paranoid dependence

Short message?Shen Nian never received Liang Qiu's text message at all.

"I, I didn't receive your text message." Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu and said.

Liang Qiu was also stunned for a moment when he heard the words: "Impossible? I sent it."

After speaking, he took out his mobile phone to look at it, clicked on Shen Nian's text message interface and clicked his tongue: "Damn, I guess the signal was not good when I was in the elevator, the sending failed, and it was transferred to the draft box."

The text message was never sent, Shen Nian didn't see it, but anyway, Liang Qiu's arrangement broke Shen Nian's promise to Gu Zhi, Shen Nian couldn't imagine what it would be like if Gu Zhi couldn't wait for him to go back , he didn't even want to let himself out to see Liang Qiu.

Shen Nian glanced out of the window, he had already left the urban area and entered the mountains.

Liang Qiu understood Shen Nian, even after being separated for such a long time, he could tell at a glance that Shen Nian had something on his mind:

"Xiao Nian, what's wrong with you? Is there something wrong?"

"Liang Qiu." Shen Nian turned to look at Liang Qiu after hearing the words: "I can't stay here overnight, I have to go back."

According to the information Liang Qiu has, there is actually no one else in Shen Nian's family. Shen Chongshan is out in the car and has not returned, so he is the only one at home. Under such a situation, Liang Qiu can't figure out that Shen Nian can't be here with him He had his own reasons, but Shen Nian was not the kind of person who rejected him for no reason.

Liang Qiu understood Shen Nian, and Shen Nian also knew what Liang Qiu was thinking, watching him speak:

"Gu Zhi is at home."

"Who?" Liang Qiu's surprised voice raised a lot.

Ever since Gu Zhi began to accompany Shen Nian, Shen Nian has never mentioned this matter to Liang Qiu. It's not that it can't be said, but it's unnecessary. What kind of impression does Gu Zhi have in Liang Qiu's heart? No one is better than Shen Nian. Clearly, if Gu Zhi was with her, Liang Qiu would feel uneasy and worried about herself all the time. Shen Nian didn't want Liang Qiu to still worry about her when she was thousands of miles away, so she kept silent.

But now I can't hide it anymore, and I can't hide it anymore, Liang Qiu will stay here until the end of the winter vacation, and they will always meet.

"Gu Zhi." Shen Nian said, "He's been back for a while and has been at home. If I don't go back, something will happen."

When this sentence was finished, the car also stopped, and the driver looked back at the two of them: "Here we are."

Liang Qiu didn't know how Shen Nian and Gu Zhi got involved together, and judging by Shen Nian's appearance, the relationship between the two is pretty good now, but Liang Qiu was more inclined that Shen Nian was forced to do so by Shen Chongshan's request Well, they made such a scene before, how could they settle their suspicions.

Shen Nian has no desires, but it doesn't mean that he will repay evil with kindness, and that is not something he will do at all.

"Liang Qiu." Shen Nian said, "I have to go back."

Liang Qiu looked at Shen Nian and said nothing, but he knew that there was usually no room for change in the things he decided, but it was too late to go back like this, not to mention, Liang Qiu was really curious about Shen Nian and Gu Zhi. What is going on in between.He looked at Shen Nian and sighed helplessly:

"It's still early, it's already here, let's go up and have fun. My second uncle will drive back to the city in the evening, and you can take his car then."

I haven't seen Liang Qiu for a long time, and Liang Qiu personally went to pick him up again, Shen Nian couldn't refuse, not to mention he was so curious about himself and Gu Zhi's matter now, if he left now, he probably wouldn't have a good time, so Shen Nian ordered heads up:

"it is good."

Liang Qiu paid and got out of the car, and let the driver go. Shen Nian looked at the taxi that was getting farther and farther away from him, and always felt uneasy, until Liang Qiu patted him on the shoulder and said:

"Let's go, I promised to let you go back, can I keep you here?"

Shen Nian smiled, and walked up the mountain with Shen Nian, along the way, Shen Nian pulled Liang Qiu so many times, he kept staring at Shen Nian without even looking at the road.

In the end, Shen Nian was helpless: "We can talk about it when we get to the place, if you twist your ankle here, I can't carry you on my back."

"I just can't figure it out." Liang Qiu said, "How did you and that little pervert get together? Did something happen that I don't know about? But Shen Xiaonian, we have contacted so many times, and you actually kept it from me?" You kept it so tight, if I hadn't sent the text message yesterday, when would I know that you and him are reconciled?"

