paranoid dependence

Shen Nian teased her vigorously, but Gu Zhi really didn't refuse or resist, and he didn't know what to do.

This matter... He rarely does it himself, let alone helping others.

Gu Zhi didn't move, looking at him in the darkness, even though Shen Nian couldn't see clearly, he could still feel the light shining in those eyes, like a predator waiting for an opportunity on the grassland, ready to move at any time. There was a possibility of jumping over and eating himself, Shen Nian was in a dilemma, bit the bullet and moved a bit.

Gu Zhi's breathing began to change dramatically. The distance was too close for Shen Nian to feel like a source of fire. He subconsciously retreated, but the wall behind him blocked his retreat. Gu Zhi also approached him at this time. The suppressed emotions seemed to have no reason to suppress any more. Crazy broke free from the restraints, and the air was filled with the smell of possessiveness.

He wants to meditate.Every inch of his eyes, every breath is telling, he wants to meditate.

"Hiding for what?" Gu Zhi clasped his waist, leaned close to his ear, and asked softly, "Is it a little dishonest to be separated by a layer?"

Shen Nian looked at him in surprise, this was not the quiet and docile Gu Zhi in front of him just now, he had completely changed his appearance, Shen Nian was a little overwhelmed, and wanted to leave, but Gu Zhi held him down:

"Help me, I'll sleep well, I promise."

"I won't." Shen Nian gave up on himself and didn't move his hands. If it wasn't for Gu Zhi holding him, he would have left long ago.

"Didn't you do it yourself?"

Shen Nian staggered his gaze, looked over his shoulder to the moonlight window: "...it's different."

"Then what should I do?" Gu Zhi coaxed him: "You said you would help me, but if you don't help me, I won't be able to sleep."

Shen Nian might not know that what Gu Zhi is saying now is to coax him, but even if he coaxed him, he didn't say anything wrong. The words to help him were indeed said by himself. She wanted to hurt him, but no matter what the reason was, Shen Nian seemed to have to do it now.

"Stay back." After a brief silence, Shen Nian seemed to have made up his mind, and whispered, "I can't move."

Gu Zhi laughed lightly, and obediently moved back a few inches, putting Shen Nian in a range where Shen Nian could not escape but was still able to 'move freely'. Shen Nian knew that he could not escape, and did not want to escape too much. Withdrawing his gaze from the window and looking at Gu Zhi in the dim light:

"You said, sleep well."

Gu Zhi didn't respond, but leaned over and kissed him: "I said, move quickly, please."

……

Shen Nian never knew that a person's breath could have a burning temperature, when Gu Zhi hugged him, when he could control Gu Zhi's breathing rate, when Gu Zhi called Nian Nian in his ear, Shen Nian His face was red and his hands were hot. This was probably the most painful ten minutes for him, but luckily it passed.

When there was a unique smell in the air, Gu Zhi was stuck on Shen Nian's neck and didn't want to move. He was full, but Shen Nian wanted to get up very much. His obsession with cleanliness made him want to wash his hands crazily.

He patted the back of Gu Zhi's head with the other hand, and discussed with him softly: "Are you up?"

Gu Zhi didn't respond, but he moved, but he didn't move away from Shen Nian's body, but moved. The hand holding his waist started to move down, and was caught by Shen Nian:

"I don't need it, I just want to wash my hands."

"But you are in good shape." Gu Zhi said, "Reciprocity is a courtesy."

"Wash your hands." Shen Nian insisted: "I want to wash my hands right now."

No one knew Shen Nian's obsession with cleanliness better than Gu Zhi, knowing that he really couldn't take it anymore, so he didn't force him anymore, and reluctantly got up, Shen Nian immediately got out of bed and went to the courtyard to wash his hands , Gu Zhi was lying on the bed, his mind was empty.

It's been a long time since I've felt this way, I don't think about anything, I don't have to think about anything, I can't wait to even feel sleepy, it seems that I can fall asleep in the next second.

But Gu Zhi still got up and went to look for Shen Nian in the courtyard. He was squatting in front of the faucet in the courtyard to wash his hands. He didn't move his hands, but his eyes were looking in the direction of Westinghouse. Gu Zhi stood on the porch and followed him. He looked over and saw nothing.

Gu Zhi walked over, knelt down in front of him, grabbed his hands, washed them little by little, and then Shen Nian came back to look at him and smiled:

"I thought you were going to be sleepy."

"Wait for you." Gu Zhi said.

