paranoid dependence

A second before throwing the phone out, Gu Zhi stopped because of Shen Nian's voice, Shen Nian heaved a sigh of relief and walked over to take the phone from his hand, Gu Zhi looked at him, his eyes were slightly red from anger, But at the second when they met Shen Nian's eyes, he became docile visible to the naked eye, even with a little bit of guilt.

He also seemed to understand that he was impulsive and caused trouble for Shen Nian.

Shen Nian clearly sensed his change, smiled and squeezed his wrist: "Be good, okay?"

Aunt Chen was frightened when Gu Zhi ran up to her to snatch the phone. She took two or three steps back and stood there, not knowing what to do. He looked at himself like he was about to kill someone.

It was only when Shen Nian turned around and walked over that Aunt Chen came to her senses. She looked at Shen Nian and wanted to say something, but it might be that Gu Zhi behind Gu Ji hadn't left and swallowed back the words that came to her lips, with a hesitant expression on her face. .

Shen Nian handed over the phone: "I'm sorry, auntie, I appreciate your kindness, but I really have no plans to get married, not now, and never will, so don't worry about me."

"Xiao Nian, how can you think so? If your father knows, he..." Aunt Chen stopped in the middle of her words, not because she couldn't speak, but because Gu Zhi, whose eyes had softened, heard him After speaking, her eyes became sharp again, and Aunt Chen was a little scared and dared not speak again.

"Okay, let's talk about it another day, think about it carefully." Aunt Chen put away her mobile phone: "I'm going first, let's talk to my aunt before I leave."

"Okay." Shen Nian walked Aunt Chen out of the house, and saw that Gu Zhi had not followed, Aunt Chen asked Shen Nian in a low voice, "Who is that person?"

She didn't recognize Gu Zhi.

Shen Nian smiled: "Gu Zhi."

The body was surprised for a moment, and it took several seconds to react: "It's changed a lot, and I didn't even notice it."

Shen Nian didn't say anything else, turned around and went back to the small courtyard after Aunt Chen left, and closed the door by the way.

Gu Zhi was still standing in the same place in the small courtyard. The difference from before was that he was always looking for someone desperately, but now he looked like a child who made a mistake. Shen Nian walked over and led him into the house without saying a word. , The afternoon sun is really a bit unbearable, it's too hot.

It's just that as soon as he walked into the north room, Gu Zhi, who had always been submissive, suddenly exerted his strength and pushed him against the wall next to the door of the room. The speed was very fast but Shen Nian didn't feel any pain. The pad on the back of his head didn't let him hit it, but he didn't give Shen Nian time to react either, the other hand pinched his chin, forcing him to open his mouth and kissed him.

Eager, restless, impulsive, regardless.The base of Shen Nian's tongue hurt a little, and he complained vaguely to him in a low voice. Gu Zhi heard it, and his movements slowed down. In the end, he just pecked him lightly, from the mouth to the tip of the nose, to the eyes, and stopped. Come down, for a long time.

Shen Nian breathed calmly between the wall and his chest, and after a while maintained the posture of him kissing his eyes, and said:

"Brother Zhi doesn't believe me."

Gu Zhi didn't seem to expect Shen Nian to say this, his whole body froze for a moment, he stepped back a little and looked at Shen Nian, and explained almost eagerly:

"I do not have."

"Then why are you so angry when someone introduces someone to me?" Shen Nian looked up at him, with a smile in his eyes: "You know I won't agree."

Gu Zhi avoided Shen Nian's gaze and then lowered his head. Seeing this, Shen Nian stretched out his hand to hold his face, forcing him to look up at himself:

"What are you doing with your head down? You don't want to look at me?"

"Nian Nian..." Gu Zhi said softly, "I, I can't control it."

These words were true, he knew that Shen Nian would not agree, but he just panicked and couldn't control himself when he heard that there was a better person who liked Shen Nian, so he rushed out.

It's not that he doesn't have confidence in Shen Nian at all, it's in himself, he has no confidence in himself who has no merits inside and outside his body, but is dragging Shen Nian down.