"Not long ago?" Shen Nian said: "You always go to my house during the holidays, so you'll know when the time comes."

Liang Qiu clicked his tongue: "Sure enough, you can't leave for too long. It's only been half a year, and you have a secret with me."

"It's not a secret." Shen Nian sighed, "I don't intend to keep it from you, I just don't want you to worry."

"You also know that I'm worried?" Liang Qiu snorted, fell silent, Shen Nian didn't know what to say, about himself, about Gu Zhi, he didn't seem to know where to start talking to Liang Qiu.

But it is always wrong to conceal it, Shen Nian took the initiative to apologize:

"I was wrong, brother."

Liang Qiu never expected that Shen Nian would call brother again at this time, and almost stepped on the air and rolled down the steps. When he hugged the tree and stood firm, Shen Nian who looked at the stop laughing clicked his tongue again:

"Shen Xiaonian, you will be beaten by me sooner or later! I'm serious!"

Shen Nian just laughed and didn't respond to him.

It didn't take long to walk from the foot of the mountain to the halfway up the mountain, and arrived at the villa that Liang Qiu mentioned. As soon as he entered the door, he saw Su Xiaoxiao standing in the yard talking with a few friends. When he saw Shen Nian appearing, he immediately walked over and hugged Shen Nian :

"I haven't seen you in half a year. Xiao Nian is taller than me and even more handsome than before."

Shen Nian smiled: "Aunt Su is also younger than before."

"Listen, listen." Su Xiaoxiao tugged at Liang Qiu's ear: "Why don't you learn from Xiao Nian with your mouth skills, and you know how to make me angry every day."

"It hurts, it hurts." Liang Qiu rescued the ear from Su Xiaoxiao's hands, and rubbed it hard to relieve the discomfort: "Such a rare Xiao Nian, why don't you raise him, let him be my younger brother, and live together, so that we can Say nice words every day to make you happy."

"You think I don't want to!" Su Xiaoxiao stared at Liang Qiu: "If Xiao Nian nodded, I would have given up your son a long time ago, it's not enough for me."

Shen Nian stood aside and watched them bickering with a smile. They had disappeared for such a long time, but nothing seemed to have changed. The familiarity made people feel warm.

Su Xiaoxiao originally wanted to take Shen Nian to eat something first, but was stopped by Liang Qiu: "Don't eat, don't eat, Xiao Nian will take my second uncle's car back to the city later, let's go to the hot spring first Now, go talk and don't bother us."

Hearing that Shen Nian was going to leave, Su Xiaoxiao didn't even care about Liang Qiu's 'don't bother us', and looked at Shen Nian in surprise:

"Why did you have to leave when you first came? It's hard to meet and play here for two more days, to accompany Aunt Su."

Before Shen Nian had time to explain, Liang Qiu opened his mouth: "Of course there are other things to do when you go back, so don't worry about it, anyway, you tell Second Uncle not to let him drink, and tell us when we go back .”

Now that we've talked about it, Su Xiaoxiao can't persuade him any more: "Okay, anyway, I'll stay here for a long time, and I still have a chance in the future, so go go clubbing, I'll go find your second uncle .”

Shen Nian said goodbye to Su Xiaoxiao and followed Liang Qiu to the hot spring. It snowed just the day before yesterday, except for the path leading to the hot spring, everywhere was white, a bit dazzling, but the whiteness was very beautiful. Being in such a In the environment, it seems that all troubles and thoughts can be washed away.

The temperature is very low, but steam is steaming in the hot spring, and it doesn't feel cold at all. Shen Nian smiled comfortably, but Liang Qiu didn't care about enjoying it, and sat next to Shen Nian after getting out of the hot spring:

"what happened?"

Shen Nian turned to look at Liang Qiu, Liang Qiu thought he was going to say something, but after waiting for a while, he still looked at himself, and couldn't help but raised his hand to pat the top of his head: "I'm really more and more curious, what's going on? It's so unbelievable."

"I just don't know where to say it." Shen Nian felt helpless.

"From the beginning." Liang Qiu pointed at Shen Nian: "If you dare to hide a little bit, I will beat you right now!"

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu, ignored his threat after a few seconds, and sat down a little more, resting his neck on the edge of the pool, looking at the cloudless sky, Liang Qiu looked at him with such a comfortable appearance. When the voice was about to urge again, Shen Nian finally spoke.

