paranoid dependence

Shen Nian's first reaction when seeing this person was to feel that he had seen a ghost. After all, after learning that Gu Zhi had been treated like that by Ning Jia, Shen Nian had found an opportunity to talk about Ning Jia with Gu Zhi. Nian did not forget, he said: "She is dead."

Since he is dead, he cannot stand here alive.

Later, Shen Nian was sure that she was not hallucinating, so she felt that it might just be a person who looked very similar to Ning Jia, but when the students were out of school, she scanned everyone's faces, looking for someone whose posture made her feel uncomfortable. Shen Nian's heart beat again, what if... what if he really came to look for Gu Zhi?

In case Gu Zhi didn't tell the truth, is this person in front of him really Ning Jia?

If this scenario is true, then what is her purpose for appearing here?Shen Nian was a bit afraid to think about it, but no matter what, Gu Zhi would treat this person with a pleasant face, and it would be impossible to forgive him, otherwise he would not have said 'she is dead'.

Shen Nian hadn't seen the little lunatic for a long time, and he didn't want to see him, especially at the school gate.

Shen Nian was going to go to the school to look for Gu Zhi, although Ning Jia could find here, meeting is inevitable, but Shen Nian didn't want to let Gu Zhi run into him without warning, that would be too cruel.But he didn't expect that Ning Jia had already spotted him before he took his footsteps. The moment the two people's eyes met across the crowd, Shen Nian was sure that she knew him.

Before he could figure out why, Ning Jia had already stepped towards him, stood in front of him and looked him up and down before softly saying, "Shen Nian? Shen Chongshan's son?"

Shen Nian didn't speak, but looked at her, but Ning Jia understood his acquiescence, and introduced himself aloud:

"I am Gu Zhi's mother, here to take him home."

There were students all around in a mess. Ning Jia's voice was not loud, but Shen Nian could hear every word clearly, but he couldn't understand what it meant when they were connected together. What was the meaning of "take him home"?Where is she going to take Gu Zhi?

"I want to chat with you." Ninga said, "There is a cold drink hall over there. I will wait for you there."

Ning Jia's appearance is actually very gentle. Just looking at this woman, one would never think of the woman Gu Zhi said was grabbing his head and hitting the wall and the floor. With a strength that can't be ignored, such a person can't accept failure the most.

So it's not hard to imagine how crazy she was.

Being strong means that you don't like being rejected, and Ning Jia's tone didn't give Shen Nian the room to refuse, but Shen Nian still refused:

"I don't have time, Gu Zhi will be anxious if he doesn't see me when he comes out."

I don't know why, but after she finished saying this, Shen Nian could feel that Ning Jia's eyes looking at her changed from indifference to disgust. She didn't seem to want to see any relationship between herself and Gu Zhi. He didn't want to hear any news about Gu Zhi from himself, not even his name.

Shen Nian didn't know where the problem was, and he didn't want to know, he just wanted to prevent Gu Zhi from seeing Ning Jia, even though he might not be able to stop him.

Ignoring Ning Jia's dissatisfied gaze, Shen Nian entered the school and walked all the way to Gu Zhi's classroom, but he didn't see Gu Zhi all the way to the teaching building.

This is actually very inconsistent with Gu Zhi's style.

Because I knew that I would pick him up at the school gate, as long as school was over, he would usually be the fastest one to run, but this time, Shen Nian didn't see him, and went all the way to his classroom without seeing him.

There are still students in the class who have not left to study, Shen Nian asked:

"Excuse me, where's Gu Zhi?"

A classmate in the front row raised his head: "The last class was called away, saying that his mother was looking for him."

Shen Nian was stunned for a moment, then quickly reacted, thanked him, turned around and left, he never thought that Ning Jia had already met Gu Zhi, he originally thought that Ning Jia was waiting there just to meet Gu Zhi, but Ignored that as a mother, she can come to the school to meet Gu Zhi in a legitimate way.

Gu Zhi met Ning Jia, what was his reaction?What did they say?It must not be pleasant, otherwise Ninga would not have been waiting at the school gate.

These are unimportant, they have already happened and cannot be changed, the question now is where is the obsession?