Gu Zhi's hand started to tremble again, Shen Nian looked down and saw it, but he didn't hold it as usual, he had a better way to calm Gu Zhi down.

"Did you not kiss me enough just now?" Shen Nian asked.

Gu Zhi was a little surprised that he would say that, and saw that he didn't speak.

Shen Nian smiled: "Do you want to continue? But you can't use too much force, my tongue really hurts."

Shen Nian thought that Gu Zhi would kiss him, after all he seemed to like kissing himself very much, but this time he didn't, he raised his slightly trembling hand and gently touched Shen Nian's reddish lips:

"Does it hurt?"

"It hurts." Shen Nian complained, "You are using too much force."

"I'll pay attention next time." Gu Zhi said, "Don't let Nian Nian hurt."

"You don't have to kiss." Shen Nian teased him: "If you don't kiss me, I won't be hurt."

Gu Zhi looked at him dissatisfied: "No."

Shen Nian laughed, then yawned untimely, he looked at Gu Zhi with a bit of coquettish intent:

"Brother Zhi, I'm sleepy."

Gu Zhi didn't say anything else, took Shen Nian's hand and went back to the room, the two of them lay on the bed, Shen Nian was sleeping on the inside, Gu Zhi covered him with a towel, but he frowned and thought it was too hot: "It's hot. "

Gu Zhi pulled it down again, Shen Nian still felt hot, Gu Zhi had no choice but to cover his abdomen tirelessly, this time Shen Nian didn't feel hot anymore, he lay down quietly, Gu Zhi Seeing that he had no objection or annoyance, he lay down.

"I won't get married. Even if you don't come back to me, I have no plans to get married." Gu Zhi just lay down and had not had time to adjust his posture when he heard Shen Nian's words. He turned his head and looked over to find that Shen Nian was still closed. Closed eyes.

"I've already planned to be alone, thank you for coming back so that I won't be alone anymore." Shen Nian opened his eyes and looked at him: "Brother Zhi, I'm very happy that you are back."

Gu Zhi saw that he didn't speak, Shen Nian closed his eyes again, and ordered food by the way:

"I want to eat fried pork with mushrooms at night."

"Okay." Gu Zhi said.

The corners of Shen Nian's mouth curled up, and he fell asleep peacefully.

In fact, Shen Nian might not be ignorant of Gu Zhi's current concerns, they are the same kind of people to a certain extent, so they can probably know what Gu Zhi is thinking through empathy.

Gu Zhi's lack of confidence in himself is nothing more than the fact that those five years of closed life have almost completely changed him as a person. He lost his chance to go to college, ruined his bright future, and now he can't even control his emotions. He didn't have any advantages in himself, that's why he panicked and lacked confidence, fearing that he would be compared to the better people around Shen Nian.

It's not impossible to say comforting words, but it's useless for Shen Nian to say it more clearly than anyone else. If it is useful, Shen Nian back then would not have nightmares and dare not sleep again and again.

But without saying anything, there are some things that can be done. After this day, Shen Nian became more dependent on Gu Zhi in a calm manner. He would sleep in and wait for Gu Zhi to tidy up everything and wake up when the food was on the table. When Gu Zhi cooks his favorite dishes, he thinks the water is hot and the air conditioner is cold, and he has to wait for Gu Zhi to cover him with the quilt that is within reach. He eats and cooks like a rascal, but Gu Zhi smiles more When I woke up, I had fewer nightmares at night.

Shen Nian's need and dependence on him is the best medicine in this world.

He doesn't need himself to be too useful, and he has never dreamed of becoming famous, he only hopes that he has an ability, an ability that can protect Shen Nian and keep him safe and sound.

A week later, Liang Qiu returned to Jianjia Lane. It had just rained, and there was a fresh smell in the air. When Liang Qiu walked into the small courtyard, Shen Nian was sitting on the rocking chair on the porch watching Gu Zhi clean up the fallen leaves in the courtyard. Knowing that as long as Gu Zhi is around, Shen Nian doesn't need to do anything, but Liang Qiu rarely feels warm after seeing this scene for many years.