After Liang Qiu left, his state became not right, and then he met Gu Zhi, and the two of them made an agreement to accompany each other, and he told Liang Qiu about it. There are always some places that cannot be explained, so I just said everything, anyway, the matter is over.

After Shen Nian finished speaking, Liang Qiu was silent instead. Shen Nian turned to look at him, only to find that Liang Qiu was looking at him with red eyes.

This was something Shen Nian did not expect, he straightened up and looked at Liang Qiu: "You..."

"Shen Nian." Liang Qiu called him, Shen Nian was slightly stunned and looked at him.

Liang Qiu seldom called him by his name like that, normally he called him Xiao Nian, and when he was angry, he called him Shen Xiao Nian, but Shen Nian almost never heard of him.

"Why don't you ever tell me?" Liang Qiu looked at him, "You are lonely and need someone to accompany you. It's so hard to be alone, why didn't you tell me?"

Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds, then smiled slightly: "Liang Qiu, calm down, everything is over, I'm fine now."

Liang Qiu didn't speak, but still looked at him, Shen Nian sighed helplessly, and said softly:

"Tell you what to do? Let you come back from Shanghai? Tell you to separate from Aunt Su and Uncle Liang, and let Aunt Su run at both ends every week? Liang Qiu, I can't do such a thing, think differently, if If you encounter something that cannot be solved in Shanghai, will you tell me who is thousands of miles away?"

"You won't either." Shen Nian said, "We are all the same."

Liang Qiu agreed with what Shen Nian said, if the things that Shen Nian experienced happened to him, he would also swallow it by himself, but as long as he thought of Shen Nian alone at school with no friends, and at home without family, even There was no one to talk to, and even talking to himself against the wall made him feel very uncomfortable.

He has always known that Shen Nian is not an optimistic character, but Shen Nian has been so desireless for so many years that even Liang Qiu sometimes feels that even if no one is by his side, he can still live a good life, never thought about it, Loneliness and loneliness will drive Shen Nian crazy, and he has called Shen Nian so many times, but he didn't find any clues.

"Little pervert... Is it okay with you?" Just now I heard Shen Nian talk about Gu Zhi's kindness to him, but Liang Qiu didn't quite believe it. Before he actually met him, his impression of Gu Zhi was always the one who bullied Shen Nian's little abnormality can't be changed, so even if Shen Nian said it, he still hesitated.

"It's good." Shen Nian smiled: "It's really good."

"Do you think I believe it?" Liang Qiu looked at him with the look of you don't lie to me: "It's not like I haven't seen that little pervert before. He had such a strong possessive desire for Uncle Shen before. You are simply unscrupulous, such a person, how can I believe that he is very good to you. "

Because of Liang Qiu's words, Shen Nian remembered the things that Gu Zhi had done to him before, maybe it's been a long time, or maybe it's because he got along really well with Gu Zhi recently, so some feelings have gradually become blurred , Can't remember, he realized that he didn't care as much about those injuries as before.

"Gu Zhi left home after falling out with my dad. Since then, he has no desire to possess my dad. He only has it for people who treat him well."

Liang Qiu was startled: "He is possessive of you now?"

"Liang Qiu." Shen Nian smiled: "Don't make a fuss, many things in this world are not as simple as good and bad, I know Gu Zhi's behavior, his possessiveness seems to many people to be almost Scary, but to me it's the exact opposite."

"Xiao Nian..."

"I'm sick too." Shen Nian said, "It's the same disease as Gu Zhi, but in two different forms. What I want, almost no one in this world can give it to me. My mother can't give it to me. My dad can't give it, and neither can you, only Gu Zhi can, I just want someone to only look at me, only for me, only me."

Liang Qiu wanted to say something when he heard the words, but he opened his mouth but there was no sound. It took a long time before he knew what he was going to say.

"You will get better." Liang Qiu said, "The college entrance examination will be in two years. Can you pass the exam in Shanghai? We are still the same as before. You have to get better, and I can make you better too."

Liang Qiu didn't want Shen Nian to be sick all the time, and he didn't want Shen Nian to have someone like Gu Zhi by his side, it was too dangerous and too worrying.

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu and smiled: "I want to go to Shanghai, to Fudan."

"Really?"

Shen Nian nodded: "I'm not lying to you."