Shen Nian was a little flustered standing downstairs, but after she calmed down, she determined where she was going. Ning Jia was standing at the school gate, so it could only prove that she was still sure that Gu Zhi was in the school, she didn't leave, and wanted to Let's meet again, since we are in school, there may be only one place for Gu Zhi to go.

After the new gymnasium was completed and put into use two years ago, almost no one went to the small gymnasium behind the teaching building. There were always rumors that it was going to be demolished, but no construction was ever started. However, Shen Nian and Gu Zhi have been there many times in the past two years .

Every time during thunderstorms, even during class, Shen Nian would ask for leave and show up at the door of Gu Zhi's classroom to say hello to the teacher and take Gu Zhi away. Afterwards, they would come here, sit on a chair in the corner Gu Zhi curled up beside him or in his arms, comforting him until the thunder stopped.

This is almost going to be one of their secret bases.

When Shen Nian entered the gymnasium, he looked at the seat where they used to sit at first glance. Gu Zhi was indeed sitting there, curled up with his head in his hands, subconsciously looking for a sense of security.

Shen Nian breathed a sigh of relief, at least he was found.

Without disturbing him, Shen Nian walked up the steps and stood beside him. He was always worried about whether he could find Gu Zhi, but he didn't think about what to say after he found him. Hesitating, this matter itself is very hurtful, so no matter how you speak, it will be uncomfortable.

From the moment Gu Zhi saw Ning Jia, it was as if he had returned to the time when he was beaten and locked in the closet when he was a child. Now it was obviously not raining or thundering, but he was so afraid that he couldn't control it. His shadow is far heavier than imagined.

How long has he been sitting here, what time is it now, he has already ignored it, and never thought that Shen Nian would come here to look for him, so when he noticed someone standing beside him, Gu Zhi suddenly got up from his seat, He even waved his fist directly, wanting to wave out the fear and anger that could not be vented, no matter who he hit, it would be fine.

But Shen Nian's face appeared in front of his eyes, and Gu Zhi's hostility instantly turned into a cloud of smoke, but the fist he swung was a little uncontrollable, and he stopped hastily before hitting Shen Nian's cheek, and the ferocity in his eyes disappeared instantly. Feeling distressed and guilty, he approached Shen Nian, and touched his face nervously even though he hadn't touched him:

"Are you all right? Is Nian Nian all right?"

"It's okay." Shen Nian grabbed his hand and smiled, "I didn't touch it."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Gu Zhi apologized in a panic: "I, I thought it was... I didn't expect you to come, why did you come? Is school over? I, I should tell you, I'm sorry Nian Nian , Did it make you worry, I..."

Shen Nian has seen Gu Zhi many times, sinister, obedient, fierce, and gentle, but he has never seen him flustered like this before. He is afraid, as if he is afraid that there will be thunder in the next second. Shen Nian couldn't bear to be taken to the locker he used to be when he was a child, and put his arms around him in his arms, stroking the back of his head, comforting him again and again:

"Don't be afraid, I don't blame you, I'm just a little worried about you..."

Gu Zhi hugged Shen Nian back so tightly that Shen Nian could hardly breathe, but he didn't stop Gu Zhi, coaxing him like Gu Zhi coaxed himself to sleep every night:

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I'm here, I'll be with you..."

I don't know how long it took, until Shen Nian felt that his legs were a little stiff due to standing for a long time, Gu Zhi slowly let go of him, his eyes were red, but the panic inside did not slow down in any way , He was really scared, and he was really panicked.

The light in the gymnasium has dimmed, but it is impossible for Shen Nian to take Gu Zhi out of here to go to other places at this time, not to mention that Gu Zhi's mood has just stabilized, even if he is completely fine, is there any Ning Jia outside the door? Leaving is still a problem.

It is not suitable for them to meet again at this time.

Shen Nian took Gu Zhi's hand and sat down. He curled up on the chair and lay on Shen Nian's lap like every time he and Shen Nian hid from the rain here before, except that he pulled Gu Zhi to divert his attention. He meditated and talked about things, but this time it was very quiet, as quiet as if he had fallen asleep.

Shen Nian didn't really want to break Gu Zhi's silence, and kept stroking his hair without saying a word.