Shen Nian didn't say anything, and took another look at the direction of Westinghouse, making sure that he could no longer see it, and then slowly retracted his gaze.Gu Zhi didn't say anything, after washing Shen Nian's hands, he led him back into the room, and dried his hands with a towel, even between his fingers.

After wiping it off, I realized that Shen Nian had been looking at him: "What are you looking at?"

"It seems that brother Zhi still takes care of people as before."

Gu Zhi took a look at him without saying a word and asked him to lie down on the bed. After seeing Shen Nian lying down, he turned off the light and went over to lie down. Those who promised Shen Nian to sleep well may not be able to do so.

It was at this time that the hand was held, Shen Nian squeezed it lightly, and said:

"sleep."

Gu Zhi turned over and hugged him: "I said that we should reciprocate courtesy."

"No, no, no." Shen Nian grabbed his dishonest hand: "It's too late, there's no hot water, I have to wash and change clothes again after you help me, can I sleep after this tossing?"

"Isn't it uncomfortable?"

Shen Nian smiled: "I have almost no need for this."

This is not a lie, Shen Nian really needs very little, and even thinks that he is very likely to be sexually frigid, and the number of times he relieves himself throughout the year can be counted in a slap. He admits that he did feel impulsive and emotional just now, but After I went out to wash my hands and came back, I saw the hallucination again, and it immediately faded away.

At this time, he lay back on the bed and asked him to wash it again. He really resisted.

Gu Zhi touched it with his hand, and found that what Shen Nian said was true, as if there was no reaction, Gu Zhi didn't say anything else, put his hand back, and after a while of silence, he said: "Go to sleep."

"Yeah." Shen Nian closed his eyes, not forgetting to remind Gu Zhi: "I did what I said, and you should sleep well."

"Okay." Gu Zhi replied softly.

The two of them didn't sleep much last night, they were on their way and packed up the house during the day, and it was almost late at night, and they were already in the state of falling asleep after touching the pillow. Shen Nian was breathing quickly and evenly, and Gu Zhi was hugging him behind him. He originally thought he wouldn't fall asleep, at least not too easily, but he didn't know whether it was because he was tired or because he had vented once, and he fell asleep after a while.

But inevitably, Gu Zhi woke up in the middle of the night because of the nightmare, and Shen Nian was also awakened. He didn't ask him what he dreamed about and didn't calm him down. He just rolled over and hugged him, patting him gently. Rubbing his back like coaxing a child:

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, sleep and sleep..."

I don't know whether he was coaxing Gu Zhi or himself, anyway, before Gu Zhi fell asleep, Shen Nian stopped patting him, and his breathing became stable again. It is amazing that Gu Zhi is in such a normal state. , digesting the panic and fear brought to him by the nightmare as quickly as possible.

He bowed his head and kissed Shen Nian's forehead lightly, closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

When Shen Nian woke up the next day, Gu Zhi was no longer in bed. Maybe it was because he was so tired during this period that Shen Nian, who never stayed in bed, lay in bed and didn't want to get up. He picked up his phone and checked his unread messages. After making sure that there was nothing to do, he put it down, lay down for a while and woke up completely before getting up to find Gu Zhi.

Gu Zhi was preparing breakfast in the kitchen. He didn't know how long he had been here in the sweltering weather, and he was sweating a little. Shen Nian walked over, "What are you doing?"

"Cold cabbage, scrambled an egg." Gu Zhi said.

This was the most common breakfast when the two of them were together, Shen Nian smiled when he saw it: "It's been a long time since I ate it, I tried to make it myself, but it doesn't taste like that."

"This taste may not be what you remember." Gu Zhi said, "I haven't made it for a long time."

Shen Nian didn't say it's okay, but patted him on the shoulder and said: "Then make persistent efforts."

Gu Zhi glanced at him and said nothing, but his brows and eyes were all smiles.

"Did you sleep well last night?" Shen Nian looked at him: "I'm too tired to care about you."

"Very good." Gu Zhi said.In fact, he likes Shen Nian very much, he doesn't care about him, and doesn't regard his current state as a big deal. He also understands how much Shen Nian did to Shen Nian when he stayed up all night when he was in this state. The pressure, Shen Nian is like now, but he is relaxed.

But thinking about the relationship between the two is really ridiculous, I don't know if it's for the sake of fairness, it seems that all the misfortunes that happened to them will happen to each other in turn, Shen Nian had nightmares when he was a child, now it's him.

But it was also because of the experience of childhood nightmares that Shen Nian was able to deal with it like a duck to water.It's not that Shen Nian really doesn't care about his nightmare, he just used the current way to tell himself that it's not a big deal, anyway, he will always be by his side.