Gu Zhi still doesn't like him very much as before, but he may also know that he is the person Shen Nian can't avoid, and he has helped him a lot, so he took a look at him and regarded him as a transparent person.

Liang Qiu didn't care, and walked to the corridor, before he could say anything, he saw the hickey on Shen Nian's neck.

Shen Nian himself is white, and the marks on his body will not go away for a few days with a little effort, Liang Qiu looked at that place, there are two or three marks of different degrees, do they come every day?

Liang Qiu looked at him inexplicably, wanting to remind him to be more restrained, but before he could say anything, Gu Zhi saw him staring at Shen Nian, immediately put down his broom and jumped up, blocking Shen Nian Blocking all his sight, he looked at him with a warning look on his face, as if he would go crazy if he looked at it one more time.

Liang Qiu didn't feel offended, and even regained some familiarity with Gu Zhi, and smiled:

"Don't you think it's unreasonable for you to guard against me? If I like Xiao Nian, what's the matter with you, you can still stand in front of me now?"

After speaking, he moved a small bench and sat down. He didn't look at them any more, and he really didn't see them.

Gu Zhi wanted to refute something but Shen Nian held his hand: "You're kidding, don't take it seriously."

Gu Zhi looked back at Shen Nian, and saw the hickey marks on his neck. When Liang Qiu didn't come, he felt that these marks satisfied him. As long as he saw them, he could be sure that this person was his. But now that Liang Qiu came, thinking of him I also saw that Gu Zhi had the urge to erase all his memories.

He took off his T-shirt and covered Shen Nian's neck like a scarf:

"I don't like people looking at you, and neither can he."

Those possessive desires restrained by Shen Nian were gradually revealed after Shen Nian told him that he liked him, and then let him do whatever he wanted, even stronger than before.

Before Shen Nian could understand why Gu Zhi took off his clothes, Liang Qiu said something teasing:

"Really? But didn't you say that Xiao Nian belonged to him? Since it belongs to him, can you control who sees him?"

"You don't have to say a few words." Shen Nian was afraid that the two of them would quarrel again, so he reminded Liang Qiu.

Liang Qiu smiled indifferently: "You are not his anymore, why are you still protecting me like this? Is this okay, Shen Xiaonian? I think Gu Zhi is not easy to control, should I introduce you to another obedient one?"

These words were obviously teasing Gu Zhi, and Gu Zhi couldn't hear it, but before Gu Zhi could open his mouth, Shen Nian spoke out first, suppressing Gu Zhi's restless irritability with ease.

He said: "My people, I am willing to protect them."

One sentence made Gu Zhi no longer see Liang Qiu in his eyes, he only looked at Shen Nian, and Shen Nian noticed that his gaze had turned his head and collided with his gaze, his eyes were full of doting:

"I don't think you can find someone more obedient than Gu Zhi."

"That's him." Shen Nian said.

If it is said that Gu Zhi's defense of Shen Nian just now made Gu Zhi feel happy, now Gu Zhi is more excited than ever with this sentence, he didn't even have any scruples about Liang Qiu who was still sitting next to him, holding Shen Nian's face with both hands as a gesture He was about to kiss, but fortunately Shen Nian quickly stopped him, and looked at him amusedly:

"No."

Gu Zhi was a little dissatisfied, but he restrained himself. Liang Qiu saw it from the corner of his eye and sighed helplessly.

"I understand that you are young and energetic, but can you be more restrained? I don't want to stare at you, but are the marks on your neck too obvious? Are you still the Shen Xiaonian I know?"

Shen Nian was taken aback when he heard the words, and then he realized it.These few days, Gu Zhi had indeed been messing around with him a lot, but the two of them were always at home, Shen Nian hadn't even gone out, and he didn't care at all, and it was only when Liang Qiu reminded him that he realized something and understood Gu Zhi took off his clothes for what purpose, and glared at Gu Zhi.

Gu Zhi felt a little wronged, but he didn't dare to refute anything.

Who knew that Liang Qiu would come.