Some questions don't need to be asked, Gu Zhi has no secrets in front of him, if he wants to say something, he will open his mouth, if he doesn't say it now, it's just that his heart is not as calm as it appears on the surface.

He just waited quietly, Gu Zhi won't hide himself.

When the noisy groups of students on the playground outside also quieted down, Gu Zhi opened his mouth softly. He said:

"I'm sorry to miss you."

"Why are you saying sorry to me again?" Shen Nian looked down at him, her tone was very soft, as if she was worried about disturbing something.

"I lied to you." Gu Zhi said, "I still lied to you about one thing."

After Gu Zhi said this, he was silent for a moment, got up from Shen Nian's lap, walked up to Shen Nian, squatted down, and looked up at him: "Nian Nian, please forgive me? I only have this one thing. I lied to you, and I didn't mean to lie to you, don't blame me, okay, I didn't hurt you..."

Shen Nian grabbed Gu Zhi's hand on his knee and squeezed it: "I don't blame you."

"Really?" Gu Zhi still looked at him nervously: "Do you really not blame me?"

"No wonder." Shen Nian stroked his hair: "I think I understand your mood when you told me that lie, and I don't think it's a lie, she may really be 'dead' in your heart '."

Gu Zhi stared at Shen Nian for a few seconds: "Does Nian Nian know?"

"Yes." Shen Nian replied softly, "I saw her at the school gate."

Shen Nian didn't want to talk about the conversation between himself and Ning Jia, and there was no need to put pressure on Gu Zhixin at this time.

"I don't know why she came here. I haven't seen her since I was sent to Gu Ming's house when I was 7 years old. She never contacted me, and she didn't even make a phone call. Ming said she was dead, and I thought she was really dead, and I was shocked when I saw her..."

"I know, I know you must be terrified." Shen Nian comforted him: "What did she tell you?"

"She said she would take me away." Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian, "She said she would make it up to me, but I don't need it, I don't need her to make it up to me, as long as she doesn't appear by my side in this life, don't let me see you again I am satisfied when I see her, I never want to see her again, I just want to be with Nian Nian."

The little lunatic who is not afraid of anything will admit that he is afraid of one person, and that person is his mother. This makes Shen Nian unable to imagine what terrible things Ning Jia did in Gu Zhi's childhood, perhaps more than Gu Zhi said. What came out was much more terrifying.

But Shen Nian couldn't guarantee that Gu Zhi would really not leave.

How to guarantee?I am only 17 years old, and now I can't even take care of myself well, and I need to rely on Gu Zhi, how can I compete with Ning Jia?She is Gu Zhi's mother, it is only natural that she wants to bring back her own child, but what is she?

He doesn't even have the status of a brother.

The way Ninga showed today is inevitable. Now that she is here, she will not leave easily.

Gu Zhi seemed to realize something in Shen Nian's silence, he grabbed Shen Nian's hand like grasping the last straw:

"Nian Nian don't want me?"

"What are you talking about?" Shen Nian laughed helplessly: "We agreed to be together forever, how could I not want you."

"I don't want to be separated from you." Gu Zhi was afraid, his voice trembling: "I don't want to be separated from you even if I die, I just want to be with Niannian, I just want to be with you..."

In fact, Shen Nian did not show such indifference, he also panicked, although the matter had just turned a corner, but Shen Nian had the illusion that he was going to lose his stubbornness.

Shen Nian doesn't understand, there is obviously no shortage of dramatic stages and dramatic stories in this world, but why they insist on repeating them on themselves one after another.

Shen Chongshan's, You Xiaoyue's, including now Ning Jia's, do they think it's too easy for him and Gu Zhi to live together?That's why it takes such constant trials and tribulations?

But what did they do wrong?They don't even have any other demands, they just want to lean together for warmth, why can't they even do this?

The two of them didn't say anything, until the light in the gymnasium was so dark that only one silhouette of each other could be seen, Shen Nian took Gu Zhi's hand and walked down the steps step by step, no matter what happened tomorrow, they still needed to go back today.

Ning Jia is no longer at the school gate. I don’t know when he left, but no one feels obviously relieved. They all know that if they leave today, they will come tomorrow. The thorn-like stalk is in the throat, no matter how you swallow it, it will make people uncomfortable.