Only then did Liang Qiu feel relieved: "Okay, then I have to work hard, I must be classmates with you again, and it's best to be in the same dormitory."

After Shen Nian thought of what Liang Qiu said, she smiled slightly, but she was faintly worried, what would Gu Zhi do if he went to university?He must not be able to accept it, but is he going to give up his studies?This is almost a dilemma, after all Shen Nian wanted to tame Gu Zhi, but never thought of using Gu Zhi as a springboard, never thought of kicking Gu Zhi away when he could leave.

He knew the pain, so he never thought of inflicting it on anyone.

Shen Nian has always known the principle of not doing to others what you do not want to be done to yourself.

Fortunately, he still has plenty of time, maybe during this time, he will make Gu Zhi get better gradually, and he will no longer have such a strong possessive desire for himself, maybe they will all get better.

Perhaps this topic was too heavy, so even though they were soaking comfortably in the hot spring, the atmosphere seemed not very relaxed. Liang Qiu didn't know what he was thinking, and kept silent. Shen Nian knew the things that were said today. He said it was difficult to accept, so he didn't advise anything.

I'm not a kid anymore, I'll always figure it out.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the sky gradually darkened, but Liang Qiu's second uncle still didn't come to call them. Shen Nian was a little worried, and bumped Liang Qiu with his arm:

"Your second uncle probably left, didn't you call me?"

Liang Qiu didn't want Shen Nian to leave, they finally met, but he would not go back on what he promised, after hearing this, he glanced at the time and felt it was a bit late, picked up the bathrobe and got up:

"I gonna go see."

"I'll go change clothes too." Shen Nian followed suit.

Liang Qiu went to the front yard, Shen Nian went to the locker room to take a shower and changed, ready to leave at any time, but when he came out of the shower room, Liang Qiu looked at him with regret:

"Xiao Nian, Second Uncle received a call saying that there is no need to rush back to the city today, and the matter can be dealt with tomorrow morning, so he and my dad drank too much."

Shen Nian was stunned for a moment before realizing: "I can't go back, can I?"

Liang Qiu didn't speak, but such silence was the answer.

Shen Nian panicked.He stood still and didn't speak, and didn't know what to say.

"Are you all right?" Liang Qiu looked at him: "How about I call my dad's driver and ask him to drive over and take you back?"

Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds and shook his head: "It's too troublesome."

"It should be fine for one night. When I was with Uncle Shen before, didn't Uncle Shen often go in a car and not come back?" Liang Qiu analyzed: "I will go back tomorrow morning, why don't you give him a call?"

There is no phone at home, and the phone was broken when Gu Zhi went crazy. Later, when Shen Nian got a mobile phone, Shen Chongshan didn't buy another phone at home, and just reported it to stop, but the Shen family didn't have one, and the neighbors still had:

"I'll give him a call."

Liang Qiu knew Gu Zhi's madness, but didn't know his possessiveness, so he felt that the matter would be settled here, so he nodded:

"Okay, then you make a call and come out to eat after the call. They are barbecued outside."

"Okay." Shen Nian smiled.

Liang Qiu went out, Shen Nian dialed the number of the neighbor's house, and when he was connected, he asked the neighbor to call Gu Zhi at home, the neighbor answered, hung up the phone, Shen Nian waited for a few minutes before calling back, But it was the neighbor who answered the phone, saying that there was no one at home, so Gu Zhi went out.

It's already 5 o'clock, where can Gu Zhi go at this hour?Shen Nian was a little worried, so he asked the neighbor to tell Gu Zhi when he came back that he couldn't go back today, the neighbor said hello, Shen Nian thanked him and hung up the phone.

This matter seemed to be resolved, but Shen Nian's hanging heart did not let go. On the one hand, he was worried about stubbornness, and on the other hand, he was not used to breaking his promise.

Don't promise what you can't do, this is what Shen Nian told himself after being disappointed countless times.

Shen Nian felt uneasy, but he still went to the courtyard. He couldn't let Liang Qiu and Su Xiaoxiao worry about him, but the phone didn't leave his hand. He felt that if Gu Zhi knew that he couldn't go back today, he would give it to him no matter what method he used. I called by myself, but until they finished eating the barbecue, it was completely dark, and it was already 8 o'clock, Shen Nian's phone was still very quiet.

Liang Qiu saw that Shen Nian was absent-minded, and patted him on the shoulder: "Are you okay?"

Shen Nian smiled: "It's okay."