The only thing that is uncertain is whether these unfortunate cycles will end after one cycle.

There is no difference between the cold dish and the taste in memory, Shen Nian still likes to eat it very much, Gu Zhi remembered that he promised Shen Nian last night, he ate a little more than yesterday, but it was only a little more, but Shen Nian did not force himself Him, some things need to be taken slowly.

They still have time.

After the meal, the two of them sat in the small courtyard for a while, Shen Nian asked him how he paid for the shopping in the morning, Gu Zhi said, "It's from your wallet."

Shen Nian laughed: "Anyway, I have nothing to do, so I'll take you to buy a mobile phone."

The cell phone that Gu Zhi used before was probably an old cell phone that Chen Jingzhi found for him, and it was a model from a few years ago. After Shen Nian found it, he didn't see him take it out. He probably threw it away, in order to control the contact with Shen Nian.

"I don't need it." Gu Zhi said.

"How come?" Shen Nian looked at him: "In the future, when I go to class, you can contact me at home anytime, which is much more convenient, and now there are very few cash payments, it will be more convenient for you to go out with a mobile phone."

Thinking that Shen Nian would not stay with him 24 hours a day like now, and would still go to school, Gu Zhi was a little disappointed, but he concealed his emotions very well, and did not refuse Shen Nian's proposal, followed Shen Nian Nian went to the city by car together, didn't choose much, Shen Nian took the latest model of the brand he was using now, Gu Zhi didn't have any objection, so he just paid for it.

After buying a mobile phone, the two walked around the city again. When they came here, they brought almost nothing. In addition, they had to live here for a while, so they each bought a few sets of clothes. Gu Zhi believed in Shen Nian even if he didn't choose With his vision, he can agree on what to choose, even the shopping guide said:

"Your younger brother looks rebellious, but he actually feels so good."

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi upon hearing the sound, smiled and said, "Yes, very good."

After returning to Jianjia Lane from the city, it was already past two o'clock in the afternoon. Shen Nian was a little sleepy, so he dragged Gu Zhi to lie down together. Here comes the voice:

"Xiao Nian, is Xiao Nian there?"

Shen Nian stood up, Gu Zhi wanted to follow but Shen Nian pressed him down: "Lie down, I'll go out and have a look."

Shen Nian walked out of the north room and found that it was Uncle Chen's wife standing at the gate of the courtyard with a smile on her face. She saw Shen Nian coming out of the room and walking over:

"It's really back. Yesterday your Uncle Chen told me, I still don't believe it."

"I'm back." Shen Nian greeted with a smile: "Auntie, do you need me?"

"It's nothing serious, I just want to ask you, you are the oldest, do you have a partner? Your father is gone, and you had such a good relationship with our old Chen before he was alive. I should take care of your lifelong affairs, but you always It's only been a few days since you came back in [-], and my aunt can't find you, but I caught you this time, do you have a date?"

Shen Nian never thought that after he lost his parents, he would be urged to marry by his neighbors, he was a little at a loss for a moment, but he still wanted to say something when he thought of Gu Zhi in the house, but Aunt Chen didn't give him a chance to speak:

"No, right? How about my aunt introduce one to you? It's my niece, who is two years younger than you and is also a teacher. She looks pretty."

"Auntie, I don't have this..."

Shen Nian tried to interrupt Aunt Chen's words, but Aunt Chen didn't seem to hear Shen Nian's refusal, so she said:

"Xiao Nian, you believe in my aunt's vision. If you can be together, the genes of the next generation of dolls will be more beautiful than stars. How about I arrange for you to meet? She is also on vacation, and she lives a short distance from here. It's not far away, do you have nothing else to do in the afternoon, I'll call her right now..."

Aunt Chen didn't give Shen Nian a chance to interrupt and just talked on her own, finally stopped, but went to make a phone call again, Shen Nian sighed helplessly:

"Aunt, you don't need to be busy, I have no intention of getting married at all."

"How could it be possible not to get married?" Aunt Chen paused, and looked at him disapprovingly: "Auntie knows what you think, I'm afraid that the bad conditions will delay others, don't worry, that niece of mine isn't blind to money. I have seen you before, and I have a good impression of you, and I want to ask you about you from time to time, not to mention that the village in the city will be demolished in a few years, and you will have houses by then."

Aunt Chen wanted to make a phone call after she finished speaking, Shen Nian walked over and wanted to stop him, but before she had time, a figure leaped past her, snatched the phone from Aunt Chen's hand and was about to drop it, but Shen Nian urgently stopped her:

"Gu Zhi!"