posture, Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian for a long time, but still felt like he was dreaming. He couldn't believe that he and Shen Nian had really become the closest people in this world.

He really loves this person, even if he dies at this moment, there is no regret.

Shen Nian didn't eat anything all day, and woke up from dusk to midnight, but he woke up from hunger. Gu Zhi wasn't by his side, so he didn't know where he had gone. Shen Nian touched his phone and looked at it. It was almost two o'clock. He got up and thought I went to the toilet, but was surprised to find that even after calming down for so long, my lower abdomen and thighs still twitched from time to time.

Gu Zhi was really too much.

Shen Nian endured the discomfort and went to the toilet. When he walked out of the bathroom, he happened to meet Gu Zhi who was entering the north room. Shen Nian became a little emotional because of the continued discomfort, so he continued to walk into the room without looking at him. Maybe it was his walking posture. Gu Zhi noticed something was wrong, so he hurried over and asked him nervously:

"pain?"

I made up my mind to teach him some lessons, but looking at Gu Zhi nervously asking himself, most of Shen Nian's unhappiness has dissipated. Thinking about it, I wanted to teach him a lesson, and it was the first time we both met. It's normal to have some impulsiveness out of control, not to mention that I am really comfortable, no wonder I am stubborn.

Shen Nian shook his head softly and smiled:

"Fortunately, it's not that exaggerated."

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian still a little worried, but Shen Nian obviously didn't want to mention it anymore, so Gu Zhi still shut up and asked him:

"Are you hungry? Do you want to eat some after I cooked?"

"Did you go cook just now?" Shen Nian looked at him.

"Yeah." Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian with some guilt: "I went too far today. I tossed you from morning to evening and didn't even let you eat. It's my fault. Don't be angry with Nian Nian."

Mentioning this difficult day, Shen Nian's lower abdomen would twitch again, and Shen Nian had to react even when he thought about it, so he stopped him just in time:

"I eat, I'm starving."

Shen Nian's words made Gu Zhi feel even more guilty, so he didn't even let Shen Nian go to the kitchen. After sending him back to the bedroom, he turned around and went to the kitchen. Shen Nian sat by the bed and adjusted his posture. I look around and realize I don't see what I'm used to.

When Gu Zhi entered the door, he saw Shen Nian's appearance, and instantly understood something, walked over and put the food on the bedside table, and asked him softly, "Did you see it again?"

Every time they finished making out, Shen Nian would see Shen Chongshan for a few minutes. Although Gu Zhi had already seen the strangeness, he still felt a little distressed. Being able to see the hallucination after all showed that Shen Nian still had a strong influence on the relationship between them. As a burden, Gu Zhi wanted him to relax and be more at ease, but he didn't know when it would completely disappear.

Gu Zhi thought that Shen Nian would say 'I'm used to it, it's fine' as usual, but he didn't wait, he saw Shen Nian shook his head and said, "I didn't see him."

Gu Zhi was stunned for a moment, then knelt down in front of him: "I didn't see it, did I not see it since I woke up?"

After Shen Nian woke up, all his attention was on the discomfort of his body, and he didn't pay much attention to the surrounding things, especially Shen Chongshan in the hallucination was almost normal to him, sometimes he could see it even if he saw it. Subconsciously ignoring it, when asked by Gu Zhi, he seemed not quite sure whether he had ignored it, or hadn't appeared at all.

"I didn't pay much attention." Shen Nian said.

Gu Zhi squeezed his hand: "It's okay, take your time, eat first, okay?"

Shen Nian was indeed very hungry, so she responded lightly and soon forgot about it.

The meal at two o'clock in the morning, Gu Zhi, naturally wouldn't cook too much, but the porridge and side dishes were refreshing. Shen Nian felt sleepy again after eating more than half a bowl. Fearing that he would not digest his stomach and feel uncomfortable, Shen Nian coaxed him to persevere, and Shen Nian said a few words in cooperation with him before falling asleep again.

Seeing how exhausted he was, Gu Zhi began to regret that he didn't care about it, and he was unwilling to call him again, so he just let him sleep.

He slept early and woke up early the next day. Shen Nian woke up when the sky was slightly bright. He thought that Gu Zhi was still asleep because he slept later than himself, but he woke up as soon as he moved. After saying 'morning', all the reactions in the next second were clearly conveyed. When Shen Nian felt it, he immediately wanted to distance himself, but was hugged even tighter by Gu Zhi.