After returning home, Gu Zhi immediately saw the schoolbag that Shen Nian had packed and put on the bed, Shen Nian followed his gaze and said:

"I'm not going, you go and wash your face, I'll call Liang Qiu and tell him not to wait any longer."

"Okay." Gu Zhi obediently responded.

Gu Zhi went to the bathroom, Shen Nian went to the window to call Liang Qiu, Liang Qiu thought he was about to arrive, so he answered the phone and said:

"I'll go downstairs to pick you up now."

"Liang Qiu." Shen Nian said, "I won't pass."

Liang Qiu was a little surprised on the other end of the phone: "What's the matter? The brat doesn't agree? I'll go and talk to him. It's also good for him. Why are you so ignorant?"

"No." Shen Nian's tone was very weak, and he turned his head to look in the direction of the bathroom, making sure that Gu Zhi was still washing his face before he said: "Gu Zhi's mother is here, he is not in the right mood."

This answer was something that Liang Qiu didn't even think of. After a few seconds, he spoke again:

"Isn't it already dead?"

"Maybe there is some misunderstanding in the middle." Shen Nian said: "In short, I can't make it through today, and maybe I won't make it through, so don't wait for me."

Liang Qiu also knew that there was no way out when this happened, but he was even more worried. Originally, the matter of Shen Nian hadn't been resolved, and he didn't know if it could be resolved, but the matter of Gu Zhi appeared. Why do you feel that these two people are so troubled? How difficult is it?Everything happened so unexpectedly.

"Then what do you do?" Liang Qiu asked, "Is it too risky for you two abnormal people to be together?"

Liang Qiu couldn't tell what kind of adventure it was, but he always felt that it was not safe, and it was like a joke, but he couldn't come up with the solution if he was asked to.

"There is no other way, let's just take one step at a time." After Shen Nian said this, the sound of Gu Zhi opening the door and coming out came from behind him. Shen Nian said goodbye to Liang Qiu and hung up the phone.

Shen Nian put down his mobile phone and walked over, Gu Zhi hugged him, buried it on his neck as if he was acting coquettishly or charging, Shen Nian patted his back with a smile and asked him:

"What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you."

"I'm not hungry." Gu Zhi said, but he regretted it after a few seconds. He was not hungry, and Nian Nian also wanted to eat, so he couldn't let him go hungry with him: "What would Nian Nian want to eat? I'll do it."

"Don't dare." Shen Nian said, "I'm afraid that you will poison me while absent-minded."

This is obviously a joke to let Gu Zhi relax, Gu Zhi also understood, and smiled on Shen Nian's neck: "No, I don't want to, even if I really want to poison, I will eat it with Nian Nian , I will go wherever you go, I will live if you live, and I will die if you die."

Shen Nian was silent for a moment: "We all live well."

"Then you are fine." Gu Zhi said, "If you are fine, I will be fine."

"it is good."

The two hugged each other for a while, neither of them was cooking, and neither was in the mood to eat. Later, Gu Zhi said that he was tired and wanted to lie down for a while, so Shen Nian lay on the bed with him. The difference was that this time Gu Zhi He fell asleep against the wall, and it was Shen Nian who hugged him.

Gu Zhi curled up in Shen Nian's embrace like a child:

"I really want you to hold me like this for the rest of my life."

Shen Nian patted him again and again: "Sleep, sleep for a while, I will accompany you."

Gu Zhi didn't want to sleep, and he wasn't sleepy either, but he gradually became sleepy under Shen Nian's gentle pat and gentle coaxing, and he suddenly understood why Shen Nian would sleep soundly under his comfort. Anwen, because I really feel safe, knowing that this person is always there, always with me.

Gu Zhi fell asleep, but Shen Nian's patting didn't stop, and his thoughts drifted away. He really couldn't understand why Ning Jia knew him, and why he had such a big reaction to him mentioning Gu Zhi, but Shen Nian Nian also knows that these doubts will be answered in a short time.

Ning Jia didn't talk to him today, so he will talk tomorrow or the day after tomorrow after all.

She will still find herself.

And one day I will not be able to hide.