This night, Shen Nian's cell phone didn't ring again, and he called his neighbor again, but the line was busy all the time, and he didn't get through again.

Shen Nian and Liang Qiu hadn't seen each other for a long time. Liang Qiu's plan was to have a long talk all night, but Shen Nian was not in the mood. Liang Qiu also seemed unhappy because he knew something he didn't know before. He was blaming himself, blaming himself for being When Shen Nian was suffering the most and needed him the most, he didn't find anything.So the two of them lay on the bed, chatted for less than 10 minutes and then each went quiet.

Liang Qiu knew what Shen Nian was thinking, and told him before going to bed:

"I made an agreement with my second uncle. I will go back to the city early tomorrow morning. There will be no problems this time. I told my second aunt that my second uncle dare not be disobedient. You should sleep well."

"Understood." Shen Nian replied with a smile: "Don't think too much, the matter has already passed."

Liang Qiu didn't speak, just snorted lightly to express his dissatisfaction with Shen Nian.

It's certain that she didn't sleep well, but in the morning Shen Nian got up as soon as the door was knocked, Su Xiaoxiao stood outside the door and saw Shen Nian came to open the door, she smiled:

"Wait in a hurry? Your second uncle will leave in about half an hour. You are ready to prepare."

"Okay, thank you, Aunt Su."

"Thank you." Su Xiaoxiao said with a smile: "Yesterday, I told them to drink too late. I hope I didn't delay your business."

"No." Shen Nian said, "I had a great time, please trouble Aunt Su."

After Su Xiaoxiao left, Liang Qiu also got up, seeing Shen Nian getting dressed, he also got out of bed and said, "I'll go back with you."

"No need." Shen Nian almost blurted out: "I'll go back by myself."

He couldn't let Liang Qiu go back, even Shen Nian didn't know what kind of stubbornness he would face when he went back, but he knew that if Liang Qiu went back with him, the situation would definitely get worse.

It was the first time for Liang Qiu to see such a firm expression on Shen Nian's face, and he became even more worried: "Are you worried about what that little pervert will do to you, afraid that I will be worried?"

"No." Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu: "He won't do anything to me, at most he won't be in a good mood, I have a way, I won't let you go, I just don't want things to get worse, I'll call you On the phone."

Shen Nian said seriously, and he didn't seem to be joking, Liang Qiu knew that no matter what he said, it was impossible to go with him, so he sighed slightly and sent Shen Nian to the car, and told him to do something Call yourself, if you can't wait for the call, you will go to him, Shen Nian waved to him through the window to reassure him.

The second uncle probably also knew that Shen Nian was in a hurry, the car drove very fast, it was only after 8 o'clock when Shen Nian got home, the small courtyard was very quiet, there was no sound, Shen Nian went to the north room first, but there was no one in the north room, Even the beds are neatly made.

Gu Zhi didn't sleep last night.Shen Nian confirmed this matter almost instantly.

Where did Gu Zhi go?

Shen Nian came out of the north house and stood under the porch. He scanned the small courtyard, and his eyes stopped at the edge of the flower pond in the east. There were two more snowmen there than yesterday. The knees were high, and one was round and beautiful, like Trying to control it, the other one should have been beautiful at first, but in the end it seemed to be crushed by a foot, leaving only one incomplete.

He didn't know what kind of mood Gu Zhi was in, and when he squatted there to make a snowman, what was he thinking when he was doing this?

Shen Nian subconsciously doesn't think about these things, he just wants to know where Gu Zhi is.

He wanted to go out to look for it, but he stopped when he passed by the window of the west room. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw a person sitting in the dining room. He turned his head and saw Gu Zhi sitting there, with his back turned to him. People can't see his expression.

Shen Nian looked away, opened the curtain and walked in.

There was rice, fried mushrooms and crispy pork on the dining table. Gu Zhi took the trouble to make soup after all, but it was already completely cold.

"Gu Zhi..." Shen Nian stood at the door of the restaurant and called him softly.

Perhaps it was because he had maintained the same posture for too long, Gu Zhi heard the sound and looked up, making him look like a rusty robot, but the moment he saw Shen Nian, he still smiled slowly, but the smile had It makes people feel cold at a glance, just like the weather outside.

Shen Nian has not seen such a Gu Zhi for a long time, but Gu Zhi maintained such a smile, looked at Shen Nian and said softly:

"Brother Nian Nian, I thought you couldn't find your way home."