"No..." Shen Nian pushed him: "It hurts."

"Yeah." Gu Zhi snorted unwillingly: "I won't do it."

Shen Nian turned to look at him and breathed a sigh of relief: "Sleep a little longer? You haven't had much rest."

"You want to get up?"

"I can't get up." Shen Nian turned over and lay flat: "I'm tired, I don't want to move."

Gu Zhi smiled slowly, and kissed his forehead: "Go to sleep a little longer."

Shen Nian originally thought that he had slept enough, but being hugged by Gu Zhi and gently patting the side of his waist, he gradually became sleepy again. He didn't know when he fell asleep, and when he woke up again, Gu Zhi was no longer by his side. But Shen Nian didn't feel anything, he was used to it, he was used to waking up every day when he was not there, and after a while he would come in and ask him to eat.

In the beginning, Shen Nian really wanted to show himself to be more dependent on Gu Zhi, but after such a long time, he seemed to be getting more and more lazy because of Gu Zhi's habit.

Except for the cleaning on the day I just came back, Gu Zhi is in charge of the subsequent hygiene, and he is also responsible for three meals a day. The washing machine in the small yard has long been out of use. During this time, both clothes and sheets are washed by Gu Zhi. Yes, including the underpants that Shen Nian had replaced, he took them to wash. Gu Zhi was obviously the younger one between the two, but no matter before or now, he seemed to treat Shen Nian like a child.

If you think about it this way, it doesn't seem to be a big deal for him to be too much on the bed. He pampers himself so much, so he should pamper him on the bed.

When Gu Zhi came in and called him to eat, he found that Shen Nian was lying on the bed with his eyes open and didn't know what he was thinking. He walked over and sat on the side of the bed, Shen Nian realized that he came back to see him and smiled slowly.

Gu Zhi held his hand: "What are you thinking?"

"I think I can treat you better in the future."

Gu Zhi didn't agree with his words: "No one treats me better than you."

Shen Nian smiled but didn't explain anything.

Although Shen Nian has decided to treat Gu Zhi better in bed in the future, but the first time between the two of them is too fresh in the memory, so Shen Nian still decides to take it easy, but it may be because of the fact that he just had sex. Gu Zhi looked at him every day as if he was begging for love, Shen Nian watched too much, always worried that he would nod and agree in the next moment when his heart softened.

"Do you want to go back to school?" Shen Nian didn't want to stay at home anymore, it was a bit dangerous: "Or the rental house we rented together?"

Originally thought that Gu Zhi would not agree, after all he didn't seem to be very interested in those things, but unexpectedly he agreed and accompanied Shen Nian back to school, but the guard had changed long ago and did not let them in, they I didn't feel sorry, so I just walked to the rental house.

The neighborhood where the rental house is located is a little more dilapidated than before, and the noodle shop and deli downstairs have long been replaced by a tire repair shop. It seems that a lot has changed in the place they used to stay in eight years, but fortunately their It's still the same person by my side.

On the way back, Gu Zhi said he was going to buy a bottle of water, but Shen Nian originally wanted to go with him but was stopped: "The sun is too strong, it will turn red after too much sun exposure, I'll be right back."

When Gu Zhi said this, Shen Nian didn't insist, and stood quietly under the shade of a tree by the side of the road waiting for him. After a while, Gu Zhi came back. Besides the bottle of water in his hand, there was also a black bag. Shen Nian was curious. asked him:

"What's in the bag?"

"Seasoning." Gu Zhi said, "I don't have any at home."

Shen Nian nodded without thinking too much, then thought of something after being silent for a few seconds, and said to him: "Actually, there is no need to buy it, we will leave in two or three days, it's a waste."

"No waste. You can take it away."

Shen Nian felt that it would be a bit troublesome to leave with the seasoning, but after thinking that they didn't have much luggage, they didn't say anything. Shen Nian was surprised when Gu Zhi locked the door and took Shen Nian with the 'seasoning' to the north room. He felt something was wrong, but before he could think about it, Gu Zhi pushed against the wall and kissed him fiercely.

With the last trace of clarity, Shen Nian snatched the bag in his hand and opened it for a look, instantly unable to say anything.

Gu Zhi kissed him and discussed with him: "Nian Nian, I can't help it..."